Friends forever

okay..i miss my friends..i really miss them like alot alot and alot..you guys make me feel down to earth and able to be myself again..wish we could be like last time..innocent..and naive..hmm..





Why do i choose Kesington anyway?? Kesington really brought alot of our memories back then..I still remember the day we finish our last paper..or is it the last day of school?? im not really sure..haha..but anyway..we went there and had our dinner..it was pretty quiet back then..Only Kesington and a few shops were open..so we were able to get a long long table outdoor..and yeah..we popped a few bottles of sparkling juices..we were aiming at something if im not mistaken..ohyeah..we were trying to see how far we can shoot..haha..we had alot of fun..we were shouting like nobody's business..crazy you may call us..but it was a hell out of fun..





I really miss those times that we had together..i miss drilling under the hot sun..training before the assembly..sneak out from the class to RC room..planning for activities..joining competition..travelling to other states for the nationals..lending each others homework as a 'reference'..the trill of sitting in the hall for exam (amazingly i miss that..haha)..the smell of RC room whenever there is a footdrill competition..(smell of sunblock and hair spray..haha)..Sports Day..Carrying the First Aid Kit..Performing infront of the whole school..choir practice..handling morning assembly..ARGHH..so much of memories..and the best of all..RC Enrolment 2006..haha..for me..im very proud of it..and hey..i found this in Eunice's house----

The poster for signatures..hey..there were so many signatures and i can barely find my own..but..at last..i still found mine---->

il upload some pictures and talk about the enrolment soon..

and yeah..time flies..and everyone has their own path to walk..Now when we are in North South East West..it is freaking hard for us to see each other like how we used to in Puteri..though we are miles apart ( a bit too hyperbola right??haha)..but our friendship would never die..we would always be there for each other no matter what..like i said..i felt down to earth when im with them..yes..friendships has to be treasurred..it is the most most precious thing that i had ever had in my whole life..so Friends..i love ALL of you..yes..i really do..

here..im wishing ALL THE BEST to all the paulians who will be sitting for your trials next week..WORK HARD..and GOOD LUCK..you CAN DO IT!!!!

and to those with love ones..cherish the moment that you had together..good luck..your bf are so lucky to have you people as their gf..haha..if im a guy..il fall in love with you all too..ngek ngek..

to those who are finding for love..keep searching and always believe in love..You will meet the right one when the time comes..so be patient..haha..

SOOOOO..FRIENDS ROCKS

and FRIENDS FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love you guys!!!!!! muakxxx...

One day before Merdeka

Its 30th of August..the day of our gathering..kinda sad that the paulians gang cant make it..BUT..you guys have to study..so i understand..anyway..

all the best to all of you in your coming trials..GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!

soo..only six of us make it..including me....but it was a fun fun night..haha..

We went to kesington to have our dinner..

the food was ok ok..luckily i book a table..yes..under miss yeaw zhi lin..haha..im so proud..

we chat and chat..took some pictures..siapa suruh saya untuk bawa camera..sorry la..

im a camwhore queen le..haha..

After that..we went to the middle of era square to meet up with Eunice's ah ma..

hey..she's hot alright..dancing line dance le..

it was kinda happening at era square..there is this dancing performance..

little kids dancing salsa and jive..woah!!! sexy wei..

i want to learn how to dance like that also..anyone can sponsor me??haha

Then..we went to eunice house..suppose to watch some DVD or anything..

BUT..we ended camwhoring NONSTOP..

hhaha..we even wore eunice's clothes to take picture..

hmm..cant really say how crazy we are..but look at the pictures..then ul understand..

