just for everyone's information...my relationship with Brendan is doing great right now...nothing is impossible right??? i just need to move on and stop picking up the old stories...a big big thanks to all my friends who supported me and helped me...Muakxx..love you guys alot...
Well...HOUSEKEEPING SUCKXX!!!! shit..i can't wait to say that loud man...i just hate housekeeping...First day in housekeeping...Room...gosh....everything is like rush rush rush and rush...i have to keep on moving..what is my job..help to clear the bed...throw the rubbish,,wash the dishes...wipe the all the cabinets...and vacuum the whole damn room...im not in charge of the toilet though...i did not eat anything that morning and oh my god...i am going to faint at any minute...my hands were like shivering like hell because i had nothing in my stomach-----means no energy...then i swear to myself....if im working in rooms again..i will never skip my breakfast...really suffering man....
Housekeeping makes me realize that food...is very important....like really really important...it is sooooo energy straining....everyday none stop rushing and rushing....rushing to finish the room...rushing the get the linen ready...all sorts of shit job to do la....today i suppose to be doing clerk desk....STUPID...they still put me in rooms...yesterday i was like sooooooo happy because it suppose to be my last day im rooms...i was expecting to be sitting down the whole day today...mana tahu....'you follow this kakak and do the room....' WTF!!!! i was damn pissed lo....haiz....fine...il do it...right after i finish what i suppose to do..i had a bad headache and im dizzy like shit....housekeeping...screwd it man....
as a conclusion..my last month in Pasific Regency is going to be a nightmare..i cant wait to end it immediately....like IMMEDIATELY!!!!!!help me....
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Friday, February 15, 2008
My valentines....
''**My 2008 Valentines**''
This is not my first valentine actually...my previous one was in a super ulu camp which ended up kinda funny and weird...But this is year be my first time spending valentines with Brendan and first time celebrating in the real world..haha...
Basically its valentines...cnt be short of choc( which i din recieve any..how sad ), roses and gifts..then go for a dinner or a movie..that's the most normal valentines you can get...well...mine was very normal as well...
My V-Day started with my boring work routine
Dinner in Italianese
( it is quite pricely but the food was superb..drank white wine which makes my whole body flush like shit )
New Balance Shoes
( Yupe...that is my V-Day present..which is quite thoughtful because i was planning to get one...)
Movie-- Jumper
( It was damn cool and nice..Great story line and fantastic effects )
Well...that's all fox...that's my valentines...it sounds boring and lame..bt i actually did enjoy it..because it is my first time experiencing V-Day like every other couples do...Its sweet and nice....
This is not my first valentine actually...my previous one was in a super ulu camp which ended up kinda funny and weird...But this is year be my first time spending valentines with Brendan and first time celebrating in the real world..haha...
Basically its valentines...cnt be short of choc( which i din recieve any..how sad ), roses and gifts..then go for a dinner or a movie..that's the most normal valentines you can get...well...mine was very normal as well...
My V-Day started with my boring work routine
Dinner in Italianese
( it is quite pricely but the food was superb..drank white wine which makes my whole body flush like shit )
New Balance Shoes
( Yupe...that is my V-Day present..which is quite thoughtful because i was planning to get one...)
Movie-- Jumper
( It was damn cool and nice..Great story line and fantastic effects )
Well...that's all fox...that's my valentines...it sounds boring and lame..bt i actually did enjoy it..because it is my first time experiencing V-Day like every other couples do...Its sweet and nice....
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Dillemma...
i recently bump into somebody's blog..apparently it is somebody from Taiwan, married to a guy...it was a very long blog about her marriage life...this story sets me on thinking because it kinda of reflected on myself..i am not saying that i am married...But...something similar...i don't know whether i am the one who is thinking too much or another way round...maybe i am asking for too much..or maybe i still do not know how to appreciate...
