Colourless

Do you know that when you are depressed, the things that you see, your surrounding will appear to be greyish, or in another words, no contrast and in black and white? ( If you don't believe me, you can read The New Straits Time today. =) )

When you are happy and cheerful, everything will be colorful and lively. In contrast, it will be dreadfully gloomy and slow when you are depressed.

Everyone has two faces deep within. The happy you, and the emo you. Happiness will bring you to greater deeds, but sadness will slowly eat you alive.

I am just being random..wanted to write about something but seems like I don't have any inspiration...thank god I am not a Journalism students. 2 journals in a week? Kill me thanks.

OHHH..Mega Sales is here...I am so damn tempted to shop...damn it...spot super a lot of nice and cheap clothes at Pyramid and The Curve...ARRRRRRRRR..I need new tops, new skirts, new dresses....I DAMN LONG DIN SHOP DY...( ' ^ ' ) sobs sobs 

I think it is time to think about my future..Going to graduate in one year time, minus our 4 months of internship meaning I have 8 more months in college...haiy haiy...Can someone just stop the clock so I won't get any older? OHHH...talking about that...I can not wait for next week...wheeee~~~~~ 

I bet you know why right b? muakxxx 

Boo! Time to get serious

I had received some pretty good comments from people who read my last post...thanks thanks..=) I did not know that it could be a post that people can connect with..haha..*happy-ing* Thanks to my sudden flow of inspiration..

College just started and I must say, my mind still holidaying somewhere and can not seem to find its way back to what the lecturers are saying...I must meditate and call my study soul back to the class now....ohmmmm~~

Waking up early shall be our new regime for our new term..darn..I want to sleep until 11am still..haha...Stepping in the college and being greeted by 'Mooooo.....' by the cows can be pretty 'arousing' in the morning..This morning, we were greeted by a cow walking and pee-ing at the same time...@@..what a way to start our day right? I bet there will be more...

Second day of college


Yes, indeed the second day of college and we already have like 7 assignments that we are assigned for, 2 assignments which we are aware of but lecturers have not tell us what is it, all in all ---- 9 assignments on the second day of college. @@ Now I finally felt like a degree student...Everything that we learn is based on research and research, lots of brain storming, and of course the least favorite subject of mine, french. Probably I really don't have the talent in this language...oh well.what to do....

Will be busy busy soon...keep my fingers cross until FRANCE TRIP next year..wheeeee~~ can not wait..:p

Trying to smile big big big..=)

On choosing the right path


Well. I was not really surprise about what that happened. In those that I know of, there are quite a few that face the same thing.Probably it is the time of the year again. The emo season.

If you have a time machine, would you fast forward your life and see who is your future husband or wife so you can identify that person now? Watch movie also know that once you know about the future, everything will change laaaa. haha.

I always tell myself, ( though i regretted like HELL *whack myself for my stupidity* ) it is the past that builts the person you are now. Because of all those people you meet through your journey, you learned to be more mature and acquire something that will benefit you in the future. Thank them ( oh wait...I do not think I have to..my case is special..:p ) for making you a better person, and thank them because you had learn to treat your future partner better in the future.


Good luck in the healing process, you know we are all here for you if you ever need one. Loves.


Star Craft 2 ---- Wings of Liberty

ARRRRRR!!!!!

I need more time I need more time!! haha..I want to play the game, but i need to go to college, research things online and I need to sleep!! =( It is NICE NICE NICE!! though it is lagging my whole lappie. Well. It is not a gaming laptop after all. I should be grateful it can even support SC2!!!! All hail Terran!! Still like terran. :p 

The thing that everyone hate to say

Before I am going to continue with what I am going to say..I must say...it got nothing to do with me and aaron..
*( ' ', )*

(   I was writing this before I knew what had happened..such a coincidence...=(  I hope it is not a sign  )

Anyways...after a good old talking session with the girls, it gave me a good kick start to write about this...

Break up

Alright..I know this is probably not the best thing to write in this world...but hey..I am sure some of you had experience the same thing in your life..Different people handle break up in a different way...Some people cry cry cry until can not cry anymore, some just go hunting for their next target, some will go depress for a long long time and some just linger on the same old spot with no intention to move on. But who am I to tell how to handle the after depression of breaking up when I am the worst at it?

There will be three type of people I shall say

1. Put NO hope at all, and move on with their life

Meaning they had met the biggest jerk/bitch in their life and know it is impossible to ever get back together with him/her, so they just slowly move on with their life. Or, they both agree that they can not be together and not suitable for each other. There is No turning back.

