SMILE

Its 1.31am and i should be in bed now..but i still feel like writting something..now..im not angry..im not sad..im kind of 'feelingless' now due to what that happened in the morning..Thanks for all my friends who supported me..you guys were great..These is what i call true friends...TRUE FRIENDS..

Im not going to be emo now..as somebody said my blog is full of emo-ish post..im kind of happy now..Glad that i had met people that i can really put my trust on..people that i really respect for who they are..Glad that i did not swirl in my emo-ness all the time..Glad that they were there when i needed them..and yes..ofcourse to my baby..im glad that you actually came up to see me..to release my stress a bit...thanks you..muakxx..love you..

So..is it that hard to smile????

NO

Look at them------

This baby is really happy lo..keke..*wink*

and this..hehe..the cat look so happy..

It is not that hard to smile right?? Some people..they tend to be so saturated with negative energy and they had forgotten how to smile..Dont be stingy in smilling..because smilling actually makes you feel good and it does burns up a few calories..*wink*..Dont always hold on to your grip which will make your life miserable..so not worth it..Life is too short to be negative all the time..Enjoy your life..dont waste time doing something that is pretty dumb and wasting time..

Soo..the moral of this story is..BE HAPPY and SMILE!!!!!

i am happy..no matter what it is..

Last Service

i still want to update about my last service on Monday..

though something happened today..

keke..it was a real memorable service..

the best of the entire whole term..

well..thanks to our manager---Hui

who make it a success!!!!

so its picture time-----

Sean, me, cat and nikki
our whole class..first pic that we took together...(before service)
After service..everyone was holding a bottle of sparkling juice..we aimed at Mr Vinesh after this picture was taken..muakaka..
Sorry..not ready yet..but i find this picture really nice..
okie..the final picture..wayne..you look so drunk..haha..and reagan look sooooo happy..

It was really fun as everyone really cooperate and work together..it was really stressless as it doesnt really involve any technique..so we are happy happy and happy..yupe..it will be the last time for us to go yumcha after service for this term..After our exams would be our training..sure no time to go out as before..

SOOO...

All the best to ALLLLLL of you in your exams..

GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!

as for those who hates me..nobody forced you to read my blog..soo..just stay away..

Stupidity

Hmm...Today something really 'interesting' had happened..it kind of pissed me off at first..but then i realize that i should take it as a joke..what so big deal about it?? just some childish people too free to leave some nonsense comment in my c-box..

You want to play games with me..go ahead and play yourself..i had no business or anything to do with you...if you think that that will bring me down or what-so-ever..dream on..whatever that is between me and brendan is totally our business and got nothing to do with you..who are you to judge us??? and you want to curse my family??? how civilize can that be..put your sense into it..

i am not going to talk anymore..my life has nothing to do with you...you want to make your own life miserable..so ahead..i wont stop you...i wont curse people like you do..because i have my beliefs..and to people like you..god bless you..

......

Im freaking pissed off just now..WHY??? Because somebody condemn me for nothing in MSN..Okay..i was quite busy chatting with my friends..two very important groups...so when you are chatting with a whole bunch of friends..you have to reply damn fast because they are fast..so i was really hook up..and i cant really have time to reply this fella..I said i was busy and il talk to him in another day..SO..this fella..said that he dont trust me..because NORMALLY people wont do that..and he doubt that i will do that in the future..Do you it know it bloody pisses me off when i heard that?? i mean you barely know me..and you ASSUME i will do that..i hate people who talk bad about somebody when you barely know them...i was really in a bad mood already so i offline and i sent a message through facebook to him...basically shooting him..and guess what he replied?? he said that i said i will talk to him when i am free but i did not..( PLEASE!!!!! i OFFLINE ALDREADY!!! OKAY??????? how the HELL you want me to reply YOU!!!!!!)

And then he said dont think you understand me..because you dont or something ( OFCOURSE i DONT!!!! basket!!!! ) he said we merely know each other so ofcourse he will think that i am like that..okie..this point..i support..but whatever..when i read until there..im thinking..what the hell am i doing..talking to some stranger and trying to defend myself..no point..pointless..if THIS FELLA already had a mind set that im that kind of person..so why care about him..screwd it..i dont need anymore bad comments in my life..I HAD ENOUGH!!!!

