To this very special man

I am not a perfect girlfriend I know..I am whinny..I have a temper at times 'ahem'..I can be a little childish and sensitive..and I am insecure..

This very person since college time, had thought me to have faith in myself especially in studies..Even though I practically swallow the notes before exams, I am still worried that I can not do it...It is he, who became  my study partner, my motivator especially when he can remember almost everything even i study more..hmph! and also my ohmmm calming partner.

As we both started our first job in Singapore, life has been pretty good because I have him by my side. Without him, I don't think we can make it through our first month without any income here. I don't feel so lonely because I know at the end of the day, he will still come back to me after work. I had been fed with good home cook food pretty well because we both cook for each other. When I need to have the urge to spill out everything, he will always lend me his ears even though I know it is pretty irritating.

I still have a lot that I need to improve in, and a lot that I need to learn.

I don't want to be like a whinny and naggy housewife. Ermm..Maybe once in a while just to loose some steam? haha..I will learn to leave all those emotional stress at work in the restaurant, and walk home with a smiley face because I am happy to see my darling after a day at work..

I will learn 'yes, try and learn again..haha' to control my sensitivity and insecure that I had yet to overcome. oppps. Girlsss..ya me.

One day, we will also have the lavish to go on a very good vacation together again ya. Now, just suck it up and work our butt off to save money. =)



Thank you darling for the surprise! It was a really sweet one, especially after work. =) And I, will also love you forever and always.

Kaka, sorry for the tears before that. =p

To this special man in my life..I lubo lubo you..XD

Its all in your mind

Now only I realize that I am so immature to let these little people to hit me so hard and left me burning in anger. I should have shrug it off and move on like a warrior, not whining like a old woman. I am so angry and pissed off at certain people because of how selfish and ignorant they are, and it made me into a protagonist.

It is not easy to control my emotions, especially anger and damn, it has been a while ya? What I need to learn, is to accept the fact that in any work, there will be good people, and bad people. Learn from the good ones, and take them as your role model. Learn from the bad ones, and never be like them.

My goal is to save money and gain experience. Never forget that, and always keep that in mind. Life, is never easy. You will meet all kinds of people, the ones that will hurt you, and the ones that will help you. It is all in how you control your mind, and how good you master your emotions.

Lastly, never give up until you gave it all. Keep pushing my limitations and see how far I can go. I will see how much I can endure, and when enough is enough, then it is time to let go. Sometimes life is not about earning money right? It is how you live it with no regrets. My happiness, is still my top priority.

Gotta try and remember everything that I have said, and hopefully I will slowly learn how to survive in this industry.

Five Balls

Five Balls
From the book "Suzanne's Diary to Nicholas" by James Patterson

Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling some five balls in the air. You name them - Work - Family - Health - Friends - Spirit, and you're keeping all of these in the air.

You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. But the other four balls -- family, health, friends and spirit are made of glass. If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged or even shattered.

They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for balance in your life. How?

1. Don't undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special.

2. Don't set your goals by what other people deem important. Only you know what is best for you.

3. Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as you would your life, for without them, life is meaningless.

4. Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past or for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live ALL the days of your life.

5. Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.

6. Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect. It is this fragile thread that binds us together.

7. Don't be afraid to encounter risks It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.

8. Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find. The quickest way to receive love is to give; the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly; and the best way to keep love is to give it wings.

9. Don't run through life so fast that you forget not only where you've been, but also where you are going.

10. Don't forget that a person's greatest emotional need is to feel appreciated.

11. Don't be afraid to learn. Knowledge is weightless, a treasure you can always carry easily.

12. Don't use time or words carelessly. Neither can be retrieved.

Happy CNY!

HAPPY CNY everyone!

I know its a little tad late, but im pretty much caught up with my drama so I don't have much time to blog..haha..How was your CNY celebration? This is perhaps the most heard question in this week..As for mine, well, it was very much spent on work..@@ But, it is all worth it because I will have four days off next week. Yeahu! Cannot wait to go back and indulge in my yummy foodie at home..XD

First time CNY away from home, and its pretty, okay. haha. Not too bad as I am not really that homesick type. As long as I can sleep well, eat well, I am pretty much contented. But, of course if I have the chance I would like to go back as well. CNY in Singapore is very much, scary I must say. Like in Malaysia, even though it is a public holiday, not everywhere is close, especially mall. They will still operate as we love to go out on CNY. But here, everywhere..i mean EVERYWHERE is close. The only FnB outlets available in malls will be fast food outlets like McD, KFC etc. TT

I was starving like mad on CNY eve and it is quite pathetic right if my 'Reunion Dinner' is spent at a fast food restaurant. In the end, we found Nandos and we are happy enough to sit in and have our dinner..Thank god. At least we don't have to eat burger..haha..

