Jealousy strikes

Yesterday was a hell out of madness..actually i should be enjoying it..

but there were times when i saw Jason and Dolores..

ISH..an arrow shot straight into my heart..haha

jealous wei..

Jealous not because they were damn sweet..( got a bit also la ..haha)

but they can actually hold on to each other until this very moment..gone through shits and stuffs..but still manage to love each other so deeply..

three years..GOD..its like forever for me..

Another one was Guan Shoong and Mei Lin...

Mei Lin was like damn worried of Guan Shoong yesterday..

i can feel the love in the air wei..haha..

Me..stucked in the middle of the human pyramid..

yes..there are tonnes and tonnes of people around me..

but i felt lonely inside..

i dont want to hold a stranger's hand..

i dont want a stranger to be there to push those horny guys away..

all i want..is somebody that is truly sincere to do that for me..

YES..i was a bit crazy and wild in the club..maybe it is the alchohol..

or maybe i want to be a different person..

but once i walk out of the club..

i am the same old zhi lin..

what is in there..stays there..

Hanging out with those guys were something new to me..

Paulians are always Paulians..

no matter where they go..their style is the same..haha..

but i really salute Jason..

haha..im going to praise him here..dolores is going to be so proud..haha..

he is like the DAI KOR of the group..

He asked the guys to stop drinking when he sees them getting a little bit over the board..

and they actually followed Jason..

He tried and settled Pradeep's problem..which i find it quite amusing..haha

Eventhough his whole bunch of friends were with him..

He still takes care of Dolores really well..

Escorted us to the toilet..WAH..

Dolores..you are damn lucky..because Jason is a very good guy..

haha..

Im so glad that most of my friends found a very good BF..

Guess that is why you guys were so worried of me..

If im standing in your place..i guess i cant wait to beat this guy up either..

haha (bitter smile)

But dont worry people..

I will meet with a better guy in the future..cross my fingers..

Euphoria Part 2

i was broke at that time..soo..im really not planning to drink anything other than the home special drink for the girls..

But the guys open a bottle of whiskey..and here they go...'Cheers...Drink...blah'..haha..

Only the guys and dolores were drinking..im like..'il watch the crowd'..haha..anyway..i cant drink much though..il blush like a cherry tomato after i dirnk..soo..better not to take the risk..

After a few shots and a little kick of alchohol..me and Dolores decided to check out the dance floor..

GOD..it was PACK like hell..we can barely move..just when we found a spot to sweat it out..here comes some horny guys..trying to get nearer..i actually did not know that the guy behind me was 'enjoying' himself..until Dolores pulled me away..i was busy staring at the guy next to Dolores..because he looks so ham sap and horny..i actually did push him away at once when i feel like he is getting too near..

After that we decided to go back to our spot..we can not risk being molested in the dance floor right??

Jason would have killed me if anything happend to Dolores..haha..

Then here comes la Pradeep..pursuing me to drink..actually everyone was asking me to drink..at last..i said..alright..get me a glass..then he happily went to the bar and grab me a glass..here goes nothing..one glass..two glass..three glass..OH SHIT..im getting high..okay..im not going to drink anymore..actually i was quite okay..Dolores drank alot..thanks to pradeep..haha..

After we came off from Euphoria..something happened actually..but those were guys stuffs..so we dont bother asking what happened..we went to mamak and yumcha later..It was almost 4am when i reached home..i was very awake when i reached home..managed to bath..and stare at the wall for awhile..but Dolores went straight and sleep after we reach home..haha..i guess she was too drowsy and tired..

yeah..what a night..what a crazy and weird night...

Euphoria Part 1

OKAY..yeah..i went to Euphoria again..this time with a whole new group..

which im feeling a little bit weird and awkward actually..ahaha..

Me and Dolores..plus a whole gang of paulian guys..

Jason ( this one..me know..haha) Leonard ( heard before..never met..)

Guan Shoong ( me know who..but never talk before)

Quah and Kok Weng ( total strangers to me)

Pradeep ( who dont know him..haha..but never talk before )

SEE what i mean..HEY..during my 5 years in Puteri..i never talk to so many Paulian guys before alright..haha..and yeah..guess some of them dont even know that i existed please..haha..il show you guys the before and after picture later..so you will know WHY they dont know me..haha..

