blogging before class

yokie...t minus 15 min to get ready to go to college..and i am still sitting comfortably in front of Brendan's comp actually ( because i am lazy to on my comp..tehehe) and blogging...how crazy am i?? keke...felt incredibly uncomfortable if i did not update on something in my blog...Everything that is happening in my life..is all written out in this small little blog actually..so..whatever that you want to know about me..go ahead and read...

Yesterday...i had a good news actually..wakaka..because Brendan is not going to sabah anymore...yeah..ermm...if you read about my blog earlier, you should know that how frustrated am i because he might not be around for our anniversary...but..now..HIPHIPHOORAY!!!! keke..but he will work as a part timer in TGI, so not guarantee that he wont be working on that day...sooo...cross my fingers...yeah..keke better than flying to sabah right???

And FINALLY..like FINALLY..we went out and jalan for a while..
last last week...i barely had time with him..cz his father was around during his off day...
FINE
There goes another off day wasted...
Then luckily yesterday his dad went back in the morning...YEAH!!
Then for this week..i can not imagine lo..his bro and his dad coming up on wed...
His bro will be staying until Sat..
not quite sure about his dad...
So...i decided to go back to seremban and hide myself..

Do you know how FRUSTRATED it is to stay in a same house but have to act like you are some nobody...but actually you are somebody...
Then i have to kurung myself in my room...
ISHISH!!!
Luckily this week i got damn a lot of things to do lo..
If not..URghh...


Okie..fifteen minutes up..and i am off to get all doll up for class..
i just HATE to make up...
damn mafan lo..

went klang and eat crabby!!!

It is officially 2.30am in the morning..what am i doing here..blogging..haha..actually i just bath and waiting for my hair to dry before i sleep..soo...what to do during the time of waiting..WRITE!!! haha
Just now..i went out with dai lou, pipi, cat and diny..at first..we were planning to go to YUEN and eat steamboat..BUT.. it was pack like hell and the line was terrible...so..dai lou decided to go all the way to KLANG--ye choi fa to eat seafood..walau...damn far lo..but what to do..it is dai lou's style....haha..im happy...luckily they can remember the road there..if not...we will end up in some no where with hungry stomach growling for food..
The place was pack to the max..we can hardly find a place to sit down and makan..we ordered calamari ring, lala bihun, yabby with butter sauce, crab, and 'daun ubi keledek'...the food was yuummmy...BUT..we made a HUGE mistake..we ordered one whole bottle of the fermentated coconut drink...which stinks to the max...but the taste was not too bad..because it was damn stinky, we decided to finish it in one shot..haha..i was the winner...i gulp the whole thing down...BUT...the side effect----- my whole body was red...like damn red...rashese were coming out..the first time in my whole life...i can see stars..haha...i can barely walk in a straight line..but i force myself to be as normal as possible..i did not vomit though..Diny was the worst..she vomited everything out...hmm...not a nice scene to see...

After feasting ourselves with seafood..we went to Sunway and watch Forbiden Kingdom...me and cat manage to bring down dai lou's favourite black and red Zinger( i cant remember what is the name )..we were carrying it all around sunway...haha...everyone is like staring at us...so what..we like to carry soft toys around..is it a crime??? The movie was quite funny and nice...but dai lou slept through out the whole movie...because he was too tired...too bad...haha

When i reach home..i thought that Brendan slept already..because he did sms me during the movie and said he was going to sleep..but he came to my room and wish me good night..i ask him why he haven't sleep..he said he was worried...hmm..how sweet...that makes my day even happier...keke...okie...my hair is almost dry now..so better sleep now before i past out soon..keke..

me and cat..look at our face carefully...our face was damn red lo...

three red face ladies...keke..diny is the worst...

dai lou eating and pipi trying to do something to his specs..keke

okie...the things that we sapu until sparkling clean..can you see that bottle one the green plate..yes..its was the fermentated coconut drink..and it is empty!!!! gosh..sin man

me and Dai lou..

