Saturday Night blues

Now..i cant say that i can totally fully ignore what people think of me..say of me..i still do care deep down in me..people said i took it too hard..
'what they say about you is their problem..you just need people who are true to you around but not a whole bunch of fakers.'
Yea..i totally agree..

Then when it comes to friends..
well..im a total sucker in consoling people ..i just dont know how to make somebody to feel beter..
No matter what i said..i think il make it worst..
Soo..i just choose to keep my mouth shut and see from outside..
not that im not concern..im just scare that what i say will make it worst..
Im sorry that im a bit neglecting these few weeks..maybe months..
il make it up with you guys after my training..
i totally did not forgotten about all of you..
you know i love all of you..keke..
if you have a blog..im totally going to browse through your blog everyday to keep in touch with things...
Soo..get yourself a blog and dont be lazy to update..keke

For those who hates me or whatever..just stay away from my blog..
i thankyou for being SOO kind to browse my blog..
i dont need any other people to tell me who i am..
i dont need people to judge me for who i am...
and i totally dont need to tolerate with somebody that i barely knew..
Not trying to be mean or whatever..but..
whether you like it or not..
this is me..my blog and i can say whatever i want..
thankyou

Second Training commerce

Gosh..one more day to my training in Elcerdo..im soo anxious now..i just browsed through their food review and menu..oh my god..their reviews were ALL perfect..service was excellent..food was great..everything was a thumbs up..oh my god..No wonder Mr Max ( Training Manager of Elcerdo) was saying that his expectation was damn high towards us.. when i went through their menu..oh my god..i have to know some basic German n Spanish as well?? Some of the names are in German or Spanish..okay..screwd..haha..

For those who are not taking this course..Maybe you are not familiar with our job in a restaurant..so il tell you about what we should be doing..First..we need to do some mise en place..Which means preparation before hand..we need to set up the table..the cutleries..water goblet and so on..you think that table just magically appear like that everyday ???haha..Then during service time..we need to sell the menu of course..So..you have to be DAMN sure about the menu so when the guest ask something you can answer..this is the tough one..Then we have to serve the guest what they had ordered..clear the table and so on..The thing is..we need to be crystal clear about the restaurant's menu and beverages..you know..people in KL are fussy..especially those rich ones..They expect good services..good food and good value for money..everything also have to be GOOD GOOD GOOD!!!

Some of you might think that its an easy job..wait until you break some glasses and get screwed from some fussy old guest..then you will know why we actually study about food and beverages..haha..Many people asked me why do you need to study hotel when you can actually enter the field without any certificate?? Well..this world is cruel my dear..Yes..you can go in just like that..but you cant really go far..in another words..naik pangkat fast..you dont have the knowledge yet..Soo..who do you think they will naik first..the one that has all the knowledge and familiar with the industry, or some total noob who are still figuring out what is this industry about??

i LOVE food..yes..i LOVE to eat..and i love to travel..i hate being cage in a stupid office facing chemicals and tubes..So..i got to say i love my course now...though many people think i should do medicine or biotech or something..people..i HATE numbers and chemicals alright..haha..did i ever said the every single experiment i did during my chemical class was a damn failure..haha..YES..even infront of the teacher..i FAILED..haha..even the teacher also wondering what went wrong..Pn Yeow..i seriously think it is my face problem..haha..

GOOD LUCK
to all my dear friends who are starting our training next week...
GOOD LUCK..may god bless us so we can
lose some weight
earn some extra $$
and kena screwed from the boss..
or the guest..^^

New Hair Style

Finally...i get to post up my post...yeah..the reason why im sooo eager to post this is because..heheheheheheh--------------------------------------

i got my hair CHOP CHOP CHOP...haha..yes short..dont i look 'cute' ( ceh..not trying to be perasan here la..haha)...i think i suit short hair too..keke..hmm..but i still sayang my long hair lo...too sayang to chop it off...sooo...il just leave my hair as it is-------------

and yeah..my hair is long again...haha..i got my bangs back..like one year before..ahaha..i use to have something like that as well..at first..its should not be like that..it should be comb to the side..BUT..it just cant..so..i just leave it like this..keke..i like it..makes me think that im younger...

OKAY..i seriously need to introduce you guys my cute little hamster...hehe..deng deng------

How cute......haha..look at its leg..

it is still a baby...so it is damn small..haha

This is actually the first badge of babies that we can actually hold on our hands without any bite marks..we can play with them...haha..their mum and dad are some crazy fella who will bite you with all their strength once you touch them..OUCH!!! seriously pain wei.. hey..do you know hamsters are damn horny??? haha..they can give birth to babies like nonstop..my house is full of hamsters now..seriously..i dont know there are how many generations already..

today i did something GOOD..haha..i manage to forced my parents to watch Made of Honour..haha..why so?? my mum keep asking me whether the movie is nice or not..so i just said 'why dont you go and watch it? il get you the ticket and you go and romantic with dad..' and yeah..i really bought the 9pm ticket for them..i even bought secret recipe cake for my mum and sushi for my dad..haha..My dad was complaining that he will fall asleep..He seriously dont want to watch some romantic comedy in cinema..his expression is like those small kids who dont want to eat medicine..i have to FORCE him to go..haha..anyway..i think my mum did enjoy th movie..as she was walkin in..she kept saying something like 'mcsteamy..that guy is cute..'haha..Soo..my plan WORKED..yeah..

