The team before service starts
And us taking a picture with the winemaker himself after the service ended.
Then comes Xmas decor shopping that was been rushed through in two days during our break time. 12 hours or more of working hours can be incredibly draining mentally and physically, plus toothache ain't helping much either.
After all has been done, appraisal has to come knocking on my door on the very wrong time where I am very hungry and sleepy. Well, honestly speaking no matter what it is, I know I have done my best, I did my job and hell, I shall go through with it. Everything was alright for the first five minutes, then everything went wrong from there. Embarrassed to say this, but I started to cry like a Niagara falls. Not weeping cry, but tears just choose to come out on the wrong time.
Why did I cry? I have been doing my job well i hope, and taking up new challenges as I work.I did not cry because I am stressed, I did not cry because my workload is increasing, but perhaps I cried because I just need a breakdown. I just need to, well damn , it has to be during my appraisal. But at the same time, I am ashamed that I did not find the time to pick up on my wine knowledge which I should.
Everything that the manager said to me ( hope it is not just to comfort me of course, haha ) was way beyond what I expected it to be and I was truly touched, which leads to me crying more. Bloody hell, I should have hold it up. Everything that I do, I work so hard for, is to have someone to appreciate it. Which someone did, and its, truly overwhelming.
I will, find the time to study more, to learn more and to work harder in the future. Fingers crossed.
p/s I received my first bonus! Even if its pro rated, I am grateful enough. ^^
