Melaka

Melaka


When you think of Melaka..what is the first thing that comes into your mind?? Me?? GULA MELAKA!! :p probably the best thing that ever happen to melaka...if there is no gula melaka, means no sago gula melaka, no nice cendol and ABC...what's life without those?? support?? =)

Next thing comes in mind..chicken rice ball...imagine the pipping hot chicken rice ball that is soft and so fragrant,served with the silky smooth steam chicken...oh heaven...that is my version of great chicken rice ball..but sadly..the one that we went this time the had degraded...

The chicken rice ball is cold and soggy..and the rice is overcook so it the texture is like mash potato as Carlos said... disappointing indeed...

Just a look at the presentation, you can tell the person who chopped the chicken did not even put any effort into itand just dump everything on the platter...the chicken was a disaster...even the chicken rice in KL taste better than this..its tough and chewy...what happen to the nice chicken rice ball?? how sad...this is what that happen when everything is too commercialize...

Fine..mind that chicken rice..let's go for Portuguese food..Never tried Portuguese before so wanted to try something new..so we headed to the Portuguese Village to try their cuisine..there is one whole row of stalls all numbered..so once you land there..people from each stalls will crowd you and promoting their stalls to you..it reminded me of China really..its scary and irritating at the same time..because they just follow you everywhere you go talking to you even though you are not interested...

We went to the ones with most customers...and this is what we saw..

Loads of rare seafood that we won't normally see in most places...we were told that the scary thing with sharp tail at the corner is called the horse shoe crab...Some even call the King crab..you don't eat the meat because there is no meat!! but you eat the eggs...I once saw it in travel and living, and the host hated it because it tasted weird...so its a no no for us..then can you see one whole row of oysters on the right?? yes..its oysters in different size..the biggest one is even bigger than my head...>.<

there...the huge oyster...but if compare with the 'si ham' its not that big right? but I must tell you..the 'si ham' is x5 of the normal ones we eat...then imagine the size of the huge oyster...>.<

Fried Calamari...not quite sure it is Portuguese though...its okay...not great..

Ini dia our huge 'si ham'... normally when you eat 'si ham', its better if you eat it medium well...people say its dirty and muddy..but you still eat it right? haha..its a must have in curry laksa..without it..its like laksa without part of its soul...I must say...this huge 'si ham' is very satisfying...you can hardly find 'si ham' this size really..

We had Sitr Fried Kang Kung and bake bamboo clam also..but its is just okay..nothing much special about it...so will not talk about it..so first time Portuguese experience?? I think we ate at the wrong place..haha..it taste like normal chinese restaurant cuisine..nothing special about it...

Went Jonker Street as usual..the most have thing here is probably the mochi...

Mochi should be warm and soft but at the same time..it must be a bit chewy.. the grounded peanuts played an important role as well..this one is nice..but not the best I must say...they say the one in Petaling Street is even better...hmmm..must try one day then...=)

After Jonker Street, went to eat fried oyster...

A must order...Lin Chi Kang ala Melaka...and yes..its macaroni you see..haha..I guess they want to have a different texture in it..but seriously, it tasted nice though...its like a fusion Italian Malaysian dessert....super cooling...

B said it just tasted okay...not super nice..I like the coriander best... :p

Anyway..there is a story when its comes to this..When we were half way eating...here comes a beggar topless walking towards us..From far I can see he is scratching his balls already..when he came near us I knew something was wrong...he stand beside Randall and started to scratch his balls. Seriously scratching his balls in front of us when we are eating..how appetizing is that?? I dont even dare to look at him because I don't want to see any birds when I am eating..mana tau he sees me looking at him he will get high...urgh idiot...but luckily he did not take out his bird...Randall said he will punch him if he does that..so..how nice can our fried oyster be?? haha

Nyonya food

This should be a fusion of Chinese and Malay food..where to find the best Nyonya food? should be where it first started right?? Melaka...but a lot of people said Penang Nyonya food is great too..but did not get the chance to taste it so will not comment about it...