Because I don't have the chance to like go out for visitings this year, I have been religiously wearing red if I have the chance to. haha..

And then I realize, I have quite a few red outfits ya..not bad not bad..=p

While everyone enjoying their good food at home, I had developed an red eye as a result of not enough sleep. And I have to wear specs to work for two three days in order to let my eyes to recover. Damn...I hate wearing specs..TT Even on my birthday..huhuuuuu...

Oh yes, as usual, my birthday falls on CNY, again. And lucky me I can rest at home because my manager arrange my off day on my birthday. But, B is working pulak...Damnnn! Nevertheless, we did went out for lunch...Korean food ftw! Yeahuuuu..

Our fav Korean Mixed Rice..=)

As for my birthday treat, we bought ourselves a new phone each! And it is my favorite Samsung S2! Yeahuuuu..

We had been craving for this phone for a long long time and somehow, this phone is always out of stock because the demand is very high. Then at the same time our Nokia phone is giving us headache because it always hang and black out. So! A little treat for ourselves! And thank you my darling for sponsoring my phone! MUAKSSSSS..Me LOVE you! =)

Loving My Love cover! <3 <3

So, I am already 23 years old. *Damn!* But nevertheless, no matter how much I dread aging, it will still happen anyway..haha. So that's all for now. I need to get ready for work soon! A lovely week ahead to everyone! 

Happy CNY again! =)

The Ugly Truth about Working in this Line

The Ugly Truth about Working in this Line

1. People always consider Doctor, Pharmacist, Engineer, Professor as working professionals, but what about us who are in Food and Beverage industry?

People always have this kind of perception that everyone can work as a waiter or waitress, and you do not need a degree certificate to do so. We may not be major in Biology, Chemistry, Physics and sorts, but it doesn't mean that hospitality course is very easy, and it also doesn't mean that working in this line is a peanuts job. When you woke up from your holiday and heading towards the hotel's buffet counter, who is the one who set up the buffet counter for you? Who are the ones who are sweating like mad behind the kitchen counter preparing your breakfast? You may need to rush for your early flight, but we need to wake up even earlier to prepare everything in the restaurant.

Customers come in to the restaurant, look at menu and order. But menu planning is not as simple as ABC, you need to calculate food cost, research, food tasting after food tasting, seeking approvals and all. Then when we prepare the food and drink, we need to think about food safety, need to follow standard, need to practice, need to train new staffs, need to monitor the operations. @@ But, not everyone knows that!! But once again, every industry also has its problem, I am just stating from my point of view. 

2. Not everyone will appreciate what you do, including the higher management.

The very frustrating thing about service line is that people may not remember everything that you have done right, but will forever remember the things that you had done wrong. You may have an excellent service all along, but once you made one small little mistake, it may even affect the restaurant's reputation, especially you are holding bigger responsibilities.

We worked during public holidays like Christmas, Chinese New Year, National Day where else other people can take a break from work. And who are the ones who are serving food in the restaurant? And yet, some people they do not appreciate what we do, and only blaming us for obvious reasons like not getting a table, slower service etc. Its the same thing like going to a shopping mall, you know that public holiday people will surely flock into the mall, hence it is harder to find parking, getting cramp up in retail shops etc. Same goes to restaurant, when there is a bigger crowd, you may need to aspect a queue and the waiting time for food will be longer as well. But, sad to say this, not many people will understand.

Then you bust your ass off to work for the company, people from the higher management will come and give you unnecessary stress because they simply do not understand how operation staff works. Let me give you an example, company will always want to get higher profit margin, hence they want to save cost and cut cost. Money don't fall from the sky don't they? You want to get higher profit margin, firstly, you need to provide good service and good food for the customers because customers are the ones . By doing so, you will need to have enough manpower and resources to cater for that. If you want to cut down the manpower cost, fine, Then at least provide us with a good tools to work with. But, coffee machine don't know how old already, this not enough that not enough. Wah, and you aspect us to be technician and maintenance also? And the worst thing is, they don't understand the fact that it is not easy to run a restaurant operation. The least you can do, is to motivate the staffs to work better. You know like bonus, compliments and all. ( Everything that we learnt from the book ) But, the owner may compliment you, then those who works under the owner come and stress you with this and that. What is the point? haiy.

