HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE!!!!!!

may your 20th birthday be as full as possible..

DONT LET THE ASSIGNMENTS BRING YOU DOWN!!!! haha

we all love ya....muakx muakx!!!!!!

explaination or no??

Well..i just read something just now..which i dont really know whether it is referring to me or not..

anyhow..it actually sets me into thinking..

maybe im thinking too much??? i dont know..and i dont really want to wind about it..

Life goes on..

Whether it is me..or not me..who am i to say anything?? (bear in mind...im not emo now..)

Everyone have to have some emotions..

whether it is happy nor sad..

loved or not loved..

stress or not stress..

Forgiving is always the hardest thing to do..especially to someone that has unintentionally or with intention to hurt you..

Explaning to the whole world of something that. you have not done or have no intention to hurt anyone at all is just...hard..

Everyone asking how are you now when you are single..dadada..is just..

yeah..just dont ask..im fine though..really..

trying to divide my time nicely..whether in studies..friends..or with families..

Honestly..i can go to singapore at the end of this year...but i have my exams..

i can go to hong kong next year..but yea..i have my DIPLOMA finals..SHIT

E-X-A-M-S!!!!!

Every holliday plan that my family made..i cant make it..they go for holiday..i stay at home and study..

when im in my holidays..they go to school..what???

haiy

trying to forget something that i dont want to repeat in my life..

trying to not remember those moments in my life..

im trying hard..really hard..

Everyone has their own good...ofcourse some flaws..but hey..dont ever judge people from the cover..whether you are just 19..or 50..only judge people when you know them..

I hope that my judgement this time is right..

and i can once again learn to trust people..

When you know that you met the right one in your life??

So continue to believe in love..

Because once you found the right one..you will never regret..

T-I-R-E-D

IM T-I-R-E-D!!!!
I guess everyone is tired lo..sad thing..

Talking about personal life..ermm..everything is going on well enough..better than ever..
at least im not stress at home..which is a good thing..
Just when im in college..and i dont get what the lecturer is talking about..everyone beside me is stressing out..
woAAA..thats a killer..il be affected and there i am..stressing out..

Alot of work are remain undone..which is freaking me out at this moment..
Two more weeks to go..and yea..everything is still floating in the air..OHOH..
Our Food Promotion has to be held when it is the due date for most of our assignments and when we are having our mid term assesment..what the..
Pity each and everyone of us..
When i look around the class..some sleeping because too tired..some defintely looks like they had not been sleeping well for quite some time..some staring at the notes like they are going to tear the notes into billion pieces anytime..
Some..like me..feel like throwing my shoes at the lecturer who comes 30min late to class every single day-- Dont know how to teach us--and finish class in 45min instead of 2 hours!!!!!! ANGRY!!!!
fine fine..let me cool down..i just hate her SOOOO much..can i have a better French lecturer so i wont flunk my French..ishish..

NOW..i better go and get some rest now..my eyes are barely opening at this moment..
GOOD NIGHT!!!!!!

Just when i thought il face my Financial Assessment today..
Suddenly postpone to next week pulak..SOBS...
Now..next week is going to be hell for me..
Let me show you why-----

Monday--Nothing much
Tuesday--Financial Test, Tea Talk, Stock Check
Wednesday--French Test
Thursday--English Test
Friday--English Assignment Presentation
Saturday--Food Promotion Rehearshal

SEE!!!!!! Everyday got something to do..why my life so pack now..haiy..
NOW..everyone around me is like so tired..not enough sleep..too much of stress..
Never ending things to do..
HAIY..Term 5 ar..not easy wei..

ONE more day..

Alright..im done with my video shooting today..
One more day to go..muahaha..thankgod French assessment was postpone to next week..yeah!!!
Yesterday service was the most tiring..and yet..the one that we learned the most..
thanks to MS JASMINE..god..i really hope that she can be our next lecturer..
My duck craving..hoa!!!!crap..haha..i ter-cut my finger when i was craving..damn careless..
but i have to hide my blood because the lecturer was standing next to me..haha..
i really hope that duck craving would not come out for exam..if not..GG

Talking about my video shooting today..it was..ahem..FAKE..
haha..though i did not do much..i just stand there and smile..FAKE..
haha..but it was cool la..
'lets roll!' its the key word day..'CUT' is another word of the day..
But it was cool..
We had our beverage tasting and food tasting today..it was GREAT!!!
Sunny did pull off a great job..he looks so yeng when he was doing the drinks..haha..
I bet he will have quite a few fans when the video is up..keke..
But im so glad that we finish everything in one day..ermm..in three hours to be exact..
You see..hospitality students are awesome actors and actresses..haha..
The food..it was WAY better than what we aspected actually..
the cake was NICE..can i eat too?? sobs.. i bet i can't..

