Sometimes, I wonder myself. Can I do better than what I am doing right now? Can I achieve more than what I can achieve now?
I know I can do better than this. I know I am capable of something more, something greater. But I don't know how and where to go to.
It hits me when someone ask me what I do. Not to say I am ashame of it, but at that moment, I suddenly felt like hey! I could have been better, I should be better. Yeaw Zhi Lin should be able to do more!
But the question is, how?
Gaining experience is important, I know. But it is also very tiring. Perhaps not as tiring as my friend, but physically, mentally, I am tired. It has been a year of split shift, and it is almost like working the whole day every single day, except for off day and holiday of course. It is the life style I dislike, it is the stereotype I dislike.
It is not that I am very proud of myself and think that I am super great super genius, just that, I know myself, I can do better than this.
So i suppose, it is time to rethink what I want and what I want to achieve and how I am going to do it. Back to work for now. I mean paper work, then later, start dinner service, on Saturday. *sigh*
