Let the war, begin

Hello hello, it has been awhile right? Well, life has been nothing out of the world interesting other than just work work work and more work.

My hotel, not really MY hotel, but you get what i mean, is opening tomorrow. And, I am off today. =p It wasn't really my intention, but more like no choice because after tomorrow, all hell will break loose. After months and months of preparations, all the hard work and A LOT of sweat, moving things here and there, none stop changing settings, arrangement and all, it all comes down to tomorrow. God bless all of us.

There is a point where I am really stressed out, because I feel like I have given my best and it is not enough still. It is really annoying. If i can pick all the hardworking and great staffs to fight along with me, I guess I will not be so tiring. But I suppose you need to learn how to pick the good out of the bunch no? I have done what I could and really stretch myself to the extend that I had clock in more than 12 hours shift for a few days straight. Physically drained, and mentally exhausted.

But nevertheless, I suppose my hard work kind of paid off because I have been receiving some compliments recently. Not a lot, but enough to make me motivated to go on and fight again. This is the age where I have to fight for my career and see how far I can go in this industry. I will see how long I can endure and how much I can take before moving on into the next stage of my life.

So let's carry on working, and see what and where is my limitation! JIA YOU!!!

Pfftttt

True Color

Sometimes, people true color will only show after something happened. Selfishness and ignorance. Before you say anything at all, please look into the mirror first.

You want to f**king curse anything and everything including your loved one, that shows how immature you are. But hey, we never step on your tail ya, so please do show some respect okay? I diam diam doesn't mean I can just ignore everything.

Never you once think that in this situation, we are the victim? We never do anything and just minding our own business and there you go, here comes all the problem.

If you think I am disrespectful, then please, think again.

Anyways, we are moving again in early June. Luckily so. Pffftttttt.

想写了

今年25岁了
说老又不老， 说年轻又不是很年轻

常常会有些实习生在我身边围绕着
还真的很羡慕她们
羡慕她们的自由， 羡慕她们的青春

回家又再看回自己学生时的照片
其实我也过得蛮精彩的
说不起是敢爱敢狠拿得起放得下爱出去玩的回忆
但也还不赖啦

有后悔的吗？
有， 当然有
我后悔没有好好地珍惜那段时光
珍惜与朋友在一起的一切

如果时光可以倒退
我会每一天都乖乖地写一写日记
把每一天所经过地一切都记下来
把每一天的心情也用文笔留下来
当然，世上并没有时光机这回事

年轻人呀， 好好地享受读书时期吧！
痛快地玩， 认真地读书吧！

如果我当年并没有那么的理智
现在的我， 会变成如何？

理智， 对事业而言， 是好的
但也失去了某些乐趣
对个人的品格而言， 也是好的
但也显得太认真， 太拘束

要么理智， 要么放肆
是时候学习追求平衡点了

我现在并没有太大的烦恼不用担心。 只是太久没练习写华语了， 有感而发之时， 就应该大喇喇地写一写。今晚的灵感， 也用得七七八八了， 是时候关门睡觉啦!

晚安！

Now

HELLO! It has been awhile isn't it? Time for some little update on my life now. Well, I am working in a new environment now, which is pretty interesting and relaxing so far. Currently I am moving forward to a hotel entity! Like finally right? The hotel is not ready yet, so we are all now in training mode aka office hour mode! Yay! Have I told you before I have NEVER once work around office hour timing before? The reality of working in a hospitality environment, you will not have that luxury of sitting down in the office doing paperwork, unless you are in higher management. Waking up early is a pain but I am loving the weekend off luxury. Not liking the super high traffic in every corner of Singapore during the weekend, but, I can get use to it, while it last of course. I think I am left with two more weeks of weekend off before we move into the hotel. Oh no!

The challenges that I have so far, is definitely on improving my social skills and leadership. I am so used to working in a team as small as a 4 man show and suddenly I am surround by 40 colleagues. It is pretty intimidating you see. Its like I am having some sort of a culture shock. But, I am sure that things will improve as time goes by. Fingers crossed.

A little something that I would like to share here. I always said that we will meet different people in our life, so on and fourth. And there will be people who leaves a significant footprint in your life, not always in a good way sometimes. Today, I was reminded of someone who had left a mark in my training days and because of this incident, I was exposed to the cruel world of a working society. I still remember sitting in front of my manager with tears rolling down my cheeks because of politics at work. I still remember how painful it is to see people with two faces and you still have to pretend like nothing had happened. Oh well. Those were the trainee days. I am over that phase! This person had shown me what I may face in the future, and somewhat prepares me mentally. But, as pety as I may seem, it is still unforgivable. hahaha. Some scars just don't heal you see.

You may or may not agree with that person's working style, because it may contradicts with what you believe in, but it is okay, because everyone is different. Just stay true to yourself, and believe in what you know best. Do not be influence by others because he/she does not stand on the same line as you. Right? At least I think it is right la! haha.

And oh! I need to find a new place to move to AGAIN! We are like a nomad man. Damn. It is super frustrating to look for the right place to stay as there are so many other factors to be considered. Talking about frustrations! Sometimes, people can just get on your nerves with their tak-apa attitude. You tak apa tak tahu for so many years already then suddenly send a huge letter with a deadline to my house. Why is it so that my friend who had graduated together with me received the confirmation with the same documents I had submitted where else mine was delayed for so many years? It is as though they purposely make it harder for me so I would give up on the application! WHY! Ah well. There is nothing that I can do but to try and oblige to what they want.