Well..my housemates said that i had changed already..haha..
stronger i guess??? or more crazy?? maybe..
i dont know..haha..

OUR food promotion is coming up in two more weeks..
oh oh..D-I-E..but it will be fun i think..
but stress defintely..
visit www.prison.co.nr for more information..keke..

Im a piggie

Back in KL..yea..i went back to Seremban for the weekend..
the main purpose..is to REST..haha..
Last two week was a hell of a week..hectic..tiring..stress..and everything..
So i went back to my house...
I eat..sleep..watch drama..then eat..then sleep again..
Thats what i did for two whole days..seriously..
call me a pig..i dont care..haha..

Well.this week..will be another hectic week.i have to wake up around 6.30am...OH MY GOD..
I already had a super hard time waking up at 8am..now 6.30am..ish..
I guess i better sleep earlier later..
Something striked me today..my mom asked me..
what ive been eating in KL?? junk food??
ermm..I think im eating normally..haha.
Well..now I know how to take care of myself..and not by starving myself for nothing..
but ham telur tambah sayur is still my best lunch selection..sorry..it has been a habit since like..starting of college??haha..

Alright..just hope that il survive next week..
cross my fingers..

Housemates or Friends??

Some people might wonder why i put my housemates on the top of my list..
let me tell you why...
My relationship with my families are not that close..
We don't really sit down and talk..
We barely have any conversation..except for me and my bro..
Well..i think that is because of how im brought up..

Now..at Mentari..my housemates are..Michelle..Jervin..Melvin and Brendan..Boon Ken is basically not at home the whole time..soo..not really close to him..
They are like my families..
We talk..we cheer each other up..we share each other's problem..
we eat and sleep together..in a same house of course..

Even though im stress like hell in the college..whenever i reach home..
there will be a smile in my face..
Do you know that feeling where you feel happy when you reach home??
I know that no matter what happen..they will be there for me..
They are shoulders for me to lean on when I need one..

That is why..my housemates are important to me..
not to say you people are not..just that it is different..
They just can not be compared together..
It is like asking you to choose between your parents and your lover..
Or money and love..
Something like that..i don't know..haha
But yeah..just want to let you guys know why..why sometimes i put housemates above everything..
Sorry if i disappoint you people..

So dont ask me to choose between friends or housemates..
I cant do that..

One down..tonnes to go

YAY!!!! We manage to finish our first Law Assignment today..
THANK GOD..
I felt sooo relieved..with all the tension and stress..we manage to finish the drama..
with a bit of laughter and drama..haha
The gay part was the highlight of the day..
Sui Ren..you have the potential to be Malaysia Next Top Model..and The best actress award definitely goes to you..haha..
CONGRATES!!!!
Too bad i did not snap any pictures..if not..haha..you will be famous..

Next week..Next week..I am scare..haha..
Seriously..there are tonnes of work to be done..
Monday..Tuesday..Wednesday..Thursday..Friday..
Oh shoots..I have things to do on every single day..what the hell..
busy busy..tired tired..i guess i needed every rest that i can get to get me through next week.sobs..

Today is 6th of November...meaning our Food Promotion is coming soon...
In three weeks time..OH MY GOD..
there are still tonnes of things to do..
I just hope that everything goes well..
NO more conflicts..no more fights..no more tension..
just work as a team to make it a success..

Sorry people for not making to MOS tonight..
SERIOUSLY..im tired of MOS..
I do not want to be label as a frequent clubber le..
YES..i know that i always dont go to club with you people..
BUT ONE DAY..we will go together alright??
not before Food Promotion lo..k??
SORRY...

A little bit of frusfration

Im a little bit frusfrated today..
Im very blur these few days..keep setting the alarm wrongly...
This morning..my class suppose to be 9.30am..and guess what time i set??9.55am
what the hell???
i suppose to set it at 8.55am..i seriously dont know why..haha
So when i woke up at 9.15am..im like..i give up going to class..
WHY??i normally takes like 30 min to get ready..by the time im ready..im already 15 min lates..which means----RM5...yea..so why not go back and sleep?? haha

French class sucks as usual.SHE AR..god..really gets me on my nerves..
if because of her i flunk my french..im going to...URGHHHHH...