The day started of with Dolores came over to my place after her class..We went to mamak and have our lunch..After that..we SLEPT..haha..booring right..and then..it gets better..we went over to Jason's place and played PS2..i never like to play PS2..but i was bored..hello??? we played Street Fighter..and some Racing game..it was fun though..haha..we were like shouting and scolding..and then..We went for bak kut teh as our dinner..BAK KUT TEH before Euphoria??? haha..weird..Leonard and Sook Ee joined us later..Sook Ee was like all glammed up..me and dolores..wearing t-shirt and short pants..specs???haha..total opposite alright..haha..i swear to god i really need to rush home and get ready..

and then..we went home..quickly get ourselves ready..and DENG DENG..we are sama taraf as Sook Ee already..haha..you can check out the pictures in my previous post..

OKAY..Thursday night was HOT!!!! oh my god..it was like a Puterian gathering or something..i saw so many puterians there..One junior was like 'Oh my god YEAW ZHI LIN..SOOK EE.' haha..im like yeah..hello..

The crowd was HUGE!!! so many poeple were lining up when we were there..gosh..luckily they gave way for the girls to go in first..if not..ahah..Euphoria on Ladies Night was the total opposite of what it was on Wednesday..the crowd was CRAZY..

to be continue-----

EUPHORIA AGAIN

EUPHORIA MADNESS!!!!

let me upload all the pictures first..then il explain briefly about what that happened yea..haha

Fated to love you

Multiple post again???haha..typical me me and me..
This..wont be an emo post..no worries...
Maybe most of you have watched this series..
Fated to love you..but hey..im still going to blog about this..

okay..I LOVE THIS SERIES..what the hell..add that to my mum and Aunt..they were CRAZY about this series..we were like fighting for the cd..what the hell..i watched until like 3am in the morning..GOD..

The reason why i like this story is because-----

1. The guy is cute..Obviously..and he is drop dead cool..blah blah blah..haha

2. The girl..hmm..her character reflects a bit of me actually..blur..dumb..always think for others before herself..fell in love with a guy who treats her..sometimes good..sometimes bad..can be easily forgotten at times..people taking her for granted..YEA..guess how i felt when i watch this series..haha

3. The story line..and it is funny alright..funny..but not lame..i think..anyway..i still like it..blah..

Sometimes..i watch this kinda of drama..yea..maybe because i always wanted someone..the best is those cute guys from the series la..haha...someone similar to magically appear in my life..and magically fell in love with me..muahaha..Well..someone would say 'Dream on..'..ofcourse il dream on..haha..it is okay to have this kind of fantasy at times..just in my dreams..and something that can make me fall asleep at night..how crazy as it seems..it works..

I know..it is just another fairytale story..
but hey..i always believe that someone like that would have appear in my life..
Maybe not as flawless as those in the series..
but someone that truly loves me...cross my fingers..and yea..
someday..he will be there..hehe..*wink*

Better in Time

Hmm..This..is actually one of the songs that we sang in Karaoke..and i realize that the lyrics was DAMN meaningful..especially to my situation right now..so..please look through the lyrics..and tell me..that it doesn't suit me..haha

Better in Time - Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Karaoke addiction

As i said earlier..me and dolores went to Karaoke..muakaka..
we WENT..and yeah..this is the first room we went..DAMN SMALL..
we were like..ish..we want back the room 3 we went last time..very spacious lo that one..
guess what..the mic got prob in the small room..so we were transferred to a bigger room..
ROOM 3!!!! yay..its like xmas for both of us..haha..

We sang until like 6 i guess..gosh..tiring le..what the hell..
we sing until no song to sing already..
old mcdonald la..humpty dumpty..Do Re Mi..all those nursery rhyme also came out..haha

After the tiring singing marathon..we went and EAT..
Hungry...and im craving for Wendy's..so..lets go..
we end up feeling so bloated and full..until dolores can not even stand up..
THEN..we went and watch 'Money not Enough 2'
HEY..it was a great movie lo...
the story line really reflects on the reality..and i am so touched until i cried..
yea..i cried again..because of the story line..and it makes me missing my grandma..sobs..
As usual..there are tonnes of camwhoring going on..here goes nothing---------

Then.i waited for jervin to go home..and yeah..he LECTURE me about love..
haha..
He said..if you want to say you are single..you should say..' i am very single'..haha..then guys would know that this girl is single and looking around..hmm..
this is so classic of HIM..but yeah..somethings that he told me was DAMN true..
maybe i should listen to him??haha..

