To this very special man

I am not a perfect girlfriend I know..I am whinny..I have a temper at times 'ahem'..I can be a little childish and sensitive..and I am insecure..

This very person since college time, had thought me to have faith in myself especially in studies..Even though I practically swallow the notes before exams, I am still worried that I can not do it...It is he, who became  my study partner, my motivator especially when he can remember almost everything even i study more..hmph! and also my ohmmm calming partner.

As we both started our first job in Singapore, life has been pretty good because I have him by my side. Without him, I don't think we can make it through our first month without any income here. I don't feel so lonely because I know at the end of the day, he will still come back to me after work. I had been fed with good home cook food pretty well because we both cook for each other. When I need to have the urge to spill out everything, he will always lend me his ears even though I know it is pretty irritating.

I still have a lot that I need to improve in, and a lot that I need to learn.

I don't want to be like a whinny and naggy housewife. Ermm..Maybe once in a while just to loose some steam? haha..I will learn to leave all those emotional stress at work in the restaurant, and walk home with a smiley face because I am happy to see my darling after a day at work..

I will learn 'yes, try and learn again..haha' to control my sensitivity and insecure that I had yet to overcome. oppps. Girlsss..ya me.

One day, we will also have the lavish to go on a very good vacation together again ya. Now, just suck it up and work our butt off to save money. =)



Thank you darling for the surprise! It was a really sweet one, especially after work. =) And I, will also love you forever and always.

Kaka, sorry for the tears before that. =p

To this special man in my life..I lubo lubo you..XD

Its all in your mind

Now only I realize that I am so immature to let these little people to hit me so hard and left me burning in anger. I should have shrug it off and move on like a warrior, not whining like a old woman. I am so angry and pissed off at certain people because of how selfish and ignorant they are, and it made me into a protagonist.

It is not easy to control my emotions, especially anger and damn, it has been a while ya? What I need to learn, is to accept the fact that in any work, there will be good people, and bad people. Learn from the good ones, and take them as your role model. Learn from the bad ones, and never be like them.

My goal is to save money and gain experience. Never forget that, and always keep that in mind. Life, is never easy. You will meet all kinds of people, the ones that will hurt you, and the ones that will help you. It is all in how you control your mind, and how good you master your emotions.

Lastly, never give up until you gave it all. Keep pushing my limitations and see how far I can go. I will see how much I can endure, and when enough is enough, then it is time to let go. Sometimes life is not about earning money right? It is how you live it with no regrets. My happiness, is still my top priority.

Gotta try and remember everything that I have said, and hopefully I will slowly learn how to survive in this industry.

Five Balls

Five Balls
From the book "Suzanne's Diary to Nicholas" by James Patterson

Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling some five balls in the air. You name them - Work - Family - Health - Friends - Spirit, and you're keeping all of these in the air.

You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. But the other four balls -- family, health, friends and spirit are made of glass. If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged or even shattered.

They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for balance in your life. How?

1. Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special.

2. Don't set your goals by what other people deem important. Only you know what is best for you.

3. Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as you would your life, for without them, life is meaningless.

4. Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live ALL the days of your life.

5. Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.

6. Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect. It is this fragile thread that binds us together.

7. Don't be afraid to encounter risks It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.

8. Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find. The quickest way to receive love is to give; the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly; and the best way to keep love is to give it wings.

9. Don't run through life so fast that you forget not only where you've been, but also where you are going.

10. Don't forget that a person's greatest emotional need is to feel appreciated.

11. Don't be afraid to learn. Knowledge is weightless, a treasure you can always carry easily.

12. Don't use time or words carelessly. Neither can be retrieved.