Over and DONE

MY EXAMS ARE OVER AND DONE!!!!!

spare my freedome and out I go..

Xmas and New Year is in the corner..

Its time for celebration..

Not that I celebrate it also..keke..

ANYWAY..

HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL THE TAYLORIANS...

I will miss you guys..and Il see all of you in year>>>>>

2009

Shock not

Alright..The pictures of today..THIS----

Exactly how i felt when i saw our FnB exam paper..WHAT???/#@*&@(*#@)(*

COCKTAIL?? I where got study about this wor..Nobody tell me this topic is inculded in our paper also...@#&^@*&#^*

Then the next thing i feel...SOBS..SOBS..SOBS..

Not until tears rolling my cheeks la..but then i guess most of us also feel the same way..SOBS

ARGHH...dont care about it anymore..NOW..

OUR LAST PAPER-----

FINANCIAL MATHS...oh crap..

but its the last paper.....YEAH!!!!!!!

Obsess with baby pictures now..nananana..^^

The Exam Factor

Alright..This is how i look when i read the question for Law paper..

Babi..what they are asking for wor..even after i read the thing like a thousand times also dont get what they want..so i just crap..

And i manage to walk out of the hall in less than one hour time for french..and one hour for law..Those two are a two hour paper..

It is not because I am too smart to answer everything..It is just because I knew that I can't think anymore..so the moment i finish writing everything..i walk off..

with this expression...sobs...

and this expression when i reach home..

what am i going to study for Food and Beverage la..URGHH..

and here I am...blogging as usual..nananana..

Crap la..it is only a one hour paper..wont die...i hope..haha..

Bonne nuit everyone..

And bonne chance for tomorrow's paper..

LOVE

Alright..full stop with all my crappy nonsense..I am not as depressed as i sounded in my previous post..I am quite happy actually..what makes me happy?? Just a plain and simple life..no more ups and downs..but just peace and serenity..OHH..that sounded so cliche..haha..I just love being loved..thats all..who doesnt?? The thing is..whatever it is..just dont think so much OR..think so negatively..everything can be positive when you think it that way..right??

Sometimes it is alright to be alone for some time..not trying to be a loner..but yea..alone..when you can have your own space to write something..do something..or even day dreaming..you dont have to care about how other people feel..it is just you you you and YOU..the most important thing is..YOU..well..that is cool..

LOVE

aww..that is the most wonderful thing in this whole entire universe..

and more LOVE

love love love

OKAY..seriously..I think I was being attacked by the sleeping bug...All i want to do..is

 sleep 

sleep

 sleep and

 SLEEP

sleep baby sleep..

Everyone was saying I am a pig now..

NO

You are wrong..

I am a sleeping baby..

CEH

and I am a happy baby

Alright..off to study now..haiy..

The B factor

Forgiving is probably the hardest thing to do in this whole world..

Received an awkward call yesterday...

When I saw the name..I really dont know what should i do..

Whether i should pick up the phone or hang the phone..

In the end..i picked up the phone..

It is not a really awkward situation actually..

Ofcourse it is not about relationship and dadada..

Just asking whether I am free today..for a gathering...asking where am I and things..

It is a really short phone call..but it sets me on thinking..

If i have a choice...i might have said this

'You bloody b**ch..you think i still want to see you after all this shit that i faced from you..You think I still want to be in the same room or space with you..you bloody idiot..just stay away from me..BAH..'

Ofcourse i did not..

I said in a very nice tone...

'Oh..i am having my exams now..maybe after my exams..Im in KL now..exam finishing in one week..we shall see lo later..okay? bye bye'

URGHH...

I really feel like slapping myself sometimes..If i have a guts and courage..tiger heart or bear palm's or whatever it is to make me stronger..i might have just curse it all out..because i really had a hard hard time with her..Maybe she did not realize that..because this is her you are talking about..she has always been like that..nothing to change and i have no intention to...mine my own problem right???

In another hand..i really feel like having a peace peace situation..well..maybe il just pretend that im really cool..

'oh hey...how are you..long time din't hear from you 

( yea right..i know almost everything about you you bitch..)

 

how are you and your bf??good?? 

( yea right..got problem then go and find for another back up plan, babi) .

.so nice to see you...

( yea right bitch..i hope i will never see you again..)..'