Pre Karaoke post

PEOPLE!!!! im going out for Karaoke AGAIN!!!!
muakaka..another 5 hours will be spend with my dearest Dolores..
Singing out of our lungs in the K-box!!!
sigh!! Eunice cant join us this time..but nvm..there is always another time..*wink*

Okay..yesterday..was being a little bit emo because i was all alone at home..
THEN..after i wrote all my posts and stuffs..
i suddenly felt like..'HEY!!! this is not too bad after all..being alone..kind of liking it..'
and i have my friends to chat with online..
THAT..is the most important thing.
i have my friends who are always there for me..
love you guys!!!!!

Anyway..talking about hungry..im hungry now..
yesterday was a disaster..sobs..
i did not take my lunch..FINE..then i was hungry but lazy at the same time..
so i have to PULL myself out of my comp and walk to the kitchen..
thinking maybe cooking some spaghetti to kill my hunger..
and then..i put the water in the cooking pot..
try and turn on the gas
and WTH!!!!
NO GAS!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^%^*@&#*($(*@

EH!!!..im hungry le..gosh..then luckily got some mi cup in the cupboard..
if not..il starve to death again..ish..
but nevermind..il catch a lunch with dolores before we kick the mic's ass..muahaha
seriously..im thinking of joining some singing competition or whatever next year..so be there to support me yea..muahahaha..*wink*

And old post

I posted this long long long time ago..and i still find it meaningful until now..
the reason..because it reflects my past two relationships..
and now..i post it again..i have no idea why..
but..just for the sake of posting it again..

Lying To Forget

This lie's become a part of me
For months, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear his name
Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For him are somehow gone
Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs
But last night when I saw him
For the first time since he left
My heart stopped for a moment...
I couldn't catch my breath
When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time...
I just can't let him go


Long Distance Relationship

A thousand kisses will never be,
Enough to satisfy my craving heart's plea,
Tommorrow will be the day I love you more,
Than today or yesterday or ever before,
Words and phrases will never do,
What my heart feels so deeply for you,
Deeper and deeper my feelings go,
My head is spinning too and fro,
I want you here, forever and more,
For our hearts to join and together explore,
Our hearts beat and beat as one,
Feel what I'm feeling, it's only begun,Y
et, slowly my desire turns to rage,
My heart feels as though it's within a cage,
You are so close yet so far,
At times like this I wish upon a star,
I wish you were here and not over there,
Yet life is hard as well as unfair,
All I can do is wish and wait,
Until we meet again as that is our fate,
I love you more than my words can say,
And forever my love will grow each passing day,
Until the day I gently hold your face,
I'll wish for that moment as I always do,And I've wished upon a star, so my wish will come true.

L-O-V-E

...LOVE...
for me..it is like an addiction..
a never ending addiction until the day when you realize how far you had gone..
the day when you realize that he is not looking at you the way he used to..
that he is not holding your hand as tight as before
that he is not sms-ing as frequent as before
that he does not turn back and look at you anymore
that he does not like to hug you anymore
that he does not bother wishing you goodnight

the day when you realize that there is somebody else in his heart
it is the end of everything
he would not bother caring about you
he would not bother sms-ing you
he would not bother about you anymore..

Asking myself what have i done to deserve this..
Asking myself why he treats me the way he did..
Asking myself why did i let this man to change me..
The answer is..
never ask those questions

it is not worth it..
not worth my tears anymore..

Again..im alone in this empty house..
cold and cruel..
me and myself..
but this time..without tears..

for him..
i wish that he can find someone that he truly loves..
Someone that can make him happy again..
Someone that he can be honest with..

as for me..
there would be someone there for me
to love me with all his heart
to show me that love do exist..
to make me believe in love again

This is not a post to make myself miserable again..
I already said in my previous post that il stand up again..
i just need to write out my feelings..
this is me..
no one can change that

no more..

for sure..this is going to be an emo post again.sorry..but this is going to be the last one..the last one that i want to talk about this relationship...
Seriously..i do not blame anyone in this relationship..because this is who he is..and the fact is..i cant change it..and he wont change it for me..therefore..it is not his fault..and not mine also..
Being in a relationship should be happy..not sad..
When everything turns ugly..you must know how to find the solution to solve it..
not by wandering around and around..in the end..just left two misery souls trapped in the same old problem..
This is my problem..i have tried and solve the problems..but it seems to be never ending..until now..
i realize that we are not meant for each other..
it took me long enough to realize this fact..
i know that many people were there to support me..worried about me..
and i deeply sorry that this have to happen...

