If i have a choice

IF I HAVE A CHOICE

i would choose to be emotionless now
i would choose to feel nothing..
i would choose to be an emotionless robot

I want to be able to love someone freely
i want to be loved

i want everything to be normal and simple
i want to understand everything
i want to be treated fairly

i don't want to be sad anymore
i don't want to feel empty inside
i don't want to be lonely
i don't want....
i don't want to be neglected

yes.if i have a choice..
i would not have done the things that i had done before
and the ending would not be the same now..

but that if i have a choice..
now..i have no choice..
no choice