OKAY..it is not cool at all..not at all..haha..who can be cool anyway..im sorry to say..but me not..i can look super cool outside..but inside..im burning HOT..

'Who the hell you think you are?? trying to gain other people's care or whatever shit it is by twisting the truth which leads to misunderstanding between others..guess what will other feel about it?? Being accused for something that I did not do..and making the trust no longer there..thinking that I am the ultra bitch trying to trun everyone against you..OH CRAP..NONSENSE..'

Yes..It has been awhile..but i just hate being mislabled for something that I did not do..and i have to suffer the consequences..that is SHIT..

Maybe I should just be forgiving and let it be..Yes..she is just she..i cant change anything about it..and I dont have to be you..atleast I know my limits and know what I should do..I dont want to hurt anyone..and that is the differences between me and you..Maybe we can just be a hi-bye friend..but who cares..

Try this

What kind of season will you enjoy eating steamboat? 
A. Winter ( To Qn 2) 
B. Summer (To Qn 5) 
C. No matter what season (To Qn 1) 

1. Do you like to have some sauce on your food? 
A. Like (To Qn 2) 
B. Don't like (To Qn 5) 

2. Will you add eggs in your steamboat soup? 
A. Yes (To Qn 3) 
B. No (To Qn 6) 

3. If you find a cigaratte butt in ur steamboat food, what will you do? 
A. Quarrel with the boss and request another new one. (To Qn 13) 
B. Stop eating and just pay and go. (To Qn 10) 

4. What is the main point ypu will consider for choosing a steamboat restaurant? 
A. Famous ( To Qn 7) 
B. Reasonable prices ( To Qn 8) 

5. If the steamboat restaurant has a new product of steamboat, will you dare to try? 
A. Yes ( To Qn 6) 
B. No ( To Qn 8) 

6. How many people do you like to have your steamboat meal with? 
A. 2-3 soulmates ( To Qn 9) 
B. A big group of friends ( To Qn 3) 


7. If the steamboat restaurant is very crowded, will you wait for a seat or go to another place? 
A. Wait ( To Qn 11) 
B. Proceed to another one ( To Qn 12) 

8. What kind of food you like to add? 
A. Noodle ( To Qn 9) 
B. Vermicilli 'Tang hoon' ( To Qn 7) 

9. Will you drink the soup first or finish all the ingredients in the bowl then drink the soup? 
A. Drink the soup first ( To Qn 10) 
B. Eat the ingredients first ( To Qn 12) 


10. If the boss tells you that you must add some SPECIAL and ODD i! ngredient in the soup to make it more delicious, will you dare to add?
A. Yes ( To Qn 17) 
B. No ( To Qn 13) 


11. Will you drink a cup of cooling water after you finish this steamy hot meal? 
A. Yes ( To Qn 15) 
B. No ( To Qn 14) 


12. When you are having your steamboat, do you put in your meat first or put in later? 
A Put it once the steamboat start ( To Qn 15) 
B. Later part then put ( To Qn 11) 

13. Do you like to put all types of food at one go into the steamboat or have it put in one type by one type? 
A. All ( To Qn 17) 
B. One type at a time ( To Qn 16) 

14. What drink will you like to go with your meal? 
A. Oolong Tea ( To Qn 16) 
B. Plum juice ( Type A) 

15. Do you like to have steamboat at home or outside? 
A. Home ( To Qn 16) 
B. Outside ( To Qn 14) 

16. Will you mind if another customer is standing behind you, waiting for you while you are finishing your food? 
A. Mind ( Type B) 
B.. Don't mind ( Type C) 

17. You are already very full with your meal but the boss offer to let you have another steamboat meal, will you eat it? 
A. Yes (Type D) 
B. No ( To Qn 16) 

RESULTS.... 

TYPE A 
Shy, a bit of an introvert. You are more stubborn and like to stay alone quietly at home. To you, talking to strangers is a hard thing so you have not much friends. But you will still have some soulmates. You need to treasure people who care and love you. You are more interested in your own matters, you will try your very best to achieve your target. But you can't do everything alone, and just depend on yourself, learn to open up and accept other opinions. Try to get along with different people. 


