Mr Reagan

Introducing somebody that looks cool but is actually a funny guy inside

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REAGAN

check out these pic and you will know why...

A guy wearing earing in class...and he actually wore it for the entire afternoon..how crazy is that..haha..his trying to look cool here...
trying to be cute..aiyah...reagan reagan...you cant be cute la my dear...haha
jeez...he is hanging the brochures on his ears now..i have to post this picture though i look like im so sick..haha..hey..we look like we are couples right?? people..dont get the wrong picture..we are so not..haha
asked someone to take for us...and i still look like im sick in this pic..ish...and MR reagan here..still hanging the brochures on his ears...saying 'Please DO disturb us.' Sounded so desperate aint we??haha...

Guy with a great voice

Yesterday..we only had one class and an interview with Ms Jasmine regarding to our restaurant assignment..so we had hell lots of free time..Since last week me cat and diny did not sing until gao gao..we decided to go again this week so we can sing until we totally surender..and guess what..we went with ------- DEAN!!! So..what so special about him..here goes..'tall and tan guy..quite gentleman...funny with an ability to make people laugh..crazy fella..INCREDIBLE voice that can make all your goosebumps pops out..' YES..he had a GREAT GREAT voice..i bet every girl with fall for him and be soooo lum when they listen to his voice only..not to say he is not good looking..haha..he is quite okay looking la actually..but his voice is just..yerrr..i miss his voice!!!!!!!! gosh..i should have record it down..

Camera time

:**What i did today**:

RED BOX, WINDOW SHOPPING & lots of Camwhoring!!!

muakaka * evil smile *

So lets see what i took---------

This is a MNG red hot dress..quite nice for my taste..the design of the dress actually makes my boobs look bigger..which is a plus plus point..because i needed it..keke..did not check the price though..
keke..this is what i wore to college today..my formal look...love this top..simple and body hugging..so i have to take a pic of it..ngek ngek..
This is from Wearhouse..i actually find the top really nice..but sadly it is too low for my taste..and i cant wear 'something' because it is too low..haha..and check out the mini skirt..damn mini lo..im kinda scare that it cant cover up everything..but it does!! yeah..my butt is not the big afterall..
this is also from Wearhouse...ermm...it is ok ok only..because the design of the lower part of the body makes my butt looks..fat..wait..can not say fat..must say wider..arrrr..haha..so not my cup of tea really..do you think it is nice???
this is a pic that i find it quite interesting..keke..trying to be cool and sexy mar..but fail lo i think..haha

OKAY..

so presenting my dear cat and diny who join me in the perasan club..muakaka

Yupe..same dress but diff colour from MNG..Diny said that she dont want to take picture with me after she saw this pic..WHY?? she said she looks wider beside me..keke..
all the girls in dress...cat, me and diny
Another set of clothes..muakaka..love my top..
this pic should be quite sexy and nice..BUT...somebody's picture taking skill bermasalah...soo..turns out to be damn blur..so home and practice la my dear..keke..
my sweet cat posing for the camera..miao..you can grab your picture now..keke..

That's all for now..

Changing clothes again and again is quite tiring you know..but fun...keke

My new found hobby..

Something to think of

In our life..we will meet all kinds of people..people that you like..people that you love..people that you hate and people that hates you..well this is life..no one can change it..nobody is prefect..i know that perfectly well..i had tried to be one...but had failed..im not proud of it nor happy about it...No matter what it is..the thing that matters the most is that you know what you are doing and be happy because of it..no point keeping everything inside and let the anger built up slowly...

The hardest thing to do in our life is to forgive people that you hate. Until now, there are people that i seriously hate and dislike..and i told myself that they are not my friends and i couldnt even be bother about it..that seems to be like a wise thing to do..but when i think back..is this the way that i want things to be?? maybe yes..maybe no..i have not learn how to forgive someone yet...i hope that i can be one..but it takes time to learn..

i am just 19..or should i say i am 19 already..haha..i hope i still have a long long way to go..what will happen in the future..i dont know yet...there are tonnes to be learn and tonnes of people that we will meet..each with different characters and personality..some will help you..some will harm you..that's life..the more we see..the more we learn..