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to me and brendan

Soo...today is the BIG day..haha..for me and Brendan..our ANNIVERSARY!!! yes..1st anniversary..it has been like ages and ages already...well..i always thought that anniversary is something that is real REAL important..but after today..hmm..i realize something...

Well..time dont represents EVERYTHING..the most important thing is how much you had learned in this relationship, and how much you have grown..no point counting the days when you dont even learn anything..CORRECT OR NOT?? haha..well..in this whole year..i had learned alot of things..maybe i have not master it completely..but im still learning..Learning how to NOT think so much..Learning how to NOT make myself emo..If i can master that..i might be a like Kung Fu Panda already..ermm..maybe not that fat..keke..

Okay..the main point of this post is me and Brendan..not me as Kung Fu Panda..^^..as i said before..at the very begining, we were not blessed at all..everyone told me that you should not have be together with him..he has a really bad reputation..he is a playboy and so..But..i still stick to my decision and go along with him..i know in many people's heart they are expecting us to break up soon..but hey people!!! i made it this far..im a fighter you see---------

haha..well..our journey was way more difficult than what i thought it would be..1st we have the sweet talking issues..which really gets into my nerves..then we have the 'me being a-litle-bit-of-a-controlling' problem..then our first break up..together again..then the surprise issue..So..what i realize is that communication is DAMN DAMN important..alot of things happened because of miscommunication..

i once heard of this..when a boy and a girl couple up..it means that they are bonding two totally different alien from different world..if you want to stay strong together..it takes a lot of efforts and time to learn about each other..if you want to tolerate with each other habits and life style...it takes an even longer time..it might take your whole life to learn about that..Soo..that moral of this story is..loving each other is a life long process..you will never stop learning about each other..

Soo..what we did on our anniversary..that is a real sad story..haha..not that im not happy..BUT..im in Seremban..whereelse to go other than Jusco..for those who are from seremban..you know how small is our jusco..and what's worst is that jusco is close..just jusco..other shops are still open..because they want to count their stocks..fine.we went for brunch in McD..lame..but nevermind..we chat abit while waiting for the movie..Get Smart..so..quite a nice movie...Funny..and lame at the same time..haha..i still prefer Made of Honour..hmm..anf we went home after that..okay..how SAD it that??haha..but we said we will continue on this Sunday when we are back in KL..KL is WAY better okay??more places to go..and yea..that's our Anniversary day..damn sad..haha..ohya..but we did manage to wear the same white top today..not that we planned it earlier on..haha..this is call the physic power..or satelite power..arr...whatever power la..haha..

okay..must be wandering what i gave to him le..keke..i gave him an ipod shuffle..yupe..i gave him earlier..because i cant keep money with me..il use it..might as well buy it and give it to him..Then..i find it quite dull to give him an ipod only..so suddenly i have this great idea to record something for him..yes..using my sony w660i..haha..i sang like 4 songs..1: You raise me up 2: I turn to you 3: Way back into love 4: Because of you..and i play two songs using the piano..The Reason and also Souvenirs D'enfance..hehe..yes..i record it using my phone..and my playing sucks..haha..because i did not touch the piano for so damn long..But..i really put in a lot of effort..it is not easy to record you know..i actually sang until got taufan out side..serious!! it was raining sooo heavily..i bet it was my fault..hhaha..So..i did some intro and ending as well..i burn it into a cd and gave it to him..

yea..i wrap it up nicely you see..keke..

There goes my anniversary..to be continue on Sunday actually..haha..anyway..i just want to say something to my Big Baby Brendan..

'i know that i am stubborn at times..real stubborn..and i am emo all the time because of tiny winy thingy..But..you know that i always love you..i had gave you many chances..and i will still give you chances..because i know that deep down in your heart..you know how to appreciate me and love me.but sometimes you just dont show it like other people would..so..i just hope that we can stay strong to each other and hve many anniversaries ahead of us..i love you..'

Soo..what's better to end my post than some camwhoring...muakaka..sorry la..im happy today..so i took a lot of perasan pictures..^^

Me = linlin

**Yeaw Zhi Lin**

Describe youself

im a big baby myself..

Sensitive and Emo is what people said about me

Blur..not a normal blur..but VERY blur..

NOOB..haha..yes..i dont deny that..

Funny??? maybe..

Fat??? depends on how you interpret fat..keke

Caring?? depends on who..^^

Independent?? depends..sometime yes..sometime no..

Define 'love'

ohh..i know this one..love is cinta..( lame..very lame..)..

love is like dessert..

once you are addicted to it..you are a goner..

you will crave for more and more..

you enjoy the eating process..

BUT..when you are getting fatter..

you will start to regret..

what to do with love???

think yourself..keke..

okay..tell me about your goals

my goals..let me think..i want to be a billionaire..

i want to have lots and lots of money so i can buy lots and lots of things..

okay.that is so not me..

sorry..again..keke

what i want is to have a successful carrier..a great family..and no regrets in life

arr...

this is way more practical..and way more like me..

what do you love about youself??

okay..this is a tough one..i love and hate everything about me..

come on..tell me the truth..what you love about yourself??