To be continue~~~

CNY mood anyone?

Today is my off day again ( Well, apparently we need a good rest before the store officially open this Friday ) and we went down to China town to have our lunch sambil berjalan-jalan. Before this, I have already seen part of their CNY decoration and oh my, today is a huge eye opener for me. Every where that I walked, there will be  people selling lanterns, cute dragon plushies, CNY goods like peanuts, candies, guazhi, hanging tanglung deco, ang paos, pomelo, chinese sausage and lots lots more. Its SOOOOO CNY...I have never really experienced CNY atmosphere like this for a long long time. And we even found a very good bargain for cookies..XD

And I thought I am not going to have any CNY cookies this year..=p nononono..Next stop, hunt for Ba Gua..

I remembered when I was really little, we used to make cookies together at home, spring clean our house before CNY, go for CNY shopping etc. But, things has slowly changed as my parents became more busy, me and my brother had grown up hence we spent lesser time at home.And for many reasons, CNY celebrations slowly became more simple and less elaborate as time goes by. I really miss those good old times when CNY is the biggest anticipation of the year. Oh well, things changed ~~

I am now away from home and I really want to go home for CNY. But due to the delays of the restaurant opening, we still cannot finalize whether we can take leave and go back to Malaysia. Hence, we cannot buy tickets as well. Air ticket price is rocket high now,and bus tickets are limited. So pray pray hard that our boss will make up him mind whether he wants to close for CNY or not soon.

Playing around with my camera and I love my hoodie! haha. Oh, this is the top I am talking about in my previous post. Love it to bits. =p

Anyways, our outlet is finally opening this Friday ( Thank god ) and our real work is going to start now. Pray pray hard that everything will fall into place and go on smoothly. Fighting!!!!

Shopping day!

Since I am wearing uniform to work, the only time I could dress up nicely would be on my off day. No matter how lazy I am, I will try and spend more effort on my appearance and dressing since its my only time of the week to look good and feel good. haha. 

I know it may sounds a bit vain, but what to do...=p Since CNY is just around the corner and I am staying near China Town, the CNY mood is really hitting me. I also want to go for my CNY shopping!!! Hence, grab my money and went for clothes hunting. 

Its not a lot, but definitely enough for now since I will only dress up on my off day..huhuuuu..I know I may sounds a bit jakun, but its my first time buying F21 le! haha. As a student, F21 in Malaysia is always out of my budget, hence I rather stay away from it in case I see anything that I really like. But in Singapore, its really affordable especially during sales. So don't care, grab whatever that I think is nice. 

As usual, its not easy to find something that fits me, so I am going into loose clothings now rather than those body hugging ones. Makes my life easier and makes my mum happier. haha. 

Posting this picture because I like it. Muahahaha..

While everyone is dressing up more maturely, I am going against the flow and bought a pink back pack instead. =p

I really like this bag as it is pink color obviously =p and I could put in my files and all to work. Though I pretty much looks like a high school kid. I don't mind and I don't care. As long as I am happy, it is okay to pamper myself with things I really like once in a while. =p

Have a great week ahead! Stay happy! =)

p/s Damn, I'm turning 23 soon. TT

Its the ever famous Year 2012!

Hello 2012!!!!!!!

Happy New Year everyone!!! New Year, New hope, New start..everything new new new! =) Hopefully in this very new year everything will go on smoothly and everyone to be in the pink of health through the year..*fingers crossed*

First day of the year, and its freaaaaaaking busy in the restaurant especially for ice cream..Since not many part timers want to work on New Year, hence I have to be behind the dip case to assist them. I have been scooping ice cream nonstop through the night and resulted super fatigue body right now. Thank god I have my off day right now, resting at home and enjoy doing nothing but watching drama. haha. Awesome thing. Probably I'll take a nap soon also..hahaha..talking about lazy bums..