Why make you life so miserable when you should live your life to the fullest?? Be happy..dont put everything in your heart..sometimes..it is good to loosen up a bit..dont strain yourself too much..everything that happened has their pros and cons...there are reasons behind it..learn to accept and let it out...

Why am i talking like i am a nun right now??hehe..

well..im just writting out my thoughts..

im missing someone who went to Singapore today...

**i miss you**

love is hard

This is actually how i look now...no mood...grumpy...bored...

Maybe because somebody actually did not reply me...sometimes i felt like im being a bit too pushy..but..i just dont understand why somebody can actually totally forgotten about your GF and did not reply her...atleast you should just tell or saying that you are busy or anything...atleast i will understand...dun just leave me hanging on the wall...sometimes..guys just dont understand this simple thing...toleration..there is a limit okay??? if im hard hearted enough..il just forget about him and only sms him when he actually realize that his GF is not replying him and actually not really happy about it...haiz..guess im not the only one facing this problem...

What kar woon said is totally correct..love is hard...nobody is perfect..im not..i never said i am...but atleast il learn...not that i dont understand him..i understand..i know that he cant be that kind of BF other people can...'caring..put GF on the first place..romantic..always care about their GF..reply sms FAST..will always remember that there is someone who is beside him...always surprise their GF'..ofcourse i will feel dissapointed atleast a little BIT...but he is who he is...i cant force him to change for me right??? forced him to be somebody that he is totally can never be..ofcourse i got talk to him before...about this..and he knew also..he said that he is playing game..got something to do...well...excuses lo...guys are like that...not everyone..BUT..haiy...just heart pain lo...

i know in his heart..he still appreciate me...love me and everything...but...he just wont say it out...that is what i think...what i assume...my assumptions...if he wont say it out...ofcourse i wont know right??? i did ask him..'do you appreciate me...etc'..he got say yes...BUT...im like forcing him to say that right??? i ask him why cant you say something like that to me..he said i shut it for him already...i know i did ask him to not to sweet talk with other people..but that's to other people...not ME...right??? im your bloody GIRLFRIEND!!!..okay..i admit im angry when i talk about this...sorry...he said he will say it when the time is right...and when is the right time??? it is not a big deal..just a little dissapointment lo...

well..not really having a fight or anything..we did not fight..but i just need to burp something out now..since i have the time to write...

CHEESE!!!!

Yesterday i did something real dumb...in our apply tech class..we actually learn how to taste cheese with wine..our lecturers proudly gave us one whole plate full with cheese and grapes...all types of cheese..mozzarela, goat cheese..feta cheese..blue vein cheese and all sorts...so..we were supposed to ENJOY it with wine...soo...for me..im okay with all those cheese except the goat cheese..i just dont like it..suprisingly i can accept the blue vein cheese which 90 percent people find it damn disgusting...haha..look at the picture below...

yupe..we were suppose to finish the whole damn plate..

and this is how it looks when we totally give up and can not take anymore..

yea..we finish most of the grapes..but NOT the cheese...haha..too much to bear la..okie..then what is the stupid thing i had done...they actually FORCED me to finish up the whole blue vein cheese...what's the reward?? they will say im the queen of blue vein cheese...quite lame actually..and sean will sponsor me two bottles of sprite..keke..which i actually accept it..and i have no idea WHY??? it was damn disgusting when you eat the whole piece and drink it with the wine..ALMOST vomit...the wine was damn not nice lo..too strong for me..ish..i just hate the wine...and i am so proud that i did not blush any bit...hehe..maybe because i ate too much cheese..keke..

Busy life

Ive got TONNES TO DO!!!!