Serious..i love and hate everything about me..

i love my personality and i hate it the same time...

i like my face..but my face got big pores and pimples you see

i love my eyes..but i hate my eye brows..because i barely have any eyebrows..

Soo..what do you think???

who do you dislike the most in this world??

i bet some of you know who..haha..so no point telling AGAIN...

Who do you like the most..or shall i say love the most in this world??

hmm..i like and LOVE my friends..

without them..im just a plain white paper..

to all my friends..love ya!!! E>

what about your BF?

nah..he is not the most important person..

yar right...talking nonsense

ofcourse he is the most most important one..

on the top top and the most top of my list..

Are you going to bed now?

duh..its 2.37am!!! time to sleep..good night people..may you have a good rest too...

Talking crap

Deng Deng Deng..another day of multiple posts..im crazy..yes..and thankyou very much..haha..im so bored at home..in Seremban..nothing better to do..so i start blogging lo..keke..nothing much to talk about..but you know me..Zhi Lin wor..when i start typing..all sorts of nonsense will come out..

Soo..i realize that if i want to continue my higher diploma..i cant continue my 100% tuition fee waiver scholarship..ONLY the TOP student..which means you have to be the TOP to get 50% tuition fees waiver!!!! WHAT THE HELLL..others will get 30 %..gosh..which means i need to work my ass off and only get 50%??? that is soooo not worth it..damn..how can taylors be soooooooo stingy..kedekut people!!! damn..fine..somebody told me that i can apply for The star or Nanyang scholarship..hell yes..im going to work damn hard to get that scholarship..if not..my future will be sooooo dimm...*sobsob..

okay..thats about the scholarship that im worrying about..stop the emo emo thingy..talk about something happy..heheheeheheheheheeh..Wednesday...25-6-2008 will be my first anniversary with Brendan!!!! yeah!!! ive been working for this day for ages..man..it is defintely not easy..hmm..il update my blog when that day comes..now..just want to share my happiness..yeah!!!

Talking about public transportation in Malaysia..i really feeling like screwding all those noob people behind those monitors..ISH..say want to improve war..i dont see any improvement since..ANY..the train is still slow like a slowpoke..always not on time..monorail..always not in service..then people will started to crowd and getting a real hard to getting IN..damn sad lo our government..Everything also getting more and more expensive..flour, petrol, now even stationary..Basket..if you increase the price..then you better increase people's salary..How to afford everything when everyone's salary is still the same...Damn pity our parents who work SO SO hard for everything..pity me also..because my pocket money also remains the same when everything is getting pricier..ISH..

Talking about that...i told myself that im so not staying in Malaysia..maybe working wise..because everything is just so not right here..for hospitality industry..i heard from my mum that our lovely government was stopping a lot of projects..WHY?? i dont know yet..because i was too busy eating when my mum told me about that..^^ so..my plan was to go to singapore and work..since i have some relatives over there..and the money is good..this is what i heard..i hope it is true..seriously money is really very important!!^^

My last day of term 4

okie..time for some little update..YES!!! exam was finally over..like FINALLY..im so so glad..guess i cant really take the stress anymore..my heart is getting weaker..*cheers ^^ Soo..right after our last paper..we rushed to Sunway for movie----MADE OF HONOUR..



Oh my GOD..im soooo in love with this movie..this movie is like soooo romantic and funny..okie..for those who havent watch this movie..it is about a guy and a lady..they are like Best Friends Forever..the guy..ahem..mind my language..and yes..i love Patrick Dempsey..but this sucker..is a total playboy who slept with tonnes of girls..and have all these rules of his..what never play back to back or something..Soo..he did not realize that he was in love with this girl until she left to Scotland..arrr..soo..he was planning to break the question to her when she comes back..BUT..she came back with a fiance..and they are going to get married..hoho..Soo..what so nice about this movie is not the story line..ermm..well..best friends fall in love..it is so normal..but it is the characters that bring this movie to LIFE..its funny, tacky and fun..it is always very heart melting when a couple finally gets together..Me and Diny were like..'gosh..i love this movie!!!!' haha


Then..me and my Dengs went to Zen for our lunch..and yes..our first serious food photo taking session..not really going to talk much about the food..BECZ..we will come out with a new blog soon...SOOO...coming soon...me and the Dengs..haha..


After filling my stomach with some real gorgeous food..i went off to times square for my date..ofcourse..well..he has been waiting for me since 12pm..and i reach there around 4 something...im so so sorry..i already promised to have lunch with my friends earlier on..Soo...we went for a movie in Imax..Incredible Hulk..arrr..another nice movie..Normally..i dont really fancy the huge green monster..but this time..i find it quite nice..everything is about the visual effects and visual effects..and oh yes..i love liv tyler..she is just soooo pretty..it is so worth watching..though Imax is freezing cold and not many people were there...


oh yea..forgoten to talk about something..well..from sunway..wayne fetched me to some station..i did not know it was the star line station until i got there..okay..im not familiar with star line..soo..how to get to timesquare FAST..so i refer to the chart so something..i suppose to take until hang tuah..then change to monorail to timesquare...i think i know what am i suppose to be doing..so here i go..THERE WERE NO ONE IN THE STATION..that really freaks me out..i thought it was not working or something..but the train came..so i went in..and..IM THE ONLY PERSON IN THE TRAIN..first time in my life..then i started to think of some horror movie where the ghost pops out in the window where im staring at..ok...im scare...haha..luckily somebody came in in the next station..gosh..im save..haha..i know im thinking too much...but..sometimes..you will just think of nonsense when you are alone..haha..