Cincaluk Omellete..what is cincaluk?? its a pickled small shrimps in bottles.. So what happen when you fry it with eggs?? ermm...tasted like cincaluk and egg?? lame I know..but to be honest, probably because they only put a little bit of it so it just tasted like egg to be...probably it will taste better with more cincaluk..

Ponteh chicken is another must order when it comes to Nyonya cuisine.what is it actually? its basically chicken with brown bean paste...sometimes you can add more garlic if you like it more garlic-ky.thats what my mum likes to do...

Asam fish...what should I say about this? it should be sour and spicy but not too spicy until it will kill you..the fish must be fresh served with okra and tomatoes...normally they use sting ray in this dish...

Next stop...Nyonya laksa..

Honestly..I don't really know whats the difference between nyonya laksa and assam laksa...what I know is..assam laksa they use mint leaves..and nyonya laksa they used sliced cucumber..>.<  but this one that we tasted has no ohmm in it...the flavor is not intense and its not spicy enough for me...I prefer the ones they sell in Jalan Alor..it makes you sweat like mad...thats..heaven.. =)

Ikan Bakar

ohhh..this...is a must have in Melaka I guess..normally when we eat ikan bakar, the sambal belacan is pour over it right?? and sometimes they even put okra and onions with it..but this one we went..they just purely grilled the fish, and serve the belacan at a side..so you can adjust your spiciness according to your liking...

The famous Nasi Lemak...why is is nice? A nice nasi lemak comes with a good old Sambal with steaming hot rice served with banana leaf..and they did it all right...=) slurrpp...

Our ikan bakar...told you they just grilled it...=)

Grill sotong and ikan kembung..

Finally..the best thing that ever happen to me in Melaka!!! teng teng teng =====

The heavenlicious crepe cake..

You can call me noob..but I had never tried crepe cake in my life before so this is my very first time...heard much about it...so I die die also must try this in Melaka...what is a crepe cake? Crepe is a super thin slice of pan cake...its layers of crepe with pastry cream in it..slurrrppp....the thing about crepe cake is it requires a lot of labour work...you must make the crepe layers by layers and each layers must be very thin and it must not break of have holes in it... and this baby here..just melts in your mouth..the best is still the original crepe cake...because you can taste the crepe and the flavors within...you can have other flavors as well..like rum and raisin, cheese ( not recommended because it is quite sourish..), tiramisu and others...

I never tasted anything like this...and to me..its heaven when you eat it with a cup of english tea...ohhh~~~ I want crepe cake...=)

and so..that ends my Melaka journey..mouth watering already?? :p

3 destinations and tonnes of food..

I am finally back from my 1200km food hunting journey..what a trip and what a journey.. First destination Melaka..Flew down to Melaka and crashed at Seng Ming's for two days..Actually it was kind of cliche for me because last year in June, we went down to Melaka as well and at that time, me and B had not started 'yet'..we went back to the same place and ate the same food..(without the terrifying mosquitoes experience in Durian Farm of course this time..thank god its not Durian season yet...=) ) Its like walking down the memory lane for me..thinking back at those times when we first hold hands, hardly fell asleep because both of us were unsure what to do..how I miss those times... =)

The purpose of our trip is to makan eat and makan... nothing else...So once we started on our journey, there is no turning back but to eat..and I swear to god I eat all the time!!! =) I shall talk about what we ate in my next post..when it comes to food..I have too many pictures to show.. :p Melaka is still the same old Melaka except there are tonnes of new shopping malls coming up..HEY!! they even have Niche in Melaka okay? who say must go KL only can find nice things...honestly, the food in Melaka is not that great anymore...the chicken rice ball is definitely a turn down..the nyonya laksa just tasted fairly bland to us...the Portuguese food is another let down because it tasted like Malaysian food to me.. oh well..guess we need to hunt for another stall to eat..The Best thing that ever happen to us in Melaka...the Crepe Cake!!!! whoooo~~~~ shall talk about it in my next post...:p