NORMAL-PICTURES

me, wai mae, Eunice and dolores
me and dear kar woon
me and dolly!!!
i LOVE this picture..i call this picture 'flower'..and there is a story behind this..i was trying to imitate the picture we took last year..soo..we tried so hard to take it..but tak berjaya..so..we ended up asking Eunice's bro--nicky to take for us..and he has to stand on a chair to take this picture..haha..thanks nicky..i bet he was thinking all of us went crazy already..haha..

the 'LOVE'

NOT-SO-NORMAL-PICTURES

18SG

trying to be a killer..muakaka..

the gangster photo attempt

two ju-ons

okay..another story to tell..this was a bear given by bryan to eunice..SOO..i was so jealous of it..and i wanted to kick it..eunice here trying to protect little bryan from the monster ZHI LIN..muakaka..and hey..i have my baby bear also..but he is in KL on my bed..waiting for me to come home and hug him..sobs..i miss you baby..
okay..this is very fun..the dead body picture..here..i shall award Eunice with the BEST ACTRESS award..haha..congratulations..haha..

accident

today..

i bang a motorcycle!!!!!!!!!

ermm..not my fault lo..haha

well..its green light already..so..im ready to move lo..

mana tahu this bike..in the middle of the road..did not move..

my fault because i did not see them also..

so i terhit their back..

SHIT!!!!!

soo...they pull back beside the road..so i also drive aside lo..

im like hell..sure cost me like hundreds..

then they ask for ten..

im stunned!!!!

okay..good..if they say so..then i dont have change..i say RM8 can ar???

they say ok..

then im COOL..they went off..and i went off..

soo...im done here..what the hell????haha

anyway..i shouldnt be laughing..haha..i should be more careful next time..haha..

well..my accident rates are increasing day by day....

it is not a good thing...haiy

bad luck..bad luck...

ANYWAY.....SATURDAY's gathering is still ONNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!

dont forget about it ar...

7pm at Kesington..

REMEMBER!!!!!!!

another emo post

i have been isolating myself sincei came back from KL..why??because i felt that i just some good old rest..im tired of working..so i just spend my time sleeping, eating, cooking for brother, fetching them, watching tv, eating then sleeping again..lame life..and fattening life..but hey!!! i need a rest alright..until today..i suddenly could not stand the boringness anymore..hahaa..i finally online..the reason why im scare to online is..yes..im scare to see him online..because as far as i know him..he should found a new gf already..and im kind of afraid to see that??? and the truth is..i dont know whether it is the truth or not..but im guessing he already found someone..and that sucks..

WHY??? he said he want to concentrate in his studies first..he will put aside his love..hell yeah he will do that..proven that he can not stick to his words..who am i to be angry of him??? who am i?? why am i angry because he is with someone else?? probably because i have not found another one?? probably because i just can not accept the fact the he can just forget about me?? but..what am i doing here??? mad of something that i shouldnt even be thinking about?? screwd it..screwd it...it is so not worth it...

Somebody said im not opening my heart for other people to get in..well..how i wish that i can just delete all those bad memories that we had together..and i can proudly tell everyone that i had finally MOVE ON..completely..i really want to do that..but people..if it is so easy..i would have done it ages ago..i would have just click the delete button and im completely happy and stress free..hey..im talking about it again..(bittery smile...)

i just told sui ren..that im really tired..tired of all these..i just want to meet the right one..the person that will be by my side to love me forever...i just want to meet him..and il love him with all my heart..love him with my everything..i dont want to waste my heart for somebody who doesnt even deserve my love..i dont want to waste my time anymore..people said im too young to have this kind of thinking..you should enjoy the fun of it..yes..i would like to enjoy it..but after this..i dont know how much i can take anymore..im scare..scare that i would be hurt this much again...but anyway..i still believe in love..

and yes people..im almost dying of boredom now..call me out..call me out..hhahahaha..i really need to get out of my coconut shell now..or turtle shell..whatever you call it..haha..and if you guys can..dont remind me about him..im forgeting him now..yes..this time i would..

A little update of my boring life

okay..i know i have been isolating myself for a few days..for a good good rest..and NOW!!! time for some updates..

so today..i need to go and get my IC..which i did not collect for like two months..

something really memalukan happened..

i dont know how to park my car..hahaha..SERIOUS..i was like..turning turning and turning..and my ass is still sticking out..then..i gave up.fine..im not trying anymore..haha..i just walk out and went and collect my IC..