The urge to write

Obviously blogging has been a habit of mine...There are many things that i would like to express out but i just find any better way to express out rather than blogging it...now..i am stucked in my room in KL and very confuse about what i suppose to do later...there are SOO many things that i need to do..that i need to think..but somehow it just got stuck there..so..i need to write..i just need to write...

Yesterday it was our 10th month annniversary...After my class was over and he finished working..we went to Gen Japanese Restaurant in Legend Hotel for our buffet dinner..His favourite was the salmon sashimi..as always...The only thing that will catch his attention is raw salmon sashimi...tepanyaki salmon..no no..salmon steak..maybe yes..but not his cup of tea..so you want to make him happy..just buy him salmon sashimi or sushi..haha...He obviously can't eat alot, he said his stomach was not good recently...soo..i am the one eating all the time..from salmon, tuna and some fish sashimi, to oyster and scallop..that was my first round..then tempura, sukiyaki, tepanyaki and some cold dishes..Last but not least..i end it with a good old green tea ice cream with red bean..GOSH..i was damn full..

Then we rush back to college for orientation night for badge 30...ermm..i was 27..but who cares..so many people FFK me..dai lou they all went clubbing straight..wayne..went clubbing at 9...ish..nevermind...then i saw Brendan met his friends..his friends (girls) hugged him when they saw him...of course Kelvin as well..i was near by..but when i saw it..i just kind of step back and turn around...At that time, i realize that this is the culture now..hugging..so it is fairly normal..but again..why nobody hugs me??? nobody dares to do that to me??? why?? because i have a boyfriend?? gosh..i want a hug!! Well..there were a few bands performed..it was okay...not too great...but noisy...wish dai lou and pipi were here..atleast i would have enjoy myself better...

Then at night...i found out something..which bothers me a bit...somebody lonely and needs to talk to Brendan...He said that it was our anniversary and it was not the right time..so he promise her that he will call her tomorrow which is today...it was his ex first lover..my friend...some might know who she is..well..atleast he respected me and did not call her straight away..something funny..she just sent a testi to my that day saying that she had kept to her promise that she won't contact him and everything..said that she needs to talk..i replied her..and said that i am okay and bla bla bla..BUT..she did not reply me..and now?? hmm...something fishy..you know what..i seriously dont want to go through this shit AGAIN...hopefully he knows how to handle it PROPERLY this time..as for me myself..il stay cool..it is normal to help a friend right??? so..im cool..

okie..gotta wake myself up and start my work already..gambate..

trying to be happy

Happy...is it such a hard thing to achieve??? What i want now is to be happy and happy..that's all..nothing else..But when i make up my mind and tell myself that i want to be happy..something will just happen and pull me down..i just don't know why...

Somebody told me that i was not as cheerful as i was in Term one..i look like my soul was suck out from my body...my face was pale and colorless..meaning----i am lifeless...okay..i know i sound like i am a pathetic shit...

When i just came in to college..everything was simple and innocent..everybody is good to you..treat you like their true friends or whatever you call it..but when time goes by, you will realize that everything is just from the surface..nothing is real...everything is just fake..at the end..you don't know who you can really trust..who you can put your faith on...but of course..there are people who will pull you up and lend you their shoulders...i am really grateful that they are always standing by my side...

After you experience all these, would you still be as innocent as you were one year before?? no..you will be careful and form a shield to protect yourself, you will be constantly guessing who is true to you, you will hide yourself from people you hate, you will do this and do that..because of my lack of experience, i really dont know how to deal with human relationship..especially to those that i dislike and people who wants to hurt you...i will just hide myself and swallow everything down..that is stupid i know..but it takes time for me to learn how to deal with all these crap..let me deal with it slowly..

Now...what i want is not to be so stubborn and let everything to influent me physically and mentally...i just want to be happy go lucky..happy...happy...

Happy 10th month Anniversary

Happy 10th Month Anniversary to me and Brendan!!! Baby baby..love you love you..muakxx..

For some people, ten months might just seems to be a really short time. For me, who is constantly very sensitive to special dates like this, it was a long long journey. Our journey was crazy, a lot of small and HUGE things happened between us. At one stage, both of us wanted to give up already. But, thank god that we can still make it until today. Actually today is no just some normal anniversary or something, it was one month after we almost broke up. So for me, it is remarkably important.

