Relieved

RELIEVED!!!

I am finally relieved..I am so so glad that everything is over right now...everything was still very blurry for me right now..everything seems to be unreal for me when it is over..It happened so fast until i can not really cope with the fact that it is finally over...

Two months of hardwork from everyone..stressing out..sweating it out..a little bit of yelling..alot of complains..bits and bits of gossiping..and here..it is the end..HOA..I still dont feel the statisfaction of completing this event..give me one more day to recover from my tiredness..then il proudly say it happily..WE MADE IT..haha..

Seriously..i did not take much picture yesterday..I was running up and down..I was on my 3 inch heels the whole night..Im suffering from period pain..which makes my mood swings a bit..Kind of moody the whole night..even after it was done..haha..i suppose to be high..but guess hormons can really make someone not high..

Yes..the biggest burden on my shoulders are taken off right now..I should be relaxing for a while..but I choose not..I stay at home..sleep to get my rest back..listen to music and sing out loud..and read some magazine that i did not touched for ages..watch Harry Potter which I can barely remember..Yes..that is my Sunday after food promotion..boring..but it keeps my mind to relax a bit...

If everyone thinks that we are freed now..sorry..you are wrong..haha..I am very sorry to remind you guys..that we still have three asignments to go..FnB assignment..French Essay..and English Group work..yes..I have to get my ass back to work tomorrow..haha..today..let me relax first..

stressed

I want to cry

I want someone to hold my hands

I want someone to hug me

I want to be like this

Or like this

I need you now..because I want to cry..and i need a shoulder to lean on..

My date with A1 Race

Today..we went to Sepang Circuit for A1 Race..Actually it wasnt something that I was really keen into..seriously..im not a super fan of Formula One or A1..Jervin got 8 free seats from somewhere..Since i did my English Presentation about sports tourism on another day..mainly about Formula One and Sepang Circuit..So i decided to follow the crowd..join them in that race...Sorry..but i have to admit that I am a really Ulu person..I have never ste

p into Sepang Circuit in my entire whole life..So..it was my really first time visiting that place..and actually able to watch a real race..

Well..it was a hell of a day..haha..we were suppose to go from Mentari at 9.30am..guess what time we woke up???----- 10.30am..haha..none of us woke up..Then we ended up leaving at 12pm..haha..we took the forever-so-slow-packed-no-place-to-sit KTM..We reached Nilai station and took a cab to Sepang Circuit..the cab ride cost us RM40..and it was a enjoyable ride indeed..I am seriously serious..haha..the cab driver was damn chun and funny..He was driving a very very old version of Nissan Blue Bird..but yeah..it was very spacious and the air con was quite cooling..thankgod..haha..

OKAY..when i reached there..OH MY GOD..the race was DAMN NICE..I actually love the vibrant and sound of a racing car..and I was actually there to witness it..haha..the 'VROOOOM....' sound is just...urghh....just so sexy..haha..It was way fun than i thought it would be..we were trying to take as many picture as we can..my final pictures were unpresentable..because the cars were just so fast..once i snap..the car was a gone case..haha..instead of posting my no car picture..il post some that Brendan and Jervin took..

Oh hey..Malaysia actually did quite well in that race..i did not realize Malaysians were so patriotic until today..everyone cheered for our own team whenever the car passed by..haha..I felt so proud when Malaysia actually landed on the 8th place..WOAAAA...not bad after all..haha..way to go Malaysia..haha

Anyway...it was an awesome trip..haha..OHHHH...we took the bus straight to Sentral..When we passed by KLIA..an aeroplane actually flied over our bus..SERIOUS..i swear to god it was so near until we can actually touch the plane if we stand on the bus top..but yea.we did not do that..haha..We were suppose to snap a picture of that historical moment..but we were too stunned and amazed by that...we regreted like hell after that..haha..

Alright..time for some pictures--------------

Four of us..yea..check out the cars behind us..COOL..It was after the prize giving Ceremony..

Another cam whoring sesion..hoAAA..

The prize giving Ceremony..They are spraying Mumm Champagne..SHIT..

MALAYSIA BOLEH..haha..YES..this is our Malaysia team!!!!!