2. Floating in the sea and indecisive.

They broke up, but they are not sure whether it is the right decision to do or not. They somewhat still put some hope in their relationship and just waiting for the right time for each other. 'Breaking up' may be a good thing for both of them because it may strengthen their relationship in the future because they realize that after the break up, they need each other more than ever.

3. Love that has no returns

One of the person in the relationship still has hope for the relationship, but another had moved on with his/her life. The person who still believe that both of them can work it out love his/her loved one too much and do not know how to move on with his/her life. But in another hand, the opposite has no more feelings for him/her, and ready to start a new relationship.

The thing about break up is, yes, it is heartbreaking and you feel like dying during the first few months..Everything is wrong around you, what you do, you will think about it..where you go...what you eat..and even what time you sleep...everything just seems to be wrong...but after one month, three months, half a year...you will realize...you have to get going with your life...without him/her by your side..

When the storm is over, you will realize that in this relationship, you had learn something very important. Something that will benefit you in your future relationship, in life and because of the pain, you became more mature in thinking and will not repeat the same mistake.

About trust

To me, a person who hated trust so much in the past, it is damn freaking hard to accept it back. Used to trust people so much and it turned out to be a huge disaster. Hated it ever since, and had affected me so much that I had built a huge wall in my heart. How you know whether which person can be trusted and which can not? The only way you will know that, is through time. Not just 6 months or one year,it may take years or even forever to fully trust a person.

I had said this for many many times, once the trust is gone, everything is gone, and its the end. You spend so much time in building this trust in his/her heart, it just take a stupid or slightest wrong move to destroy it all. Once this trust is no longer there, it is VERY hard to built it back.Even if you did, it is not a solid wall, but a shaky one.

What you must not do after a break up


*I hate learn all this through the hard way, maybe I am scolding myself in the past. So please don't terasa if you find what I said offensive. 


1. Staring at your phone

What are you waiting for? For him/her to sms you telling you that he/she misses you? or for him/her to say that she regretted breaking up with you and wanting to get back with you. Or maybe just waiting to see whether he/she will sms you to ask how are you doing, finding for a sign of him/her still caring about you? Bear in mind that you guys had broken up, and he/she do not have to tell you what is he/she doing now. Give your phone a break, and give yourself a break. Just do something other than waiting for a sms or a call that will never come.

2. Itchy hands

Why want to sms or call someone who doesn't love you anymore? Why bother doing that when you can save your credit for your friends and family? Will you feel better if the person just briefly reply your sms or trying to ignore you? You will just cry all over again because you felt neglected, which you are because both of you had broken up.

3. Stalking

If can, you may want to delete him/her from your contact list in MSN and FB temporarily. If not, everytime he/she online and did not talk to you, you will be thinking, who is he/she chatting with now? Whose status he/she is commenting? Who is that girl/guy? Who what why when!! once again, why bother really? Why want to make yourself more miserable when it is already is with seeing him/her appearing in your homepage again and again??

4. Listening to emo songs

This is my favorite thing to do. I feel that when I am emo, I need to listen to emo songs because I feel like someone actually knew how I felt. But see, why are you keep playing the same old emo songs to remind you that you are hurt and you are lonely now? Right? Why not play some happy songs and try to be happy once again?

5. Mourning about it forever

One month, two month even half a year fine...but not years really. You Must learn to accept the ugly fact that he/she no longer belongs to you and accept that it is okay for him/her or you yourself to move on. Getting emo of it is not fun at all.

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I am sure everyone in this world will hate 'break up'. Of course I do not wish to go through all this AGAIN. It is expensive and tiring. You know why it is expensive? When you just broke up, you will tell yourself, it is okay to pamper yourself because you are hurt. I even joined a gym once when I first broke up because I wanted to do something different to get my mind out of things. And knowing the hangat hangat tahi ayam me, I regretted as hell but I had decided to pull out and risk all my deposit.

Your mind just would not work correctly after that. I had done much stupid and insane things like dancing on stage in a club during my mourning period. Thats why I do not like clubbing, I do not want to remind myself of my past. But seriously, I had been to a club less than 5 times. And I did not club since two years ago.

There is no formula to cure the broken hearted, the only thing that I can think of is time will heal everything. And, meeting a person that will treat you better with all his/her heart can help you through also.

B said men are born to be polygamy like any other mammals in this world, but it all depends on that individual to control and discipline himself. 

To those who tempted to cheat or already cheating out there, you better watch out! Or like what B said, please learn how to discipline yourself! 