Us hanging out at a cafe where we ate Crepe Cake.. Must camwhore a bit.. =)

After two nights at Melaka, we shoot right up to Ipoh..took us almost 3 - 4 hours..Ipoh..heaven for bean sprouts and chicken..slurrpp...Since we missed the bean sprouts during our last trip, this time almost every meal there are bean sprouts inside..the fat and juicy dou dou... =)  Must must eat in Ipoh are bean sprout and chicken, the smooth and silky kuey teow, kang kung and sotong, Lemon Jelly Ice, and the Liew Fun ( Something like Yong Tau Foo ) and many other delicacies..I must say..all the food's quality were well maintained..it tasted exactly the same as I had tasted last time..slurrppp...

and oh...we even went to Karaoke in Ipoh..haha..oh well..the cinema were closed when we reached the mall and its only 11pm...Honestly, Red Box or Green Box is way better in terms if songs selections and varieties...but we had a great time..=) 

Next stop Penang..and guess where we stayed???

yeap...call us rich buggers!! but to be honest..we only spend RM175 for one room in Hard Rock Hotel..muahaha...why?? because B they all have a friend who works there and he can get for us staffs price..once we heard RM175 for one night...straight confirm and go for it..hello! where can you get such price for Hard Rock Hotel?? :p and oh..the design of the hotel really suites Hard Rock theme..every where you can see Beatles...some Rock and Roll Star clothes..the swimming pool is pretty awesome..

This is probably the coolest thing ever...the guests who stay at the ground floor can jump into the pool straight from their room...and yes..you can sun bath outside your balcony..how cool is that...i have to go back and stay there next time... =) and oh..its not cheap thought.. =(

Told you there is Beatle everywhere..

Even MJ...kar woon sure suka..=)

View from our room..

Look at the cat on the left..he actually came to us and sat between B's leg and stare into the camera..but too bad it was in Carlos's camera..super photogenic car!! and in this picture he is actually posing as well..

All the guys playing at the swimnming pool...me? cameraman..=) Actually there are many more pictures in the pool with me in...did not post it because its too exposing..muahaha.. :p

Actually in Penang we had a bad time communicating...none of us speaks hokkien and every time when we need to order food or pay money, we can not understand anything at all..haha..its like cat talking to dog lo..Food in Penang is great too..First time I eat Char Kuey Teow with so such HUGE prawns, first time eating Hainanese cuisine, first time eating kuey chap in Malaysia and first time eating such nice octopus.. ('o') The best thing that happen to us is still Hard Rock Hotel..I told myself I will go back if I got the money.. :p  but the weather is madness!! sometimes I just wish I am in the hotel room watching tv..@@

This whole trip is about food food food and food...our tour guide is of course Mr Carlos and Mr Randall Chen..they seems to know everywhere to eat and where you can find the best food...like what Randall said..we don't even know what is hungry for this whole week..and thats very true...I am telling you...you should be adding a few pounds when you are eating like this..but me in another hand turn otherwise..>.< I have no idea why..but once I reached home, I automatically adjust my stomach back to my normal mode...So don't ask me why I keep dropping size...I wonder why also.. 

Anyway..it was definitely the food trip I needed after craving everything for a long time...what a journey what a journey...can not do this too often though..high cholesterol ar..haha..but people...do try it some days alright..its fun to eat all the time..=)

Us us again..love this picture...but if you notice..the bench is actually a cat bench.. =)

Will post about all the food we ate in my next post so be patient patient yea..=) End my post with a super nice scenery shot I caught...

Cravings

I am craving for this =>

THIS =>

<= THIS

THIS

THIS THIS THIS

and finalement

Ages since I am longing for all these..not just normal-okay-not-so-good-and-not-so-nice-to-eat delicacies..but absolutely fantastic and mouth watering food as above!!!! oh...got my saliva going...=) Destination??? hmmm..wait until I am back!!! muahahhaa...