Okay, maybe I should end this post on a better tone other than frustrations all the way. I am going to Jeju Island end of this year! YAY! I can not wait to go back to my kimchi land with super nice food and skincare products. But before that, work really really hard so that I can get a house by end of this year, or early 2015. Just saying. ^^

1st

01-04-2014

First day at work, and a fresh start. For me, first day is about observation and more observation. Call me conservative or introvert, but I do not like to spill it all on my first day at work. I like to listen to others quietly and observe their body language. This is my third official job and through my very short experience, there are people who will bring you up, and people who will drag you down. It is up to me, to know who are my allies, and which are my enemies. Very deep indeed. This is working life no?

Suddenly I realize that hey! I am no longer waiting for orders, I am suppose to give out order now. At least learn how to give order you see. I am not a fresh graduate anymore, I am here to strive high. Time to built up my leadership and navigate away! Of course, I must learn how to swim before I dive right? One step at a time Zhi Lin, one step at a time.

It has been awhile since I had worked with so many people, and it would be a challenge for me to work in a bigger team. I am so used to like doing everything myself ( taking orders, making drink orders, serving wine, serving food, making coffee, clearing and setting table, billing etc etc ), and somehow, it is not that easy to let it go. haha. Call me a control freak yo! 

Exciting road ahead, and hope I will have much fun along the way. Fingers crossed. Focus Zhi Lin, you can do it. 

小插曲

今天。还真是个衰衰衰的一天。为了一个护照，七早八早就起身搭巴士过海去。 我还是个在新加坡工作了三年却从来也没有踏进柔拂洲的小初丁。巴士是找到了，过海关也安然无恙。虽然是战战兢兢地去慢慢摸索， 但还是到达了目的地。

可是，令我晴天霹雳心情顿时掉到谷底的竟然是星期五更新护照的部门没有开！我的妈咪呀! 我飘洋过海来到这里，你竟然关门。网上明明就写有开嘛。大马嘛，这些事情也是见怪不怪了。只好怪我自己没有好好地留意大马的消息吧。

虽然更新护照是挫折多多，但也让我有个学习忍耐的功夫。忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空。当然，我现在有的是时间，不然我还能这么忍？

时间飞逝呀。这么快一个星期就过了。除了休息，还是休息。是有些小闷了，但也还不错。接下来，我有的好忙噜！曼谷，日本！我来也！

我的天使

当年的我，也曾是个常常闹情绪的女孩， 吃醋比吃饭还多的小女人。明知道是不健康的，明知道是没有未来的，但还是一次又一次地掉回去。当觉醒来的时候，已经翩体磷伤了。憔悴了，瘦了，还忘了什么是被爱的感觉。

放手一搏，选择去外地实习。看不见，就不会回头。看不见，就可以狠心的放手。

这时，他，就像天使般地出现在我身边。我终于找回了被关心，被人呵护的感觉。心想， ：‘就是他了，要捉着他！’ 。 回想起来，当时的我也蛮勇敢的嘛。明明还没痊愈，就跳进去了。至今的我，依然没有后悔我当初所作的决定。 五年了，他还是我那可爱的天使。人海茫茫，感谢老天爷让我遇见了他。

今天的我，稍微成熟了一点，没有以前那么的天真。但我到今天还是个哈韩饭，每个晚上都在认真地煲韩剧。爱 幻想浪漫又刺激的恋爱是无可避免滴。 幻想归幻想，回到了现实生活中，浪漫能当饭吃吗？我们没有很浪漫，也不是什么排山倒海刻苦铭心的恋爱。我们就是简简单单地相爱在一起，就这样。

在一起的时间久了，对彼此的了解也易如反掌。不需要多说，也能知道对方在想什么。这，就是幸福。我闹脾气的时候，他会来爱护我。他心情不好的时候，我会给他空间。这，就是对彼此的尊敬。

其实爱，可以很简单。简单的爱，也是一种幸福，不是吗？

感激，感恩， 感谢缘分让我遇见了他。

p/s 就让我偶尔肉麻一下嘛。^^

哈喽！

大家好！首次用华语来写部落格，还有点小生疏呢。忘了有多久没写中文了，好多字也忘了怎么去写了，怎么办呢？只好多多看，多多写了咯。

我现在是个无业游民了耶！还真的好爽！哈哈。本小姐好久没有那么的轻松自在了。平时准时起身，准时上班，每天的行程都是那么的枯燥乏味。盼望了已久的假期终于来了，终于可以喘口气，出去透透风。虽然时间飞逝，很快又要再向钱冲了，但是换个环境，换个心情再出发也不错嘛。我，是可以的！加油吧！智玲！你是行的！自我吹眠，自我鼓励是非常重要的哦。

过去这几天，虽然是无所事事，但是也领悟了许多事情。平时只忙着做工，忽略了许多日常生活中的小点滴。好久没有好好地听音乐和阅读书本了，也好久没有静静地聆听着自己的心声。生活再忙，也要偶尔放停脚步， 喘一口气，整理情绪再出发。 休息一个月，是正确的！

稍微离题一下下。有些事情，要放的开。感情的事，是你的，就是你的。不是你的，无论你多么地努力，到头来受伤的，还不是自己。 越是想要的东西，老天爷越是不要给你。反而期望没那么高的时候，偏偏就给你个你万万没有想到的惊喜。自我增值，自我自爱才是上上之策。当然，说是简单。但是世上无难事，只怕有心人不是 无稽之谈。凡是只要有心，就可以做到。

哇！名句精华和成语虽已经是N年前学习的事，至今还记得几个嘛。当然若要我用笔写出来，是不可能的了。咯咯。

好啦！今天的华语复习课，就到此为止！下次再好好地磨练磨练！拜拜！