Just received my full month salary not long ago and damn, after calculating all the money that i might spend, suddenly I felt poor. haha..Yea I know, I think too much and being too kiamsiap. What to do, I am like that so please bear with me. =)

Have you ever walk around the shopping mall and came across with this particular clothes that you really like and you are being very hesitant on whether you should buy it or not, hence you walk around the shop conflicting with yourself. During the self conflicting period, here comes this woman who grabs on the last piece of clothes that you like and bought it on the spot. DAMN! For your info, its a super soft and thin sweater with a hoodie that you can even wear to sleep ( p/s its only 10 dollar because it is on sales ) Talking about being kiamsiap, who can beats me ya. haha. 

Then ever since then, I have been frequently going back to the same shop to see whether they have restock or not. And thanks to the New Year's luck, they have it restocked and even have it in size S! Yeaaahu. Grabbed it and paid on the spot. haha. The lesson of the story is, If you see something that you really like, grab it before it is gone. Sames goes to everything in life..=) 

As you work longer in this industry, you will meet different kind of people and customers along the way. You get angry, you get frustrated, but at the same time, you will learn how to deal with it better in the future. I am trying to be positive all the time, and trying to overcome my physical limits. Life is all about pushing the boundaries to be a better person isn't it?

Anyways, time to take a nap now since its my off day..wheeeeee~~~Have a great week ahead people..=)

Inconsideration

Last day of Year 2011 and I have to endure this kind of shit. Mada..If you have read before my status in facebook, I have housemates who washes their clothes every single day...EVERY SINGLE DAY! There is once, they went back to Malaysia for one week. And guess what, either they do not have a washing machine in Malaysia, or they just love the washing machine here. They washed their clothes for three four times in A day! And that lasted for two or three days. They washed their bedsheets, blanket and everything! Fine, I understand them being a clean freak and all.

Me and b, we are working in a restaurant and we need to wear uniform right? So of course we won't be given 7 sets of uniform, the most also 4 sets. It is understandable right if we need to wash like every 2 or 3 days? But the thing is, our little neighbor next to our room washes clothes everyday!!! Imagine my frustration when I need to hang my clothes when its ALWAYS full! So in order to get my clothes dry, I NEED to dry my clothes. SO its pretty understandable if I need to push their clothes to aside so I could hang mine! Come on! You aspect me to hang where huh?Even if I push their clothes to one side, I make sure that those bloody clothes still have spaces in between.

Fine. Then today! This female come and tell me that her bra was stained because I push their clothes to one side. Excuse me! It is not my fault for you to buy some cheap skate bra that will discolor SO easily. And pleaseeeee~ Sometimes you do push our clothes to one side as well alright! And did any of my clothes stained because of that?

And I still remember clearly that you guys told us that you all don't use the fridge downstairs because you have one in your room. And now you are demanding us to clean up the fridge because CNY is coming and you need to use the fridge??? Come on! We only uses the second level of the fridge and also the side because no one uses it. Please observe first before you accuse us. And it is bloody rude of you to tell us that you are just telling me incase when you clean up the fridge, you will throw away some things. Who are you to do so huh?

Talking about inconsideration! I HATE HATE HATE this kind of housemates! And bloody hell they are from Malaysia as well. Such a disgrace and such a biatch! Gosh! I am burning in anger now. GRRRRRRRRRRR~~~

In this New Year I want~

In this New Year I want ~~~~

I want to save a lot lot lot of money
I want to have a nice vacation with the money I earned
I want to buy my family a nice dinner
I want to buy my besties a nice dinner as well
I want to get a new phone
I want to perform well at work so I could be promoted *being hopeful*
I want to have a great time with B

Besides,
I want to be a good daughter and a good grandchild
I want to be good friend
I also want to be a good girl friend XD

Last but not least,
I want to be healthy
and I want to be happy always

Put aside my negativity,
Put aside my temper,
Put aside my clumsiness
and put aside my forgetfulness

May Year 2012 would be the greatest year of my life =)

That is all, I hope it is not too much to ask for..=p

2011 Year Summary

Its the end of the Year 2011 already, how fast time flies ya. Going through my facebook pictures and everything that happened in this year just came back to me..So let's see what I did in year 2011..XD

Had a great time at Sunway Lagoon with my besties ( Pre Birthday Celebration XD)

And of course, date with B on my Birthday..