TYPE B 
You are a more active person, drawing a clear line between happiness and unhappiness. You are more quick-tempered. If you encounter things you like, you will do it without second thought. But once you encounter things that you hate, you will wish to get out of it as soon as possible. As you are a person of your own views, the friends you tend to have will be of the same pattern. But once good friends, you will understand them a lot and go all the way to help then. Friends are very dependent on you. As you are too emotional, you may make a storm out of a teacup with your friends. You must learn to do things in order and not give up easily. You can try making friends with those you don't think you can get along with, don't stick with the same category. This will make you more popular and charming. 


TYPE C 
Gentle like a lamb. You have a high level of adaptance power, easy to get along with people. Very popular in social life but seems that no one will talk bad about you. You hate to have conflicts with people so you
always try to adapt to everyone. You treat every person differently. To look at the bright side, you adapt easily. But to look at the dark side, you lack of character, although you are one big nice guy but you lack of charm. On the surface, you have a lot of friends but once you have troubles, you lack of soulmates to help you around. You must try to express yourself more and be more decisive. In this way, you can understand yourself more. 


TYPE D 
You are stubborn, like to go in circles and don't get to the point. Once you decide on something, no one can change your mind. You are a good leader in a group so you win a lot of trust from your friends. But as you
are too persistant on your own thinking, you neglect other people's suggestions therefore you can easily make enemies. Although it is good to maintain your own character but it doesn't mean you totally ignore other people's thoughts and feelings. You will let people think you are hard to handle and you will lose friends gradually and may end up alone. You need to learn to accept other people's opinion. This will make your social circle bigger and you will understand yourself better.

The X factor

I lost a very very close friend or mine..

Maybe I was being selfish and thought that he will be there for me no matter what..

But i was wrong...

He can't be there anymore..because he had someone else..

I had a prinsip of my own..

I know how it felt when ex strikes in..

I know how painful it is..

I know how many tears were shed..

and I know how trust can be shettered because of ex..

I know all these because i experienced it by myself..

and I swear to god..i would not do it on somebody else..

When i said..tell me when you have a girlfriend..i mean it..

There is a limit..

Yes..you can stay contact with your ex..but when your ex has someone else.

Know what you should do..and stay away..

no matter how painful it is..or how close you were..or how deep he/she knows you..

You must step away..

This is the rule..or maybe my rule..

This time..I felt so guilty...

I wanted to stay in touch with him..because he is just so far away..

and he used to be someone that really knows me and someone that i can really talk to..

I said to him many times..tell me when you have a gf...

He said he will..and I believe him..

He met with an accident that day..and he sms-ed me...

I was worried..because he might be hurt..

but thankgod he was alright..

The next day...he sms me and said that he had a problem with his job..his mum..and his relationship..

pause....a relationship?? you did not tell me you are involved in a relationship!!

and that time..only i realize that he had a girlfriend already..after almost two years..

He said that his girlfriend wanted him to delete all my contacts..and i totally understand why..

For me..if she wants you to..I dont mind..because she is your gf now..she has all the rights to do so..

The next day...she sms me..and ask me whether i still love him..and tell me not to tell him..

WTF

After 5 min..he sms me..and told me his gf saw my sms and got my number..and she might call or sms me..

WTF

What should i do..i was not prepared for this to come..

I told her..he is a good guy...he is not not type of guy that will cheat on his gf..Trust him more..and i wish the best for both of you..

I told him..you better treat her better..and gain her trust back..

Tell me..am i doing that right thing???

This was something that had once happened to me..but i was in his gf's shoes..ofcourse..i did not ask him to delete all her contacts..

but HEY..i did not know he was in a relationship..Why am i like stuck between you two?? i felt hurt also..because i lost a friend..and i felt like im a mistress once again..but a different situation..

CRAP!!!!

whatever it is..i dont want to get involve in this problem anymore..and i will try my best not to contact him..for the sake of both of them..and me myself..

and before that..i wish for all the best for both of them..because he deserve someone that is better than i do..and he deserve to be love by someone who truly loves him deeply..

Blur

Well..just realize that i was being blur and blur as always..

Did not realize what was going on just right next to me until TODAY..

I just know the cold war thing and the freeze thing..but i seriously did not know what is it..

I ask..but nobody tell me so..so i choose not to ask..

Everyone is different in their own way..

Some people prefered to be left alone..

Some prefer to be pampered..

Some are attention seekers..

Some are just loner ( meaning wanted to be out of the probelm )

and there are people who are neutral..

So how to know which person are you??