I dont really give a damn on what others think of me..you want to say im rude, im cheap, im idiot, im acting innocent or im a freaking bitch..go ahead..talk..talk behind my back..just stab it right there..i had enough..why should i listen to all this crap when i know who i am the best???

Ofcourse there are people who are really concern about me..worried about me..i know that i am quite blur and dumb at times..but seriously..sometimes i just did not realize about it..not that i dont care and i dont mind..not that i want to be cheap..il just put it in my mind and be more alert in the future...i seriouslly did not aspect this to come in a sudden..and that stupid FELLA have to come in and screwd up everything..thats why i suddenly dont have mood..soo..dont worry so much about me..im doing fine here..serious..

Let the picture do the talking

Roxy Summer Splash 2008

Today...we went to Roxy Summer Splash..

Which is a total dissapointment..and----

CRAP!!!! total CRAP!!!!!

Okie..why crap???

1. BAD MANAGEMENT:::: the management team should have expected a huge amount of crowd..and yet..they did not come out with a solution and cost tonnes of dissatisfaction..why so??? people were lining up since 10 in the morning..from the carpark entrance..BUT...it was stated in the ticket that the entrance is from the escalator..which is quite dumb..because..people using the escalator can cut through the line and straight away go in to Sunway..Ofcourse people who were lining up for 3-4 hours will get pissed off..then they started to push and push and push..bad words flying here and there..typical Malaysians..

2. BAD TIME MANAGEMENT:::: it was suppose to start at 1pm..BUT..it was delayed until almost 2pm..which is a total waste of time..The highlight of the show should be the performances..BUT..it started off with some games..which is quite lame..then fashion show..Roxy obviously..Then some cover girl and cover guy thingy..we couldnt stand it because it was TOOO boring..then we went home..how smart...

3. STUPID CROWD::::typical Malaysians...ignorant..rude..no patience..no manners..and uncivilize..well..try to be understanding a bit la..though the management sucks..but you just have to behave yourself and stay calm..but not pushing and shouting bad words..some even tried to cut through the security guards and jump over the fence..okay..dont try and show off how civilize you are because we know that you are so not...stop memalukan yourself..shame on you...

Look at the crowd!!!! crazy right???it was packed like hell...

okie..looks peaceful isnt it?? but actually it was damn jammed and packed..people at the back were pushing and shouting..because they wanted to go out..and people on top..were pushing and pushing because they wanted to get in..

OKIE..these are the stupid malaysian buggers who were pushing and shouting bad words..damn it..you can go to hell and eat grass...

Goodie bag...people were lining up since ten because they wanted to get the goodie bag..i was lucky enough to get one..i was expecting some quiksilwer or roxy discount voucher or a seventeen magazine..but this is what i get----

the goodie bag!!! which has a huge ROXY wording and it is in PINK..thats the only thing i like about it...

and then we have the ultra small ROXY perfume..

This is what seventeen gave us..a Seventenn rainbow highlighter..what the..

and then..a Roxy filp flop with the price tag...RM89.90 it seems..dont know whether it is true or not..keke..

Overall..the whole event was just crap..

i did enjoyed myself..because of my friends..not the event...

It was my first time wearing bikini..muakaka..

i damn happy..i know i got nothing to show la..

but still..it was nice..keke..

We all went crazy and stripped every guy's top..so they were all topless..keke..
you got nothing to loose mer..so why scare to strip???haha..

Dont be so shy la..

There were damn alot of hot girls around..(wearing bikini mer..what you aspect??)

so all the guys can cuci mata lo..

even i also get to cuci mata..keke..cool!!!

Il upload our pictures another day after i get it from KING..keke..

Emo-ish

Am i am an emo kid?? ermm..maybe i am..i just like to write something that is very sentimental...can not ar?? Well..these few days he went to Singapore..just came back today..this evening...Ofcourse there were a few pages of our lives that we left out...and we have to catch up a bit when we have the time to talk or sms..

Since he was in Singapore..ofcourse we can't sms that frequent..he was busy with his vacation..and the sms rate is not that cheap...RM 2 for each sms..from singapore to malaysia...One day maybe 1 or 2 sms?? saying good night and that's all..ermm..quite pathetic actually..i seriously felt damn shitty the first day he went..Then i found some entertainments for myself..so it wasnt that bad..atleast i wnt be checking the HP all the time..

