Words that should be spoken..

Another week is gone and gone..keke..happy happy..5 more weeks to go and my training is over and done..Alright..I guess I need to explain myself here..whether it is for my friends or those who are concern..

Yes..I am in a new relationship now..as written in Facebook...I bet most of you will think why is it that fast?? why can i let down my past so fast?? why this and why that..I guess 'love' does not require that many explanation as it comes..it comes..when it is gone..then it is gone..

Yes..I did struggle a little in my past relationship..but I did not regret a single bit..infact..I do appreciate it as I had learned ALOT from him..I might seem very fragile at that point..but the truth is..everything that we had been through..it thought me to be more mature in thinking and stronger in heart...So..I thank you, Brendan for everything that we had been through in these two years..You might not read this as we are in a very awkward situation right now..but I still hope for the best for you..I know at some point..it is me who to be blame..it is me who hurt you with my words..but i just wish we can be friends again..take care dear..

As for Aaron..honestly..Term 4 has been a really tough term for me..mentally and physically..I have been having ALOT of problems with my eyes..and also my ankle at the end of the term...assignments are killers as I can hardly have time to breath..In another hand..I am having my own personal problems in my relationship..therefore...when everything add one together..disaster..I used to study one week before and during term 4..the night before exams...I have to burn the midnight oil until 3 4 am...eventhough we are just friends at that point..but he really did help me in my studies and helping me to learn how to stand up at the point..If it is not because of him..i just flunk my studies and fail miserablely..I know..I did not work hard enough for the exams..and it is purely my fault as I did not put my priorities in place..

Yesterday..I checked my result already..thanks to Randall who forced me into checking it..haha..and I was quite dissapointed at that point..because I know I can do better than that...maybe for others it is good enough..but for me...I aspect more...maybe my expectations are too high or maybe I am getting more competitive..but I myself know I can do better than that..So..I was a bit down at that point..though dear doesnt know what to say to console me because his average is higher..but deep down my heart..i know that he doesnt want me to be down..

Yes..I may emo for a while..but now..I found my way to climb up again...I told Aaron that I will work my ass off in Term 5...no more disstractions...no more slagging..and I know he will be there helping me...^^

Oh wait..back to the main topic..haha..I know it is a bit too fast for both of us..and I know alot of people told me to take my time to enjoy my singlehood while I can...somehow..I dont want miss this train..or bus..haha..for those who know you will know what is the meaning of that..honestly speaking now..I am very happy and content with my relationship now..I do not know how to explain this..but I feel like a newbies in love again..^^ get me???

Last Sunday is dear's off day..and he came down all the way to Kuantan to spend some time with me...haha...I know it sound pretty crazy and rushing..but I guess it is all worth it..haha..though I get unpaid leave for that..but like what dear said...it is paid with his love..haha...^^

We went to the beach for a walk during the afternoon...though Kuantan beach is not as nice as the ones in Redang...but everything is beautiful when we are together..opps..I can not believe i said that..haha..Some random pictures we took by the beach...

I took this picture...nice???hahaha...I likey this picture alot lo..

This picture is also pretty random..haha..

THIS..is freaking nice..haha..I was drawing on the sand mer...then suddenly the wave come and attack wor...so got this effect lo..haha..

us

and us

Thankyou dear for all the trouble just to come up and see me..haha...felt kinda bad because you are not yet fully recover from your flu and cough and yet you still willing to use your first off day on me...sumore have to come all the way up....but I guess we had a great time right??? haha..muakx..it is all worth the hassle..and leave that is paid with love..^^

Anyway..today is not my off..but still came all the way to McD and online before my work..have to go in in another 45 min..sad case..haha..

I guess this is a really long post..haha...got lots to write actually...but everything that should be spoken is already being said in my mail...sooo...guess I don't have to write it again..haha...anyway..will update my blog next week la..toodles....loves..

Living happily ever after

‘Living happily ever after’ is probably the common phrase that everyone listen to everyday, whether it is in fairytale storybooks or fantasy movies. Do I believe in this phrase? Yes I do. I believe that everyone deserves to live happily ever after.

But before that, we have to go through heaven and hell to achieve what we want in our life. What is heaven and what is hell? Heaven is where you are extremely happy when you are with that special one. When one simple text can make you smile broadly although people around you are wondering why you are you smiling suddenly out of nowhere. When one simple call before sleep can ease the tiredness from neither studies nor working. When one simple hug and kiss can bring two hearts closer to each other. That, is heaven.

What is hell? When two hearts are no longer on the same line. When two hearts are constantly in pain and anger because of distance, misunderstanding, cannot achieve common agreement. When there is are no longer a smile in the relationship, but tears and pains.

That is heaven and hell in a relationship.

Love can be fairly simple. When two hearts are connected to each other and believe that they can make each other happy and content. No matter what awaits for them in the future, they will hold their hands tightly and go through all the pains and hardship.

As time goes by, things changed.

What’s with all the complaints? What’s with all the argument for something that is nothing? What’s with the ignorance? What’s with the care that will not last?

Where is the trust? Where are the promises that are given? Where are the warmest and care that had you had once owned? Where are all the things that were said? The happiness when you received a simple text from your loved one? The importance and the meaning of holding hand and a simple hug?

They are not lost in the wind, they were forgotten by us, human. Every human are forgetful. Yes, indeed. We will forget the happiness that we once shared in the past and replaced it with jealousy and sadness.

We will only remember when we had lost it. We will only appreciate things when we realize that it is long gone.

Every relationship there are ups and downs, whether it is a long distance relationship or a puppy love. We will learn from our mistakes and bring the things that we had learned in our next relationship.

I still believed in living happily ever after because I trust that everyone deserves to be happy and deserve someone so special that you will want to spend the rest of your life with.