PEOPLE..everyone is going to stress out real soon..
Food Promo coming real soon..
Next week we have our Star Youth Video shooting..
meaning all our food tasting and beverage tasting will be push forward..
It is a good thing..but everything seems to be on a rush now..
Next week will be assesment week for a few subjects..
DAMN..
Monday..going to genting..not for fun okay??
Tuesday-serving..
Wednesday- Video Shooting..
Thursday- FInancial assesment, French Assignment..

ALRIGHT..crazy thing..going out for dinner and law assignment now..sobs..ciao!!

Happy!!! : )

OKAY..Finally i manage to update two big events..haha..
YUPE..one Halloween and one Group 4&5 Food Promotion..
Both were great..seriously..and that really make my week way happier than it was before..
and i finally manage to SLEEP..
without cough syrup..and flu pills..thankgod..haha..

All right..Even though it has been a really hard week for me..but after friday..everything seems to be getting back into pieces..
Back to where it suppose to be..
im glad..im really glad..

Im not here to offend anyone..
but yea..no hard feelings..i have no hard feelings to anyone..
just that when everything is going to a wrong directions..
it means that something is some how wrong..soo..we have to find a way to get back to where we used to be..
and now..when everything is cool..it is great..thankgod..

Im here to say..im really happy at the moment..haha..
Happy happy..
SOO..i just hope that everything will fall back into pieces slowly..
cross my fingers..

70's Saturday Boogie Night

70's Saturday Boogie Night!!!!
It was really fun..i have to admit that..haha..
It was my first time dressing up for some themed function..though my dressing was not really 70's..but hey..i tried lo..ahha..Alright..lets go to all our pictures...-------

OKAY...CONGRATULATIONS TO GROUP 4 and 5!!!!!!!
It was fun..seriously..haha..hmm...that left us..
PRISON BREAK!!!!! hahaa..
nolar..LAST NIGHT IN PRISON!!!!! you deserve better

now im scare..haha..

Happy Halloween

First of all..me wanna say Happy Belated Halloween to everyone!!!!!
Sorry that i did not update ASAP..yesterday i was kind of busy..
So what is my Halloween Plan???
I went to Euphoria..yea..i know..club again..but i never celebrate Halloween before..sobs..
So..just go there and see see..
and guess what?? i really had alot of fun..
we were taking pictures nonstop with people who dress up for the event..haha..
Let's check out the pictures--------

Cool right??? yea..i know i did not dress up..sorry lo..
haha..next year il try and dress up..haha..maybe a hot devil or something..

Halloween was actually quite fun and cute..
but then day actually ended quite early..yea..my problem..
but everything went back to normal..thank god..

Actually i suppose to be able to sleep nicely on that night..
BUT..i had a hangover..DAMN IT..haha..
no more Euphoria for me..soo..people..don't try and temp me there..haha

Im done with this week

Today..haha.. *bittery smile.. is a good day..
Everything started off with a not so good sleep..i can only fall asleep at 7am..
meaning..even flu pill is not helping me..shit..
Then i have decided to skip my first 9 am class..because im totally drained off..
then rushed to college..to settle jervin's thingy..

everything was fine..in class..
Then..we have a short meeting after our class..
that is when everything turns bad..
I did not screamed for quite some time already..
and yea..I was partially yelling..
Everything was out of control..just because of that not-so-important 'jeans' issue..
urghh..
I know..it is hard to work in three groups..
especially when we are three groups with three different perspectives..
If there is any problem..just shoot it out..and we will try and solve it..
Im not trying to be a jerk..or some gila kuasa person..
I just want everyone to work in a team..to make this a success..
No matter how hard i tried..
the thing that i fear the most is starting to come out of the water..
I guess that is what people said..no pain..no gain..

I need to get out of the house..and throw away all the shitty things that are happening to me throughout this whole week...
and tomorrow..I will go boogie!!!!
70's Saturday Night Boogie Fever!!!

Happy Birthday DINY

Today is Miss Diny's Birthday!!!!
Happy Birthday DINY..we love ya..muakxx
we went to Red Box and celebrate her birthday...
haha..it was fun having everyone around..especially the guys..
You guys ROCKSSSSS..haha..
yes wayne..you too..ahha..

Eugene is singing 'Right here waiting'
OH MY GOD.we are like dead silence when he starts singing..haha
Eugene..way to go!!!!

The girls..Cat, Nikki , me and Diny!!!

All the girls..

Some random pictures

Anyone in the mood for Halloween??
God..i look like some phantom of the opera or something..haha..
Next..here comes Commando Zhi Lin--------

muahaha..actually the hat is like way bigger than my head..but its cute isnt it??? my outfit doesnt match though..haha..