~lalalalalala~

SOOO..behold of my new IC---------------------

hehe..my old ic and new ic..c the difference??i think my face is still that fat..haha..

then..i went to the post office and i was planning to renew my P license you see..okay..look at the numbers below-----

and look at my number!!!!!
crap wei..before i took the pictures..it was 2250..im like..what??? i have to wait for like 50 numbers..oh my god...fine..i shall wait..then i started to sms my friends..and playing with my cam lo..when it is finally my turn..WAH..can not be renew here..have to go to JPJ and renew ar..WHAT THE HELL?????????

i have been waiting for like 50 over numbers..and you say can not renew here???

god..i feel like killing people here..

oh!!! did i told you guys Brendan broke my glasses..yes..he stepped on it..did not say sorry..but blame it on me..oh fine..its my mistake to put it on the floor..whatever..

and yeah..i finally got back my glasses..cost me RM39 or one side of the glass..not cheap wei..and here's a picture of me with my specs..

i know..my hair is messy and i look like shit..but hey!!! first time im showing you guys im with specs..give me some encouragement la..haha..

Thank you

After i uploaded all my pictures into my facebook and updated my blog yesterday..or should i say this morning??haha..here comes my nightmare..i suffered from a severe migrain..my head was aching like hell..and i can barely sleep..at first i thought it was just the kick of alcohol..so i tried to sleep..but it became worst then ever..my head is like going to explode..and i felt like vomiting at the same time..i really can not take the pain until i cried..i cried because it was SOOO pain until i can not stop myself from crying..it was HELL..i really dont know what to do..or who to ask for help..i felt so helpless and shitty..i took a panadol..and it does not help..and i took another..it lasted until like 5 something in the morning..and yea..i vomited..after that..i felt a little better and manage to sleep..

It was hell..really HELL..i really dont want to get migrain anymore..

and yea..im back in Seremban..hiphip HOORAY..i can sleep in my room..air con of course..eat for free..sleep like nobody's business...but im missing Elcerdo already..SAD..haiy..here..i want to say thankyou to all the people who helped me during my entire training..

MAX

you always say that trainee will hate you because sometimes you are being so cold..lila lila..but deep down in my heart..i know that you are not a cold hearted person..just that with the ammount of work you have to bear on your shoulders..the stress that you have to face from everyone..i know that why you just cant smile at times..I know you felt sorry for us because you dont have the time for us..to teach us and let us experience different area..but we really do understand that..we dont hate you..in fact..i respect you in every single way..maybe i do admire you..admire meaning making you as my role model..haha..Thanks for giving us many many advices..Thanks for being nice to us..Thanks for every thing that you had done for us..Sorry for breaking your silence at times..we know you like it..haha..Sorry for making mistakes at times..and you have to deal with it every time..and yea..what you said to me when i just broke up really meant something to me..il keep that in my mind..So Max..you are the best manager that i know so far..good luck with your life..and hopefully one day..i can call you and tell you that i had susceeded in my life..wait for my call yea..keke

Boss

i know that you love three of us like your daughters...haha..we really thank you for accepting us into Elcerdo..it has been a wonderful experience for us..Thanks for tolerating with all our flaws during work..and thanks for the treat in Werner's..keke..

CARMEN

actually you are almost the same person as Max..Both of your attitute towards work..towards love..its so simmiliar..thats why i really hope that you guys can take it to the next step..i know that you really wanted to teach us more about wine..but you are so busy..and we are still fresh with the service..Soo..we understand..we do not blame you..thanks for teaching us anyway..on our last day..haha..somehow..i know that you sayang us as much as Max sayang us..keke..so thank you..

Cindy

it has been a pleasure working with you for quite some time..for me..you had really been a great chef du rang..in fact..the best so far after working with others..i know that sometimes people are treating you unfairly..but you should know what you have in yourself..believe in yourself..thanks for helping me all this while..i hope that i did not cause any troubles to you..and im really jealous that you have such a sweetheart boyfriend..haha..good luck..and make sure that whatever you do..just be happy..