Whichever creatures that even dare to make my dearest-sss cry, you better watch out.Warning given. 

Girls Hang Out 2010

Holidays are officially over and college is finally going to start tomorrow. Time passed damn fast ya...Three months had just gone like a wind...So what had I been doing? 

First two months was just purely working for both of us..sweating our pants our, losing weight and of course the price for all the hard work?

Our new hp, N97mini, our little vacation at Tioman Island and his monitor. Fuhhh..Money is not easy to earn ya. =)

and..not forgetting our little girls hang out!!! Planned this trip since ages ago..from PD to Penang...and in the end..ended up in Royal Bintang The Curve. 9 of us, yes. ALL girls only in this little KL shopping and jalan jalan trip. Rented a Suite of two rooms for the nine of us...

9 girls means a lot of shopping ( window shopping :p ), a lot of talking, a lot of camwhoring...i mean like A LOT..( my camera's batt almost died just in a day..@@ ) main dress up, taking picture before and after dressing up, stripping ( who is the one who pulled my dress!!! haha ), gossiping, and last but not least...still taking picture..haha..

Some of the pictures I really like..

These girls I had known them for ages...some since kindergarden even..like Eunice and Joyce...we used to go to the same kindergarden, same primary and secondary school...Like Wai Mae, Tzyy Jia I had known them since primary school...

Much had change since then...used to be nerdy little small girls going to school together, going to tuition together, going to marching together, singing together..and now...I would not say we are all grown up and mature because our new journey had just begun...from me, kar woon and dolores who liked to dress up and know more about make up in secondary school...to eunice, wai mae and others who started to get expose about make up...this is a journey we will all go through..and seeing everyone getting prettier and more mature, just makes me think that we had changed a lot and time pass damn fast...

From talking about school activities, talking about tuition, talking about little boys...to now..talking about relationships, working and future, etc. I think in a few years time, we would be talking about starting a family, children and all...then in 40 years time, we would be talking about menopause!!! @@ oh damn...hahaha..

Everything will change in the future, but friendship will never change...=) and I love you all..<3

Romantis

Am I a romantis? hmmm..no..not really...ermm wait..probably a little maybe..let me think..mana ada...okay larrrrr...I AM :p

Let me analyze a little ::

I love sunset, I love sea, I love beach, I love white sand, I love 'love', I love pink things, I love cute stuffs, I love babies, I love being loved, I love him, I love to sunggle, I love any love soapy drama, I love to read romantic stories that makes me cry, I love to see nice couple pictures, I love to see people happily in love, I love to see how other couples when they are together, I love holding hands, I love huggies, I love to see couples lovey dovey I love to see my friends lovey dovey I love to see my friends happily in love etc

Conclusion, I am a romantis.

urghhhh...

Well. I don't know whether it is a good thing or not for being one...Probably I need love to flourish..I need to see love, i need to feel love, I need to touch love and LOVE ~~~~ 

arrrrrrr...run away before other people kill me for saying too many love-s !! :p

Me ::  B...am I one?

Him :: huh???? 

bluek..I am just being random for the moment... =)

下一站幸福

有些人的人生，是直達車
有些人卻是慢車，中間總要經過許多站，經歷許多人…

有人總是下錯站，坐過頭，不是錯失了窗外風景，就是錯過了身旁的人
沒有人知道，能陪自己坐到終點站的人，究竟會是誰….
相愛的人，真的就能一路到達人生的終點站嗎？

下一站幸福

Some people's life is like a fast car

Some like a slow car, stopping in many stations, meeting many people

Some people always stop at the wrong station, missed the station

Either they missed the scenery outside the window, or walked by the people next to them

No one will know who is the one who will be by your side at the last station

Can loving couples walked together until the last station?

Nor sadness

Or happiness

I hope that I can be the one holding your hands until the very last station. 

My Tioman Paradise

My Tioman Paradise

After months of planning and months of anticipation, we finally went to our little honeymoon on Tioman Island..We had been sweating out like a pig for two months just for our little vacation on island of paradise, and it is worth every single sweat that we shed...

We flew to Tioman Island by Berjaya Air and we stayed at Paya Beach Resort. Flying is a very new thing for B and he was really excited until he can not sleep. haha. But it wasn't really a good firs flight for him.It is Berjaya Air, so what do you aspect? 5 star flight experience? The plane is old, it was noisy and b even caught up with a headache. But once we stepped on Tioman Island, everything was just, beautiful.