This is the toughest thing to do..whether in a friendship or a relationship..

It is the same..

So when problem occurs...

You want he or she to be thing way that way..

but he or she wants to be this and that way..

so which this and which that you must do???

People are changing constantly..

Because we are learning new things everyday..

We fall..we rise..

That makes us realize what is important to us..and what is not..

So we change for the better ones...change to be a better person....or another way round..

Everything is in your hands..

Is it worth the coldness when everything can be that simple??

Just put down your agony and pride..

and let it be the same once again...

PEEKS

Peeks from Seremban..i miss all of you..I was quite busy these few weeks..yes..assignments..tests..food promotion..and NOW..my finals..SHOOTS..In fact..I went backto Seremban last week..and i dare to say..i did not even stayed in Seremban for more than 3 hours..

I went back to Seremban on Saturday afternoon..Once i reached home and managed to watch my dearest tv for less than 2 hours..we have to leave to Melaka already..yes..our whole family went down to Melaka..for holiday it seems..but it is fairly tiring for me because i was traveling either in bus, train or car..GOD..what i did in Melaka?? Eat..and wander around Jonker Street..Actually Melaka is kind of interesting to me..Maybe because I am too 'ulu' and never step in Jonker Street ever in my life..haha..Yea..there are tonnes to see and buy over there..and it is CHEAP..compare to the price they sell in KL..god..just kill me..haha.and the buildings are so ancient..i felt like i am some tourist walking through a time machine..back to the good old days..maybe i am being a little over the board..and HEY..i finally experienced fish spa...muahaha..those small little cutie fishes are kissing everyone's foot..sounded so wrong..haha..but it is fun..looking at those small fishes swimming around your foot..now i know why everyone is crazy about fish spa..haha..

and that is my one day Melaka trip...the next day after lunch at Jonker Street..we went back to Seremban..as for me..i went back to KL straight..TIRING wei..ish ish..but I am fine..there are tonnes of work to be done..

One more week to go..One week of HELL..FINALS..shit..after that..its XMAS!!!! hip hip hooray!!! like i ever celebrate xmas..i always wanted to celebrate xmas..but it is not something that is practice in my family..i want a xmas tree with alot and alot of small pink balls..and a cute little angel on the top..hehe..yes..that is my xmas wish..a small little xmas tree of my own..

After xmas..SOBS..someone is leaving to USA soon..I know..and i remember...seriously..I dont know what to say..She is my best friend since we are five years old..We were in the same kindergarden..primary school..secondary school..and she is my neighbour since 5 or 6..imagine..how long is that?? there are some good times and bad times..mostly good times..we were in choir..Red Crescent..Same class since dont know when..We studied together..play together..eat together during recess time..sleep together in camps..haha..we carpool ALOT..since primary school..We went through UPSR..PMR and SPM together...We perform as COY for many times..we went to tuition together..we laugh and cry together..GOSH..we shared so many good memories together..and now..she is leaving to USA..

I made her worried about me so much..especially this year..that is why I am scare to face you guys sometimes..but I am okay and i will take care of myself..as for you..I am glad that you are going to USA..because someone that you truly love is there waiting for you there..and I know..somehow..you will know how to handle relationship better than i do..

Dont worry..il be back in one week time..and we will catch up real real soon..i miss everyone..i really do..

Story of the day

Lets talk about something interesting here-----

' When your ex' ex couple up with some one that you know..and that someone's ex was heart broken because he couple up with that girl..although your ex did not tell you that he still feels the pain inside..but in fact..you know him well enough to know how he will react..the good news is..you dont have to tell him that your ex couple up with this guy..the bad news is..he still feel the pain...

Here's something to add on to this interesting story...when you are already crazy about the ex issue..here comes another ex..the first ex..which is anoyyingly iritating..which i did blog about this issue earlier on..and i dont want to waste my time on this useless issue..yes..here she comes again..once again..it is not his fault..it is she who comes seeking for someone to fill her emptiness inside..as for him..know who is standing beside you..and appreciate what you already have..'

what a interesting story heh?? the moral of this story is..do not take things for granted..sometimes..it is good to not know so many things in your life..living in a lie is not always a bad thing afterall..but when you wake up and realize that everything is fake..that is when you truly learned your lesson and move on..