I know that sometimes i am quite hard to deal with, especially with my emotional swing. I got it from my mother which is not a good thing at all. haha. So, it was hard for him to tolerate it with me, because i know his mood swings like mad as well. When two equally nob people dealing with each other emotional swing, who will win?? Nobody... Who is more stubborn, me. Because i was constantly grabbing his mistake without letting go. Egoistic. Guys always have their ego with them, but for me..my egoistic was ahem..equally as high as guys. so..TIE...haha...

I am not trying to show the whole world what kind of bad and terrible couple we are, but just trying to say that each couple have their own way of communicating with each other. For me and Brendan, only both of us know how to deal with each other.

For now, i am really happy. After somebody told me something, it some how changes me. haha..so i really thank him for making me happy again. Not a fake happy, but real happy. keke,,,thanks sui ren.

Soo...whoever who is out there and wanted to know what is happening between me and Brendan, im telling you guys now..----we are doing great..better than ever...

Baby...love you more than anyone...and once again...Happy 10th month Anniversary!!! muakss

Day out with Wai Mae and Eunice!!

Today..Wai Mae and Eunice came up...Damn happy lo..wakaka..Love both of them SOOOOOOO much man...muakxx muakxx...Here are some pictures...

wakaka...im taking picture in the toilet again!!!!yeah!!!

me..pretty wai mae and cutie eunice..love both of you..muakzz

posing in the changing room!!!!keke...wai mae..i know you are sexy..Eunice ar..dun block your face le...

love this picture lo...keke...and this i wanted to buy this dress for orientation night..but then still thinking..haha..

Eunice with her T-shirt that she was damn proud of..haha...me..im posing..kkaka...

here comes the poser again!!! yeah!!!

Love poem from me???

for the past few days, i had posted alot of posts..infact today..3!!!crazy..got nothing much to do..so write lo... haha..i had read something real nice just now....and i wanted to share it in my post...hmm...why cnt i write something nice too..okie..here goes nothing----( ohya..it is 1.36 am in the morning...don't aspect too much ya..keke )..in my favourite pink o..wakaka...

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Baby...
Never thought that i would fell so deep...
Never thought that you would mean the world to me...
Never thought that you would be the one who is standing by my side holding my hands...

Baby...
The path that we went throught was rough...
There were times when we were really exhausted and wanted to call it off...
But we still made it through until today..this moment...

Baby...
I hope that in your heart,
I would be the one that you love the most...
I would be the one and only person that will stay in your heart forever...

Baby...
You will always be in my heart...
You will always be the one that had brought me hapiness...and sadness
You will always be the one that i love...

Baby...
Promise me that you will never let me go...
Promise that you would not hurt me anymore...
Promise me that you will love me even more...

Baby...
I promise you that i will trust you even more
I promise you that i would not be emotional all the time
I promise you that i would be stronger and tougher...

Baby...
I really love you with all my hearts and soul...
No matter what happens in the future...
Il always be there for you...
Il always be there to love you...

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okie...so what do you think??? Goosebumps coming out??? Maybe not..My english is not that good...i dont know how to use all those bombastic words..haha..sooo....give me some comments la..haha...hope he will read it someday..can somebody just go and ask Brendan to read my blog!!!!

Sad poems

When there are some beautiful words, there would be some sad and heart breaking poems...these are the ones that i find it quite meaningful and the closest to what i had felt in the past...