Love is a strange thing

Sometimes things can just happen in a click and you would not realise it until it actually happened...When it happened, you will start to think that what went wrong..what i did??? When this problem occured? and the question go on and on and on...So you try and solve the problem..yes..your questions are all answered..but what left in your heart in emptiness and loneliness..because you know that there will be no turning point anymore..and everything is too late..

Sometimes you just dont want to wake up from your fairytale..a fairytale that you are forcing yourself to believe that he is the one..Being caged in the tall tall tower where nobody can reach you, hear you..Your life is nothing but you prince only..The only thing that you can see from your window is that small piece of sky..Being tied up and treated like a small kid...At first, you thought that your world is prefect..everything was great..but as time goes by...you started to feel that something is not right..Something makes you feel like you cant seem to breath normally anymore..Maybe there are things are you cant see rather than that small piece of sky from your window..Maybe there is another prince waiting for you...But how long do you take to realize that he is not the your prince??

Some tend to fall wrong for the wrong person..A person that you know you can never reach..you know all your limits but you still fall deeper..you still sink deeper and deeper into misery..you know you will get hurt..but you still want to try..you know it will never work...but you still want to give another shot..and the list go on and on again..a never ending sad story...

Some remain happy go lucky even they are single..'Single is the best' is what they always said..but ask yourself honestly..is that what you really want..isnt there any part of your heart is telling you that 'im actually quite lonely'..think again..Dont lie to yourself..

Some put in their soul and heart to win over somebody's heart..Even the petrol price had increased like nobody's business..it would not stop their determination to win the heart of their maiden..^^

'Happily Ever After' is something that everyone hopes for..everyone wants to believe that fairytales still exist ( mostly girls )..but in reality..will it ever happen?? maybe..maybe not..everything depends on your luck actually..how will you ever know that he/she is the right one?? until the day when both of you walking into the wedding aisle and exchanging wedding vows?? you will never know..

So...i felt that i am very lucky now..lucky to have someone beside me holding my hands...

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Yesterday..something happened and i cried like nobody's business..Well..its not because of family and stress this time..but because of him..Some of you might be sick of all those old time stories and stuffs..but this time..it is not because of that reason..

Sometimes in a relationship you just need something to spice of your relationship..every girl would expect their bf to surprise them in some way...im not that kind of person who expect him to buy me LV bag or diamond ring or whatever...i dont demand for things..i dont demand for him to bring me to some expensive restaurant..i just want him to show some sign of appreciation to me..even if he write me a card or cook for me..il be damn touch...

So i dont deny that im trying to hint him that..but when he see the message..he thinks that im comparing him with other guys...He thinks that im that kind of girl who wants expensive gifts as surprise...that will dump him for some rich guys..when i heard that..my heart really hurts and i started to cry...

The person that understands me the most said that..how would i felt..it is like he dont understands me at all...thats why i cried...i know he is upset..thats why he said those things without realising that it actually hits me in the hardest way..i dont blame him for thinking this way...guys have their egoism...they dont like their gf talking about how good other people treat their gf..Well..im a simple minded person..when i say something..i dont think of other things..other motives behind all my words..i just want to share something with him..thats all...

Well..the problem is ofcourse solved now..because i cant force him to be somebody that he cant be..everyone has their own way of treating their partner..so i cant blame him...Toleration is the most important thing in a relationship..you must give and take..sometimes..you cant just aspect things to be on your own way...

My breakfast and Dinner

okay..i want to join the food blogger fever now...haha..but too bad i dont have a real nice camera..so some of the photo dont look appetizing at all..sorry for the bad quality ya..OKAY..let's proceed to my breakfast for today..Pork Noodle at SS15..

i grab this picture from somebody's blog because i forgot to take picture..Hann Pyng brought me there to eat this famous pork noodle ages ago..Normally people have to wait for their noodle for atleast 45 min..but today we waited for 10 min only..i think..because there were not many people as it was still early and not lunch hour yet...WHY they take sooooo long to prepare this noodle..Because..the tauke cook the noodle one bowl by one bowl..not like normal hawker stall where they cook in mass production..Sooo...the taste is ofcourse better lo...

