New Motivation

I am always a person who plan ahead of time, thinking what to do next, what to eat etc etc. But in career wise, everything was put on hold once I came to Singapore. Previously, what I want was to start off my career in Singapore and I had achieved that. So what is next? I am always thinking what is next, but honestly speaking, I have no idea. 

I know I am always complaining about work, because it is indeed frustrating. My initial plan was to stay within the company for one year, and move on to my next stop. Till then, I will suck it in, and stay at where I am now.

If you have read my blog since long long time ago, you would have notice I had mentioned about this senior that I worked with last time, actually not only one, but one couple. When I was young and naive, they sort of bash me up in a good way of course, and ever since then, I always put them as my role model. I even went back for part time a few times, not because I love that company particularly, its because I enjoy working with them. 

Somehow, all of us ended up in Singapore now. Having lunch with them makes me realize that hey, that is what I am suppose to do, not serving breakfast with endless complains and not able to do what I want to do! I should be doing something with better career advancement, I should be uplift myself, I should work hard to be somebody, not just a small peanut in a company! I can do better than this! I should!

I always have this plan in my head, but I don't have the guts to pursue it because I need to start from scratch. Others had taken the cert years ago, but here I am, fresh with faded knowledge since three years ago. Before, I don't have the money to do so. Now, I have, but the question is, should I do it or not?

WHY NOT! There is no harm is learning something new, no harm is trying something new. It is not like buying clothes or accessories, knowledge and skills will stay with you for a long long time if you use it wisely. So what am I waiting for! 

There you go, first, resume send. Secondly, I need to swallow a 900 pages worth of wine bible. Yeap indeed, wine bible. Then I need to take my cert, and pray hard that I will be hired. No more fooling around, and working without a goal. The goal is set, and I need to set off right away! Work hard, study hard and pray that everything will fall into place. I can do it!!!!

Dark Brown

I am a very kiamsiap person, like very very kiamsiap. That is why whenever I used my money on something, my heart will pain like hell and I will whine about it for a long long time. Out of no where ( Well, I did thought about it for a long long time, but have not really made up my mind before this ), we went to the hair salon and I came out with my hair dyed. And it is not cheap. TT

I don't know any good neighborhood salon, hence I settled for a well known one instead. Gosh, my forehead is so obvious in this picture. Goldfish forehead.

I choose dark brown as it is not too obvious and my mum won't get a heart attack when she sees me.The color looks more obvious now after one week, so let's see how long it will last. =) Even though I burnt a hole in my pocket, at least I finally done something that I always wanted to do.

B also had a hair cut and I thought he looked super handsome in this picture.hahahaha. =p

Sometimes, you need to break your normal routine in order to feel like you are still alive and kicking, even though it is not cheap.

Anyone going for Russells Petter show in Singapore? Can't wait. I am sure it would be a great night! 

Sometimes, I am very jealous with people who had set a clear mind set of what they want to be and what they want to achieve. It is not that I don't have one, just that I still have a choice. While clearing my mind and setting my goal, I need to gain as much experience and earn as much money as I can. Nothing in this world is possible without money. Well, some may disagree, but, its a cold hard fact.

You need money to get married, you need money to buy house, you need money to start your own business. Everything needs money. Yes, money may not buy you happiness, but money may lead you to happiness. Oh well, off I go to work now. 

p/s I had a good good rest for the past few days because I slept quite early. Thumbs up and keep it up! =)

Just me..

I..am not a funny person
I..am not a cute girl either
I..have mood swings
I..dislike people who interfere with what I am doing
I..dislike having not enough sleep, hence, emo
I..don't like changes

I..am very serious when it comes to work
I..like to do things in order
I..like to plan ahead of time
I..will panic if everything does not go fall in place
I..am very kiamsiap
I..always, never fail to cry whenever I watch anything to do with dog misfortune
I..take things personally

All in all, I am an insecure person, not funny, boring and like to sleep.