Next year..if i have the money..i would defintely come and watch the Formula One Race..haha..if A1 can be this awesome..i bet Formula One would be like..SEXY..haha 

Selfishness

Why do i felt like im some mistress???

People tell me lies..

I have to act because of something that was totally not my fault..

I have to be patient because of somebody else...

what have i done wrong to deserve all these shit???

What about my feelings???

What about me???

Why human can be so selfish??

You think i can solve all the problems by myself..

This is suppose to be team work thing..

Why i have to take the 'credit' because of somebody's fault???

Why???

Tell me bloody why???

I shouted until i almost fainted...

There were times when i really felt like breaking down and cry..

but can i do that??

What about me???

What about my feelings???

bleeding

Feeling a little bit insecure at the moment..

Needed to be left alone..

Wheter it is the usual insecurity or the after-tragedy-insecurity..

i just felt insecure as always..

Maybe because of what i went through all this while..

or maybe it is just that same thing over and over again..

When can i ever learn how to trust a person anymore??when??

The bitch's issue is really getting into me right now..

I still dont understand why there this kind of people in this world..

Jervin told me that dont ask why..because you will never know why..

She is just S-H-E

She can be the world biggest bitch..why do i care??

yea..why do i care??

What she is doing now..is still affecting me in every single way..thats why..

I hate hating people..suck to the max..

I dont like to confront other people..

I just dont like to do that..especially to people that i care the most..

Sometimes..i choose to keep quiet..doesnt mean that i dont know what is going on..

Just because i dont confront people..doesnt mean that im cold hearted and cant feel the pain..The fact is im bleeding inside..internal bleeding you shall call it..

god..i feel like crying now..i know i should do that..but yea..

Coming Soon

OKAY..im done for this week..YAY!!!

I finished my French, English and Financial assesments..and also my English Presentation..

HIP HIP HOORAY!!!!!!

Though i really hope that i can celebrate the call of freedome after this week..

but yea..i can't...

Its finally our food promotion!!!! yay and shit..haha..

i really hope that everything goes on well..this can not be screwd..

no WAY..can not..not allowed...bah..

tomorrow we are having our rehearshal..i really hope that everything goes on well..

cross my fingers people..

Never Ending problems

I felt so much better after lashing it out..Too much..just too much to be bear..

I am not that kind of person who loves to screwd people because of something

But there is always a limit..just dont cross over that limit..

And yea..im not feeling particularly good today..

I screwd up my Financial Paper..DAMN theory and careless mistakes..

At first i thought it was okay..since i can do everything..but yea..

Theory and careless mistakes..that will kill you..ISH..

French..URGH..i think i screwd that as well..

The listening part is just..BAH..i cant get the accent ar..haha..

The translation..EWWW

Next time really have to spend more time with the cafe creme book..ish..

and College..DAMN smart..

please dont turn our food promotion into some marketing strategy of yours..

It is already frusfrating enough to have 40 VIP guest..and now..increase to 50??

What about the guest that we already promised earlier??

haiy..food promotion in like one more week..and yea..add another 10 pax..great..

I wanted to say life sucks actually..

but when i think twice..it is still alright..

minus the bitch prob..result problem..and food promotion prob..

I am doing prefectly fine..

Im happy..ermm..maybe a little bit stress out before the exams..but yea..im still doing great..

haha..

18PL

Well..here i want to specially dedicated this post to 'The People I Hate'

You can say that I am mean..cruel..whatsoever..but hey..this is my blog..i can say whatever i want..

First of all..the Queen of ALL Bitches..

Have you ever met that kind of girl..who has a boyfriend OBVIOUSLY..

but still desperate for a back up plan 

no offence..but yea..it is damn iritating..

When you have someone that you love..love him with all your heart..

If you can really do that..you wont even have the time to like 'flirt' with other guy..

If you have that urge to find for other guys..meaning your feeling for your current boyfriend is not strong enough..then why torture that guy?? Break up and find for a new one..

I thought that is your strenght?? flirting with other guys??

Stop looking around for a back up plan..if you have feelings for that guy..

Then just f**king break up and couple up with the guy you are flirting with..

Stop making everyone beside you suffer because of what you done..

Whether it is intentional or unintentional..

I dont f**king care..just stop being a bitch..