Going back to where we just started..or before we get started...same place...same smell and even same car...hope everything still remains the same...but not the mozzie please!!! get away from me....=) Hopefully it would be an enjoyable trip for us...Kee Sern called us Fantastic Four...well..we certainly do..haha..

I want to eat eat eat and eat...then after that..time to get serious and work our ass off!!!!! pictures and updates when I get back...when?? not quite sure..hahaha...im serious...So Bon Voyage!!!! Happy Holidays to all again...

Much Love...

Holiday

Back in Seremban after a long long time...nothing has change much...parents are still the same..Liang became thinner...Jun went college..and Xiong is in choir!!! wau...following my footsteps I guess..he is even in Red Crescent!!

I was home alone most of the time..Need to fetch my brother to work early in the morning ( not that early actually...10.15am.. :p ) Then while driving in town..I had the urge to eat something I had not eaten for a long time...fish ball noodle...what's there to loose right?? go and eat only...

A very humble and simple fish ball noodle..

The fish balls were nice and springy..but I do prefer the old ones they do..it is a simple fish paste with ' sa kok '..probably because I like something crunchy in my fish paste...=) anyways...I think its better when you order it dry....

and hey..I am having my breakfast with a lot of uncles and aunties..I think they are all retired..they keep talking about shares and houses..haha..this is very random I know..but the next thing will be even more random..I was walking back to my car...and remember me saying I miss my long hair...I saw a hair saloon and they have offer for hair rebonding it seems...without thinking any further..I went in and asked for the price..

For my hair length..it would cost me RM180...self conflicting whether I should do it or not..because I know I want back my straight hair..but its RM180!!!! what the heck...just go ahead and do it only!!! and here I am..spent 3 hours sitting there to get my hair done....and this is how I look....

I know..its VERY straight..and I even felt like Cleopatra..>.<

 This is Elizabeth Taylor acting as Cleopatra

arrrrr..this one is more alike..hahaha...

What!!! I just only straighten..of course it would be super straight!!!!! 

Kar Woon said I look cute alright!!! hahaha...I hope she is not trying to comfort me...=)

I do like having straight hair mer..what do you aspect..yes I did JUST curled my hair not long time ago...almost half a year to be exact..and the curl is just what I wanted last time..big and wavy...but I want to comb my hair more often..hahaha..if you have curly hair..you can comb but it would be super torturous for you to do so...all the hairs would be tangled up...and it takes a hell load of energy to comb it straight...so..still love straight...^^v

Holiday holiday....most probably tomorrow we will be going to jalan jalan cari makan...YESH!!! my ikan bakar...my bean sprout...my most delicious chicken in the whole world...my char kuey teow...my everything that is nice to eat la....here we come come....=) till then..enjoy your holiday peeps....XOXO

Muscle aches...

Yesterday was a hell of a day...suppose to go to college and check for my results..but you know what..FB is the best thing in this whole world...=) =) woke up in the morning to check my FB..then ei??? someone updated FB status saying that they are in college checking results.. immediately take out phone and call dai lou!!! haha...he say no need to check for me also know I pass...I want to see my number myself to make sure I pass mer...sorry sorry..I am like that...hehe

After one hour..he posted a picture of the list in FB...SMART!!!! hahaha..I guess everyone keep calling him until he also can not tahan already...so he rather take and picture of it and post it in FB...=) see!!! this is the power of FB!!! everything can be seen in it..and it can be super convenient...

Then after we knew we pass already..met up with Wei Ren at One U to rock climb!!! I only rock climb once in my life which is in Genting..and that one also climb up once then finish..Once you fall..means its over...but this time..really something new for both of us...=) Honestly..I did not realize I am scare of heights until I start climbing...He keep asking me to climb up up up..then when im up...I look down..@#(@)(#@ gosh its freaking high..We did bolstering at first, so there are no ropes attached..so if you fall, you will land on some mattress of course..but still!!! its HIGH!!!!

Then once I start climbing..my hands and my legs started to shake vigorously..thanks to Wei Ren who keeps laughing at me when I am climbing..what a motivation!! Then there was one wall..you suppose to climb over it...without any ropes or course..when you reach a certain stage..you have to stretch your arms like mad..and use your legs to push your body up...my arms are shaking like mad and its freaking high...Wei Ren and B was like..