Alright..something that 'fantastic' had done to me..oh my god..he just grab my face..and said that he wanted to draw a love on me..but pity me..dont dare to move around so his love wont be like cacated..hmm..soo..here's the work of art..deng deng deng----

This wasnt suppose to be happening actually..but sui ren..grab my hand..and start drawing a skull on my fist..haha..i cnt really move much becz 'fantastic' is drawing on my face..soooo..pity me lo..

What a night

Yesterday..a whole bunch of us attended Chermaine's Birthday Party..

The food was great..alot and alot of 'sao rou'..haha..
drinks??? haha..Maybe too much...

Maybe everyone was stressed out and having some problem of their own..
soo..quite a few people were drunk..
Even i drank a little too much..
Problems??? i have tonnes..tonnes and tonnes..
Can i handle it??? i hope i can..
HEY!!! stop being emo..haha..let me proceed with some pictures..

this dog is SOOOOOO cute..haha..wish i have one..

two drunken guys..muahaha..and im the cool one..Group photo..DH27..

the ex GROUP 3..

After that..we went up to look out point to have some fresh air..since most of us are quite emo at that time..soo..a little bit of fresh air and a nice night view shall save the day..

the view is way better than this picture..but anyway..it is still breathtaking..

for me..it is a good place to relax my mind..but maybe the after effect of alchohol is kicking in..therefore im a little bit emo at that time..
Yes..i have to set my personal life aside..and concentrate more in my food promotion..
whatever it is..food promotion is the most important thing now..

When i went home..i cried my lungs out..like a 'siao za bo'..haha..
but hey..i manage to sleep soo peacefully after that..that is a good start..

Thoughts of mind

honestly..i LOVE this teaser..

Everyone is not prefect..neither do i..i will do mistakes without me knowing..
I therefore apologize to everyone..everyone that is unhappy about certain things..
that i am sorry..sorry for my ignorance..

Whether you are a leader or a committee..everyone makes mistake Blaming each other would not make anything easier.. It is hard to please everyone..to make everyone agree with whatever you are doing.. no matter what it is.. there will be flaws..flaws that other people will take and point it at you..

For me..everyone is the same..whether you are the manager or a director..or a committee..
you have your own responsibilities..therefore..work on it..work as a team..
if you made mistake..suck it up..and work hard to change it..
everyone work as a whole..
If there is anything..please voice it out..dont keep it in your heart..

So people..please support our group's food promotion..
coming soon..

DH 27 Group 1,2,3 Food Promotion----( Last Night in Prison )

DH 27 Group 1,2,3 Food Promotion----( Last Night in Prison )

Please be informed that the food promotion is postpone to 29th November 2008..
The reason for the postpone is there will be a lunch function on that day..
Therefore..the college decided to postpone it to 29th November...
Please pass the message around..

For the Board of Directors and assistant BOD, please stay back on next Wednesday, 1pm for a meeting session at annex..
Please get prepared for the meeting..thank you..

Im back

OKAY..im back!!! haha..sorry..but i was seriously undergoing some serious self conflicts..
yes..and it lasted for two nights..two sleepless nights..sobs..
it was HORRIBLE..
i can not sleep at all...
and when u can not sleep..you will start thinking of all sorts of crap thoughts which are unhelpful at all..

but yea..i think im over it now..
and i hope that i can sleep later..keke..fingers cross for me thank you...

--FOOD PROMOTION--
=
stress
=
sleepless nights
=
panda eyes
=
zhi lin now

crap..haha..but its alright..still got time to work on everything..soo..just hope that everything goes on well for our food promotion..

zhi lin..

dont be emo already..stop thinking of thought that are totally unhelping..stop giving yourself hope..start opening your heart to other people..whether they are friends or your families..stop making people around you to be frusfrated and mad at you..stop doing stupid things to create attention..and stop blaming yourself..

alright..thats all for tonight..good night Malaysia..

If i have a choice

IF I HAVE A CHOICE

i would choose to be emotionless now
i would choose to feel nothing..
i would choose to be an emotionless robot

I want to be able to love someone freely
i want to be loved

i want everything to be normal and simple
i want to understand everything
i want to be treated fairly

i don't want to be sad anymore
i don't want to feel empty inside
i don't want to be lonely
i don't want....
i don't want to be neglected

yes.if i have a choice..
i would not have done the things that i had done before
and the ending would not be the same now..

but that if i have a choice..
now..i have no choice..
no choice