Then..the Queen of all Evil..

The back Stabbing Queen..I bet most of you met this kind of girl..of guy..whatever..

who LOVE to back stab people..

GOSH..

I bet most of you have met with this kind of person..yea..

Pain in the a**..ish...

Actually..thats all..the main reason for this post is--Queen of ALL Bitches..

If you anyhow bump into my blog..sorry for making you miserable..

but yea..you did it to yourself..

Dont cry infront of other guys because of what you have done to yourself..

I wont pity you..

You should have known what you are doing..

what are the consequences..

You do not earn any single respect from me..

Sorry for the strong language in this post..but yea..I am pissed..

Whether it is the past of present..

It is freaking annoying..

Do not twist the whole story and be a bitch again..

There is a thing call the 'karma'..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE!!!!!!

may your 20th birthday be as full as possible..

DONT LET THE ASSIGNMENTS BRING YOU DOWN!!!! haha

we all love ya....muakx muakx!!!!!!

explaination or no??

Well..i just read something just now..which i dont really know whether it is referring to me or not..

anyhow..it actually sets me into thinking..

maybe im thinking too much??? i dont know..and i dont really want to wind about it..

Life goes on..

Whether it is me..or not me..who am i to say anything?? (bear in mind...im not emo now..)

Everyone have to have some emotions..

whether it is happy nor sad..

loved or not loved..

stress or not stress..

Forgiving is always the hardest thing to do..especially to someone that has unintentionally or with intention to hurt you..

Explaning to the whole world of something that. you have not done or have no intention to hurt anyone at all is just...hard..

Everyone asking how are you now when you are single..dadada..is just..

yeah..just dont ask..im fine though..really..

trying to divide my time nicely..whether in studies..friends..or with families..

Honestly..i can go to singapore at the end of this year...but i have my exams..

i can go to hong kong next year..but yea..i have my DIPLOMA finals..SHIT

E-X-A-M-S!!!!!

Every holliday plan that my family made..i cant make it..they go for holiday..i stay at home and study..

when im in my holidays..they go to school..what???

haiy

trying to forget something that i dont want to repeat in my life..

trying to not remember those moments in my life..

im trying hard..really hard..

Everyone has their own good...ofcourse some flaws..but hey..dont ever judge people from the cover..whether you are just 19..or 50..only judge people when you know them..

I hope that my judgement this time is right..

and i can once again learn to trust people..

When you know that you met the right one in your life??

So continue to believe in love..

Because once you found the right one..you will never regret..

T-I-R-E-D

IM T-I-R-E-D!!!!
I guess everyone is tired lo..sad thing..

Talking about personal life..ermm..everything is going on well enough..better than ever..
at least im not stress at home..which is a good thing..
Just when im in college..and i dont get what the lecturer is talking about..everyone beside me is stressing out..
woAAA..thats a killer..il be affected and there i am..stressing out..

Alot of work are remain undone..which is freaking me out at this moment..
Two more weeks to go..and yea..everything is still floating in the air..OHOH..
Our Food Promotion has to be held when it is the due date for most of our assignments and when we are having our mid term assesment..what the..
Pity each and everyone of us..
When i look around the class..some sleeping because too tired..some defintely looks like they had not been sleeping well for quite some time..some staring at the notes like they are going to tear the notes into billion pieces anytime..
Some..like me..feel like throwing my shoes at the lecturer who comes 30min late to class every single day-- Dont know how to teach us--and finish class in 45min instead of 2 hours!!!!!! ANGRY!!!!
fine fine..let me cool down..i just hate her SOOOO much..can i have a better French lecturer so i wont flunk my French..ishish..

NOW..i better go and get some rest now..my eyes are barely opening at this moment..
GOOD NIGHT!!!!!!

Just when i thought il face my Financial Assessment today..
Suddenly postpone to next week pulak..SOBS...
Now..next week is going to be hell for me..
Let me show you why-----

Monday--Nothing much
Tuesday--Financial Test, Tea Talk, Stock Check
Wednesday--French Test
Thursday--English Test
Friday--English Assignment Presentation
Saturday--Food Promotion Rehearshal

SEE!!!!!! Everyday got something to do..why my life so pack now..haiy..
NOW..everyone around me is like so tired..not enough sleep..too much of stress..
Never ending things to do..
HAIY..Term 5 ar..not easy wei..

