To be honest or not? Thats the question.

* Before proceeding, please be clear that I am not referring to myself in what I had written below. =) *

The hardest thing to do in life ( at least I think so ) besides breaking up, will be moving on and telling the one who used to be your dearest that you are ready to move on.

It is hard to do because in your hand, there is no more love but guilt because you had moved on, and in her/his hand, there are still love and hope. It is hard to do because you do not wish to hurt that person even deeper.

It is hard to do so you choose to hide, you choose to run away, and you choose to ignore. 

If you knew that he/she has not move on and still clinging on something that doesn't belong to her anymore, will you still put a huge stab on his/her bleeding wound? 

Not everyone has the courage to do so and not everyone has the courage to ignore the opposite's feelings.

If friend is involved in this, its worst. Because of the word friend, this is the person you would not wish to hurt the most besides your parents. It is not fake because he/she wants to know how you are doing, it is because he/she wants to know whether you are ready to know what is really going on. If he/she knows that you had not moved on, do you think it is easier to let you know by themselves? 

Sometimes, knowing the truth is not a bad thing at all, because at least you know, its really time to move on. You will not live in this mist of uncertainties that gives you false hope. 

Everyone needs to go through all these in life to grow up to be wiser, to be more mature and understanding. Words had been said, whether you learn from it or still choose to cry in your own misery, it is all your choice. ( Miss Kar Woon, ini bukan you. so no worries, but I hope you are doing great too. =) love ya) 

My twin

I know..three posts in a day is a bit too much. But I have so much to say now. So bear with me. :p

I have found my long lost twin sister!

On the left is my cousin sister and on the right is me when I am still a baby!

I showed this to my brother and he agreed with me that we look so much alike! haha..but he said I look much fatter! oh damn! haha. See seee. I am quite photogenic when I am still a small kid! haha. sudah mau show longkang when tak ada longkang. =p  

I have a lot of my baby pictures actually, even those 18sx bathing pictures. haha. Last time my parents like to take pictures and video of me because I am the first child in the family and my grandparents first grandchildren. So they all very much sayang me last time. I used to rotate staying in both houses, my mother side house and my dad side house. haha. 

My mum always said my head was damn big last time, when she was giving birth to me, my head was too big until I have difficulties in coming out smoothly. It took the doctor almost an hour plus just to pull me out. She said after me, all my brother just pop out smoothly. haha. I guess that is why I am quite hard headed now. :p

I was quite cute when I was a baby, but it all went wrong after i start growing. haha. I looked super mature since young. Don't believe me? See this

Maybe one or two years old

and now.

haha. nahhhh..I think I am cuter last time. =p

p/s Why don't you go dig back all your old pictures and see how much you had grew after 21 years? You will realize how much you had changed physically and mentally. 22th, I am coming to you in 4 months time. 

Smile overcomes it all

Just came back from Seremban..

No water.
Shops all close including Pasar Beef Noodle
Bus spoil in the middle of the road.
Have to cramp in the bus with some lala
Super hot weather
Went all the way to Pasar Seni to tapau beef noodle and its not nice and bloody expensive

Chill

I need this

Cake

( White Chocolate Macadamia from Secret Recipe )

With Tea and my baby

Tomorrow will be a better day. Smile =)

Another bye

Did I mention that I did not drive a long distance for a long long time already? I think the furthest I went will be fetching my friends home in Seremban last time. So since Wendy is leaving to Leeds in UK to further her studies, we decided to sent her off at KLIA and who is the one driving? Me! oh dead! haha.

I never drove to KLIA before, and I rarely drive around recently. So yeah, its a BIG challenge. My parents was damn worried about me because they know I am quite noob in driving. Though I am quite worried myself, but I still went on without referring to Google map or anything, but relying on Yuva's directions. So here we go!!!

At first we decided to use the highway there, but in the middle of the road, we actually bump into Wendy and her family. She did not see us of course, only her mum. They were using the old road. So what the hell, follow them only. haha. After a while, i realize it was a HUGE mistake. Why? Because Wendy dad drove so fast and we lost them. Yuva said I was damn smart to take this road.

The road was dark, narrow with no street lights and everyone is driving on high speed. And smart motorcyclist riding with no lights on and wearing full black. Smart right? @@ I can not drive faster than 80mph because it was really damn dark. I almost bang into a car twice! We were scared to death but its not my fault okay? First there was this car driving from opposite direction trying to overtake the lorry in front of him. Smart! Did not realize there is car opposite of the road. Luckily my reflects was fast enough to avoid anything bad happening.

The the second time was when we were on a round about. I was driving happily in the middle of the road and out of no where, there was this car on high speed suddenly turned in to the junction on my left from my back. No signal nothing and just turned! The Vios in front of me was shock also and it stopped in the middle of the round about. GOD! Three of us were damn shock in the car but once again luckily my reflects was fast enough to stop the car before hitting it. Dumb ass driver!

Even B was worried about me and text me whether I had arrived or not. I felt damn relieved when I reach KLIA seriously. Safe and sound baby. haha.

Four of us

The rest were not free to sent her off so its just the three of us who went. Of all people, I did not aspect Wendy to take civil engineering really. As long as she is liking what she is doing, we all have no objection. haha..Same goes to Eunice in US! haha.Maybe you two can work together in the future. =)

My neighbor, classmate since Form 1, same tuitions and my lovely daughter. Wishing you all the very best in UK and hope that you will enjoy yourself there. Wear more clothes and keep warm my dear. We will miss your dearly. =)

My lovely cousie Yuva

Miss talking to you so much! haha..Still the same old Yuva with the same personality. Love you girl and we should meet up more. =)

So many friends left to overseas to further their studies, and so many going to graduate and start working soon. Time flies ya. I am turning 22 soon! Gosh! Perhaps the next one leaving will be us. We are graduating next year and though it is still in planning stage, but most probably we won't be working in Malaysia. Hmm.Can time just go slower now! 