'You can do it..just push your legs up!!!! 1, 2, 3....GO!!'

Im like ' nooo..I can not!!! its so high....I scare I scare....'

'No no no...you are there already..just one push...1, 2, 3....'

'okay okay...calm down calm down..you can do it...okay...1...2....3...urghhhhhhhhhh!!!! YAY!!!!!!! I DID IT!!!!'

It may seem to be easy for most of you..but go and have a try and tell me its easy okay?? it requires ALOT of determination, will power and strength to do it alright!!!! =)

Then CC!! okay..talking about CC..when I go CC..the only thing that I will do is FB...or MSN...that was last time...then when we went yesterday..walau!!! I can play CS!!! ( though I am pretty noob in it...but still!!! I manage to shoot a few people alright??? =) Then I suck in Left 4 Dead 2 because I memang don't know how to spawn....and...I played Warcraft tower defense le...I got to say..its quite syiok yea..haha...and my favourite!!! Star Craft!!! muahahha..though I still suck in it..but at least I trashed Calvin and Steven...=) =) way to go my Battle Cruisers!!!!

What a day what a day..and guess what...this morning when I woke up...I dream of Tower Defense and CS...and my whole body is aching like mad...thanks to rock climbing...but if you have the chance..you should really try it..push your limits abit..and you will be surprise by what your mind and body can do...=)

Happy

Sorry for being emo-ed for awhile...blame exam stress and all...but since exam is all over now and its our long long holiday for three months..its time to chill..I slept for almost 12 hours these two days...YAY!!!! =) what to do...I have all the time in the world now..muahaha..alright..at least for two weeks...After that got to go to work to earn money..I need a new phone....whee~~~

I got a new specs...well..its pretty much an old news now since I got it two weeks ago..no time to blog about it..I lost my specs about a month ago..and to my horror I can not see properly without my contacts...I tahan-ed for almost two weeks and gave up..I needed a pair of new specs...and here it is...

My baby guinea pig is almost three weeks by now..see how big is her eyes!!!! haha..

Anyway..trying to find her a bf now because I can not put her together with her dad..dangerous..though some of you may say guinea pigs are like that...its not wrong for the dad to hump his own daughter..but hey..it will cause genetic deficiency okay?? not good at all..

This is a very Polaroid picture I took of Taylors.I don't know how long I won't be seeing Taylors..Definitely won't be missing the food and the horrible parking spaces...but..to be frank..our Higher Diploma had just ended like that..without a proper closure or so..Do not even have the chance to say bye to those who are not continuing...sucks big time...

Pink Sky....A very rare scene for me....I love....=)

Talking about horrible parking...THIS!!! is a seriously useless and dumb driver...dah la tau can not park in the middle of the road...still want to park..park nevermind...pulled handbrake and did not leave phone number...got use brain and think or not..how the hell other cars want to go out la since you are blocking the middle of the road...this is really a Nub cake la...haiy...

Finish exam already do what??? go dating first of course..hahaha...what??? During exam time both of us very guai okay?? sit at home and study only... :p

Camwhore a bit never mind right??? =)

Us us...<3

Thats all for now....nothing much to update actually.. till then...XOXO

Disaster strikes

I know if i say this..a lot of you will kill me...slaughter me...or scold me...but...I have no idea why it dropped again...maybe because its the earth gravity...or because my bone's density had dropped...Yesterday when I weight myself...its 40kg...>.< the most reasonable reason I can find is, exam stress and emotional stress...I swear to god i never diet or eat less okay?? B is my witness....