I always said that i needed someone to slap me and wake me up..
in the end..though nobody slap me..but i realize that it is time to wake up..FINALLY..
Honestly..i really appreciate the time when we spend together..
Even though sometimes he can be quite mean..but he can be very sweet as well..maybe to every girl..but what the hell..
my point is..do not blame him for what that happened to us..
it is nobody's fault..
we still love each other as a close friend..but not more than that..

This time..i wont sms him anymore..i will try not to think of him..i will spend more time with myself and friends..and i will appreciate myself more..maybe you have heard these for millions of times from me..but this time..il do it for real..
this time..i told him..that i cant take this anymore..
i even wish him that he will find somebody that he truly love...
yea..i told him that..and i cried when i said that..so drama queen right..
but i actually rehearse that for quite some time..yea..until i headache and could not sleep..

well..no more self torturing..no more sleepless nights..no more dreaming about we get back together..haha..no more him and him..thats it..no more..im done..

Me and me

First time reading chinese post in my blog??haha..sorry..but i did not wrote that..i got it from kar woon..which kind of fits me..totally fits me..
Anyway..i aint going to talk about what that happened anymore..
Nothing much had happened..
it is just me and myself...self conflict..
and im going to be my own healer..to free myself from everything
so IM SORRY..
for everyone who cares about me...
i know that you guys were really worried about me..
it was not my attention to let you guys worried about me..
I will be fine..and FINE this time..
no matter what decisions i made..il make sure i wont do anything stupid to hurt myself..
il make sure il be happy again..

sorry for not listening to you guys
sorry for making you all worried about me
sorry for all the emo posts..
sorry for doing stupid stuffs to make myself miserable...
sorry for everything

il stand up as YEAW ZHI LIN again..
il rise again..soon..
so behold people..haha!!!!!!

When he doesnt like you anymore

当他不再爱你的时候

请不要在你不开心

或者是遇到麻烦而彷徨的时候去打搅他。

他那儿绝对不是你此刻应该的去处。

也许他会在接到你电话的时候

淡淡的安慰几句，

却也仅此而已。

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当他不爱你的时候

请不要在他面前流泪，

不要在生病时告诉他，

他无法给予你照顾和关心，

顶多是同情一下。

所以请骄傲的你，

不要放弃本来属于你的骄傲。

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当他不爱你的时候

你的爱

你的人

就会显得廉价许多。

他占了上风，

这是人的本性。

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当他不爱你的时候，

请不要与他讲你的琐事，

他无暇更没有兴趣了解你，

你的生活

你的过去，

你的长处短处与他何干？

即使讲了

他也会很快忘记的，

就如他忘记你的生日，

你的地址

你的电话一样。

没有爱

于是你注定挤不进他的生命。

即使，

你要的只是一个很小很小的角落。

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当他不爱你的时候

无论过去他是爱过后来忘了，

又或者是从未爱过，

当你无法成为他心里的那个人的时候，

他的心便不会记得你。

虽然他知道你深爱他，

但他宁可选择装作不知道。

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当他不爱你的时候，你的爱便是他的负担。

请不要计算自己的付出，

不要希望有什么回报。

爱着不爱自己的人，

本身便是没有回报的。

要记住，

你与他之间的爱，

是单方面的，

你用心

他无心。

所以

不要计较对错，

这样会快乐些。

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当他不爱你的时候

也一定要祝福他。

有了爱，

便不该有恨。

爱是美好的，

恨却丑陋。

何必让生命中美好的东西化作丑恶呢？

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当他不爱你的时候

请你深深呼吸，

一生的路上，

总有那么一朵花属于你，

不是安慰你。

而是

这是生生世世早已经注定的。

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给所有得到过所爱却又失去所爱的人

给从未得到所爱的

给因为仍旧爱着

于是选择自欺欺人的人

这是一面镜子

勇敢面对，勇敢放弃，勇敢重新开始......