To all my friends out there, please still believe in love.

Second Offday

YAY!!! time for another update since im n kuantan..nothing much happened last week actually..except for stonning and stonning at the sea..but it is alright..one weel already gone and 6 more weeks to go..yay yay!!!!! can not wait can not wait..

Last Saturday is our Dai lou's Bday la..haha..big boy dy lo..21 years old..we did not make anything extravaganza to surprise him la..we cook home cook spagetti and bought some secret recipe cake to celebrate his big big day...AND...congrates to dai lou..hahaha..you know what im saying..

Working at the seaside restaurant during low peak is really super duper boring than you can ever imagine..every night..I am staring that the sea and the sky..thinking about alot alot of things..more than you can ever imagine..whether it is my past relationship or new relationshp..sometimes..i doubt myself..sometimes i have confident in myself..Thinking about my future..what is it going to be..where am i going to work?? will it be the same as now??

What will happen to me in ten years time?? 20 years??? haha..I really do think ALOT..that is what that will happen when u stare into the sea and moon too much..

Honestly..training in Kuantan has been pretty fun because of those 7 guys that is with me..haha..they are really crazy people..talking things that makes no sense but became with sense after they say it out..haha..teaching me things that I should not know..rampasing my bear and caressing it infront of me..haha..now i have to fight to get my bear back..but they have to bear with my screaming everytime I bath..haha..the water is still damn cold for all your information..haha

Honestly..I have been eating quite alot because of training and also when i am with them..haha.I thought il gain weight..but when i weight myself yesterday..i lost weight instead..what the..haha..guess I do not have to worry that much when it comes to meal time..YAY!!!!!!!

and I finally got my colour contacts!!!! yay...the same color that i got last time..miss it soo soo much...beware people when i get back to KL..keke..

Can not wait until this saturday night..muahahahahhahahaha....I am ultrally happy when I think about this..and this is what that keeps me going whenever I am stoning..keke..muakx..

Oh well..wanted to upload pictures..but can not due to some techinical problem..but I had uploaded in my FB..so go there and see see if you want la..till then..toodles...loves

First off day..

KUANTAN UPDATE

Alright..I finally got the chance to online at McD after like 5 days of no internet line..sad case wei..haha..anyway..i guess i HAVE to update everyone about my life over here..shall we start from this Sunday then..haha

This Sunday..at 7am..we left from Mentari and headed straight to Kuantan..7AM in the MORNING...i wonder who's idea it was..haha..damn early wei..I only had like 4 hours of sleep because was busy updating my facebook and blog..fine..I slept like a piggy troughout the whole trip so no worries..haha..

Anyhow..we went to our dear house for two months..and the condition was..a bit haunting..haha..and it was quite dirty as the rooms were left empty for a long long time..so 8 of us have to work our butt off to clean the whole house..after rounds and rounds of water splashing and sweeping away the water..we managed to clean the house before evening..god..it felt so good when the house is clean and tidy..haha..

The the next day..we have to head over to Hyatt Regency Resort to start our training la..Not going to talk about our orientation and tour because it is so damn boring..but..Me Dai Lou and Gan were alocated at the Pool Side Bar and others at Kampung the coffee house..seriously!!!! I can not believe Kuantan can be THIS HOTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im burning when im working lo..its almost as sunny as Redang..DAMN..i bet im going to get tanned when im back in KL..haha..

Anyway..Il be at the pool side bar for three weeks..then Kampung for another 3 weeks..my life is freaking boring..im serious..im stonning at the sea most of the time..staring at bikini girls..haha..who say only guys will look at bikini girls..bluek..if not..il just stone and stone..haha..yupe..im really stoning most of the time..haha..am not joking..thats why it is kind of boring right now when I got nothing better to do..

After i finish work..either il be watching tv..and sms..or il be stoning..haha..OHHHH...there are no heaters at home..GG.COM!!!! every morning and night il be screaming for help because the water is just so cold!!!! haha..everytime either dai lou or wayne will kena la..haha..hello!!! the water is freezing cold lo..I can not tahan one le..haha..so screaming my lungs out are the only way to overcome the coldness of the water..haha

I miss KL..i miss all my friends..i miss my big bear..and i miss my dear dear..sobs..can not wait to finish up my training..so I can relax and sleep until gao gao..and SHOP..haha..

Anyway..I did not take out my cam until this morning..and I look terribly tired and ugly..haha..hope you guys wont mind..sobs..I did not know I look so ugly already..sad case..

My lunch...Mc chicken..damn fattening right???

Wayne main main di tepi..haha..I look so tired..

me gui gui and dai lou..keke

wayne ar wayne..i really dont know why you open your mouth until that big..haha

tehee...haha...gui gui saying hi to everyone o..

THIS..is hyatt staff entrance..haha,,everyday have to go through here to punch our card..the left pondok is the guard house where I was sitting yesterday while waiting for wayne..

This is the beach..though it is not as nice as Redang beach..but it is way better than pd beach..haha..

there is nothing wrong with this picture..excpet his shoes..haha..we trainees are not entitled to any locker..therefore we have to wear our working to shoes to work instead of slippers..and this is how weird it looks.haha

Anyway...my time is almost up in McD..haha..just nice for me to update my facebook and blog..there are so many things that i wanted to say..but three hours is just not enough for me..

I had hurt someone badly..I know..and I am terribly sorry..but I dont want to hurt you more..I hope you can understand this..because this time I really made up my mind..I am so so sorry..thats what I can say..

I miss you I miss you...waiting for my blankie..haha..

Anyway..its time to go soon..better wrap up my blog now..haha..toodles loves...muakx..love you guys and missing everyone in KL and Seremban..and ofcz US..