Lying To Forget

This lie's become a part of me
For months, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear his name
Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For him are somehow gone
Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs
But last night when I saw him
For the first time since he left
My heart stopped for a moment...
I couldn't catch my breath
When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time...
I just can't let him go


Long Distance Relationship

A thousand kisses will never be,
Enough to satisfy my craving heart's plea,
Tommorrow will be the day I love you more,
Than today or yesterday or ever before,
Words and phrases will never do,
What my heart feels so deeply for you,
Deeper and deeper my feelings go,
My head is spinning too and fro,
I want you here, forever and more,
For our hearts to join and together explore,
Our hearts beat and beat as one,
Feel what I'm feeling, it's only begun,Y
et, slowly my desire turns to rage,
My heart feels as though it's within a cage,
You are so close yet so far,
At times like this I wish upon a star,
I wish you were here and not over there,
Yet life is hard as well as unfair,
All I can do is wish and wait,
Until we meet again as that is our fate,
I love you more than my words can say,
And forever my love will grow each passing day,
Until the day I gently hold your face,
I'll wish for that moment as I always do,And I've wished upon a star, so my wish will come true.

beautiful words

There are some beautiful words i just read..

If loving you is a crime. I'd like to be jailed for my whole life, in your heart.

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If you have 1000 years of age, I just want to have 999 years and 364 days, so I never have to live a day without you

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When I don't message you.
Doesn't mean.
I forgot about you.
I was just giving you time.
To miss me.

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My love for you is a journey. Starting at forever and ending at never.

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Without you my days are "Sadday,"Moanday, "Tearsday, "Wasteday, "Thirstday, "Fightday", and "Shatterday"

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I opened my wallet and I find it empty, reached into my pocket and found a few coins, searched my heart and I found you!
Then I realized how rich I am.

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Dear, did it hurt when you fell from Heaven? I think, I need to call God because He have lost His most beautiful Angel.

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Behind your smile, I know there are sorrows.
Behind your laughters, I know there are tears.
But I want you to know that, behind you is me who always care for you.

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There are 12 Months in a year.
4 weeks in a month.
7 days in a week.
24 Hrs in a day.
But there's only one you in a life time.

Beautiful right??? if somebody wrote something as vibrant as these to me..il just die of happiness..haha...

Guys in reality

Most of the guys are quite nob..not every guy..but most of them..sorry to those guys who are..but..im just saying most of them..they don't quite get what a girl wants... or how girls think...example-----

1. girls are sensitive..no matter HOW great is their ability to swallow everything down..there is always a limit..just try and understand that we ARE sensitive and don't think why we are..because it is already a fact..a solid fact that GIRLS-ARE-SENSITIVE...

2. girls are very sensitive to special dates..not that i remember every special dates..but the important one like anniversary, birthday, valentine's day, x mas etc..it is already sucks that cant celebrate it on that day, so don't pour cold water on us and saying that we can always celebrate it on another day..why take it soooo seriously..of course i will be sad if i cant celebrate it on that day itself..so give me sometime to mourn about it..after that..il be alright..

3. most of the guys..not all.maybe him only la..takes ages to reply me one single SMS..if you are busy..tell la..( and yar..he just took 30 min to reply me now..im pissed.. and he is going to sleep ady..aint not going to reply..okie..say im childish and bad..i dont care).. just bear in mind guys..for girls.maybe for me only..i don't know..would LOVE you all to reply us ASAP..not taking your own sweet time..if you are busy...tell us..then you are forgiven..no battery..tell and you are forgiven..BUT..if we know you guys are free and doing nothing..but taking 30 min to reply us..you are a dead meat..okay..i am a bit over..but this is a fact..how hard is it to reply wor..i just don't understand lo...

4. to all the guys out there..if you want a girl to trust you hundred percent..just set your record CLEAN..crystal CLEAN..
if you had cheated on a girl before..sorry..byebye..because most probably you will do that again..
if you have ALOT of exes..and still in contact with them VERY often..minus 50 point over 100..why..because girls are very sensitive to 'EX' problem..like me..i just hate it..
if you have a lot of girl friends..and damn close to them..minus 50 point..because girls jealousy are damn scary..you can never imagine how far we can go...

Soo..did i say anything wrong??? so there are so many problems over here..but how to solve it..here are the solutions----

1. just accept that fact that we ARE sensitive..and try not to make us even MORE sensitive..well..i cant say that try and think why we are sensitive..because sometimes i also dont know why..when that person is your Girlfriend..she will put you on the Top Top list..means you are very important to her..just try and think of her when you are doing something..just don't ASSUME that she wnt mind nor she wnt get mad..ASSUMPTION leads to a lot of unhappiness..i dare to say that...