My last exam turned out to be my worst performance so far...kitchen...urghhh...I just can not get it off my mind though i had tried...Our imposed dish turned out to be a three layered Bavarian..means...I need to get three different layers of Bavarian to set in two hours...fine..I know I need to do it fast so it will set...So I keep pushing my commis to do it fast fast fast...first..my creme anglais was not thick enough and it was not chilled enough before i left it in my chiller...then i had one whole layer of water on the top....shoots...then it turned out that my gelatin was not bloomed properly...so my Bavarian wont set AT ALL...when I see my first layer..i knew...it won't set..I was so frustrated and I started to cursed a lot...and even my commis asked me to not be stress..HOW CAN I NOT??? MINE IS NOT SET AT ALL???? I almost want to cry at that point...

Then Wai Kheng came over..and she said..you can not break down at this point...then immediately I knew..I must do something...She then gave me some extra gelatin...and I tried to put it in..but nothing happened..Then she said maybe you can mix some whipped cream inside to make it thick..and I did..but it did not set as well...finally...she borrowed me her tart case..and I just pour my not-set-at-all-Bavarian-soup in it and served as it is...I knew..I screwed up big time...because my imposed dish was not done at all...but so do many people..well..only two person's Bavarian set among the 30 over candidates...

My main dish was fine..poached fish was fine..but my tomato fondue?? the tomato's was over cook because I need it to cook with my fish...so it became too soupy...then my hollandaise...thanks to my demotivated spirit..whatever I had learned in applied science..it did not cross my mind to use it..it split...now come to think of it...the temperature was too high...=( but I did served it on time..in fact..i am the first...

70 percent of the candidates at my session did not manage to finish on time...some was late for 30 minutes..After everything was done..I was still trying my best to keep myself together to not break down...Some cried..and I straight walked away...because I knew I will cry if I stay...then Wai Kheng cried...I tried and comfort her...I asked her why...she said..I understand how does it felt to not able to finish on time..and seeing you all trying to be tough really makes me sad...

and then..it hit me..I cried a bit...but still trying to hold on...I don't want to break down in front of so many people...but once I step into B's car...I cried like a baby...I just need to release it all out...it was certainly a bad day for all of us..I rather get Gateaux really...at least I will have something to present even though it may not be perfect...I rather get lamb and an easy imposed dish...but Bavarian...oh gosh...

My kitchen sucks...and to be frank...it is one of the most important part in the entire exam...my FnB workshop...I screwed up one workshop as well....So there goes my practical...unless miracle happened...I think I will not able to get above 15...theories, orals and all...unless I get all above 15...I need a miracle now...I really do...I want to get Congrates to be honest...but after last friday...I guess I have to forget about it...

Mind me blabbering it again...because I guess my blog is the last place I need to release it all..after that..I shall then shut up and continue with my life...

Wai Kheng said I was a tough cookie...I....I tried to be one in front of everyone...but deep down inside..I am still a fragile small kid...I can get bruised easily...I tried to be the best for everyone else...and sometimes...I think..am I too selfless?? I just want to see everyone happy...Told you I am emotional stress now....urghhh...I guess I need to hang on until Monday to know how I did yea??? good luck to me....

Water and Insomnia

I know I will sound very siew jie if I say this..but I don't care...I HATE COLD WATER!!! or wait...I should say..I AM SCARE OF COLD WATER...3 months in NS with cold water was a huge disaster for me..I hate being sticky and I hate being cold at the same time...in NS..every morning..you have to go for perbarisan and also PE after that..of course you will sweat right??? right after that, you will have to go for morning class...and I hate being sticky and uncomfy...so die die also must bath..

Bath nevermind..the water in the morning is like freaking cold...honestly..I had been screaming for the three whole months in the camp because of cold water..not screaming to be exact...but..a little softer than screaming..=) even when I was in Kuantan, I never fail to scream....fine..the purpose of me saying this is...there was no hot water for me just now because of low water pressure and I had to bath cold water...you know what I did?? i take some water to get myself warm up first..test it on my leg first..cold~~~ test it on my hands...cold~~~ sprinkle a bit of water on my tummy..cold~~~ then finally let's go..COLD!!!!! #()$*#()$*

I just don't like to bath in cold water..though i felt very good now...=) problem la girls...