Monday- Bartender, English test, Beverage Report

Tuesday- French Presentation

Wednesday- Sales and Marketing Assignment due date and assesment

Saturday-Part time in Eastin Hotel

14 June-Malaysian Studies exam

16 June-FnB, Econs and Accounting

17 June-Sales and Marketing

19 June- French

20 June- English

30 June- TRAINING!!!!!

So tell me...im so freaking busy now..am i happy..NO..hell no..i just wanna lie on my bed and sleep...watching tv..and eat...

by the way..i cant go back to seremban in like 3 whole weeks..which means i have to save my money...and i cant see someone for THREE WHOLE WEEKSSSSS!!! okay..im so going to stress out soon..sooo...save me people!!!

earlybird in a bad mood

im SLEEPY!!!!

i merely slept yesterday..

was caught up with they started with kiss 2 and American Next Top Model Cycle 10...

and i manage to finishing typing my French Assignment...

which is a miracle..

and im so lazy to check again the whole thing because i know that is the best i can do..

so..byebye FRENCH!!!

and hello Econs..Sales and Marketing..English Test..FnB report..

and im the bar tender next week..

which i regret to the max..

because i realize there are tonnes to do...

i ought to make two mocktails..

ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Kind of pissed because i have to wake up early for the food science thingy..

came to college and realize that the stupid TV is spoilt..

...wtf...

stupid...

wednesday get away

okay..this is my first encounter with Klang's Bak Kut Teh...

After our Malaysian Studies class..

We crazy people suddenly decided to go to Klang and eat Bak Kut Teh...

I was saying that i want to eat Bak Kut Teh ever since the starting of the term 4...

and i finally got to eat the most famous Bak Kut Teh yesterday...

yum yum..i was freaking hungry at that time lo..

you know what is eat until the clay pot berkilat?? This is BERKILAT!!!

Look at our clay pot la..Totally swept clean..until it shines..haha..so you can imagine how nice the Bak Kut Teh is..keke..

Okie..here's our crazy friends..(From the right)..the ever crazy dai lou.. who can go until the end of the world to eat good food..PIPI..who will never be photogenic..keke..sorry ar pipi..and our wayne wayne..who is posing nicely for the cam..

Honestly..i was quite fascinated with this kettle..i never saw this thing in my whole life..it is so ancient..and i love it..keke..

After filling my stomach with rice which i never touch since ages ago..we went to Red Box for karaoke!!! muahaha..time to sing..and my hands are damn itchy lo..but still not enough for me lo..gonna stop by another day..to sing until i loose my voice..muakaka..

cat, diny me and hui..

Crap 2

Well..What that happened between me and my EX housemate was just plain lame..Firstly..if she is really not happy with me..fine lo..you dont have to be friend with me..i dont even care if she is not my friend..after knowing her true color..it is just plain stupid to care about her..so what the hell...You dont have to do so many things to show your protest to me...Taking people's property = stealing...Do you know that??? i dont really know what happened between her, uncle and the college...but...it is her own fault for everything to turn out that way...nobody ask her to be so freaking stubborn and not to give in...SO...Dont blame me for what you did to yourself!!!!!!

I know because of my problem with her...alot of people hate me...and i dont give a damn..it is just that it will be hard for me to communicate with them...well..i dont have to force myself to be friend with people who already had their mind set that im a Bitch!! so..just forget about it...no point forcing myself to talk and smile to them...because it is just plain pointless...

okie..im done with her...just dont step on my tail anymore..im not as weak as before..bear in mind of that..sometimes il fall..but il stand up again..nobody can bring me down..NOBODY!!!! okie..CHILL...haha...take a deep breathe...okie..im cool..

Crap 1

Since i have the time of the world now..so..im going to write...WRITE is the way to burn all my time now..haha...When you are bored..you will have alot of things to crap on..sorry if im too long winded or anything..honestly speaking..i dont really aspect anybody to read word by word...sometimes il read back and thinking why am i so dumb..haha..why did i wrote all those...it is totally crap...Well..crap is another thing that im real good in now..keke..