2. About special dates..YES..please be more alert..save it in your phone..or just stick it in your head la..Of course you can always celebrate it before hand or after hand..BUT..celebrating on that exact date is far more meaningful than another day..so don't blame girls for being a little bit too emo when this problem occurs..tell her nicely why you cant and give her time to overcome her moodiness..

3. URGHH..this problem..just try and reply as fast as you can..if you cant reply or hung up on something..TELL..INFORM..atleast she knows why you cant reply her fast..if you did not.. she will start thinking of some nonsense and crap..which does not help at all...soo..guys...be more alert...

4. if you want a girl to trust you, no matter you like it or not..you have to set your records clean...if it is not clean..then try and make up with it..try to clear things up and explain to her..don't hide everything behind her back...for example----dont let her see your phone..hide some files in your comp, etc..she will just think that you are hiding something and you are definitely up to something..to make your life easier..tell her..why, what where and when..whatever it is..just be 100 percent honest to her..

Soo..i am not an expert..im a nob as well..but...i am correct right??? please say yes..haha..no lar..but this is from my experience lo...im just sharing something here...sooo..tell me if i am right..that brighten my day a bit..haha..

today..until now...10.52pm..my phone is damn quiet..which is a bad thing...luckily right after i wrote 'my phone is damn quiet'..his message came in..sooo...im happy now...thankgod for saving my day..haha...it is frustating when u hear NOTHING from ur bf for the whole day..though i know he is working..but...which girl don't..okie..full stop about him...

im back in seremban for the weekend...stacked up with lots and lots of korean drama..1st would be 'Goong S' which i did not finish watching during my holidays..my review for that drama is -----

'slow moving drama, draggy, stacked up story plot..booooooring..though se7en is cute, but it doesnt help...i like the second leading actress better than the leading lady...conclusion---not worth watching because i was constantly pressing the fast forward button..'


After finish watching that Boring drama...i went and watch 'Stairways to Heaven' again..haha..i had watched it for a few times actually..but im still loving it..no matter how many times i watch this drama..my heart still hurts..IM SERIOUS!!! my heart seriously hurts.. its like something is holding my heart...soo..here goes my review--------

'very dramatic story plot ( but clearly people loves it ), great acting from all the actors and actresses, love all of them, tears catchy, promotes Lotte World ( which succeed with a round of applause..because i went to that place my self..and i did sat on the famous merry go around..haha), very dramatic, sad ending.. makes my heart pound harder..'

Overall..i just love that drama..after watching it..i always like imagine i am that girl..not that i want to die with eye cancer..but being love soooooo deeply by someone..if there is someone who can love me the way he did..i mean like the actor..i die also can smile lo..but of course i dont want to die so fast la...i want to enjoy the process first..then only il die happily..haha..dramatic..NOOO...its romatic..keke..haiz..just wish my BF will love me like he does..the actor..'hong joo opa'..

im dreaming alright..it would never happen in the reality..sigh...il talk about guys in reality in my next blog..because it would be super long...--------^^

future tense

I always like to think things ahead of time...i will imagine what will happen in a few more months...in a few more years..etc..it is not a bad thing..or a good thing...but this is what that keeps me going nowadays...dy dreaming..so what am i dreaming???

1. okie..so brendan again..im sorry la..but i got nothing better to think about mer..keke..around end of may..or beginning of june..he will be going to sabah...not really confirm or anything..but just 'think' that he is going...then il be totally alone at home..which sucks to the maximum..what's worst is il be facing my finals..which 100 percent confirm il be stressing like hell and emo the whole time..so he is not there for me..add that to my frustration...il be missing him for one whole month..okay..il find some way to deal with it...then...most probably during our anniversary he will be in sabah...which pulls my frustration like 100 percent up!! but what can i do?? i can't force him to stay here am i?? i have to deal with it right??? right..im totally right...can't be pamper all the time..ishish..but it is our anniversary...like my first ever..and his as well..argh!!! il have to suck it in again and breathe in a out...