For me..i love to eat pig's intestine..For some..they might find them disgusting..but for me..it deliCIousss..keke..Soo..i find this noodle quite okay for my standard lo..atleast they are not stingy with meat..the taste of the soup is superb ar..dont know whether it is because of MSG ornot la..but i still find it nice..keke..dont know about the guys..( to the deng group...gimme some comment on this noodle...comment..not in my c-box..haha)

Dinner time--------Woo Ga Chon!!!!! Korean Cuisine time...

i have been craving for korean food since ages ago..i LOVE korean food..haha...KIMCHI...my love..haha..So me and ryan went to Woo Ga Chon and try out their food..Somebody should be tagging along der..but dont have car and sleeping wor..haha..you know who you are ar..keke..Okay..so this is the restaurant----

well..it is not like those traditional Korean Restaurant where you sit on tatami..the enviroment is so-so only..nothing special about the interior..normal..Food ordering time..as for a small eater like me..i cant eat much..and if you want to order BBQ..it has to be for 2 person..which i definitely can not finish..so..cancel that off..Soo..we were served this traditional Korean Tea...it is cold..not hot like those normal green tea or chinese tea..the best thing is it tasted like coffee..i thought i would have dislike it..but actually it was not that bad ^^

This is what Ryan ordered..Bibimba..i know it looks not apetizing at all..sorry ya..it is my phone camera problem..haha...it looks way better when Ryan took it with his phone..but i did not manage to transfer it to my phone..so sorry for the bad quality..Bim BiB Ba is actually something that i really like from Korea..It comes with all sorts of condiments like Sliced carrot, Sliced white raddish, Sliced cucumber...minced meat and an egg yolk in the middle..The interesting thing about this dish is the hot stone bowl..it is burning hot when it was brought out..Soo..you are require to mix everything together with the red pepper sauce..Trust me..the one that i had tried in Korea was just superb!!!! mamamia!! haha..wish i could tried that again..

Our side dishes...Kimchi, Caramelize anchovies, salted vege, White Raddish pickle, some fried thingy and spinach with sesame oil..It was not as good as those i had tried in Korea..can not compare la i know..haha..but still managable..

Then..the Ginseng Chicken Soup Ryan ordered..consist of ginseng and chicken ofcourse..haha..BUT..it is also cooked with 'nasi pulut'..keke..nice lo..the rice is damn soft and it absorbs all the essence of the soup..since this is Malaysia..the ginseng that they put is damn small..the taste of ginseng is not as strong as those you taste in chinese herbal soup..but for this soup..it is just nice..

okay..it looks sucky i know..haha..this is what i ordered..taufu soup..ermm..the one in Asean Cafe is way better..Well..the reason the appearance looks soooo yucky is because the taufu is way toooooooooo smushy mushy..soo..it destroy everything la..it comes with some clams and squib..but it is teribbly small..quite pathetic actually..but the taste was okay though..But..not worth for the money lo.. Well..the side dishes are refillable..We were served with some barley drink and watermelon as dessert..it was complimentary..soo...still okay ar..haha..

Okay..i find that this restaurant is so-so only..the service was quite lousy..they were not attentive enough..the food was okay..not too bad not too good..just a s0-s0..not a thumbs up..the value for money..Well..where can you find cheap korean food wor..our bills added up to RM70..for both of us..soo..still consider okay..not that expensive..Will i dine in again??? maybe..if im lazy to cook at home and lazy to go too far to eat..but not in a few more months..keke

Random post

okie..i have to say something i had done yesterday which is pretty dumb...as i finish blogging..i decided to sms and ask my dad whether i can go to Bangkok..SOo..he ask me when? where? how many people? who am i going with..the usual question parents would ask..Soo..i answer all his questions..and he ask me to ask my mum..and then he said he himself did not have a holiday for years..i was damn sad and pissed at the same time..why?? cause asking my mum means = i can not go..then...i started to cry..yes..i CRIED!!!! i dont know why...tears just rolling down my cheeks...maybe because i was stress at that moment..so..i just cried..the most memalukan thing is i told Reagan i can not go and i cried...

Then..the exciting part..my dad called me because i did not reply his sms..(cause i was too sulking to reply him..)..and i cried again..im crying in the phone with my dad..oh my god..first time in my life..haha..he started to explain to me that i should ask them first..did not say i cant go..just need to tell them first and things...then he ask why am i crying..like that also cry...haha..yar..im still a baby..i can hear from the back my brother was saying 'because you always scold her la' haha..thanks yar bro..at the end..he said something like i can go...

Okay..i know that im really over reacted..haha..i seriouslly dont know why i cried because of that..i was really stress at that time..i have tonnes to study..really felt like bursting out at that moment..so i cried..haha..Sooo...the result of crying------ swollen eyes..haha..everyone thought that i did not sleep because of studies..mana tahu..cry because daddy dont allow me to go bangkok war..Ohya..forgot to mention that my dad sms me after that..saying that 'because today is Father's Day, we allow you to go..by the way..you have not wish me yet..' haha..funny..but people..i already sms him before that..he forgoten..soo..im still a good daughter ok??

okay..im kind of dumb at time..sorry..but this is who i am...sooo...these are some pictures that i never intend to post anywhere because it is toooooo ahem...noob..but since my mood is damn good now..i have decided to post it here..--------enjoy...muakaka...

presenting my small baby...too big ar..can not take together..

and pinky...keke..from memory lane i think...im trying to imitate her expression..ofcourse her lips are more sexy..keke

people said im very blur at time..i guess this is how i look when im blur..haha

okay..so..sick of me??haha..im seriously happy right now..WHY??? because im done with Econs and Accouting!!!!!!!!!!!!! muakaka..seriously relax now..but!!! tomorrow still got sales and marketing paper ar..haha..il go and study after posting this ar..keke..serious..i hope so..

ohya..before i forget!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PTSK!!!!!