So..one good thing..atleast i wnt be aspecting him to sms me that often..if he have the heart to sms me..he will sms me..no point forcing him to do so...right?? im getting use to it now..so..its a good thing..

Well..one thing..i still have my own life to live..he cant be my everything..i cant just put him as my center and dont have my own life...Im not talking bad about him..im talking about myself..me...not him...atleast i am still moving on..not stuck in the same old place..if i am as stubborn as before..our relationship will definitely fall apart as what that happened in the past..now..the thing that i need to get use to it..is when my training starts and his college starts..thats where my biggest concerns are...

Why?? Because when im in training..il be more sensitive than normal days because my life is about work work work and nothingelse..moreover..he will definitely meet his 'friends'..i dont want to talk about that already..because it was a nightmare..you can read my older posts to know what had happened during my last training..soo..il just have to learn how to deal with it..and il see how he handle it..i hope that everything will be fine then..because i seriously dont want to be sad because of that anymore..

So..im being emo once again..thanks to myself..for reminding myself of the past..im so sleepy now..because i barely slept yesterday due to the alcholic overdose..haha..and SOMEBODY called and woke me up.. we went and ate dim sum for breakfast...the same gang..we were planning to have a name for our group of 5...not finalize yet..but il update it real soon..keke..cant wait for tomorrow's summer spash thingy...hopefully i wont get sun burn..peace^^

First time clubbing

hehe..what am i doing at 1.50 am???

blogging..

why???

because i have to wait for my hair to dry...

why so late only bath??

because i just reached home..

why so late only reach home???

because i went to my first ever clubbing at Barcelona

With who???

Wayne, Philbert, Reagan and Ryan..

Am i the rose among the torns????

yupe..ofcourse...

so here's where we went..and yea..my HP camera sucks..the place is just too dark and my HP dont have flash...

not many people yet..because it was still early..before ten...

this is one of their Bar..which is okay okay..not super duper nice..keke

So..how's my first clubbing experience??not too bad..because i manage be still ME..though i drank a few glasses of Whiskey and one glass of Kamikaze...i am so proud of myself..atleast i did not see stars you see..the crowd is just crazy after ten...until i can barely walk..crazy!!! Since im in a club..ofcourse i have to dance right??? Those guys( my friends) forced me to dance on the sofa..what the...im very shy der okay???haha..

But i did..cause there was three girls who were being so high and dancing happily on the sofa...two of them were damn hot..and they are taylorian!!! Ofcourse i can not loose to them right??haha..i am very shy one lo..keke..but i did enjoy being crazy once in a while..

One thing goos about going out with them (wayne, reagan, ryan and philbert)..they will take care of me..since i am so noob and innocent right??haha..soo..thanks for protecting me ya people..you guys were great...though you all forced me to dance on the sofa..but i still forgive u all..keke..

As a conclusion..i really did enjoy myself..it was a once in a life time experience...especially with you guys..but one thing that i dont like..i cant get rid of the smoke smell from my hair..damn it..i wash my hair like 2 3 times lo just now..but it is still there...ish..i have to spray some perfume to cover it up..and i still can smell the smoky smell..ISH...

Thanks for the Flaming Lamborghini..it was awesome..

Mr Reagan

Introducing somebody that looks cool but is actually a funny guy inside

teng teng teng

REAGAN

check out these pic and you will know why...

A guy wearing earing in class...and he actually wore it for the entire afternoon..how crazy is that..haha..his trying to look cool here...
trying to be cute..aiyah...reagan reagan...you cant be cute la my dear...haha
jeez...he is hanging the brochures on his ears now..i have to post this picture though i look like im so sick..haha..hey..we look like we are couples right?? people..dont get the wrong picture..we are so not..haha
asked someone to take for us...and i still look like im sick in this pic..ish...and MR reagan here..still hanging the brochures on his ears...saying 'Please DO disturb us.' Sounded so desperate aint we??haha...