Berjaya Air

We were even treated like a VIP..Paya Beach Resort sent a little boat just to fetch us from the air port. attention! No life jacket was given and the boat was without roof. So imagining cruising on a little speedboat with the wind keep blowing towards your face and you are surround by beautiful sea and crystal clear sea. Heaven indeed. 

Our room was simple and yet comfortable. The most important thing that we need in a room is a queen size bed, a comfy comfortable, pillows and air con. With all these, we can just sleep like a baby. Meals were all provided except for our lunch when we first arrive. Others were all served in buffet style. The food was okay, wide selections of meat, seafood and vegetables, not great though. We still prefer the ones we had in Perhentian Island. That, was splendid. =)

Do you know Tioman Island is a Duty Free Island, which means, alcohol, choc and cigarette is darn cheap. Corona, Hoegarden, Hooch, Jack Daniels, Bowmoore, you name it. It is almost as cheap as Langkawi. So guess what we had the most? V-Soy!!!! haha..both of us were pretty addicted to it. :p 

On Paya Beach, you will never get hungry. There are quite some food stalls around, and the beach bar which opened up to 1am selling satay and grilled fish. So guess what we had on our first night stay? Beef Satay, and it is actually quite nice.

This is on sale! Our dream ship. whee~~~

The first day we were there, it was on our own. We went exploring around the island, soaking ourselves into the sea water, enjoying the wave hitting us, enjoying the bright bright sun, and the sea breeze. The sand near our resort was not really fine because the beach were surround by rocks. But we did manage to find a little spot on the island near by with super fine sand. 

We manage to catch a glimpse of sunset even though it was block by the clouds. Nevertheless, it was still pretty and nice. 

Okay. I did something really dumb which scare the hell out of us. When we were going out for breakfast the next morning, we realize my camera was not in the room. Scanned the room up and down, left and right, nothing. We went back to the place we went the night before, nothing. okay. I think I might lost my camera. Totally lost my appetite of eating because we took a lot of pictures in that camera!!! We both want our pictures back. I don't mind losing the camera, but not the pictures. 

The only place we have not asked was the beach bar we went for Satay and it would not be open until in the afternoon. We have no choice but to go for our snorkeling trip first before asking the staff there. Okay. I totally sulk during the snorkeling trip because I was jealous other people can take picture and I do not have my camera. @@ 

The corals were not as nice as those we saw in Perhentian Island. Global warming people. All the corals had bleached and turned white and grey. Damn the weather. The Marine park was so so only. So next time if you want to go to Tioman Island, i would strongly suggest you to not go to the Marine Park because it is so not worth your time. Instead of going to the usual place the resort bring you, try going to other places. 

For example, the ones located on the left side of the picture. Normally resorts would not bring you there, you must pay a bit more extra to snorkel around there which we did not went for it, and regretted. 

Back to my camera, the moment i went back to the resort, we imediately went and find for my camera. And the lady said she passed my camera to the office because she did not know which room we were in!!!! I totally shouted when I heard that! haha. I was so freaking happy you know. I thought I really lost it and I must save money to get a new camera, I was imagining life without my camera before that. haha. Jumping and smiling widely like a small kid, I got my beloved camera back. And not forgetting, all my pictures! wheee~~~

So let's see some picture that we took which I am pretty much proud of

Can you believe this. A love on the stone we stumbled upon. <3

Every time we go somewhere, like Perhentian, we will discover something new and nice on the very last minute, which it a few hours before we are leaving..and same goes to this time. We realize that the beach next to the jetty are surround by beautiful corals and lots of fishes

The water is super super clear. Nice right?

Fishes!!

This holiday would not be complete without the perfect partner who accompanies me in everything. My darling Baby Aaron.

I love this picture really. Did you notice, I started to smile like this more? :p

 Oh my cheek!! chubby-ness

I love this picture as well. What it that sign meant? Only we two will know. haha.. I lub you..<3

Holiday well spent..and now..it is time for degree to start..fighting! =)

I am coming!

I took this using my phone..not too bad huh nokia hp's camera?

I AM GOING TO BE IN TIOMAN IN LESS THAN TEN HOURS! oh wheeeee!!!! Happiness..I had been waiting for this vacation for don't know how long...=) after two months of hard work...this is the holiday we had been looking forward to...and oh..we are flying!!!