To those people that i dont like

First time in my life..i really get to understand what is 'FAKE'..two face??..im just so amaze that people can just back stab you just like that..complain until the management side though you did nothing..pretending that you are really good to us infront..i wonder what you talk about us or me behind my back..but whatever it is..im glad that i dont have to face these kind of people in the restaurant anymore..so..all the best to all of you in your life..

well..im really missing those people that i thank above..they are just so good to us..here..i want to wish all the best to you guys in your life...we will definitely pay a visit to you soon..because i really miss you all..haha..

anyway..i gotta sleep right now..i need to clear off my eye bags and dark circles..keke..so nights people

Werner's on Changkat

After we bid goodbye to all the staffs from Elcerdo..we proceed to Werner's on Changkat for our dinner and a drink..keke..the most important thing is actually giving our gift to Jackie..Soo..here we go.. When you step into Werner's..the most important thing that you HAVE to try is their Apple Martini..IT WAS AWESOME..of course we requested our drink to be more mild and less alcoholic..haha..but it was just so nice..

With a kick of alcohol and the clubbing environment..we went a little bit crazy..so beware of the CHIPMUNKS...oo..let me explain why im calling us the chipmunks..Well..when three of us are together..we will talk like nonstop..Of course we will go and kacau Max mer..so..he always said that we are unbelievable..because we can talk forever..so he call us the chipmunks..haha..SOOOOO now..let me present our crazy picture..some are normal though..keke..----------------

Trying to act stupid??? but we are not drunk okay???

taking with my dear Dean..haha..his friend at the back there was not suppose to be in the picture..

we look like fish..but we are not drunk people..haha

Taking by the road side..haha..we have not step into Werner's though..so still okay..haha

The chipmunks..thank you very much..

Chipmunks and gays..haha..sorry...its Dai Lou and Pipi..

chipmunks and baba mama..haha..Max our dad..and Carmen our mama ofcourse..

Kiss kiss from Diny and Cat..muakx..love you guys too..keke..we look so drunk..atleast i do..but im not okay..keke

My last last day in Elcerdo

Its my last day in Elcerdo today..hmm..im kind of SAD actually..Suddenly everyone was treating us DAMN good..Especially Max and Boss..they really blew us off..i MISS them already..haiz..Why do i say that they treat us damn good..let me explain it yea..

1. We manage to attend the wine training on our last day.
2. We get our full pay.
3. Max say that he will miss us ( ^^..im very happy to hear that..keke)..and he will hire us if we are looking for a job...
4. We finally get out Andreas Special from Oscar ( the cold kitchen guy )..and it is FOC ofcourse..
5. I hugged a lot and a lot of people today..( those who knows me will know that i like personal touch..haha..and i get to hug MAX..haha)
6. I took a lot and a lot of pictures..i even have a video of Max super stare..haha...
7. When we went over to werner's and have our late dinner and drink..Max came over..haha
8. All our drinks and food was on the house..what the hell????haha

Dont tell me you wont feel touch when all these happened..haha..yes..last time i said that i hate this and that..blah blah blah..but when it comes to the last day..everything is not important anymore..i dont care how i was screwed last time..at least now i dont really care..but the most important thing is that we knew that at least they will remember us..at least we will miss them in the future..not like we hate them and cant wait to leave..NO..we actually do miss them when we are leaving..its like..haiz..everyday you have been see-ing them the whole day..working our ass off to give the best to the guests..we get shit from the guests..we get scolded..we went through life and death together..how can i just forget about all those memories we had together???

As for me personally..i broke down after my break up with Brendan during my training period in the restaurant..it has been super duper hard for me..i cant imagine what will happen to me if im not working..at least it kills my time and stop me from thinking all those nonsense...i will continue talking about my feelings in my next post..NOW..lets look at the pictures i took..keke

All the floor staffs

The chipmunks with Max and Monica

The chipmunks with Boss..LOVE YOU

Us again with Oscar..with our Andreas special..

Me, Susu and Jasmine..the super girls..haha.. not me..them..

GATHERING!!!!

Another day of multiple posts..haha..why am i so free to write yea..tomorrow last day..and starting at 3.30 mer..so can sleep until like 12??but normally i will automatically wake up at 9.00am..SAD..it became a habit already..SAD!!!!

ANYWAY..il be back in Seremban by this sunday....YEAH!!!!!!!!!!
I can sleep in my air con room..watch astro 24 hours..and eat without thinking how much it is..haha..and i can drive( i have not renew my license though..ngek ngek)..