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想念不会想念自己的人，太笨了。。。

眷恋不再喜欢自己的人，太傻了。。。

提醒自己：

"我只是失去一个不爱我的笨蛋。。。

他却失去深爱他的傻瓜。。。

损失的是笨蛋。。

为什么要由我来伤心？？"

taken from...
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/evil921

MAD

okay..sorry..this is not meant to hurt anyone..but i really hate BITCHES..GOD..fakers..idiots..screwded them..urghhh...guys are blind..yes..they are blind..sometimes..look beyond the face infront of you..it is not as simple as you see it..yes..you can think that that person is true and sincere to you..but who knows better than us..the girls itself...but when we tell you that..you dont listen..trust those damn bitches but not us..than we..the innocent one will be the BITCH because you claim that we bitch about them..you claim you KNOW them..but infact you know NUTS..NUTS!!!! if someone is can not click the whole damn bunch of girls..there is definitely something wrong..not that we cant understand them..but..god..just THINK yourself la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im pissed off because im framed for something that i never did...people who know me through and through knows that..i am not that kind of person who will turn people against someone..YES..il bitch about them if im mad..but il never ask anyone to hate them...its me who is the victim or whatever it is..not you guys...so..you dont have to hate them...BAH..I JUST HATE BEING FRAMED..what the hell...

i wish that GUYS..especially..LOOK CAREFULLY...dont just be blind by her innocence or beauty...whatever..you will never know what a girl can do..i never said that im super duper good..you can see from my blog..either you hate me or love me..thats all..URGHHHH...just becareful alright..and yea..girls also becareful...ISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bless the world..bless the innocence souls..and screwd those fakers..BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my heart aches

just read kar woon's blog..and i have the sudden urge to cry even though i know it is not worth crying..shit..here i go again..emo-ing..now my mind is like..screwded up..i dont know why..my head is heavy..my heart is aching..my whole body is like not mine anymore..nobody can help me through..i know..but you guys dont know what i went through..what kind of pain i went through...i cant say through here..because the whole world would have known..this..i want to avoid..

as i said..im just being stupid again..feeling neglected..who would be there to heal me???to heal my wound when i need one...not only from the surface..i can joke around..i can smile and laugh..but that doesnt mean that im healed..yes..i have to be my own healer..heal my own wound..and safe myself from all the problems..but i can say that until this moment..i did not do it well..in fact..pretty bad..im killing myself inside..

why im feeling like crying when i read her blog..because i can feel her happiness from her pictures..i can feel the love..that is something that im missing in my life now..that feeling..the feeling of being in love..not being push away..scolded..neglected..etc...this is just so wrong..

why did i let this feeling to overcome me???why??? i know..im only used..im just a somebody he will only find when he is lonely..stressed and sad..and the sad part is i will still be there for him no matter how hard im struggling deep inside...no matter how hard i hope that he will turn back and look at me..

i dont want to upload the pictures now..because that will just make my heart aches more..il upload it when im cool..not now..because mu heart is aching..

Im a Drama Queen

sorry for the sudden quietness in my blog..my internet was down in Mentari...so therefore..i did not update my blog...actually i got tonnes of picture to update..but it will take some time since my internet is down

OKAY..not going to talk about what i did..im not working in ELLE anymore..dont ask me why...dont even bother to ask why...but...dont care..so people..dont have to go there and find me..i wont be there anymore...okay..dont want to remember about those bad times...

seriously..i dont really know what the hell am i doing right now..serious..im stupid..im dumb and yea..im crazy...i like to create my own drama to make myself miserable...i like to do things to hurt myself..i dont listen to what people say...though they had been telling me like billions and millions of times...okay...until this stage of my life..i can write a skript of my personal life already..and i can guarantee you...it is full with dramas and dramas...

im crazy...im a pyscho..im loud..im stupid..im dumb..and i think that is why people will think that im some stupid LC 'hiao po'..sorry for my dressing..i dont really give a damn shit...just that whatever that im wearing now..it is getting looser ans looser..i have no idea why..and that day when i tried on a dress..i realize that im crazily thin until damn ugly..okay..not trying to be overly boastful about myself..but my rib bones should not be seen so easly..its not right..i guess i really need to eat alot and alot to make myself fat again..and i SWEAR that im stuffing myself with chocolate now..I SWEAR...

my mind now..is like a whirl pool..always stuffing with some crazy thinking..i swear to god if i dont go back to college and fill myself with books or friends..im going to be crazy soon...atleast i got better and useful things to think on..not some weird and unhelping thoughts...thoughts that will kill myself..

PEOPLE...help me to stop the dramas in my life...im going to be dead soon..brain freeze..emotion freeze or whatever you call it..i know..this kind of thing..i need to think for myself..i need to be smarted..but can trouble just stay out of my way...seriously..i need to get myself out of trouble..HELP ME...