Beach, sea, corals, fish...I AM COMING TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! happy holiday to everyone! I am very hyper now...keke...

loves loves

Randall's Farewell

Okay, i know it had been a while and he had left for almost a week, but I only have time to blog about it now. So....We shall talk about Randall's farewell now

Mr Randall Chen, what shall I say about him? One of the most happening guy in our badge other than Carlos..haha..crazy bugger who does a lot of crazy things..and I guess because of all these crazy stuffs, it made our college life filled with laughter...Since Mr Policemen determines to pursue his police dream next year, so he had choose to complete his degree in Switzerland...

His Farewell

We went over to Ribs by Vintry for his farewell dinner

I posted this event in FB one week before this..and the people who agreed to come was basically me aaron carlos and randall for the first few days...was kind of worried that no one will turn out...but SEE!!!

People who came! wheee~~

oh well...ala minute as usual..but hey.. at least they came and support! happy! 

Three of us

Oh well..honestly..For some reason I must thank Randall for being a kepochi person and also a close friend of B..if not because of that...i would not have a chance to know more about B and have the chance to be with him...i am grateful really..but I never told him so...shhhh..I don't think he reads my blog anyway..haha...he is too macho to do so...:p 

Us and Kee Shern

Until now this very day, i still call Kee Shen 'Kee Shern'...I am already used to it and he certainly don't mind....sooo...Kee Shern it is...and oh..thats for me to call only..haha..The reason why I know his name is because during diploma times, Ryan told me he will be the top student..and I am pretty much looking forward to see this guy...He has always been a guy with leadership and thoughts that will never cross your mind..sometimes I am jealous..haha..oh well..not trying to be kiasu to win him or something...but i always think..'why i never thought of that..brilliant! ' haha..anyways..enough of praising...but i must say..Kee Shern is indeed a good friend to us....and hey...may things go your way this time...=)

My Sunny Chew who tries and steal the spot light...

Calvin Jon and ghostly Carlos

Anyways...its FOOD time...

Chili Mussels ordered by Mischa

Did not get to try so can not describe here..sorry...but I must say..the portion is pretty huge

Meat and Cheese Platter

I must say..this is pretty awesome..it never cross my mind for me to order cheese platter in the past..but knowing there is Manchego inside totally gets me into ordering this...and to my surprise..it comes with quite a few slices of ham..there are two types of ham in this dish..but sorry to say..I have no idea what is it...then comes two types of cheese..San Simon and Manchego..I first know about these two cheese from B actually...It is a pretty common Spanish cheese used in the restaurant we work part time at..( shh..can not say the name..if not my blog will appear in google search engine again :p ) the cheese is just splendid..Both are hard cheese and it goes very well with olives and crackers... 

San Simon cheese is made from cow's milk and it has a very creamy and buttery texture. As for Manchego, it is made from sheep's milk with small and unevenly distributed air pocket. It also has a slightly buttery texture but slightly more compact than San Simon cheese. Both of these will go very well with some sweet jam and dried fruits.

Saute Mushrooms

I somehow think that any sauté fresh mushroom with olive oil or butter will taste good no matter how you cook it.This one they sauté with some herbs and chili with olive oil.  A pleasant dish indeed. 

Char grilled pork ribs with black pepper sauce

It comes with a huge portion of uncut long ribs with loads of creamy peppery sauce and some coleslaw at the side. The ribs are pretty hard to eat because it is not cut into individual pieces. The pork is not as well marinated as the ones you can find in Elcerdo. The flavors mostly came from grilling the ribs and also by the sauce. But I must say..the sauce is pretty awesome. It is creamy, peppery and goes quite well with pork ribs. I know I am pretty bias when it comes to good pork dishes because I had tried the best ribs in Elcerdo. Now i miss the Iberico Ribs there. Seriously people, got chance please go try their Oven Roasted Iberico Spare Ribs! ITS SPLENDID! hey..I suppose to talk about Vintry. My bet. :p

Teriyaki Pork Ribs ordered by Carlos

Seriously, I think the ribs are out shine by the huge amount of caramelized onions..haha..Never tried the ribs so can not really comment about it..

Both of the dishes

Us us

Group photo before leaving the restaurant..=) i love this picture..

Next one who is leaving to USA..

Ngap King Carlos

Oh well..with both of the most happening people leaving to overseas to continue their studies, degree will never be as heboh as it is in higher diploma. Will I miss them? like duh. haha. I miss the crazy times, trips, their Ngap at the most uncommon time even during lectures, and just their laughter in class. oh well. It is their chosen path and I hereby wish them all the best in their studies and life. 

oh well..in less than a year time Randall is coming back what! :p 100k for half a year degree! @@ and RM60   for a Mcd meal ! @@ somehow, I am grateful I am still in Malaysia. :p