At the positive side..be more trustful..maybe that lie..is a white lie..maybe he is trying to protect you from getting hurt..maybe he had learned his lesson already..whatever that has got to do with ex..is over and done..they are just friends...

People..love..is complicated..looking around me..there are people who are suffering from the after break up effect..and ex coupling up with other people infront of you..which i truly understand how it felt..there are people who are still trying their best to seek for their love ones..there are people who are oh-so-in love...love birds i call them..yes..nobody wants to be alone in their life..who does??Whether it is love..harted of whatever it is..know what you are doing..

yes...better off to study now..

Pictures of Last Night in Prison

FINALLY!!!! Some pictures of our food promotion!!!!

Dont get me wrong..it is not that I dont want to upload..I just got the pictures yesterday people!!

and there were tonnes of it..

But there were only a few with me in it..sobs..

I was too busy wandering around..OR..im not photogenic enough...haha..Nevermind..

Lets look at the pictures shall we???

The guys trying to throw our lecturer...Mr Patrick into the air..yes..they manage to throw three of our lecturers into the air..and almost got Mr Patrick killed..OPPs...haha..

LIke Mr Patrick said--'Now i know how much you guys hated me..'

haha..HEY..we dont hate you sir..we LOVE you..haha

The battle between Culinary students and Hotel students..

It was DAMN fun!!!!trust me..it was a hell out of madness and craziness..haha

THIS..is the Culinary side..

and THIS..is the Hotel students side..meaning..OUR side..haha..see how high we were..

DENG DENG...THIS..is our NANDA performance..something like a drum performance..instead of using drums and drumsticks..we used..chopping boards and knifes..cool yea...

IT was a hit people!!!! HIT..AWESOME..haha..

okies..this is the most profesional picture ever..i SWEAR to god..haha..yes people..this is actually how our server works on that night..full of profesionalism..haha..thanks to them..everything went on smoothly..

GROUP PICTURE!!!!!

GROUP PHOTO!!!..yes..these are all my team mates....ignore tha ones that are trying to be higher than others at the back..haha..

The battle between Culinary students and Hotel students..

It was DAMN fun!!!!trust me..it was a hell out of madness and craziness..haha

Trying the catch the camera..I was stunned at the side...see???haha..yes yes...I am the one wearing black and white stripes dress..haha..

A picture of me..and our three dearest lecturers..

from the left..Mr Alex..Mr Patrick and Mr Anshul..

They are trying to catch me..sobs..

Wordie of the day

There are alot of things in your life..you can make your own decisions..Whether the whole world disagree with you..or the whole world agree with you..It is hard enough to please myself..what more everyone beside you..I am a person who WILL take things in a hard way...trying to change that..but yea..not easy..

Everyone will comment..everyone wants to comment..and everyone LOVE to comment..that is just a human nature..

Gossiping...normal..something that will happen in every place you land and everyone will do the same thing..how to stop it from happening??? just close your ears and close your heart..dont put it in your heart and learn how to not take things personally...

Everyone is selfish in their own way..Everyone has the right to be selfish..this is life..this is how you survive in this world...If you are not selfish..people tend to step on your head and use you in every single way they can..

Time is always not enough for everyone..If I have a choice..I wish i can separate myself into four 'me's'. 

One being a home girl..stay at home and being nagged bt my parents..

One being with my friends in Seremban..which i rarely have time to spend with..and my best friend...Eunice is going to USA soon..SOBSSSSSSs!!!!!!!!!! and I dont have time to go back to Seremban!!! my exams are around the corner..SOBSssss!!!!

One being in college and doing all my assignments..attending my pratical and theory classes..

and the last one..staying home at mentari..onlining and just chill..But there is only one me..

Believe in what you are doing..because in the end..you are the one who will be happy..or sad..everything is a learning process..you will learn to be strong..and you will learn form your mistakes..that is life..

Relieved

RELIEVED!!!

I am finally relieved..I am so so glad that everything is over right now...everything was still very blurry for me right now..everything seems to be unreal for me when it is over..It happened so fast until i can not really cope with the fact that it is finally over...

Two months of hardwork from everyone..stressing out..sweating it out..a little bit of yelling..alot of complains..bits and bits of gossiping..and here..it is the end..HOA..I still dont feel the statisfaction of completing this event..give me one more day to recover from my tiredness..then il proudly say it happily..WE MADE IT..haha..