'okay..im cool..next....'

2. what's my future like??? of course i want to be somebody which is well known and highly respected in my field la..so im aiming for Food and Beverage Director in a hotel...that is like freaking hard to get lo...not easy le...i want to have my own restaurant as well..but money always comes first..so got to work hard and save money...hmm..then most probably i would be working in overseas..not in Malaysia..definitely..not to say im not patriotic or whatever la..it is just the reality...here...you cant go high unless you go out and explore..so...byebye malaysia..haha.

3. Migration..haha...yupe..im always saying that il migrate to USA..for one simple reason..i like USA..i just like it over there..i dont know why..hmm..

4. Marriage..talking about it at this age seems to be a bit awkward..but who cares...im just talking about my dreams right??? most probably il get married at the of 25..sounds young right??? pls..if i get married at that age..then il have children at 26/27..then it would be just nice...i would not look that old when my children are at their teenage stage..haha..but i am just making an assumption la.. of course you have to look for your Mr. Right and everything...that..il think later..now just continue to say dream..keke..

5. let's go back to Brendan..sorry guys..haha..most probably il be taking my higher dip..same as him..as for your information...i confirm that we are only training for two months..haha..which i am really happy with it..BECAUSE..i thought that we have to train for 5 whole months...and i am not quite happy with it..why??? because he will be going out station to train( maybe..not sure yet), so am i ( definitely going outstation..haha)..he will go for his training..and il stuck in that college..then..i go for my training..and he will be in college..how fair is it??? ishish...at first i thought it would be 6 months..6+6=12...ONE WHOLE DAMN YEAR..what the..do you think i can take it??? i was like thinking about it for quite some time...ish..but now..four months only..still okay la..at least not one year right???i am happy enough...

PISSED!!!!!!!!!!

TODAY...im BLOODY PISSED!!! oh god..seriously deeply angry...in this world..there are just SOMEBODY who will just be there to PISSED u off...DAMN...i just don't understand lo...i was trying to make things to be less complicated so everyone can live happily and peacefully...i even ask nicely...but what i get is 'lost ady'....WTF....... ya rite...u had lost it...if YOU had lost it..where do you park your damn car now????? HOW THE HELL YOU GET INTO THE DAMN BLOODY BUILDING...okie..chill...i need to chill...

But what that really makes me frustrated is that i can't fight for myself..i CAN'T..i just CAN'T....

ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after she said she has lost it...i just stoned...i STONED!!!!! i just can't answer back..i don't know what to answer back..i just STONED!!! what is wrong with me??? i can't even defend myself???

If her motive is to make my life miserable..yes..you did..congratulations...BUT...what my friends said is true..why do i need to stress up myself because of this tiny weeny characters in my life...screwed it...let it settle between the adults and her..but not me---the middle person..who kena screwed for nothing...cb!!

Do you know that sometimes dreams reflect your real life???sometimes the opposite of what you dream... yesterday..in my dreams..i dream that she gave me back the card without showing that bloody fu*cking attitude of hers...and we still can talk...in the REALITY...it was the total opposite...DAMN IT...

come on..you are at least 3 years older than me..you should know to use your brains and THINK...why you have to act so childishly??? i just don't get it..

NOW..i just want to live peacefully without any controversy...i don't want any fights nor anything..i just want to be happy...i really just want to be happy...

A little get away during break!!

Fortunately our 10am class was canceled...Lecturer MC war...Yea right..like i believe her...whatever la..atleast we don't have to listen to her crap! But cant they just like inform us earlier so that we can catch atleast three hours of sleep??? haiz.. Nevermind...What to do during our Three hours of break????----------Sunway Pyramid^^..Where else can we go...you tell me la..

Ryan Hui and Chermaine was there before us..they landed on Wendy's..which is a newly opened fast food restaurant..okie..something new for me...let's go...i was terribly hungry on that time..i need food...Soo...i had a 1/4 beef burger...i thought it was small...but look at the size of it!!!!!