Guy with a great voice

Yesterday..we only had one class and an interview with Ms Jasmine regarding to our restaurant assignment..so we had hell lots of free time..Since last week me cat and diny did not sing until gao gao..we decided to go again this week so we can sing until we totally surender..and guess what..we went with ------- DEAN!!! So..what so special about him..here goes..'tall and tan guy..quite gentleman...funny with an ability to make people laugh..crazy fella..INCREDIBLE voice that can make all your goosebumps pops out..' YES..he had a GREAT GREAT voice..i bet every girl with fall for him and be soooo lum when they listen to his voice only..not to say he is not good looking..haha..he is quite okay looking la actually..but his voice is just..yerrr..i miss his voice!!!!!!!! gosh..i should have record it down..

Camera time

:**What i did today**:

RED BOX, WINDOW SHOPPING & lots of Camwhoring!!!

muakaka * evil smile *

So lets see what i took---------

This is a MNG red hot dress..quite nice for my taste..the design of the dress actually makes my boobs look bigger..which is a plus plus point..because i needed it..keke..did not check the price though..
keke..this is what i wore to college today..my formal look...love this top..simple and body hugging..so i have to take a pic of it..ngek ngek..
This is from Wearhouse..i actually find the top really nice..but sadly it is too low for my taste..and i cant wear 'something' because it is too low..haha..and check out the mini skirt..damn mini lo..im kinda scare that it cant cover up everything..but it does!! yeah..my butt is not the big afterall..
this is also from Wearhouse...ermm...it is ok ok only..because the design of the lower part of the body makes my butt looks..fat..wait..can not say fat..must say wider..arrrr..haha..so not my cup of tea really..do you think it is nice???
this is a pic that i find it quite interesting..keke..trying to be cool and sexy mar..but fail lo i think..haha

OKAY..

so presenting my dear cat and diny who join me in the perasan club..muakaka

Yupe..same dress but diff colour from MNG..Diny said that she dont want to take picture with me after she saw this pic..WHY?? she said she looks wider beside me..keke..
all the girls in dress...cat, me and diny
Another set of clothes..muakaka..love my top..
this pic should be quite sexy and nice..BUT...somebody's picture taking skill bermasalah...soo..turns out to be damn blur..so home and practice la my dear..keke..
my sweet cat posing for the camera..miao..you can grab your picture now..keke..

That's all for now..

Changing clothes again and again is quite tiring you know..but fun...keke

My new found hobby..

Something to think of

In our life..we will meet all kinds of people..people that you like..people that you love..people that you hate and people that hates you..well this is life..no one can change it..nobody is prefect..i know that perfectly well..i had tried to be one...but had failed..im not proud of it nor happy about it...No matter what it is..the thing that matters the most is that you know what you are doing and be happy because of it..no point keeping everything inside and let the anger built up slowly...

The hardest thing to do in our life is to forgive people that you hate. Until now, there are people that i seriously hate and dislike..and i told myself that they are not my friends and i couldnt even be bother about it..that seems to be like a wise thing to do..but when i think back..is this the way that i want things to be?? maybe yes..maybe no..i have not learn how to forgive someone yet...i hope that i can be one..but it takes time to learn..

i am just 19..or should i say i am 19 already..haha..i hope i still have a long long way to go..what will happen in the future..i dont know yet...there are tonnes to be learn and tonnes of people that we will meet..each with different characters and personality..some will help you..some will harm you..that's life..the more we see..the more we learn..

Why make you life so miserable when you should live your life to the fullest?? Be happy..dont put everything in your heart..sometimes..it is good to loosen up a bit..dont strain yourself too much..everything that happened has their pros and cons...there are reasons behind it..learn to accept and let it out...

Why am i talking like i am a nun right now??hehe..

well..im just writting out my thoughts..

im missing someone who went to Singapore today...

**i miss you**

love is hard

This is actually how i look now...no mood...grumpy...bored...

Maybe because somebody actually did not reply me...sometimes i felt like im being a bit too pushy..but..i just dont understand why somebody can actually totally forgotten about your GF and did not reply her...atleast you should just tell or saying that you are busy or anything...atleast i will understand...dun just leave me hanging on the wall...sometimes..guys just dont understand this simple thing...toleration..there is a limit okay??? if im hard hearted enough..il just forget about him and only sms him when he actually realize that his GF is not replying him and actually not really happy about it...haiz..guess im not the only one facing this problem...