Sunday blues

Finally im settled down infront of the computer..I was out the whole day to study with Dai Lou at McD..i spend the whole afternoon studying...first time in my life..normally i cant study in the afternoon..because my room would be too heaty for me to concentrate..i can practically open a tuition centre now..haha..seriously..maybe i do have that teaching genes in my blood..

OKAY..let me explain my family teacher's history to everyone..Both of my grandparents are teachers..my uncle and his wife+my cousin sister are teachers in Singapore..My aunt is also a teacher..As for my mother side..my aunt is also a teacher..What about my parents..yes..my mother is working as a Penolong Kanan HEM in secondary school..My dad is currently a Quantitiy Surveyor lecturer in Inti College..SOOO??? Should i be a teacher..haha..NEVER..maybe lecturer in the future..not now..sorry lo..haha..

Gosh..i really cant imagine how am i going to die tomorrow..serious..Econs and Account + FnB in one day..what the..i also study until i headache already..Seriously got some brain freeze now..and my hands are trembling now..i dont know why..

i was really surprise that my brother sms me just now..he really sms me at the right time..because i was sulking before that..reach home..alone..study alone...thinking about what had happened to me..how i ended in this stupid 'war of bad words'..thinking how dumb i am..thinking this and that..and nothing positive..yes..i was emo..maybe i am really an emo kid..

but whatever it is..il have to suck it all in and get back to study now..il really going to screwd up badly if i dont do so now...So ciao people..

Good Luck to those who are facing the same fate as i tomorrow..haha..Econs and accounts..we will conquer you!!! muakaka...

Blogging before studying

My hands are very itchy now so i have to blog before i go and study...Yes..its my exam season right now..got damn alot to study and i dare to say that im really slacking these few days..i dont know why..so just let me ease my mood to blog and then i can concentrate in my Malaysian Studies..muakaka

Today..nothing much happened..but we actually found out that we are going to get paid RM300 for our training..so at the end of our training..we should be getting RM600..hmm..not too bad..atleast they paid you see..so that money will go to my Bangkok Trip Fund..yes..i have to save for my trip now..i dont think my parents will sponsor me a bit..since im going with my friends..if they do..good for me la..keke

I really felt like talking to Sir Patrick today..i dont know why..i just like talking to him..most of his advices are pretty good and set me into thinking alot..what he said is true..yes..we are young and we should enjoy our life..but..we should use our time wisely and do something that can benefict our lives..learning does not stops in college..We should be out there to learn more about yourself and also the industry that im in now---Service industry..dont be afraid to take the risk..Experience a new thing is not a bad thing..it is a learning process...

If you want to be successful in your life, you have to take the risk..you might not be labled as 'likeable' and people might hate you..but they will respect you..your superior will trust you..Sometimes being direct is must..you must know how to differentiate between working and your personal life..

and one funny little thing..he even gave us some advice on our love life...what the???? from him??? of all people??? haha..but once again..what he said is true lo..sometimes you need to make your relationship BLOSSOM...what's the point of putting the name as a couple but being just a couple and nothing else...what he meant is...you must think ahead..know what are both of your plans are for the future and work on it..not MARRIAGE la..haha..sometimes you need something to spice up your love life...haha..dont think into anything else ar..

We talked about lots and lots of things..cant really remember everything..but what i think is..yes..you must know what you want in your future...sometimes..it is okay to be direct in order to susceed..what i need to do now is..i need to think less about what others think of me...be myself and know what im doing...i know what are my plans in the future..atleast until i graduate la..haha..So...got to work hard and hard..

NOW...its time to study!!!!! *sobsob...damn sad right...study study and study...

SMILE

Its 1.31am and i should be in bed now..but i still feel like writting something..now..im not angry..im not sad..im kind of 'feelingless' now due to what that happened in the morning..Thanks for all my friends who supported me..you guys were great..These is what i call true friends...TRUE FRIENDS..

Im not going to be emo now..as somebody said my blog is full of emo-ish post..im kind of happy now..Glad that i had met people that i can really put my trust on..people that i really respect for who they are..Glad that i did not swirl in my emo-ness all the time..Glad that they were there when i needed them..and yes..ofcourse to my baby..im glad that you actually came up to see me..to release my stress a bit...thanks you..muakxx..love you..

So..is it that hard to smile????

NO

Look at them------

This baby is really happy lo..keke..*wink*

and this..hehe..the cat look so happy..

It is not that hard to smile right?? Some people..they tend to be so saturated with negative energy and they had forgotten how to smile..Dont be stingy in smilling..because smilling actually makes you feel good and it does burns up a few calories..*wink*..Dont always hold on to your grip which will make your life miserable..so not worth it..Life is too short to be negative all the time..Enjoy your life..dont waste time doing something that is pretty dumb and wasting time..

Soo..the moral of this story is..BE HAPPY and SMILE!!!!!

i am happy..no matter what it is..