*munch munch munch...Nice..but too big for me..i cant even finish it..damn memalukan...the thin girl which is from group 5( sitting at the table next to us) can finish it...why cant i???sad wei...

After having our brunch...its picture time!!! yeah yeah!!! Here goes the hp cam-----

me, chermain and ryan...*how smart do i look..keke...

Me and Hui trying to pose here!!!

i just love this picture!!! Yeng ornt???keke

Tada!! All the girls...cat, me, diny, hui and chermaine!!

my blue eyes!!

okie..i finally got my blue contacts pictures..Hui posted up in her blog..oh my god..it is bloody obvious..haha...i like it...BUT..what's bothering me is-----the oily shiny thingy all oevr my face..yikes...i forgoten to use my oil bolter..which makes my face shines like LG phone..damn it..



what about this picture...the concentration should be on my eyes...BUT..for me...its my shiny face that bothers me...damn it..and my pores..why are they soooooo big...haiz...damn sad wei...but for you guys..look into my eyes...look into my eyes...not my face..keke...



sooo...what do you think???? nice??? weird??? alien??? witch??? whatever..just spit it out...i want to know..haha..and by the way..don't comment about my face though!!!

First two days in College!!!

Back in college..like finally!! Me, cat and diny really had a hard time finding for our class..haha..we had totally forgotten where are all the classrooms..we went up and down just to find for our class..AND!!!! i wore my Nose heels again..ONCE AGAIN..i ended up getting bruises all over my foot..i swear to god im going to throw it away!!!LOUSY!!!!

First class..---Food Science!!!! OMG!!!! just kill me..it is DR THedd!!! like what hui said..we can really meditate..what she said is just like a lullaby or some matra to us...

'ohmm....malimali ohm.......' ^^"

Crazy...First class already telling us about avian flu...sammonella or whatever that has to do with hazzard thingy..i think..not really listening to her..i was busy talking practically to everyone nearby me..^^

Practically all the classes were OK..French was fun though we were half and hour late...Je suis en retard----im late....haha..^^ i cant pronounce the 'r' word properly...because...i cnt suck in air from my throat from my nose--Taught by dear Cat..haha..

Then here goes my Accounts lecturer (guy)..which is quite funny at first..Young and totally Malaysian.. ^^then when the lesson commerce..he taught like so fast..hey!!! my brains were frozen for like three whole months..i need time to restart it la...Accounts..the worst subject of all for my entire whole life..i got headache again after my class..damn..i just hate it..

OH!! Today i wore my saphire blue contacts..haha...somebody said i look like a witch..some said i look very scary..i dont hav my pic here..il upload in another day..keke..so just tell me how you feel about my new contacts ya...

Hailstone is Seremban????

Nowadays..everything has gone crazy..the people has gone crazy...i am crazy and even the weather is crazy...sudden rain sudden sunny day...sudden freezing cold sudden burning hot...gosh..it is just so irritating...and yes..there is a hailstone in my own hometown Seremban on last Sunday...

Hailstone!!!! That afternoon..i was trying real bad to sleep..because i was just so exhausted..then it rains...

'oh great!!! i can sleep now...'..

when i almost going to fall into my dreamland... the wind started to blow real strong...banging my window...i have to climb down my bed to close the windows..

'ok..now i can sleep..'

the same thing repeated again and again..finally..i grab hold of a string and tied it to my grill..When i finally can lie down peacefully on my bed..'pop' the electricity went off...i went downstairs and heard my brothers screeching with excitement..

'look out the window..got hailstone!!'

i ran to my living room...and yea..there are tonnes of ice stones on the grass..

can you spot the tiny winy stones on the grass???yupe..it is real..you are not punk!! i was real excited about it..then i spotted something was wrong...the electric poll inside my house was broken into half..WoA!!! the poor thing just got snap into half..

after the rain became 'lesser'*tern used by Brendan..i went out and snap some pictures of what is going on outside the house...Actually the electric poll did not just snap into half just like that..there's a huge tree a few house away 'tumbang' and the trunk caught on the wire and caused the two electric poll to fall down...

looks like there's a hurricane right??? this little incident caused my housing area to suffer until 4am in the morning...no cars can come in nor go out because the damn tree is blocking the whole road..haiz..so the conclusion is----------

no electricity=no tv+no computer+no fan+no air con+mosquitoes+frustration+boredom+ alot of daydreaming

So my cute little hail stone..please don't comeback again...never ever some back again...god bless..