PUTERIANS...my badge of course...REMEMBER our gathering yea
Venue: Kesington, Era Square
Time: 7.00pm
Date: 30/08/2008
Dress Code: Anything which is nice..keke..
Things to bring: Yourself and $$

Please sms and tell me if you can not make it..tell me if you can make it also..St Paul gang..Pls tell Michele..Inti Gang..Pls tell Eunice or Wendy..Others..just tell me yea..haha..Very long did not gather already..try and make it okay??? i miss you guys le..and i am quite out dated..so i need to UPDATE..

Tomorrow is my last day..

Tomorrow is my last day already..I dont know whether i should be happy or sad..haha..
Happy..Because i can finally have a good good rest and sleep forever..and eat properly..i can watch Astro..I can drive..
SAD..Because i can not see Max everyday already..i can not see Mg Mg, Susu, Jasmine, Sim, Cindy everyday..GOSH..il miss them..

Il miss Max's super stare..
Il miss being screwed by see saw..
Il miss all the drama in the restaurant..yea right..haha
Il miss the super busy nights..
Il miss eating my Iberico Spare ribs..
Il miss eating my mini potato..
Il miss eating my Pork Liver Pate
Il miss a lot a lot of things in the restaurant..Piggy maybe??haha

Il spend my time wisely tomorrow..haha..take a lot and a lot of pictures maybe??sorry la..who ask me to buy myself a camera wor..cost me my life wei..haha..

Today we asked Max for our appraisal form..so he asked us to go in to the room one by one for a 'private and confidential' session..SO he can evaluate us one by one..

What he said about me-------
' You are pretty, sweet and charming. You already have that package to catch the guest's attention. That is your strength. So you have to gain more experience and improve in your product knowledge.'

Honestly..im not trying to boast about myself..i get a quite a few compliments from guests these few days..saying that im sweet..hahahhaha..YEA right..ofcourse i have to smile to the guest right?? if not..show them my bitter gourd face ar??haha..but it is always happy to have some compliments from other people..but compliments from uncles are consider good or not ar??haha..anyway..thanks for all the compliments anyway..im HAPPY..keke

Laugh of the day

Today..we had a Menu training around 5.30pm..before the restaurant opens..So..what so special about today is that we are going to learn about sausages..HMMM..yum yum right..when Max explain to us..it was still normal..

Suddenly our head chef-Chef Selvan brought out this whole platter of sausages..

yes..this are all the sausages that we sell in our restaurant..Nothing wrong yet??haha..look at the shape and the color..haha..understand what i mean??So everyone was like laughing..haha..THEN..Monica starting to hold the sausage with her hand..this is how wrong it looks--------------

Everyone started to laugh and it just look so WRONG!!!!!!!! She can proudly say that it is still HARD....WHAT THE??? haha..

Our manager-MAX( grey shirt )was also laughing like nobody's business..haha..he was like 'monica...^^" ' This Stephan (brown and blushing guy) is like laughing the whole time..He just cant stop thinking of those 'things'..Both of them are FULL of those thinking..everything is just that 'thing'..haha..

Then the worst was when Monica ask us..
' how to eat a sausage'
' fork and knife???' I said.
'yes. you must eat with fork and knife. Never hold and eat it with your hands. Be more civilize'
'................................ what the??'

By the way..let me show you the cute guy who i bought the camera from..---------->

haha..cant really see..BUT..i did went back and find him..haha..He did not really talk to me already..damn sad..sobs..but i get to take his picture..haha..

a secret???

Well..today is not a good good day i guess..i dont know why..but im freaking tired of work..then i started to get like real real down..before i met this friend of mine..he told me that he is not really sure of his feelings towards her girlfriend...he said that he still likes someone who he had and still like before coupling up with this girlfriend of his..So..from what he said..i felt like this had happened to me before..and i told him this..

' if you really think that the feeling you have for your girlfriend is not real, better let her go. Yes, she will cry for months..but at least she will let it go anyhow. Let her have the chance to be love by someone who truly loves her. Why waste her time when she can use that time to find someone who really loves her?'

Someone told me this

'let him go so you can let yourself be love again. Be fair to yourself. Dont let him hurt you again and dont hurt yourself anymore.'