Oh no! Im turning 23 soon! huhuuuu~~~

Then comes CNY celebration with my family..oh well, it would be harder to do so since I started working already..=(

Then comes Valentines Celebration...<3 <3

Where we had our tea time set at Delicious..slurrrpsss

And homecooked dinner..=)

The best part of all, our France Trip....^^

And the best part, I get to go on this trip with B..=)

And this little dessert here deserves a large picture...Ispahan from Pierre Herm! Oh la laaaa~~ The best dessert on earth..

Not forgetting the friends I went together with..=)

Last day at campus, last day of degree classes..=(

Our last gathering with our dearest lecturers..

My dad's birthday celebration..

Gathering with my dear friends..

Then comes internship on the hill..my Hainan Cafe where we always online..

Wearing formal to work everyday

My and my bro trip down to Singapore with our dearest

Then comes the second best part of the year, Krabi trip..=) =)

Love the sunshine and beach! =) =)

And now, we are working in Singapore

Going through all my pictures, I realize that this year was indeed a fruity year for me. I had been through the toughest part of the degree year which is doing dissertation, completed my classes, and ended my student life with a distinction. I had flew all the way to France and experienced the best time of my life there, flew to Krabi and had a great time enjoying the sunshine and good food, traveled down to Singapore with my family to visit Universal Studio. Besides ending my student life, I also manage to secure a job in Singapore and settled down from where I am blogging now. haha. A hell of a ride, but all worth while. XD

I think I had manage to achieve most of the things I had expected myself to do so last year, and bravo to that! hahahaha. *Self praising*..=p Well I think in life when you have achieved the goal that you have set for yourself, it is worth praising for. At least for myself la..haha..Now that I am at working phase now, time to set new goals for myself and work towards a better future! Fuh! 

Nevertheless, I am grateful for things to work out so well for me and I am thankful to all my family, friends and my dear B for being there for me, and being supportive towards what I do. Love you all, and let's pray hard that 2012 would be a better year. =) 

Cya! <3

Ho ho ho

Oh yes, MERRY CHRISTMAS to all! =) I was too busy at work these few days I couldn't get myself to blog because I was too tired...but nevertheless blessed Christmas to all...

These few days has been really tiring and I was behind the dip case ( Scooping Ice Cream ) most of the time as they do not have enough staffs to cater for the large crowd. If you think it is an easy task, mind you, it is tiring as hell. Scooping ice cream for 3 or 5 customers may not be a problem, but when the crowds started to flood the dip case and you have to scoop fast to clear the line, that is when it is the most tiring. My hands and clothes were stained with ice cream, sweating, energy almost gone but still needs to continue scooping, refilling the ice cream bulks which weights around 6-7kg each.Yeap, my Christmas was pretty much spend on work. TT

After working for one and half month, this is what I get =>

Mini Mouse! haha. I am not joking though. I can really feel my biceps muscle now. =p Hopefully I can maintain it alright?

Its almost the end of the year now, time for summary of year 2011 ya! That, I will do it on another day so I need to go to bed now. Time for some real work at my outlet tomorrow. Hope for the best! =)

Its going to be payday soon! YAY!!!!

Responsibilities

Life here..

Everyday we have a same routine, but nevertheless, the responsibilities are growing..I constantly remind myself to do better each time, to make lesser mistakes during my closing...I am not good when it comes to money, or numbers, and I knew it better than anyone..People can do it just like that, and I have to think deeply before getting to the results..When I am dealing with money, the worst thing is to do, is to give me stress. It will confuse me more, and i will take longer time to get the things done. I get very disappointed with myself at times like this, but promise myself that I will do better next time.

In the past, I was always the trainee, intern where I do not hold much responsibilities at work. But now, as I am the supervisor, things has changed and I have to accept the fact that I am no longer a trainee or intern, but a person who has certain responsibilities in hand. Trying to adjust myself and hopefully I will adapt into that position soon enough. XD

Apart from that, I had finally received my degree results!!!! YEEEEEHUUU~~ I was nervous as hell and I don't even dare to open the folder. I even used my pillow to cover my face when the results is displaying right infront of my face. haha. After half and hour or hesitation,I scrolled down to the very last page and what I saw, was just Very honorable Pass. My face immediately turned black and slowly scroll back up to see my actual results. Then I see see see, ei? My marks should be qualified for Very Honorable Pass with Congratulations from the Jury. Did I see it wrongly? Then I realize, I misread my results and it was actually Very Honorable Pass with Congratulations from the Jury!!!!!! (In another way, it is the highest honors in my course. XD)

So yeaps, I had finally achieved my degree target and I am pretty satisfied with it! Double Joy as B also received the same results as me! Cannot wait for Convocation next year! YEAAAAAHU! 

