love is hard

This is actually how i look now...no mood...grumpy...bored...

Maybe because somebody actually did not reply me...sometimes i felt like im being a bit too pushy..but..i just dont understand why somebody can actually totally forgotten about your GF and did not reply her...atleast you should just tell or saying that you are busy or anything...atleast i will understand...dun just leave me hanging on the wall...sometimes..guys just dont understand this simple thing...toleration..there is a limit okay??? if im hard hearted enough..il just forget about him and only sms him when he actually realize that his GF is not replying him and actually not really happy about it...haiz..guess im not the only one facing this problem...

What kar woon said is totally correct..love is hard...nobody is perfect..im not..i never said i am...but atleast il learn...not that i dont understand him..i understand..i know that he cant be that kind of BF other people can...'caring..put GF on the first place..romantic..always care about their GF..reply sms FAST..will always remember that there is someone who is beside him...always surprise their GF'..ofcourse i will feel dissapointed atleast a little BIT...but he is who he is...i cant force him to change for me right??? forced him to be somebody that he is totally can never be..ofcourse i got talk to him before...about this..and he knew also..he said that he is playing game..got something to do...well...excuses lo...guys are like that...not everyone..BUT..haiy...just heart pain lo...

i know in his heart..he still appreciate me...love me and everything...but...he just wont say it out...that is what i think...what i assume...my assumptions...if he wont say it out...ofcourse i wont know right??? i did ask him..'do you appreciate me...etc'..he got say yes...BUT...im like forcing him to say that right??? i ask him why cant you say something like that to me..he said i shut it for him already...i know i did ask him to not to sweet talk with other people..but that's to other people...not ME...right??? im your bloody GIRLFRIEND!!!..okay..i admit im angry when i talk about this...sorry...he said he will say it when the time is right...and when is the right time??? it is not a big deal..just a little dissapointment lo...

well..not really having a fight or anything..we did not fight..but i just need to burp something out now..since i have the time to write...