Emo-ish

Am i am an emo kid?? ermm..maybe i am..i just like to write something that is very sentimental...can not ar?? Well..these few days he went to Singapore..just came back today..this evening...Ofcourse there were a few pages of our lives that we left out...and we have to catch up a bit when we have the time to talk or sms..

Since he was in Singapore..ofcourse we can't sms that frequent..he was busy with his vacation..and the sms rate is not that cheap...RM 2 for each sms..from singapore to malaysia...One day maybe 1 or 2 sms?? saying good night and that's all..ermm..quite pathetic actually..i seriously felt damn shitty the first day he went..Then i found some entertainments for myself..so it wasnt that bad..atleast i wnt be checking the HP all the time..

So..one good thing..atleast i wnt be aspecting him to sms me that often..if he have the heart to sms me..he will sms me..no point forcing him to do so...right?? im getting use to it now..so..its a good thing..

Well..one thing..i still have my own life to live..he cant be my everything..i cant just put him as my center and dont have my own life...Im not talking bad about him..im talking about myself..me...not him...atleast i am still moving on..not stuck in the same old place..if i am as stubborn as before..our relationship will definitely fall apart as what that happened in the past..now..the thing that i need to get use to it..is when my training starts and his college starts..thats where my biggest concerns are...

Why?? Because when im in training..il be more sensitive than normal days because my life is about work work work and nothingelse..moreover..he will definitely meet his 'friends'..i dont want to talk about that already..because it was a nightmare..you can read my older posts to know what had happened during my last training..soo..il just have to learn how to deal with it..and il see how he handle it..i hope that everything will be fine then..because i seriously dont want to be sad because of that anymore..

So..im being emo once again..thanks to myself..for reminding myself of the past..im so sleepy now..because i barely slept yesterday due to the alcholic overdose..haha..and SOMEBODY called and woke me up.. we went and ate dim sum for breakfast...the same gang..we were planning to have a name for our group of 5...not finalize yet..but il update it real soon..keke..cant wait for tomorrow's summer spash thingy...hopefully i wont get sun burn..peace^^