I know all that..i know..but when i talked to this friend of mine..i almost cried..BUT..i did not..why should i cry when it has been this long. anyway..dont worry friends..maybe i just felt lonely..haha..so dont worry

MY BABY!!!!

I FINALLY GOT MY CAMERA!!!!!!!

CANON IXUS 80..PINK!!!

yay!!! i finally got my camera...muakaka

im freaking happy and happy right now..haha

let my tell you guys HOW i bought this camera..

at first..i was planning to get a olympus FE320 you see..its cheap..i can get it for like RM640..

So i was thinking hard..

then catherine told me that they are having the camera promotions in Sg wang..

So lets go and check it out..

i was STILL looking for my FE320..

Went to the olympus booth..but it was so-so..did not really attracted me..

So Diny said lets check out the canon booth..

here we GO..

Then we met this guy..who intro us to this camera..

Ixus 80..

we ask him about the functions of the camera..

he started to explain everything from head to toe...

I WAS AMAZED 

by the camera..and him of course..

haha..he was cute you see..haha

Then we went and check out other shops and see whether can get it in a cheaper price or not..but catherine came..

SO..we went back to the same booth..and asked him to show catherine again..

there he goes..explaining to us again..

haha..then he actually wanted to take a picture of us..and develops it to show us the quality of the picture...

and hey..we got a free picture..haha..

After catherine left..me and diny went and look for other shops..

we actually found one shop who offered us RM840..

but..i went back to that guy..(his name is Sing,20)haha..

and asked him whether can give us RM850..then il get it straight from him..

but he said can not..he can only offer us RM880..

WITH

2GB memory card+ 1GB memory card

Leather Casing

Metal hanger or whatever you call it

Tripod

Explicit ( a website designing software..which i did not check yet..but should be quite cool..haha)

HEY..im Impressed!!!! and he is cute..so i bought it from him..haha..

YES..i bought the camera..my first ever camera..and its in PINK!!!!!

so behold people..il be freaking camwhoring the whole time with my baby...pink camera..

A little bit of update??

Im very very happy right now..
i met kar woon and Dolores..like finally..it has been so long since i see you guys..
i miss all of you terribly..
...sobs..i miss all of u..sobs...
i need a good good hug from all of you soon..haha

Anyway..both of them said that im freaking thin already..
haha..maybe i am..did not really notice it..
so i was eating all day long..
char kuey teow for my breakfast..
lunch+dinner...zanmai..
rootbeer as dessert..
and roti canai tambah telur as supper..
hoAA..im still full now..
dont worry friend..il eat normally..haha

Many people were like asking me whether anyone is after me or got target and stuffs..
the answer is 'NO'
though i hope there are people who are after me..
but sadly at this pretty moment..there were no one..
sad in one way..but still..life goes on..haha

anyway..im happy and content at the moment..
there is nothing wrong about being single..
though i miss being in a relationship..haha..but whats wrong..
when the time comes..it comes..

Anyway..he is treating me cold AGAIN..though this morning only i said that he was treating me normally..
whatever it is..screwd it..im not going to care about it anymore..
i should have bought that t-shirt which said

' it is your lucky day because i just happen to be single'

it was so cute..haha..anyway..gota go to bed now..its late already..so nights people..muakx

its my LAST off day ( part 2)

OKAY..talking about KL Hilton..
It was plain awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just LOVE KL HILTON!!!!!!!!
The room was great..
couple room as you may know..so the doors can not be lock..you can open the window and sneak into the bathroom..
a HUGE king size bed..
lots of pillows..so you can have a pillow fight i guess..haha..
MIRRORS all around the bathroom..
i LOVE mirrors..ngek ngek..its awesome..
conclusion..KL HILTON ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I Did not really slept well though..
My Aunt and her friends are having some sort of a snoring concert at night..
WOAAAAA..its so loud and i can barely sleep..
FINE..
then He sms me at 3am..
'where are you? why are you not home yet?'
did not reply..because i dont want to

Then Alex sms me saying that he did not reply me because he slept earlier..
did not reply because i was sleeping

Michele sms me and asking me where am i..hope that i am safe and sound..so sweet of her
replied..and told her where i am a i and things..so she wont be worried

He sms me again at 9
'where are you? reply..dont make me worried'
did not reply again..because i dont want to..

yea..what a night..
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
i was mad at him at some point..because on Friday night i realize that the house was empty..so i sms to his 018 number asking did he went back to seremban..
no reply
i sms AGAIN and told him that im scare to be alone..
no reply again..
then i got pissed..
you know i am scare of the dark and stuffs..but you dont even bother replying me..what the..