Anyways, I gotta go now. Time to go to work! XD Till next time people! 

Little things that I have in my mind

Greedy

Everyone tend to be greedy at one point. Like me, before I have access to internet in Singapore, I was praying hard so I can at least check my facebook and email at home without running here and there just to online. Then once we have mobile broadband, I am hoping that the speed will be faster so I could watch my drama. But come to think of it, I should be grateful to what I have now as I am able to online whenever I like at home. Be grateful, be humble. =)

Politics

Who will ever like politics at work? I am trying my best not to get involve in any conflicts and remain in my peace zone. But, it is quite hard to resist myself from not liking certain people that I work with. Reasoning is simply because our working culture and attitude contradicts. I don't like to clean up other's work, and I certainly hate people who sulk up on me just because they want to make sure I will not back out on them. Well sorry sister, I will only do the right thing and will not disintegrate my working principle for something that I know is wrong. But again, there are always people that will guide you along the way, and these are the kind of professionalism that I respect and look up upon. 

The Dish Washer - Ah Ne

When I work, I like to work with people who are sincere at what they do. Like the dish washer Ah Ne in my restaurant, he works for more than 12 hours in a day and yet, he will never loose his smile. He cycle to work everyday even though his house is quite far away and then again, he is never late. I respect him a lot, hence I always, without fail will thanked him whenever I pass him the dirty dishes that I had cleared. One day, I say thank you in Hindu to him and oh my, his face instantly light up and sincerely smiled back at me. If only everyone has this kind of working attitude at work, hmmmmm.

Muscles?

During my last internship, most of it was office work, hence I rarely need to carry heavy things and walk around with the speed of light. But ever since I started work in Singapore, I have to carry heavy groceries whenever I go for groceries shopping, clearing heavy plates moving things etc. I think, I have developed some bicep muscles. Yay! haha. 

Lousy System

I finished my final exams in May and my results are only out on the first week of December. ( The office lady said our results should be out in November when I first asked ) And now, I was told that our convocation will only be held on May 2012. What is this man! I was happily telling everyone that my convo will be held in February and now, it is postpone. Grrrrrr. And yeap, I will only receive my degree certificate after my convo. *sigh* What if I really need that certificate to apply for job? What if my company will only hire me after they see my degree certificate? ( Well, the company that I work with doesn't mind much so thank god.) *long sigh* 

Worried

My results are out, and I have no idea what I had scored. Will it be a straight distinction? Or will it not be as what I hope for. Damn. Why do I always have to be so worry for my academic results? Honestly right, my results will not affect much on my future as most companies only need your degree certificate and working experiences. It matters to me in a personal way because I take it as my life achievement. I was hoping that I can keep up with all my previous record since primary school and end it with a good record. It is not kiasu, it is just my personal challenge. =) So please, give me something good. Pray hard Pray hard.

Hello Hello!!!!!

HELLOOOOO! Greetings from Singapore!!!! Finally I am connected with the world baby!!! Gosh, who would have knew internet could be SO DAMN important ya.I have been here for two weeks already, going three and I finally got my FIRST, REAL half month salary. haha. Well, i must say, it is really a hard earn money. Gotta keep it really safe and use it wisely in December.

Living in Singapore, is not as easy as we thought as we have limited cash for a start, but at the same time, it is not as hard as we thought. We thought we will have to work our butt off here, but hey, it is quite relaxing ya and we are loving it. Of course you will not encounter much problem because its only less than a month, the demon will only creeps in after some time. Right? But, we are learning new things and learning how to handle an outlet. So, no complaints. =) By the way, we are fed well also because there are always something to eat in the restaurant. haha.

Talking about money, we really really try and save as much as we could when it comes to food. When we go out and order food, it will not be more than 3 dollar for one person ( for a meal), and we are constantly looking around for cheaper options. Then once we had saved enough money to buy a rice cooker, we managed to save even more as we do not have to eat outside that often anymore. Our rice cooker is like our life savior now as we are so dependent on it. We use it to cook rice, cook soup and even pasta. Amazing right? Pictures will be up soon once I have more time on the net. haha.