The point is...i know i cant be his top priority, i might just come after family, studies or even friends...but i just need him to know that i am his girlfriend..not just a puppet or even a maid...i am not there for nothing...i will always be there if he needs to talk..but he seldom speak about his problem to me...he might go and find other girls to talk to...but rarely me...it sounds stupid for most of the people, but being together with a guy who claims that he can only click with girls is not that easy after all...most of his friends are girls...so am i suppose to not be jealous..even a single bit??? maybe you will say that you should trust him...if you ask me whether i trust him or not...i might just pause for a second or two, and answer you' i do trust him..but......' i know bumping into his phone is very immoral..but...he doesn't like me to touch his phone..even just checking out his songs...he will said that it is his personal stuffs. so will i get suspicious??? of course...sometimes i just want to see what is so great in his phone...the result is...same thing that happens over and over again...sweet talk...if you sweet talk to me..i understand...but to other girls???? last time to his ex-es, now to somebody in college...of course it is heart wrecking...which girls wont??? some girls can...but for me..it is very tough for me to reach the stage where i can just ignore all those messages and trust him...i just don't understand why he can sent those sweet talk to other girls..i just don't understand..
maybe i am not matured enough or maybe i am not open enough??? i seriously don't know already...every time i think about this, tears would be swirling in my eyes...he always talk about personal life...okay..i give you your personal life...after i come back from work..we will eat dinner together...then he will do his own stuffs in internet..same goes to me...after that...i am too tired to stay awake and il just go to bed...he will come after he finish his work..by that time...im already deeply in sleep....i don't know what to say already...maybe this is normal....people tell me you have to appreciate what you have now...don't ask for too much or don't think too much...
being in a relationship is not easy as it looks...there is too much to be learn and too much to be experience...i don't want some pricey gifts, expensive dinner or anything to do with money, i just want to be love and being care by my love one...i never ask him to buy any gifts for me...i never ask him to pay for the meal by himself...that's why i don't spend a lot for myself...instead il be saving the money for us...for his birthday, or some special occasion.even i am very tired or what, sometimes il still stay awake so i can talk to him for a while...il ask the manager of chef to change my off day so i can spend some time with him...even just for a while will makes me happy...am i not thoughtful enough??? am i too naive??? Please don't think that i only think for myself..the truth is...i think very less for myself...
It is not a very big problem actually...but i really do hope that he will take some time and think of what i had said and think throughly...i don't just say all these for fun...i really meant it...can somebody just tell me what should i do???
The point is...i know i cant be his top priority, i might just come after family, studies or even friends...but i just need him to know that i am his girlfriend..not just a puppet or even a maid...i am not there for nothing...i will always be there if he needs to talk..but he seldom speak about his problem to me...he might go and find other girls to talk to...but rarely me...it sounds stupid for most of the people, but being together with a guy who claims that he can only click with girls is not that easy after all...most of his friends are girls...so am i suppose to not be jealous..even a single bit??? maybe you will say that you should trust him...if you ask me whether i trust him or not...i might just pause for a second or two, and answer you' i do trust him..but......' i know bumping into his phone is very immoral..but...he doesn't like me to touch his phone..even just checking out his songs...he will said that it is his personal stuffs. so will i get suspicious??? of course...sometimes i just want to see what is so great in his phone...the result is...same thing that happens over and over again...sweet talk...if you sweet talk to me..i understand...but to other girls???? last time to his ex-es, now to somebody in college...of course it is heart wrecking...which girls wont??? some girls can...but for me..it is very tough for me to reach the stage where i can just ignore all those messages and trust him...i just don't understand why he can sent those sweet talk to other girls..i just don't understand..
maybe i am not matured enough or maybe i am not open enough??? i seriously don't know already...every time i think about this, tears would be swirling in my eyes...he always talk about personal life...okay..i give you your personal life...after i come back from work..we will eat dinner together...then he will do his own stuffs in internet..same goes to me...after that...i am too tired to stay awake and il just go to bed...he will come after he finish his work..by that time...im already deeply in sleep....i don't know what to say already...maybe this is normal....people tell me you have to appreciate what you have now...don't ask for too much or don't think too much...
being in a relationship is not easy as it looks...there is too much to be learn and too much to be experience...i don't want some pricey gifts, expensive dinner or anything to do with money, i just want to be love and being care by my love one...i never ask him to buy any gifts for me...i never ask him to pay for the meal by himself...that's why i don't spend a lot for myself...instead il be saving the money for us...for his birthday, or some special occasion.even i am very tired or what, sometimes il still stay awake so i can talk to him for a while...il ask the manager of chef to change my off day so i can spend some time with him...even just for a while will makes me happy...am i not thoughtful enough??? am i too naive??? Please don't think that i only think for myself..the truth is...i think very less for myself...
It is not a very big problem actually...but i really do hope that he will take some time and think of what i had said and think throughly...i don't just say all these for fun...i really meant it...can somebody just tell me what should i do???
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