L-O-V-E

...LOVE...
for me..it is like an addiction..
a never ending addiction until the day when you realize how far you had gone..
the day when you realize that he is not looking at you the way he used to..
that he is not holding your hand as tight as before
that he is not sms-ing as frequent as before
that he does not turn back and look at you anymore
that he does not like to hug you anymore
that he does not bother wishing you goodnight

the day when you realize that there is somebody else in his heart
it is the end of everything
he would not bother caring about you
he would not bother sms-ing you
he would not bother about you anymore..

Asking myself what have i done to deserve this..
Asking myself why he treats me the way he did..
Asking myself why did i let this man to change me..
The answer is..
never ask those questions

it is not worth it..
not worth my tears anymore..

Again..im alone in this empty house..
cold and cruel..
me and myself..
but this time..without tears..

for him..
i wish that he can find someone that he truly loves..
Someone that can make him happy again..
Someone that he can be honest with..

as for me..
there would be someone there for me
to love me with all his heart
to show me that love do exist..
to make me believe in love again

This is not a post to make myself miserable again..
I already said in my previous post that il stand up again..
i just need to write out my feelings..
this is me..
no one can change that