What kar woon said is totally correct..love is hard...nobody is perfect..im not..i never said i am...but atleast il learn...not that i dont understand him..i understand..i know that he cant be that kind of BF other people can...'caring..put GF on the first place..romantic..always care about their GF..reply sms FAST..will always remember that there is someone who is beside him...always surprise their GF'..ofcourse i will feel dissapointed atleast a little BIT...but he is who he is...i cant force him to change for me right??? forced him to be somebody that he is totally can never be..ofcourse i got talk to him before...about this..and he knew also..he said that he is playing game..got something to do...well...excuses lo...guys are like that...not everyone..BUT..haiy...just heart pain lo...

i know in his heart..he still appreciate me...love me and everything...but...he just wont say it out...that is what i think...what i assume...my assumptions...if he wont say it out...ofcourse i wont know right??? i did ask him..'do you appreciate me...etc'..he got say yes...BUT...im like forcing him to say that right??? i ask him why cant you say something like that to me..he said i shut it for him already...i know i did ask him to not to sweet talk with other people..but that's to other people...not ME...right??? im your bloody GIRLFRIEND!!!..okay..i admit im angry when i talk about this...sorry...he said he will say it when the time is right...and when is the right time??? it is not a big deal..just a little dissapointment lo...

well..not really having a fight or anything..we did not fight..but i just need to burp something out now..since i have the time to write...

CHEESE!!!!

Yesterday i did something real dumb...in our apply tech class..we actually learn how to taste cheese with wine..our lecturers proudly gave us one whole plate full with cheese and grapes...all types of cheese..mozzarela, goat cheese..feta cheese..blue vein cheese and all sorts...so..we were supposed to ENJOY it with wine...soo...for me..im okay with all those cheese except the goat cheese..i just dont like it..suprisingly i can accept the blue vein cheese which 90 percent people find it damn disgusting...haha..look at the picture below...

yupe..we were suppose to finish the whole damn plate..

and this is how it looks when we totally give up and can not take anymore..

yea..we finish most of the grapes..but NOT the cheese...haha..too much to bear la..okie..then what is the stupid thing i had done...they actually FORCED me to finish up the whole blue vein cheese...what's the reward?? they will say im the queen of blue vein cheese...quite lame actually..and sean will sponsor me two bottles of sprite..keke..which i actually accept it..and i have no idea WHY??? it was damn disgusting when you eat the whole piece and drink it with the wine..ALMOST vomit...the wine was damn not nice lo..too strong for me..ish..i just hate the wine...and i am so proud that i did not blush any bit...hehe..maybe because i ate too much cheese..keke..

Busy life

Ive got TONNES TO DO!!!!

Monday- Bartender, English test, Beverage Report

Tuesday- French Presentation

Wednesday- Sales and Marketing Assignment due date and assesment

Saturday-Part time in Eastin Hotel

14 June-Malaysian Studies exam

16 June-FnB, Econs and Accounting

17 June-Sales and Marketing

19 June- French

20 June- English

30 June- TRAINING!!!!!

So tell me...im so freaking busy now..am i happy..NO..hell no..i just wanna lie on my bed and sleep...watching tv..and eat...

by the way..i cant go back to seremban in like 3 whole weeks..which means i have to save my money...and i cant see someone for THREE WHOLE WEEKSSSSS!!! okay..im so going to stress out soon..sooo...save me people!!!

earlybird in a bad mood

im SLEEPY!!!!

i merely slept yesterday..

was caught up with they started with kiss 2 and American Next Top Model Cycle 10...

and i manage to finishing typing my French Assignment...

which is a miracle..

and im so lazy to check again the whole thing because i know that is the best i can do..

so..byebye FRENCH!!!

and hello Econs..Sales and Marketing..English Test..FnB report..

and im the bar tender next week..

which i regret to the max..

because i realize there are tonnes to do...

i ought to make two mocktails..

ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Kind of pissed because i have to wake up early for the food science thingy..

came to college and realize that the stupid TV is spoilt..

...wtf...

stupid...

wednesday get away

okay..this is my first encounter with Klang's Bak Kut Teh...

After our Malaysian Studies class..

We crazy people suddenly decided to go to Klang and eat Bak Kut Teh...

I was saying that i want to eat Bak Kut Teh ever since the starting of the term 4...

and i finally got to eat the most famous Bak Kut Teh yesterday...

yum yum..i was freaking hungry at that time lo..

you know what is eat until the clay pot berkilat?? This is BERKILAT!!!