These few days..some people are really into the 'Blox' game in my phone..For those who dont know what is that..it is a stacking up blocks game..you have to stack up as high as you can to break the high score..well..you can even stack up until Venus as Hui said..haha..because SHE..broke all my records and reached until Almost 7000..what the hell..my score is only 2000+..haha..im not happy lo..joking only...actually it is real simple game..but i dont know why you will just get addicted to it...im serious..try playing it...and you will know why...

Ohya..forgot to blog about what had happened to me last week..one of the incident that im real proud of myself..if you had been reading my blog all the while..you will know that i had problem with my EX room mate...soo...that day..i was busy with my English assignment in the Student Lounge...she came to me..( in canto )..i cant really remember what she said..but something as below------

'You ate and full ady hor?? so can we talk now?'
( asking me to leave my friends and talk to her PERSONALLY..ofcourse i wont be so stupid and go with her...she will screwd me again lo...like i will fall into her trap...so to hell..mind my english..but im really pissed with her...)

' No wor..im busy now..'

' NOW..college come and gao me...uncle ( Brendan's dad ) come and gao me..if like that il gao you.'

' This thing has nothing to do with me.so dont blame me for nothing.'

' Yea right..then how they know my ID number.'

' i did not told them lo. I aso dont know you ID number.'

' It is all listed down in the Industrial Training Placement List..you said you don't know.'

'i really dont know.'

' You can ask your friend mer..i though you very friend with Carmen.'

'I did not ask her ..she is there only mar..go and ask her yourself.' ( Carmen was damn scare as well..keke)

'..... then how they know...'

' You think that college so big they cant go and find out ar?'

'.....' ' im just here to tell you..later 12.30 we will be meeting at the student service centre..the third person is also there...if you want to come you can come'

Then..she walked away with a damn pissed look..keke..honestly speaking..that time i was shaking..i did not aspect her to come to me..but after i calm down..i realize that i actually did not cry and stand up for my self...WAKAKA.. im damn happy lo..keke...im really proud of myself at that point..

Im bored!!!!

IM BOREDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHH!!!!!

Im bored..it is a Borrring Tuesday..maybe because today i did not go for fine dining..thats im so freaking bored now...

i seriously dont know what to do....

reach home...im alone...

go facebook..friendster..blog...

THEN????

do what???

ISHISHISH!!!!

Maybe i should go to youtube and watch something...

or go and do my assignment...

BUT..i seriouslly dont like to be sooooo freaking free like now lo..

its like im so useless and my life is so boring...

somebody just tell me how to make my life meaningful le..

ish

BORING!!!!!!!

A small little update

Just finished my damn Malaysian Studies Video..okie..done and bye bye...really driving me nuts la that video..now i know why i cant be a movie director..cz i just suck in all these..haha...IM GLAD..bye bye Malaysian Studies...and hello Economic, food science and marketing...FRENCH...all those unfinished and untouched assignments...ARGHHHH.....

Well...actually there should be something that i should tell everyone...BUT..i dont have time to blog about it...AND...i dont know whether i should tell everyone about it...because definitely il get alot and alot of scolding from the whole world...but people started to spread rumours here and there..some already can guess...because they know me too well...soo...im back with Brendan..OKIE...STOP SCOLDING ME..haha...i know this and i know that...yes...i should not do that..yes...why am i so stupid...yes...im too soft hearted already...yes...im too studborn..yes..im the most idiot and blind person in this whole universe..OKIE..enough!!!! haha...well..maybe i am really blind...why am i putting so much of energy on this guy...why did i gave him soooooo many chances...why i this and that..the answer is 'i dunoe'. im serious..i know i should just end it there and start off with my new life...but...