Thin good..thin not good

yay!!! im blogging again..what the hell..second post of the day!!! incredible..
okay..i want to talk about weight issues..
hmm..not to say that im having one..BUT..i did loose some weight..
due to the training in my last restaurant..thanks to them..i lost like 2 kg..
drop back to 41kg..
ohyeah..how i know that..hmm..let me tell the story again..haha
well..i TRIED to donate blood when i was in NS camp you see..
FAILED in every single category..
underweight..not enough hemoglobin..and low blood pressure..
SOO..that day..me pandai pandai la..haha..went and try my luck again..
once i step on the weight scaling machine...that uncle said..
'kamu boleh baliklah..'
haha...sorry la...i did not know that i lost weight..

then this morning..i check my waist line..ofcourse it is way thinner than usual because i have not eaten anything yet..
and guess what..im back to 22.5 inch..
haha..STUPID!!!!
it was suppose to be 23 people!!!!!!!

okay..let me tell you why it is not so good to be thin..
1. You can hardly find any body hugging clothes
2. You can hardly wear any nice bangles..because your hand is just so thin..
3. i can hardly find some nice clothes..because..my waist line is very small..BUT..i have a huge ass..
4. Alot of people will start forcing you to eat..haha..thats a good thing actually..
5. Eating buffet is such a waste of money..because i dont have a huge stomach..
6. Low bloood pressure..

okay..not enough reasons??? well..i mean thin is okay..BUT..not too thin..
and it is way better if i got a bigger boobies...haha...

gastric day

okay..my FIRST day working in a retail shop---ELLE ( Sunway Pyramid )
well..kinda boring actually..nothing much to do..
you just have to fold clothes and fold clothes..
then stand there..
look at people passing by..
stunned...
then stand there again...
then fold clothes..
oh well..if compare to working in a restaurant..it is WAY easier..SERIOUSLY..
and i get paid..what the hell
and i can wear JEANS..ngek ngek..thats the most important part..

not everything was sunny and dainty though
well..before i went work..and went for breakfast in college with sui ren..
and i order my usual egg ham toast tambah sayur..
and yea..i can barely finish it..no appetite..haiy...
THEN during my lunch break..
i have to bank in money in maybank..and guess what..20 numbers to go and i have only 45 minutes left...and i havent taken my lunch..
oh great..no lunch for me..
and yea..i was STARVING the whole damn day..once i finish my work...
GASTRIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gosh..i can barely walk home yesterday because i was SOOOOOo hungry..
my legs are shaking..yeah..im not joking...haha

when i finally reach home..jervin is not home yet..
HEY!!! im hungry..i NEED FOOD..
when he came home and saw me in a desperate-for-food-look..
he was like..'lin...im so so so sorry..lets go now..'
haha..and yeah..once i get something to eat..im happier..and less moodier..

so the moral of this story is---------
do not skip any meal!!!
and good luck to those puasa-ing people..
i really salute you guys..

Random post

okay..i know..4 posts in a day sounded crazy right?? but i got tonnes to say..so just let me be..let me be...
im in a dilemma..i dont want to repeat the same thing all over again..
i just want to be happy
to feel the warm of love again
i just want the most simple thing in this world..
for people to treat you the way they should..
i dont blame you for being that way
i dont hate you
i dont dislike you
It is just hard for me to adjust myself again
i need time..
i need time to adjust myself..

BBQ Plaza

OKAY...i know i look so 'hiao' here..haha..but it wasnt suppose to appear at the top of my post..but nevermind.
ANYWAY...today...finally our whole apartment people went for a dinner together..HOORAY!!!..we went to BBQ Plaza..and yea...we were having something like a Reunion dinner...After dinner..me and Michelle went for some shopping trip..Jervin and Melvin went to Arcade..Brendan and Boon Keat went back home..sobs..
Anyway..we took quite some pictures..and here are some to share with you guys...

ME..tadaa!!! with my new pair of earrings.im so proud of them..

Me again!!! tadaa...im kissing the lagoon blue duck..looks a bit wrong though..

okies..these are my housemates..Michelle, Jervin and Melvin..they are GREAT..im telling you..just funny and great people to hang out with..love u guys

okay..this is Brendan, me and Boon Ken..Finally see him in my blog right???haha..

Me with three of them..yay!!!

Me and Michele showing off the necklace..it is quite nice though..pricey pricey..i dont have to heart to buy it..sobs...