Last Service

i still want to update about my last service on Monday..

though something happened today..

keke..it was a real memorable service..

the best of the entire whole term..

well..thanks to our manager---Hui

who make it a success!!!!

so its picture time-----

Sean, me, cat and nikki
our whole class..first pic that we took together...(before service)
After service..everyone was holding a bottle of sparkling juice..we aimed at Mr Vinesh after this picture was taken..muakaka..
Sorry..not ready yet..but i find this picture really nice..
okie..the final picture..wayne..you look so drunk..haha..and reagan look sooooo happy..

It was really fun as everyone really cooperate and work together..it was really stressless as it doesnt really involve any technique..so we are happy happy and happy..yupe..it will be the last time for us to go yumcha after service for this term..After our exams would be our training..sure no time to go out as before..

SOOO...

All the best to ALLLLLL of you in your exams..

GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!

as for those who hates me..nobody forced you to read my blog..soo..just stay away..

Stupidity

Hmm...Today something really 'interesting' had happened..it kind of pissed me off at first..but then i realize that i should take it as a joke..what so big deal about it?? just some childish people too free to leave some nonsense comment in my c-box..

You want to play games with me..go ahead and play yourself..i had no business or anything to do with you...if you think that that will bring me down or what-so-ever..dream on..whatever that is between me and brendan is totally our business and got nothing to do with you..who are you to judge us??? and you want to curse my family??? how civilize can that be..put your sense into it..

i am not going to talk anymore..my life has nothing to do with you...you want to make your own life miserable..so ahead..i wont stop you...i wont curse people like you do..because i have my beliefs..and to people like you..god bless you..

......

Im freaking pissed off just now..WHY??? Because somebody condemn me for nothing in MSN..Okay..i was quite busy chatting with my friends..two very important groups...so when you are chatting with a whole bunch of friends..you have to reply damn fast because they are fast..so i was really hook up..and i cant really have time to reply this fella..I said i was busy and il talk to him in another day..SO..this fella..said that he dont trust me..because NORMALLY people wont do that..and he doubt that i will do that in the future..Do you it know it bloody pisses me off when i heard that?? i mean you barely know me..and you ASSUME i will do that..i hate people who talk bad about somebody when you barely know them...i was really in a bad mood already so i offline and i sent a message through facebook to him...basically shooting him..and guess what he replied?? he said that i said i will talk to him when i am free but i did not..( PLEASE!!!!! i OFFLINE ALDREADY!!! OKAY??????? how the HELL you want me to reply YOU!!!!!!)

And then he said dont think you understand me..because you dont or something ( OFCOURSE i DONT!!!! basket!!!! ) he said we merely know each other so ofcourse he will think that i am like that..okie..this point..i support..but whatever..when i read until there..im thinking..what the hell am i doing..talking to some stranger and trying to defend myself..no point..pointless..if THIS FELLA already had a mind set that im that kind of person..so why care about him..screwd it..i dont need anymore bad comments in my life..I HAD ENOUGH!!!!

I dont really give a damn on what others think of me..you want to say im rude, im cheap, im idiot, im acting innocent or im a freaking bitch..go ahead..talk..talk behind my back..just stab it right there..i had enough..why should i listen to all this crap when i know who i am the best???

Ofcourse there are people who are really concern about me..worried about me..i know that i am quite blur and dumb at times..but seriously..sometimes i just did not realize about it..not that i dont care and i dont mind..not that i want to be cheap..il just put it in my mind and be more alert in the future...i seriouslly did not aspect this to come in a sudden..and that stupid FELLA have to come in and screwd up everything..thats why i suddenly dont have mood..soo..dont worry so much about me..im doing fine here..serious..

Let the picture do the talking

Roxy Summer Splash 2008

Today...we went to Roxy Summer Splash..

Which is a total dissapointment..and----

CRAP!!!! total CRAP!!!!!

Okie..why crap???

1. BAD MANAGEMENT:::: the management team should have expected a huge amount of crowd..and yet..they did not come out with a solution and cost tonnes of dissatisfaction..why so??? people were lining up since 10 in the morning..from the carpark entrance..BUT...it was stated in the ticket that the entrance is from the escalator..which is quite dumb..because..people using the escalator can cut through the line and straight away go in to Sunway..Ofcourse people who were lining up for 3-4 hours will get pissed off..then they started to push and push and push..bad words flying here and there..typical Malaysians..

2. BAD TIME MANAGEMENT:::: it was suppose to start at 1pm..BUT..it was delayed until almost 2pm..which is a total waste of time..The highlight of the show should be the performances..BUT..it started off with some games..which is quite lame..then fashion show..Roxy obviously..Then some cover girl and cover guy thingy..we couldnt stand it because it was TOOO boring..then we went home..how smart...

3. STUPID CROWD::::typical Malaysians...ignorant..rude..no patience..no manners..and uncivilize..well..try to be understanding a bit la..though the management sucks..but you just have to behave yourself and stay calm..but not pushing and shouting bad words..some even tried to cut through the security guards and jump over the fence..okay..dont try and show off how civilize you are because we know that you are so not...stop memalukan yourself..shame on you...

Look at the crowd!!!! crazy right???it was packed like hell...

okie..looks peaceful isnt it?? but actually it was damn jammed and packed..people at the back were pushing and shouting..because they wanted to go out..and people on top..were pushing and pushing because they wanted to get in..