I know, I know everything about myself. Maybe not ALL, but most of it. I know that I am not perfect, flaws is what made me who I am today. Maybe to some people, I am too uptight, well, I am very uptight towards myself anyways. I took three months to finally decided to walk away with new lingerie because I cannot make up my mind. More like I hate to see my money flowing out like that. *Le sigh* Why am I like that?

If only I am a little bit more funny with more charisma
If only I don't plan so many things ahead of time
If only I don't be so kiamsiap
If only I don't take things too personally
If only I am perfectly secure

If, that is if. But, everything that you have or had, makes you who you are today. If I don't have all those in me, maybe I am not Zhi Lin anymore. I am just someone, who wants to be someone else.

The past tense, the present tense, and the future tense. I paint my own life, and is it colorful enough? I wanted to do so many things in life, but always being too scaredy cat to jump out of my comfy zone.I really salute people who can put down all the responsibilities, pack their stuffs and going out to explore the bigger world, to experience what life is really about.

One customers said, ' Life is too short to not enjoy it now.'

Agree much, agree. I need more courage, I need more life. I need to jump out of my comfy zone!

The ugly fact about life is, everything needs money. And you gotta work your butt off to earn money. But while you are earning money, the clock is also ticking away.How I wish I was born with silver spoon.

There is this high school couple who always shouting crying and fighting near my apartment. Her cry is so loud that I can even hear it on 18th floor.

Well, I was once like that ( Maybe not to that extend ). Being clingy, crying baby, superbly insecure, insanely sensitive etc etc. Now when I think back, am I acting my own soap drama at that time? Because you will never realize how silly you were until when you walked out of the shadow, and analyze it rationally. But that is life isn't it? You walk through all those phases to learn what is pain, what is falling in love, what is moving on, what is life. You may make silly mistakes, you may lose a few friends, you may never talk to that person anymore, but, there are billions of people on this earth, you ought to meet some and lose some.

So, let's laugh out loud, cry out loud and play hard in life. Life, doesn't have to be perfect. All those imperfections, flaws, scars, is what makes life so interesting.

I guess I am at the stage where I like to talk like a philosopher. haha. Ah well, I am still young. I am only in my early 20's. hahaha.

Oh by the way, I still like camwhoring though. So, let's end my post with a happy note ya. =p

A great week ahead people! 

p/s I can't can't wait to end my breakfast shift for the week. Damn.

Ola~

Ola! Hello blog, I am back after some time. Well, I am trying to learn how to braid my hair now because I am quite bored with pony tail hair every day. Damn, girls normally are good in it even when they are at a very young age, braiding each other's hair and such. But, thanks to my mum who loves to chop my hair, I was in short hair most of the time when I was young. Is it not too late to start learning now? First mission, achieve French Braiding. Or maybe I should grow my hair longer first? Hmmm. Will see.

Anyways, nothing much is going on right now. Trying to think what I should do when I am back in Malaysia end of May for my Convocation. Only three days to spare hence I need to plan really properly so no time will be wasted. I want to eat SOOOO many things back home! Like Banana Rice, Roti, proper mamak nasi lemak, laksa, yong tau foo, bak kut teh, wan tan mee etc etc. Grrrrr! It is just not the same here as we can get back at home.

Sometimes life can be such a joke you see. When you are not into that some thing, you can see it everywhere. But when you need it, then it is no where to be found. For example, everyday I see my nail clipper hanging around in the room. But when I really need it urgently, it is no where to be found. Or, everytime when I go to shopping mall, I see pretty formal clothes that I adore, but I don't need it at that time because i am not going to wear it. When I determined to get one for Convocation, I could not find any that suits me. Maybe it is hinting me to get whatever that grabs my eye and fits me where ever i go..haha. Nah, kidding. I am too kiamsiap to do so. Desperately trying to save more money now since I am going back soon.

Another thing before I sign off, one must know their own limitations and not to be too greedy. So what if you have SO many things in hand but not one is doing well? In the end, who will have the bear the consequences?

That's all for now, I need to go to work now. Ciaossss~