ONE more day..

Alright..im done with my video shooting today..
One more day to go..muahaha..thankgod French assessment was postpone to next week..yeah!!!
Yesterday service was the most tiring..and yet..the one that we learned the most..
thanks to MS JASMINE..god..i really hope that she can be our next lecturer..
My duck craving..hoa!!!!crap..haha..i ter-cut my finger when i was craving..damn careless..
but i have to hide my blood because the lecturer was standing next to me..haha..
i really hope that duck craving would not come out for exam..if not..GG

Talking about my video shooting today..it was..ahem..FAKE..
haha..though i did not do much..i just stand there and smile..FAKE..
haha..but it was cool la..
'lets roll!' its the key word day..'CUT' is another word of the day..
But it was cool..
We had our beverage tasting and food tasting today..it was GREAT!!!
Sunny did pull off a great job..he looks so yeng when he was doing the drinks..haha..
I bet he will have quite a few fans when the video is up..keke..
But im so glad that we finish everything in one day..ermm..in three hours to be exact..
You see..hospitality students are awesome actors and actresses..haha..
The food..it was WAY better than what we aspected actually..
the cake was NICE..can i eat too?? sobs.. i bet i can't..

Well..my housemates said that i had changed already..haha..
stronger i guess??? or more crazy?? maybe..
i dont know..haha..

OUR food promotion is coming up in two more weeks..
oh oh..D-I-E..but it will be fun i think..
but stress defintely..
visit www.prison.co.nr for more information..keke..

Im a piggie

Back in KL..yea..i went back to Seremban for the weekend..
the main purpose..is to REST..haha..
Last two week was a hell of a week..hectic..tiring..stress..and everything..
So i went back to my house...
I eat..sleep..watch drama..then eat..then sleep again..
Thats what i did for two whole days..seriously..
call me a pig..i dont care..haha..

Well.this week..will be another hectic week.i have to wake up around 6.30am...OH MY GOD..
I already had a super hard time waking up at 8am..now 6.30am..ish..
I guess i better sleep earlier later..
Something striked me today..my mom asked me..
what ive been eating in KL?? junk food??
ermm..I think im eating normally..haha.
Well..now I know how to take care of myself..and not by starving myself for nothing..
but ham telur tambah sayur is still my best lunch selection..sorry..it has been a habit since like..starting of college??haha..

Alright..just hope that il survive next week..
cross my fingers..

Housemates or Friends??

Some people might wonder why i put my housemates on the top of my list..
let me tell you why...
My relationship with my families are not that close..
We don't really sit down and talk..
We barely have any conversation..except for me and my bro..
Well..i think that is because of how im brought up..

Now..at Mentari..my housemates are..Michelle..Jervin..Melvin and Brendan..Boon Ken is basically not at home the whole time..soo..not really close to him..
They are like my families..
We talk..we cheer each other up..we share each other's problem..
we eat and sleep together..in a same house of course..

Even though im stress like hell in the college..whenever i reach home..
there will be a smile in my face..
Do you know that feeling where you feel happy when you reach home??
I know that no matter what happen..they will be there for me..
They are shoulders for me to lean on when I need one..

That is why..my housemates are important to me..
not to say you people are not..just that it is different..
They just can not be compared together..
It is like asking you to choose between your parents and your lover..
Or money and love..
Something like that..i don't know..haha
But yeah..just want to let you guys know why..why sometimes i put housemates above everything..
Sorry if i disappoint you people..

So dont ask me to choose between friends or housemates..
I cant do that..

One down..tonnes to go

YAY!!!! We manage to finish our first Law Assignment today..
THANK GOD..
I felt sooo relieved..with all the tension and stress..we manage to finish the drama..
with a bit of laughter and drama..haha
The gay part was the highlight of the day..
Sui Ren..you have the potential to be Malaysia Next Top Model..and The best actress award definitely goes to you..haha..
CONGRATES!!!!
Too bad i did not snap any pictures..if not..haha..you will be famous..