OKIE..these are the stupid malaysian buggers who were pushing and shouting bad words..damn it..you can go to hell and eat grass...

Goodie bag...people were lining up since ten because they wanted to get the goodie bag..i was lucky enough to get one..i was expecting some quiksilwer or roxy discount voucher or a seventeen magazine..but this is what i get----

the goodie bag!!! which has a huge ROXY wording and it is in PINK..thats the only thing i like about it...

and then we have the ultra small ROXY perfume..

This is what seventeen gave us..a Seventenn rainbow highlighter..what the..

and then..a Roxy filp flop with the price tag...RM89.90 it seems..dont know whether it is true or not..keke..

Overall..the whole event was just crap..

i did enjoyed myself..because of my friends..not the event...

It was my first time wearing bikini..muakaka..

i damn happy..i know i got nothing to show la..

but still..it was nice..keke..

We all went crazy and stripped every guy's top..so they were all topless..keke..
you got nothing to loose mer..so why scare to strip???haha..

Dont be so shy la..

There were damn alot of hot girls around..(wearing bikini mer..what you aspect??)

so all the guys can cuci mata lo..

even i also get to cuci mata..keke..cool!!!

Il upload our pictures another day after i get it from KING..keke..

Emo-ish

Am i am an emo kid?? ermm..maybe i am..i just like to write something that is very sentimental...can not ar?? Well..these few days he went to Singapore..just came back today..this evening...Ofcourse there were a few pages of our lives that we left out...and we have to catch up a bit when we have the time to talk or sms..

Since he was in Singapore..ofcourse we can't sms that frequent..he was busy with his vacation..and the sms rate is not that cheap...RM 2 for each sms..from singapore to malaysia...One day maybe 1 or 2 sms?? saying good night and that's all..ermm..quite pathetic actually..i seriously felt damn shitty the first day he went..Then i found some entertainments for myself..so it wasnt that bad..atleast i wnt be checking the HP all the time..

So..one good thing..atleast i wnt be aspecting him to sms me that often..if he have the heart to sms me..he will sms me..no point forcing him to do so...right?? im getting use to it now..so..its a good thing..

Well..one thing..i still have my own life to live..he cant be my everything..i cant just put him as my center and dont have my own life...Im not talking bad about him..im talking about myself..me...not him...atleast i am still moving on..not stuck in the same old place..if i am as stubborn as before..our relationship will definitely fall apart as what that happened in the past..now..the thing that i need to get use to it..is when my training starts and his college starts..thats where my biggest concerns are...

Why?? Because when im in training..il be more sensitive than normal days because my life is about work work work and nothingelse..moreover..he will definitely meet his 'friends'..i dont want to talk about that already..because it was a nightmare..you can read my older posts to know what had happened during my last training..soo..il just have to learn how to deal with it..and il see how he handle it..i hope that everything will be fine then..because i seriously dont want to be sad because of that anymore..

So..im being emo once again..thanks to myself..for reminding myself of the past..im so sleepy now..because i barely slept yesterday due to the alcholic overdose..haha..and SOMEBODY called and woke me up.. we went and ate dim sum for breakfast...the same gang..we were planning to have a name for our group of 5...not finalize yet..but il update it real soon..keke..cant wait for tomorrow's summer spash thingy...hopefully i wont get sun burn..peace^^

First time clubbing

hehe..what am i doing at 1.50 am???

blogging..

why???

because i have to wait for my hair to dry...

why so late only bath??

because i just reached home..

why so late only reach home???

because i went to my first ever clubbing at Barcelona

With who???

Wayne, Philbert, Reagan and Ryan..

Am i the rose among the torns????

yupe..ofcourse...

so here's where we went..and yea..my HP camera sucks..the place is just too dark and my HP dont have flash...

not many people yet..because it was still early..before ten...

this is one of their Bar..which is okay okay..not super duper nice..keke

So..how's my first clubbing experience??not too bad..because i manage be still ME..though i drank a few glasses of Whiskey and one glass of Kamikaze...i am so proud of myself..atleast i did not see stars you see..the crowd is just crazy after ten...until i can barely walk..crazy!!! Since im in a club..ofcourse i have to dance right??? Those guys( my friends) forced me to dance on the sofa..what the...im very shy der okay???haha..

But i did..cause there was three girls who were being so high and dancing happily on the sofa...two of them were damn hot..and they are taylorian!!! Ofcourse i can not loose to them right??haha..i am very shy one lo..keke..but i did enjoy being crazy once in a while..

One thing goos about going out with them (wayne, reagan, ryan and philbert)..they will take care of me..since i am so noob and innocent right??haha..soo..thanks for protecting me ya people..you guys were great...though you all forced me to dance on the sofa..but i still forgive u all..keke..

As a conclusion..i really did enjoy myself..it was a once in a life time experience...especially with you guys..but one thing that i dont like..i cant get rid of the smoke smell from my hair..damn it..i wash my hair like 2 3 times lo just now..but it is still there...ish..i have to spray some perfume to cover it up..and i still can smell the smoky smell..ISH...

Thanks for the Flaming Lamborghini..it was awesome..