Going for my second last exam shortly..which is Food and Beverage practical exams...confident?? I don't know..haha..it should be my strongest subject among all and definitely pulled my overall score way up..but I know I can not get loosen up because final is final..there is no turning back...which makes me even more terrified and stressed..I know lecturers expectation would be higher than trials...but can i perform better than trials...oh my...just need to take a deep breath and step into the workshops...pray hard I can do well...

Tomorrow kitchen...though I am not a culinary based student...but am not really worried about it..if I don't know how to do it...hentam only...haha...the most important thing is it is edible and you can finish it on time..no fancy fancy dishes..but dishes that I can play safe with..

I don't know whether it is the exam stress or what...but I can go blank for a long time..and all out of sudden..I can think a hell load of a stuffs...Its like okay..your mind is not thinking about anything at all before exam...other people freaking out..you are just so calm and relax...its not that I have a lot of confident..but my mind is just blank and I can not picture myself in the exam mode yet..or at least once I step into the room..once I am in the room...automatically tuned into battle mode..I should do that for my practical later yea..at least I would not get butterflies..=)

I don't like to get insomnia..I hate it..hate it so much...because once you can not sleep..all your senses will be awake...you will hear even the slightest sound around you..anything that is moving around you...and your mind is just so awake that you can not stop yourself from thinking...everything will go wrong once you start thinking in the middle of the night..even the most right thing will seems to be wrong...and yes..I will cry because of the slightest thing...I know I am such a baby...maybe because after I cried..my eyes will feel tired and It will help me into sleeping later on..I don't know..told you I am a weird girl..then once I start falling asleep..I still dream of me can not sleep...then I heard some noises around me...forced my eyes to open and I thought I saw a creepy clown smiling at me..shock me to hell..and here goes again..trying to make myself sleep from the start again...urghhh...

Am sorry for the self-conflict-can-not-sleep-so-dont-know-what-to-do incident...yes..I felt like I am really a baby now...oh so childish...thanks for calming me down though...muakxxx..me love you...

Alright..got to get myself ready for exam now..good luck to us....time to B~~~~ someone...=) <3

Inspiration bugs

Whether its irony or not, I wrote a lot these few days ( in exam of course ), and I still feel like writing. Maybe its the inspiration bug kicking in my brains and I need to write. There are times when the inspiration bug flew away and you just can not find the right word to describe how you felt at that moment, and when you start writing, you know, you are just mumbling.

I am not a person who will say thank god because I am just so lucky, or should I say I was. I always thought that my life was a tough one. I used to had a mum who had anger controlling issues when she had me when I was born, I used to. I used to had a quiet family, I used to. I used to pulled my brother's hair and not speak to them, I used to. I used to get jealous of my brothers because they always get what they want but not me, I used to.I used to be independent because of stress from my mum in studies, and I still do.

But now, my mum had changed. Probably because all of us had grown up and knew how to deal with her emotional swings. We started to talk to each other often, also because my parents started to open up their heart. I do not pull my brother's hair anymore, cut his hair maybe. We are all grown up and not a small kid anymore. We know that somehow, family is important. I learned how to be independent because of how I was brought up. I was not brought up in a way that my parents will be forever worried about me. They don't. They know that somehow I will find a way to solve the problems that I had. Even until now today, they do not call me every week to know how was I doing in KL, not even once in a month. But they know, that I am safe and I know what am I doing.

And I never said this to them, thank you for everything that both of you had done for us. Thank you for teaching me the hard way to be strong and independent, if it is not because of the army drill, I may not be who I am now. and thanks for being a place I can always go back to.

I am not the best person in expressing inner self to other people, except to my old girlfriends and my baby. I felt insecure about what other people think of me, and I may not be a person who will start talking to a stranger, even some one that I know by name and I see everyday but I never talk to. Yes Kar Woon, I am not like you. But professionally when It comes to work, I will talk.

But I just want to say this, I am glad for what I had now, and lucky to have a bunch of crazy friends who always had my back, and lucky that I found him.