And thanks to the money that we had saved through home cooking, we are able to get A mobile broadband now. Yeaps, we are only sharing one for the moment. Well, you need to pay a deposit of 200SGD ( for work permit holder) to get a mobile broadband service. Sucks I know, but what to do? So even though the speed now is quite bad, but no complaints, at least I have internet connection now.

All in all, it is a great learning experience for both of us as we are doing this together.Even achieving a simple goal like saving enough money to buy a rice cooker is such a huge accomplishment for us. Soon, we will be raising our bar and slowly getting things to make our life more comfortable here. So yeap, that is all for now and thanks to our mobile broadband, I can update more frequently now. YEAHUUUU....=)

Im leaving, on a bus...^^

2 more days...

I can't believe that I am leaving Malaysia to Singapore in two days...I am feeling anxious and excited at the same time. Anxious because I am leaving my home, family and friends, Excited because a whole new life is awaiting me.

There are so many things that I still want to do here, like eating everything that I will miss in the future, meeting everyone, just relax at home and do nothing, catch up with all the dramas etc. But, time is never enough isn't it? No matter how much of time you have in hands, with a blink of eyes, its gone.

A whole new life. New job, new place to stay, new environment, new people, gosh. Its a bit overwhelming actually. Everything I have to do from scratch myself, everything that I do is on my responsibility, yeap, it is all on me now.

How would it be like? I guess I will only know after I am there and experiencing it myself. Just hope everything will go on well, I will like and enjoy my first job. When I reach Singapore, I don't think I will have access to internet so soon as I need to settle down first. Hence, pray hard that everything will fall into place smoothly, and I can  say that I am ready to rock Singapore once I am back online. =)

So yeap, I will be busy packing up my things and getting ready to move to the big city. To everyone who loves me and care about me, I will take good care of myself in Singapore. So yeap, till next time! Love u all!

Frusfrated

Some words are mean and hurtful, but you never realize that.
You just blurp out whatever that is in your mind without looking back
I rather remain silent, and keep everything to myself

Why I can speak out my mind to other people but not my closest?
Is it my fault?
Or it is just me who must change?

If I have a choice, I will not even ask for that favor
But I do not have the ability now, hence I have no choice

No matter how much effort I had put in something
It is never enough.
Why?

Even after I get a job, there are still complaints
There are always complaints no matter what I do
Get good results so what?
Get scholarship so what?
Get a job so what?
It is never good enough

It is not that I don't know how to think for myself
But it is them who thinks that I don't know how to think for myself
Think higher of me, because I am more mature that what you think

Why should I do things to please other people?
It is my life, and I will walk to path that I want to

Frustrated....

That is why I want to start fresh...Start from zero

Life

Bring it on!

Nowadays when you look around, you see so many people getting married, having children even though they are at my age or younger. Then you think again yourself, are you mature enough to handle all the responsibilities?

I am a person, who walks by my plan. When I have a plan, means I had thought about it thoroughly and know that it is the best choice for me. I don't just only plan ahead, but really far ahead. If you ask me now, what are my plans for the next five, I can answer you with no doubt, but! Plans may differ due to unforeseeable variables like 2012, economic ups and downs, human relationships etc.

After a one-on-one talking session with myself, I realize that at this stage, I am not ready to take the big step yet. Not because I have not met the right guy, in fact, B is the best thing that could ever happened to me. Personally, I do not think that I am mature enough when it comes to my mental strength, and also I need time to work on my financial base before starting a family. Therefore, I am giving myself 3-4 years time to boast my EQ and also to fill in my bank with $$. 

After all the hoohah, everything had calmed down and things will go as what we had planned earlier. Thank god. I also realize that everyone who is around me really care about me and love me a lot even though they are not  very expressive about it. And, I would also like to thank B for being so patient and supportive towards me, and thank god that I had found you in my life. No one, would have done things like how you did, and no one, would have chosen and accept me like how you did. 

Two more weeks, and I am leaving Malaysia on a whole new journey in life ---- joining the work force. Excited? Well, to be frank I am quite excited. I know it would be challenging, tiring and also very stressful, but this is what life is about isn't it? Accept the challenge and survive! haha. 

Bring it on!!!