Genting Trip!!!

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recently...i did make my friends worried about me..sorry about the sudden heart attack...i did not aspect it myself..thanks for calling me and being there for me..thanks for a million and billion times..haha...i was being stubborn and stupid...i know all that...whatever it is...the most important thing that i want now is being happy and happy...nothing else...for the past three months...put aside brendan as an excuse...i was really all over the place and could not get hold of myself...im sensitive...emo all the time...and i can hardly even control my emotions...i could have handle everything better..but i just let everything to be worst...i don't blame others..but myself...Sooo...im taking everything as a new starting point for myself now...i just hope that i can really change into a better person..emotionally and mentally...so peace!!! ^^

As a new starting point..i had changed my hairstyle...straighten it..but im not really sure whether it is really nice...so il c what you guys say when you see my new hairstyle...

i wanted to change my contact as well..into color contacts...but il hav to wait for my friends to reply me...so cross my fingers...^^,

The next step is to change my dressing style...im seriously not sure how am i going to change it..but il try...with limited cash im my pocket..i dunoe what i can do...haha...

okie..so what's nexts??? no idea...haha...my size...ofcz i dowan to be fat..so im not changing anything about it...my height..wish i could be taller..haha...then my face...ermm...cnt change anything unless i go for a plastic surgery..ahah...im okie with my features now..so just forget about it...then...that's all i guess...

sooo....hope that you guys will like my changes this time...keke...cross my fingers..^^

p/s...i love you..i just finished reading this book...took me five days to finish it..why it took me so long to finish it??? i read this book when im waiting for the train and in the train...i think people around me might think that im a super nerd or some creepy girl because the train was like jammed with people and i still can find a space of my own to read..normally i would have slept dead in the train because i was too tired..but after my shift was changed to 9-5..everything was different..the train was all pack..full with assorted people with disgusting 'aroma'...i was squeeze and pushed by people around me...i felt HORRIBLE..my ass was constantly squeezing with other's ass..which disgust me to the max..urghh!!! i hate peak hours...

hey..i was talking about the book i was reading...it was fairly romantic....i can actually picture how did holy felt after her husband passed away...most of the time the author will describe how miserable her life is after her husband left her..how she slowly climb up with the assistant of her husband...moving on with her own life without him...i was thinking myself....would this happen to me one day??? if it does...can i be strong enough to make it through??? HMmm...what the heck am i thinking??? im just 19 and not married yet...and i am talking about being a widow???? well...that is just something that is going through my mind after i read the book...

my life looks normal, tastes normal and smells normal...but the fact it..i was damn pissed and disappointed by somebody...this time..it is not him anymore...the thing that i hated THE most is to be blame or scolded by someone for no reason..for something that i have nothing to do with it....Why humans have to be that selfish and think ONLY for themselves...Why they have to be SOOOO calculative over everything and can't just loosen a bit...You want to gain something...go and get it yourself..not by hoping on others to do all the dirty jobs for you...TOLERATION...i had tolerate long enough with all the bullshitting and f**king things from these people...damn it...i have feelings as well..just bloody think less for yourself and think for others...For me..it will be damn hard for me to voice out whatever that is bothering me..i barely argue or fight with anybody..because i know i suck in it...i was trying to think for everybody...how they felt...how they will think and so on...but it seems like worthless nowadays..because nobody seems to care about it...the only thing that they know is to protect their own priorities...everything is 'me me me and me'...oh come on....grow up and learn how to live with people...be less selfish...DARN!!! i was really pissed!!! now..what i have to do..is to think more for myself and don't give a damn on what people think about me...i don't have to be that girl-who-everyone-loves...i just have to make myself happy and that matters the most to me now....