Seriously..i did not take much picture yesterday..I was running up and down..I was on my 3 inch heels the whole night..Im suffering from period pain..which makes my mood swings a bit..Kind of moody the whole night..even after it was done..haha..i suppose to be high..but guess hormons can really make someone not high..

Yes..the biggest burden on my shoulders are taken off right now..I should be relaxing for a while..but I choose not..I stay at home..sleep to get my rest back..listen to music and sing out loud..and read some magazine that i did not touched for ages..watch Harry Potter which I can barely remember..Yes..that is my Sunday after food promotion..boring..but it keeps my mind to relax a bit...

If everyone thinks that we are freed now..sorry..you are wrong..haha..I am very sorry to remind you guys..that we still have three asignments to go..FnB assignment..French Essay..and English Group work..yes..I have to get my ass back to work tomorrow..haha..today..let me relax first..

stressed

I want to cry

I want someone to hold my hands

I want someone to hug me

I want to be like this

Or like this

I need you now..because I want to cry..and i need a shoulder to lean on..

My date with A1 Race

Today..we went to Sepang Circuit for A1 Race..Actually it wasnt something that I was really keen into..seriously..im not a super fan of Formula One or A1..Jervin got 8 free seats from somewhere..Since i did my English Presentation about sports tourism on another day..mainly about Formula One and Sepang Circuit..So i decided to follow the crowd..join them in that race...Sorry..but i have to admit that I am a really Ulu person..I have never ste

p into Sepang Circuit in my entire whole life..So..it was my really first time visiting that place..and actually able to watch a real race..

Well..it was a hell of a day..haha..we were suppose to go from Mentari at 9.30am..guess what time we woke up???----- 10.30am..haha..none of us woke up..Then we ended up leaving at 12pm..haha..we took the forever-so-slow-packed-no-place-to-sit KTM..We reached Nilai station and took a cab to Sepang Circuit..the cab ride cost us RM40..and it was a enjoyable ride indeed..I am seriously serious..haha..the cab driver was damn chun and funny..He was driving a very very old version of Nissan Blue Bird..but yeah..it was very spacious and the air con was quite cooling..thankgod..haha..

OKAY..when i reached there..OH MY GOD..the race was DAMN NICE..I actually love the vibrant and sound of a racing car..and I was actually there to witness it..haha..the 'VROOOOM....' sound is just...urghh....just so sexy..haha..It was way fun than i thought it would be..we were trying to take as many picture as we can..my final pictures were unpresentable..because the cars were just so fast..once i snap..the car was a gone case..haha..instead of posting my no car picture..il post some that Brendan and Jervin took..

Oh hey..Malaysia actually did quite well in that race..i did not realize Malaysians were so patriotic until today..everyone cheered for our own team whenever the car passed by..haha..I felt so proud when Malaysia actually landed on the 8th place..WOAAAA...not bad after all..haha..way to go Malaysia..haha

Anyway...it was an awesome trip..haha..OHHHH...we took the bus straight to Sentral..When we passed by KLIA..an aeroplane actually flied over our bus..SERIOUS..i swear to god it was so near until we can actually touch the plane if we stand on the bus top..but yea.we did not do that..haha..We were suppose to snap a picture of that historical moment..but we were too stunned and amazed by that...we regreted like hell after that..haha..

Alright..time for some pictures--------------

Four of us..yea..check out the cars behind us..COOL..It was after the prize giving Ceremony..

Another cam whoring sesion..hoAAA..

The prize giving Ceremony..They are spraying Mumm Champagne..SHIT..

MALAYSIA BOLEH..haha..YES..this is our Malaysia team!!!!!

Next year..if i have the money..i would defintely come and watch the Formula One Race..haha..if A1 can be this awesome..i bet Formula One would be like..SEXY..haha 

Selfishness

Why do i felt like im some mistress???

People tell me lies..

I have to act because of something that was totally not my fault..

I have to be patient because of somebody else...

what have i done wrong to deserve all these shit???

What about my feelings???

What about me???

Why human can be so selfish??

You think i can solve all the problems by myself..

This is suppose to be team work thing..

Why i have to take the 'credit' because of somebody's fault???

Why???

Tell me bloody why???

I shouted until i almost fainted...

There were times when i really felt like breaking down and cry..

but can i do that??

What about me???