when he told me that he can not give up on me..and saying that he can not let me go..i know that he is serious...he holded my hands damn tightly at that time...then he asked whether i can accept him back...as far as i know him..when he said that..he really meant it...and i just got soft hearted....i know im just pure dumb..but...what to do...i still gave him another chance..maybe i will still give him chances in the future...because i know that both of us are learning to be with each other...we are still finding ourselves in this 'love' thingy. it is normal to make some mistakes here and there...it is just the matter of time...for us to overcome all the obstacles...sooo...im just giving us another shot...a chance to learn from our mistakes and stand up again...

soo...im hoping for the best this time...and cross my fingers that we will be able to make it through...

my stuffed life

okie...i have to go back to KL in like a few more hours..and im scare...WHY..because when i go back..ASSIGNMENTS!!! Malaysian Studies...then my practical worksheet..might have the stupid liquor and liquer thingy which im totally nob in it...and still got damn alot of assignments waiting for me to finish...DAMN..

im like so stuffed and screwded up in KL...alot to do..so many things..but so little time..then il be lonely at home in KL for one whole month...which just sucks to the max..because il have nobody to talk to..and just alone in my four wall room..facing the fan and the comp..eeee...just plain lonely..thats why im scare to go back to KL this week..then il be totally stress out because of the finals...then il have one week break which is totally not enough...THEN--------

TRAINING AGAIN!!!!!!!

for two months...

okie..il be having split shifts everyday single day...

maybe no salary...

SUCKSS..

then...the stupid KTM and monorail which will cost me atleast 200 every month...

haiy..

i cant WAIT for my training...

i just hope that everything will be better for me from now on..

and nothing bad or anything will happen AGAIN..

Grumpy

okie..so this is how i look now...grumpy!!!!!

WHY??because of the freaking Malaysia Studies video..

DAMN IT!!!!

it is like so freaking hard to DO...

the naration...music...the pictures..the stupid time line..

then the subtitle or whatever you call it..

ARGHHH...

Okie..cool down..im alright...

there are tonnes to do and so little time...

and im super duper nob in IT stuffs..so im screwd..

in and out..

gosh..it is hard to breathe now..what the hell...

i just hope that i can finish it on time..and produce something that can be WATCH...

cross my fingers...

PEOPLE..please pray for me..

thanks a bunch..

Happy Birthday

Went back to Seremban this weekend..

Firstly..its my dad's birthday..then its BBQ at wendy's house to celebrate Jen Wei's birthday...

Gosh...it has been ages since i BBQ chicken wing, fishballs, hotdogs and corn..:)..

i LOVE it...

though it is freaking hot and hot...

and i MISS MY FRIENDS...

gosh..

and im sorry for a little miscommunication due to TOO many things happened for the past two weeks...

sorry that i did not tell you guys what happened...

next time il make sure il tell you all at the first place..

love all of you..muakxx..

hehe..im like the birthday girl aint i??haha..because of that..they ask for a retake..

nah..that's the real birthday girl-jen wei..not me..keke..

so long

Just came back from seremban..after my ah ma's funeral...what i have to say is..everything is just so tiring...exhausted...Just after i came back from KL yesterday..i have to rush to my grandma's house for the praying ceremony..which require's us( me and my bro) to wear the blue suit..this is what i call it..because it is plain blue..then we have to pray..kneel down..listen to some enchanment again and again...well..i seriously not feeling like talking about the ceremony...

Well..my ah ma passed away because of kidney's failure...she had diabetes ( penyakit kenving manis) for quite some time..and high blood pressure..which i did not know..and she refused to go to hospital for check up..everytime my aunt wanted to bring her for medical checkup..she refused to..and she will argue with my aunt..and that's the cause for her kidney failure...SOoo..people out there..please go for check up if your realize something is wrong...dont be afraid to know the results..if not..it will be too late...

What i regret the most is...ay aunt told me that even before my ah ma took her last breathe..she asked my mom not to scold us so often..and ask me to come back to seremban often..because it is very hard for her to see me nowadays...when i heard of that..i just broke down...because i realize how long i did not see my ah ma..im really sorry..i promise her that i will go home often...

