Im a Drama Queen

sorry for the sudden quietness in my blog..my internet was down in Mentari...so therefore..i did not update my blog...actually i got tonnes of picture to update..but it will take some time since my internet is down

OKAY..not going to talk about what i did..im not working in ELLE anymore..dont ask me why...dont even bother to ask why...but...dont care..so people..dont have to go there and find me..i wont be there anymore...okay..dont want to remember about those bad times...

seriously..i dont really know what the hell am i doing right now..serious..im stupid..im dumb and yea..im crazy...i like to create my own drama to make myself miserable...i like to do things to hurt myself..i dont listen to what people say...though they had been telling me like billions and millions of times...okay...until this stage of my life..i can write a skript of my personal life already..and i can guarantee you...it is full with dramas and dramas...

im crazy...im a pyscho..im loud..im stupid..im dumb..and i think that is why people will think that im some stupid LC 'hiao po'..sorry for my dressing..i dont really give a damn shit...just that whatever that im wearing now..it is getting looser ans looser..i have no idea why..and that day when i tried on a dress..i realize that im crazily thin until damn ugly..okay..not trying to be overly boastful about myself..but my rib bones should not be seen so easly..its not right..i guess i really need to eat alot and alot to make myself fat again..and i SWEAR that im stuffing myself with chocolate now..I SWEAR...

my mind now..is like a whirl pool..always stuffing with some crazy thinking..i swear to god if i dont go back to college and fill myself with books or friends..im going to be crazy soon...atleast i got better and useful things to think on..not some weird and unhelping thoughts...thoughts that will kill myself..

PEOPLE...help me to stop the dramas in my life...im going to be dead soon..brain freeze..emotion freeze or whatever you call it..i know..this kind of thing..i need to think for myself..i need to be smarted..but can trouble just stay out of my way...seriously..i need to get myself out of trouble..HELP ME...