What about my feelings???

bleeding

Feeling a little bit insecure at the moment..

Needed to be left alone..

Wheter it is the usual insecurity or the after-tragedy-insecurity..

i just felt insecure as always..

Maybe because of what i went through all this while..

or maybe it is just that same thing over and over again..

When can i ever learn how to trust a person anymore??when??

The bitch's issue is really getting into me right now..

I still dont understand why there this kind of people in this world..

Jervin told me that dont ask why..because you will never know why..

She is just S-H-E

She can be the world biggest bitch..why do i care??

yea..why do i care??

What she is doing now..is still affecting me in every single way..thats why..

I hate hating people..suck to the max..

I dont like to confront other people..

I just dont like to do that..especially to people that i care the most..

Sometimes..i choose to keep quiet..doesnt mean that i dont know what is going on..

Just because i dont confront people..doesnt mean that im cold hearted and cant feel the pain..The fact is im bleeding inside..internal bleeding you shall call it..

god..i feel like crying now..i know i should do that..but yea..

Coming Soon

OKAY..im done for this week..YAY!!!

I finished my French, English and Financial assesments..and also my English Presentation..

HIP HIP HOORAY!!!!!!

Though i really hope that i can celebrate the call of freedome after this week..

but yea..i can't...

Its finally our food promotion!!!! yay and shit..haha..

i really hope that everything goes on well..this can not be screwd..

no WAY..can not..not allowed...bah..

tomorrow we are having our rehearshal..i really hope that everything goes on well..

cross my fingers people..

Never Ending problems

I felt so much better after lashing it out..Too much..just too much to be bear..

I am not that kind of person who loves to screwd people because of something

But there is always a limit..just dont cross over that limit..

And yea..im not feeling particularly good today..

I screwd up my Financial Paper..DAMN theory and careless mistakes..

At first i thought it was okay..since i can do everything..but yea..

Theory and careless mistakes..that will kill you..ISH..

French..URGH..i think i screwd that as well..

The listening part is just..BAH..i cant get the accent ar..haha..

The translation..EWWW

Next time really have to spend more time with the cafe creme book..ish..

and College..DAMN smart..

please dont turn our food promotion into some marketing strategy of yours..

It is already frusfrating enough to have 40 VIP guest..and now..increase to 50??

What about the guest that we already promised earlier??

haiy..food promotion in like one more week..and yea..add another 10 pax..great..

I wanted to say life sucks actually..

but when i think twice..it is still alright..

minus the bitch prob..result problem..and food promotion prob..

I am doing prefectly fine..

Im happy..ermm..maybe a little bit stress out before the exams..but yea..im still doing great..

haha..

18PL

Well..here i want to specially dedicated this post to 'The People I Hate'

You can say that I am mean..cruel..whatsoever..but hey..this is my blog..i can say whatever i want..

First of all..the Queen of ALL Bitches..

Have you ever met that kind of girl..who has a boyfriend OBVIOUSLY..

but still desperate for a back up plan 

no offence..but yea..it is damn iritating..

When you have someone that you love..love him with all your heart..

If you can really do that..you wont even have the time to like 'flirt' with other guy..

If you have that urge to find for other guys..meaning your feeling for your current boyfriend is not strong enough..then why torture that guy?? Break up and find for a new one..

I thought that is your strenght?? flirting with other guys??

Stop looking around for a back up plan..if you have feelings for that guy..

Then just f**king break up and couple up with the guy you are flirting with..

Stop making everyone beside you suffer because of what you done..

Whether it is intentional or unintentional..

I dont f**king care..just stop being a bitch..

Then..the Queen of all Evil..

The back Stabbing Queen..I bet most of you met this kind of girl..of guy..whatever..

who LOVE to back stab people..

GOSH..

I bet most of you have met with this kind of person..yea..

Pain in the a**..ish...

Actually..thats all..the main reason for this post is--Queen of ALL Bitches..

If you anyhow bump into my blog..sorry for making you miserable..

but yea..you did it to yourself..

Dont cry infront of other guys because of what you have done to yourself..

I wont pity you..

You should have known what you are doing..

what are the consequences..

You do not earn any single respect from me..

Sorry for the strong language in this post..but yea..I am pissed..

Whether it is the past of present..

It is freaking annoying..

Do not twist the whole story and be a bitch again..

There is a thing call the 'karma'..