Look at our clay pot la..Totally swept clean..until it shines..haha..so you can imagine how nice the Bak Kut Teh is..keke..

Okie..here's our crazy friends..(From the right)..the ever crazy dai lou.. who can go until the end of the world to eat good food..PIPI..who will never be photogenic..keke..sorry ar pipi..and our wayne wayne..who is posing nicely for the cam..

Honestly..i was quite fascinated with this kettle..i never saw this thing in my whole life..it is so ancient..and i love it..keke..

After filling my stomach with rice which i never touch since ages ago..we went to Red Box for karaoke!!! muahaha..time to sing..and my hands are damn itchy lo..but still not enough for me lo..gonna stop by another day..to sing until i loose my voice..muakaka..

cat, diny me and hui..

Crap 2

Well..What that happened between me and my EX housemate was just plain lame..Firstly..if she is really not happy with me..fine lo..you dont have to be friend with me..i dont even care if she is not my friend..after knowing her true color..it is just plain stupid to care about her..so what the hell...You dont have to do so many things to show your protest to me...Taking people's property = stealing...Do you know that??? i dont really know what happened between her, uncle and the college...but...it is her own fault for everything to turn out that way...nobody ask her to be so freaking stubborn and not to give in...SO...Dont blame me for what you did to yourself!!!!!!

I know because of my problem with her...alot of people hate me...and i dont give a damn..it is just that it will be hard for me to communicate with them...well..i dont have to force myself to be friend with people who already had their mind set that im a Bitch!! so..just forget about it...no point forcing myself to talk and smile to them...because it is just plain pointless...

okie..im done with her...just dont step on my tail anymore..im not as weak as before..bear in mind of that..sometimes il fall..but il stand up again..nobody can bring me down..NOBODY!!!! okie..CHILL...haha...take a deep breathe...okie..im cool..

Crap 1

Since i have the time of the world now..so..im going to write...WRITE is the way to burn all my time now..haha...When you are bored..you will have alot of things to crap on..sorry if im too long winded or anything..honestly speaking..i dont really aspect anybody to read word by word...sometimes il read back and thinking why am i so dumb..haha..why did i wrote all those...it is totally crap...Well..crap is another thing that im real good in now..keke..

These few days..some people are really into the 'Blox' game in my phone..For those who dont know what is that..it is a stacking up blocks game..you have to stack up as high as you can to break the high score..well..you can even stack up until Venus as Hui said..haha..because SHE..broke all my records and reached until Almost 7000..what the hell..my score is only 2000+..haha..im not happy lo..joking only...actually it is real simple game..but i dont know why you will just get addicted to it...im serious..try playing it...and you will know why...

Ohya..forgot to blog about what had happened to me last week..one of the incident that im real proud of myself..if you had been reading my blog all the while..you will know that i had problem with my EX room mate...soo...that day..i was busy with my English assignment in the Student Lounge...she came to me..( in canto )..i cant really remember what she said..but something as below------

'You ate and full ady hor?? so can we talk now?'
( asking me to leave my friends and talk to her PERSONALLY..ofcourse i wont be so stupid and go with her...she will screwd me again lo...like i will fall into her trap...so to hell..mind my english..but im really pissed with her...)

' No wor..im busy now..'

' NOW..college come and gao me...uncle ( Brendan's dad ) come and gao me..if like that il gao you.'

' This thing has nothing to do with me.so dont blame me for nothing.'

' Yea right..then how they know my ID number.'

' i did not told them lo. I aso dont know you ID number.'

' It is all listed down in the Industrial Training Placement List..you said you don't know.'

'i really dont know.'

' You can ask your friend mer..i though you very friend with Carmen.'

'I did not ask her ..she is there only mar..go and ask her yourself.' ( Carmen was damn scare as well..keke)

'..... then how they know...'

' You think that college so big they cant go and find out ar?'

'.....' ' im just here to tell you..later 12.30 we will be meeting at the student service centre..the third person is also there...if you want to come you can come'

Then..she walked away with a damn pissed look..keke..honestly speaking..that time i was shaking..i did not aspect her to come to me..but after i calm down..i realize that i actually did not cry and stand up for my self...WAKAKA.. im damn happy lo..keke...im really proud of myself at that point..