From down right of the picture...that is my ah ma...then my aunt..my gong gong..and my uncle..

this would be my gong gong...i remember i put his before in my blog..but i just feel like putting again..because my gong gong is very very tough..i really salute him..and respect him...i promised ah ma i will go back often from now on...and i will go and see gong gong more often...

this i promise you...

rest in peace ah ma...

we will take care of gong gong..

and we will take care of ourselves..

past and present

Life can be so random..everything can change in a sudden..i don't know what will happen when i go back to seremban tomorrow..wednesday would be worst...i scare i will cry again...

My popo passed away when i was in 7 years old..that time..i was still young and naive..and i couldnt really remember what had happened. i knew that she was sick and needs to see doctor frequently..i even went to the clinic with her..Then..after some time..popo have to stay in hospital already...but i was still young...i dont really know much..then there was one day...everyone went to the hospital...then i still remember i have to squeeze the water into her mouth because she was not able to drink by herself..then she even fed me something to eat...Then..i don't know how..she passed away...

I remember a lot of people came and pay their respect to my popo...a lot of rituals were being performed...then i remember i stare at popo for very long...wonder why is she lying in the coffin...then i realize she moved a bit..i quickly called my dad and said 'popo havent die..she moved..faster bring her out..' then my dad pulled me away and said soemthing to me...which i cnt remember...that was like 12 years ago...

i hope il be strong this time..strong enough to not cry infront of everyone...

sad and just plain sad

Just when i thought i can get everything back in order..something has to happen...

My grandama had passed away this afternoon..

i was shocked when my brother sms me..because i did not know my grandma went to penang with my mom and aunt...i only know they will be back today...then this news came to me..in a sudden..i was just shock and stare at my phone...luckily Brendan was here...i started to cry...because i realize that it was my ah ma that had brought me up all these years who passed away..not some nobody...she is my grandmother...

the one that always nag me for not doing the houschores..the one that always call and ask me whether i ate already ornt..the one that always call me and ask out whole family to go to her house and eat har mee ( home made noodle..my ah ma's specialty )..the one who always cook food for me and my brother whenever my mom is not around..the one that will tapao breakfast for my and my bro..the one that always ask me when am i coming back from KL..the one that always sad when im saying i wnt be coming back...

now only i remember since when is the last time i saw my grandma...it was long long time ago...maybe last month..when i came home and we went and eat steamboat..that was the last time i saw her...i miss my grandma very much..i really miss her...

but now..i cant see her already...i cant even see her for the last time...

SHIT...im crying like hell now...

Ah ma...sorry for not coming home that frequent...sorry for not listening to you at times...sorry for everything...

thanks for taking care of me, ah liang, ah jun and ah xiong since we were small..

thanks for defending us when mama scold us for nothing...

thanks for cooking for us..

thanks for everything...

May you rest in peace now...

i love u...ah ma...

and i miss you

A person to respect

Mosquitoes are eating me alive right now..i just hate the mosquitoes in seremban!! damn iritating..nothing much happen to me..you know..it is seremban...like patrick daya said..'it is a quiet place..it is good to relax your mind..not much entertainment at night..which is good..' i totally agree with sir..then he asked me..what am i going to do at home..i said..il finish my assignment?? and watch tv?? haha..then he said sarcastically that i would definitely watch tv and do nothing else...we'll see...haha

Funny thing is..he sms me at 11 something..and ask me to stop watching tv and go and sleep..the truth is..i am watching tv..haha..caught me...FINE...you win...then today..he sms me in the afternoon..and ask me to stop watching tv..haha...Caught me again...BUT..this time..i was doing my assignment infront of the tv...so?? told him that..and he called me..haha...ask me to do my work la..bla bla bla..well..he is a very caring lecturer..OR..he got nothing better to do..haha..sorry la sir..you taught me well to be sarcastic..

Honestly speaking..though he likes to talk alot..damn sarcastic at time..

BUT..

i really do respect him...

and..

thanks for everything that you had done for us..

i really do appreciate it..

muakxx