Then when i came home this afternoon..
he said he told me that he did not use his 018 number already..
SWEAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^"

and yea..he is treating me normally now..as a friend of course..
i just hope that he will continue to treat me normally..
so i wont be feeling like i am being neglected and stuffs..

its my LAST off day ( part 1)

Oh GREAT!!! i can finally online at home. LIKE FINALLY..
OKAY..let me tell you guys how BAD was my life recently..
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
1. I forgotten to bring my black pants to work..bought one new pants..RM79.00 from Romp
2. I lost my court shoes in the restaurant..wore the Nose shoes which lead me to multiple muscle cramp at night.
3. I almost got hit by a car
4. I almost got hit by a motorcycle
5. My computer has to be reformatted because i can not online
6. He is treating me hot and cold ALL the time
7. My computer is okay..but the internet at home is DOWN..
8. I almost lost my touch and go card which has more than 100 bucks in it
9. I FORGOTTEN my black pants AGAIN..bought ANOTHER NEW ONE..cost me RM89.90!!
..............................................................................................
How GREAT was my life..though i having a real bad day yesterday..but im still super hyper active in the restaurant..i was on sugar rush the WHOLE day..weird..haha..
Okay..about my pants..i HAVE to explain a bit..
First..i have to wash my pants because we were soak in water a day before and my pants was full of sand..so i left it in my laundry basket..
Then the next day...when i was walking nicely to work..i realize i forgotten my touch and go card..So..i have to walk ALL the way back to my house..
Fine..my aunty called me when i was in the KTM..saying that she is staying over at KL Hilton..so asking me whether i want to go..HEY..of course i want to go..its KL HILTON!!!
I was damn happy..then suddenly-------where is my black pants...
DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!FISH!!!!!! I FORGOTTEN MY PANTS AGAIN!!!
oh crap..i was really planning to go home at that point you know..
then i was thinking and thinking and thinking hard whether want to get a new pants or not..
but do i have a choice????????????
I went to Lot 10 and searching high and low for my black pants..
Oh my GOD!!! i did not realize it was damn hard for me to get a new pants..
No size..too loose..too long..too plain..
BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
At last i bought a Cultivation black and shimmering pants which cost me a fortune..
im broke WEI...
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Monday in College

i still want to say im deeply sorry for miao..because what i did on tuesday night..i was really being inconsiderate, stupid..and also not thoughtful..it was totally my mistake for being so cruel and left you alone at night..therefore..i sincerely appologize to you cat..

'IM SORRY'

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Im in my college now..felt SOOOO strange because the people around me..i dont know anyone here??? i went and collect my money for the part time in edu fair..and guess what..they gave me a check..WHAT am i going to do with it??? can somebody come and tell me what am i suppose to do??? fine..then i went and collect my results..yea..the official paper..hmm..it is the same though..lowest is econs..totally expected it..i just suck in it..highest French..amazing..because i cant really remember anything except for 'comment allez vous'..anyway..screwd my results...

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

HEY..i forgoten to mention about something that is really interesting..maybe for me only..

I GOT MY SECOND PIERCING!!!!

yay!!! on my ears people..not anywhere else..haha..yes..whch means i have two piercing on each ears..keke..nothing much to be proud of..BUT..it is something new for me k??

i used to be quite stubborn and saying that i dont want to get another piercing because it is so wrong..

But now..what so wrong..guess i have to thank cat and diny for forcing me to..muakaka..anyway..diny for her nose piercing again..and it bleeds when we took of the stud or whatever you call that..haha..