Eunice, thanks for being such a great friend to me since forever. Always worried about me even though you are miles and miles away. Please come back fast because I miss you.

Kar Woon, thanks for being the second me. Whether people said we look similar somehow or having the almost same personality at most times, I always enjoy your company, or should I say we always enjoy your company, because you always lighten the room with your big attitude. and oh, don't be perasan okay??

Wai Mae, thanks for being most of our adviser in a lot of things, and also, thanks for being a neutral person in our gang. Being the rational one in our group, you always lead us in the right track.

Dolores, still remember bumping into you at Ridzuan crying. Thanks for being my emotional support pillar and my teman when going out with the guys. And oh, thanks for being my karaoke partner in KL.

Joo Ee, the girl with the toughest armor outside but the most fragile inside. Thanks for cheering us up with your hilarious laugh that confirm will lighten the room up. Oh how I miss that laugh.

and last but not least, Aaron.

I had changed much after I met you. Really, my life had turned 180 degree and I can not find a better way to live my life the way it is now. You had been my calm guru in everything. Every time when it comes to exam, stress will kill me slowly and I will freaked out like a mouse. But surprisingly this time, I am blogging at this hour, and stress much? No. Whether its passing with flying colors or lower that my expectation, at least I had tried my best.

My happy charm. You never fail to make me smile with your wink and peace sign, and I am missing that now. My very own small kid at heart. Whether it is your Aceline trademarked dance moves, or Shishi Shushu shake shake, I wish to keep it all for myself. See, I am smiling while writing this. What kind of charm you had cast on me?

I like to curl up like a baby in your arms because when I do so, nothing else in the world matters to me. I listened to your heart beat, listened to your breathing, listened to your words, and its like a never ending enchantment that kept my heart beating. And I know, as long as we still hold our hands tightly, we can go miles and miles together.

There is nothing else in this world that I wanted so badly for, but you. I know if I do not appreciate what I have now, I will crushed down into hell and lie on beds of dead roses with nothing but regrets. I am sorry if I am insecure at times, because it is at that very moment, I know how perfect you are and I am afraid that I am not the best for you. Said this many times, wrote this many times and will still do so in a long time,

I love you.

p/s Yes, thank god for what I had now.

Beautiful

Taken from 'BONEANDSKIN'

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IF YOU ARE GOING TO FALL IN LOVE WITH ME, IT’S ONLY FAIR THAT YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE FALLING IN LOVE WITH.

YOU ARE FALLING IN LOVE WITH MY INSECURITIES, AND MY OBSESSION WITH TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT EVERYONE THINKS OF ME. YOU ARE FALLING IN LOVE WITH MY IMMATURITY, MY CONSTANT NEED TO FEEL LOVED AND APPRECIATED, MY OVERACTIVE TEAR DUCTS, MY INTERNET OBSESSION, MY TENDENCY TO BE TOO CLINGY. YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH MY TROUBLED PAST, AND MY HOPES AND DREAMS, AND HOW I’M A HOPELESS ROMANTIC AT HEART. IF YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH ME, YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH MY SELF-HATE AND ALL MY IMPERFECTIONS AND MY PERCEPTION THAT NOBODY COULD EVER LOVE ME.

BUT, YOU ARE ALSO FALLING IN LOVE WITH THE WAY MY EYES WILL SMILE WHEN I’M WITH YOU, THE WAY I’LL TEXT YOU IN THE MORNINGS JUST TELLING YOU I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY. YOU’RE FALLING IN LOVE WITH THE OCCASIONALLY HUMOROUS AND/OR THOUGHT-PROVOKING THINGS I SAY, AND THE WAY I BLUSH WHEN PEOPLE ASK ME ABOUT YOU. BUT TO ME, THE MOST IMPORTANT THING WILL BE THAT YOU ARE FALLING IN LOVE WITH ME, DESPITE MY THINKING THAT IT IS IMPOSSIBLE.

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Taken from You Still Haunt Me

http://tracesofyou.tumblr.com/post/434593668