Refelctions ??
Have you ever look back into your past and relfect on everything that you did?? Well i just did by reading my older posts my blog and I am half way through..it brought back some painful memories..sad to say..most of it are painful ones..and I read someone's else too..guess who?? its pretty obvious..the only person you would like to stalk the most..is probably your loved one?? true? oh well..maybe you guys will think..why do you even want to care about the past? just move on with your life and get over it..i shall not agree with this statement..
Sometimes..when you can get over your own past or his past..and when your heart doesnt ache anymore after reflecting on the past..you will realize that you are strong enough to forget about what had happened and accepts what will happen..that is what I am trying to do..to make my heart stronger..
I reflect on his past because I realize i did not really read his blog last time..i was busy emo-ing in Term 4 and just briefly went through..so now..when i read back..hey..i dont heartache anymore..I still remember that first time i wanted to see his pictures..my hands were cold and couldnt even take the courage to click the next button..and i told him..I can not do that..not at that moment..and that day..Ter-serempak with some old pics..not with intention..just Ter-serempak..both of us are really cool about it..He just took it and say.just some old pictures and left it on the table..haha...i was thinking in my mind..hoa..you are not worried il get emo-ed ar..and good riddance..i am not emo at all..I wonder why..If it was the me last time..i will be so emo-ed about it..I guess I grew up already?? ^^
Some of my friends told me..they are really sensitive when it comes to this problem..some even cried when see or heard about it..some are being a little bit tight and tension..oh well..its pretty normal i think..used to be in that position when 'Ex' is a huge problem for me in the past..(read back my older post you see..and 50 percent is about ex problem and insecurities problem..:s)I guess when we reach our 20's, our thinking will be more mature and things like that..though still a problem but wont be a huge problem for us.. I went through enough of this problem until I fed up with it already..
Leave it behind your back, forget about the time frame ( by him ) , and look into the future..
Most of my friends are settled down now..maybe i shouldn't say settled down..are in good hands now is a better saying..They used to be so frusfrated about what happened to me in the past..cursed because of the treatment I got last time..worried about me and all..thats what friends are for right? and now..i am happier than ever..should be relieved already right? and me myself..I am happy and glad for you people who found someone you dearly loved and still stay strong until this very moment..thumbs up to you two..yes..dolores and kar woon..you guys are my idol..ofcourse my dear Eunice..i can not wait for you to come back to malaysia..tanah tumpah darah mu..
Reflection??
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