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

ohya..i wanted to buy this camera like SOOOO badly..haha..its not really pinkish pink..it is pink..but slightly darker in colour..and it is in my budget..around RM900..

but my hands are kinda tight right now..DAMN..got damn alot to buy lo..shit...where to get my money..work?????????

im tired wei!!!! haiz...

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

anyway..he sms me when i was in CC yesterday..asking where am i and am i okay???

it was around 1 something in the morning..and i havent go home..it makes me feeling worst than ever..i dont know whether should i be happy because he still cares..or am i suppose to just ignore him...

BAH..

im seriously confuse...

im just too soft hearted...

he was doing his laundry when i came home..why??because i dont want to help him anymore?? and he fell asleep i guess..not sure..because i dont even want to look at him at that point..so i bathed..and i was trying to watch my drama while waiting for my hair to dry..and i fell asleep on my comp..yea right..i was waiting for his laundry to finish washing..and i fell asleep while waiting..haha..

anyway..he was still asleep when it was done..i off the washing machine..put all his clothes in the basket.. and kick it into his room..KICK!!!

he is still sleeping..in a super uncomfy position..

so i put his pillow nicely for him..let him hug his pillow and bolster..and i off his light...

am i stupid to do that for him?? i was still hating him before that..

but i tug him into sleep???

what is wrong with me??

for me..he is not some nobody..though i hate him for treating me like shit sometimes..

but..i will still do it for him..

even though we are not longer couples...

Not because i can not let it go...

Because it is in my nature to do so...

haha..i will do so if you willingly to let me to do so..so anyone wants me to tug you into sleep???

JOKING only...

i know sometimes i just dont use my brains and think..keke

The L word

i miss falling in love

i miss holding hands for the first time

i miss being hugged

i miss being kissed on the forehead

i miss being care by someone special

i miss the never ending good night messages

i miss thinking about somebody all the time

i miss holding hands while watching movie in the cinema

i miss everything in 'LOVE'

i miss being loved by someone

Loved by someone who is truly sincere to you

Loved by someone who will appreciate you

Loved by someone who knows that 'she is the one'

Loved by someone who understands you

Loved by someone who will not let you go so easily

Loved by someone who truly LOVES you

Maybe i am desperate

Maybe i am lonely

Maybe i still haven't truly let go

Maybe i am just lying to myself

Maybe i am this and that

To be honest..

I just want someone to prove to me that love is still out there

stressing over work

Anyway..work is just SUCKS now..damn alot of politics here and there..Fakers by fakers..back stabbing here and there..it is like World War 3 wei..SAD..three of us are like the victims you know..gosh..freaking pissed of with alot of people in the restaurant..first of all..the supervisor..DAMN fake..she screwd me today..PLS..you were mumbling to yourself..i CANT hear the table number..thats why i wanted to double confirm..and thanks to you Shawna..saying that i am day dreaming in front of me..damn freaking pissed off with these two people in the restaurant..

you guys want to create politics..go ahead and create with yourself..want to complain about us..look at yourself first before you say anything...we are doing everything that we could..and you just stand there and 'supervise' us kononya..and you COMPLAINED to our manager...WAH..how smart is that...you want to talk bad about us..do it infront of us..you dont have to tell every single HUMAN in the restaurant about US???? ISH..damn pissed off..we are basically counting down every single day until the end of our training...cnt wait to end it..though i will miss a few people in the restaurant..but i just cant stand it anymore..

Max said that we are too innocent..we need to deal with it on ourself..ofcourse i know..Somebody was telling me the same thing over and over again...but if it was so easy..i would not take it so hard until i cried when we were talking to him...it takes time to be mature..especially me..sometimes..my mind just works like a small kid..

Today one guy dont believe that we are more than 18 years old..and he wanted to check our IC before letting us in...haha..it was quite memalukan because i dont look like im 19..haha..yesterday..there were one table of customers who claimed that they thought that i was underage..16 years old war....hahahaha..Please..i am 19 years old already!!! not a small child people..its only my mind who is still a small kid..ahhahhaah...im glad that i look young actually..haha..

i got SOOOOo much to tell but just dont know where to start..hmm..i guess il slowly update every single thing after my training..when im back in seremban..now..my mind jsut cant work..haha..