Next week..Next week..I am scare..haha..
Seriously..there are tonnes of work to be done..
Monday..Tuesday..Wednesday..Thursday..Friday..
Oh shoots..I have things to do on every single day..what the hell..
busy busy..tired tired..i guess i needed every rest that i can get to get me through next week.sobs..

Today is 6th of November...meaning our Food Promotion is coming soon...
In three weeks time..OH MY GOD..
there are still tonnes of things to do..
I just hope that everything goes well..
NO more conflicts..no more fights..no more tension..
just work as a team to make it a success..

Sorry people for not making to MOS tonight..
SERIOUSLY..im tired of MOS..
I do not want to be label as a frequent clubber le..
YES..i know that i always dont go to club with you people..
BUT ONE DAY..we will go together alright??
not before Food Promotion lo..k??
SORRY...

A little bit of frusfration

Im a little bit frusfrated today..
Im very blur these few days..keep setting the alarm wrongly...
This morning..my class suppose to be 9.30am..and guess what time i set??9.55am
what the hell???
i suppose to set it at 8.55am..i seriously dont know why..haha
So when i woke up at 9.15am..im like..i give up going to class..
WHY??i normally takes like 30 min to get ready..by the time im ready..im already 15 min lates..which means----RM5...yea..so why not go back and sleep?? haha

French class sucks as usual.SHE AR..god..really gets me on my nerves..
if because of her i flunk my french..im going to...URGHHHHH...

PEOPLE..everyone is going to stress out real soon..
Food Promo coming real soon..
Next week we have our Star Youth Video shooting..
meaning all our food tasting and beverage tasting will be push forward..
It is a good thing..but everything seems to be on a rush now..
Next week will be assesment week for a few subjects..
DAMN..
Monday..going to genting..not for fun okay??
Tuesday-serving..
Wednesday- Video Shooting..
Thursday- FInancial assesment, French Assignment..

ALRIGHT..crazy thing..going out for dinner and law assignment now..sobs..ciao!!

Happy!!! : )

OKAY..Finally i manage to update two big events..haha..
YUPE..one Halloween and one Group 4&5 Food Promotion..
Both were great..seriously..and that really make my week way happier than it was before..
and i finally manage to SLEEP..
without cough syrup..and flu pills..thankgod..haha..

All right..Even though it has been a really hard week for me..but after friday..everything seems to be getting back into pieces..
Back to where it suppose to be..
im glad..im really glad..

Im not here to offend anyone..
but yea..no hard feelings..i have no hard feelings to anyone..
just that when everything is going to a wrong directions..
it means that something is some how wrong..soo..we have to find a way to get back to where we used to be..
and now..when everything is cool..it is great..thankgod..

Im here to say..im really happy at the moment..haha..
Happy happy..
SOO..i just hope that everything will fall back into pieces slowly..
cross my fingers..

70's Saturday Boogie Night

70's Saturday Boogie Night!!!!
It was really fun..i have to admit that..haha..
It was my first time dressing up for some themed function..though my dressing was not really 70's..but hey..i tried lo..ahha..Alright..lets go to all our pictures...-------

OKAY...CONGRATULATIONS TO GROUP 4 and 5!!!!!!!
It was fun..seriously..haha..hmm...that left us..
PRISON BREAK!!!!! hahaa..
nolar..LAST NIGHT IN PRISON!!!!! you deserve better

now im scare..haha..

Happy Halloween

First of all..me wanna say Happy Belated Halloween to everyone!!!!!
Sorry that i did not update ASAP..yesterday i was kind of busy..
So what is my Halloween Plan???
I went to Euphoria..yea..i know..club again..but i never celebrate Halloween before..sobs..
So..just go there and see see..
and guess what?? i really had alot of fun..
we were taking pictures nonstop with people who dress up for the event..haha..
Let's check out the pictures--------

Cool right??? yea..i know i did not dress up..sorry lo..
haha..next year il try and dress up..haha..maybe a hot devil or something..

Halloween was actually quite fun and cute..
but then day actually ended quite early..yea..my problem..
but everything went back to normal..thank god..

Actually i suppose to be able to sleep nicely on that night..
BUT..i had a hangover..DAMN IT..haha..
no more Euphoria for me..soo..people..don't try and temp me there..haha