Two sides

Two sides

Every human has two sides deep down inside their nature. Like I said before, one an angel and one an devil. So these two creatures will appear in your life at any time, especially when you are about to make a decision. Simple decisions like, should I go out with this guy/girl? or should I stalk this person in FB?

So the Angle will tell you,

' He is a player and a heart breaker. Don't go out with him.'

And the Devil will tell you,

' He is fun and adventurous, maybe you want to have more excitements in your life.'

And so they keep debating in your mind. Go yes, go no, go yes, go no. In the end, one will win the yes and no battle, and there goes what you are going to do. Sometimes it is a short debate, but sometimes it takes forever to come out with a conclusion. My point is, whether it is an angel or a devil, whether it is a lifetime decision or just a simple one like having what for lunch, it is all in your mind and how strong is your personal principles. For instance,

' Long time did not eat KFC..im hungry '
' Ya..why not...let's go get some finger licking goodness.' Friend said.
' Nahhh..it is so oily..Il take the salad instead. You guys go ahead.'

This is a person who strictly sticks to her principle that she will not eat unhealthy food even with people trying to influent her.

' Hmmm..I am on a diet.But I feel like eating KFC so much..Its so tempting..'
' Aiyah..forget about your diet la..once in a while eat nevermind one...' Friend said.
' Screwed it. I am going to eat KFC'

Peer pressure and stand no ground. 

See. I will not compliment myself for being a person who strictly sticks to my believe, even sometimes, I lost to the devil. Like yesterday, my dream betrayed me again. Damn subconscious mind, can't you just behave yourself.

One said, I had a strong mental strength.

Yes, that is what I need now. A strong mental strength to keep believing. A strong mental strength to not believe in things that will not happen. And a strong mental strength to control my subconscious mind.

So be gone you devil and negative thoughts! Be gone!

Its a very random post I know.=)

Of Period Pain

Period Pain

The biggest pain in the arsh for women, literally. Out of no where, it came earlier. I did not notice the signs of it coming except for B.And I can proudly told him that it won't come so early. But I have to agree that he knows me better than I know myself now. Woke up this morning and realize 'oh shit, something is not right..arrrr..sudah mari '

It was quite painful this time as I can hardly make myself smile even if I wanted to. I want to sit down and thats it, Do not Disturb me and Do not let me stand up. Gosh. Women can be so hard at times because of PMS and Period Pain. Seriously, do not make a woman on period pain angry, they will bite! Hope it will subside tomorrow! shooohh shooohh..

How to make period pain less irritating?

1. You will need something sweet

Things like cake and chocolate will definitely make you feel better after eating it. Do not take cold stuffs though especially on the first day, its suicidal.

2. You need something warm and hot

A cup of hot tea and some hot choc should help to keep your womb warm so it will be guai and won't make you suffer. =)

3. Pink Pill

If it is really killing pain, please take your pink pill which is pain killer before it becomes worst. But do not over consume it though because it may affect you in the future.

4. Sweet talk

Yes. A caring and loving words from your loved one will definitely make your day a good one instead of a gloomy one.

Since I am not emo because of period pain now, I shall share some funny pictures of us. =p

Thanks to b, I had this Japanese Samurai like bangs. haha.He blew my hair to form this.

And later on, he blew it to the side to make it better. Still exposed!!

Him with his evil smile. :p

Have a great week ahead people. 

Loves Lin

Oh Kebaya!

Let me see what's in my hands now.

1. Marketing assignment 4
2. Yogurt making project
3. 4 Case Studies to analyze
4. 1 Exercise and 1 past year question

Great holiday indeed! oh well. Still in holiday mood but not working mood yet. So.  Better get starting soon before dying later. @@

Last year, Aaron's mum suddenly gave me a very beautiful Kebaya top one day and she said it was Aaron's grandmother's Kebaya. She said it was very small and only I can wear it at that time, so she gave it to me. I was real flattered because somehow it is like a sign of recognition for me.=) But that was last year and I have not get the chance to wear it until yesterday.

Its a black Kebaya with red and blue embroidery. 

It was quite transparent so I have to wear a black tube inside. Aaron's mum said I can wear it with spaghetti top inside. I was totally surprise when she said that because if its my mum, I think she would ask me to wear a black t-shirt inside or something! tsk tsk. my mum is quite close minded when it comes to my dressing. 

Camwhore time with Kebaya!

Its black black day.=)

The Kebaya is pretty small from the last picture. And oh, I wore it with the flower belt Dolores bought for me from Bangkok! =)Kebaya Top plus jeans..hmmm..not a bad combination after all. But I got say, its the most cover up outfit I had ever worn recently. Hot sial! haha. 

Went to Aaron's friend's house for open house..makan rendang makan lemang and makan nasi beriyani..slurrrrpp.. I was the only one in Kebaya! YES! :p haha. I have no idea why I had been craving for some beer and fries recently. So we went over to Brussels for their fries!! I wanted to have Guinness on the tap but of all places why Brussles tak ada! aiyorrr.. its okay. We have this instead!

Tetley's English Ale

Its super smooth and super light compare to other beers and even lighter tha Hoegarden on tap. Can you imagine that? haha. I think for girls who can not take really heavy beer, this is a good choice.

The fries!!!!

Gosh. Last time when we had it we were sharing it with other people so it finished very fast, but since its only for both of us, wahh, its ALOT! I can barely finish half of it. Suggested for sharing sharing ya. =)

Some things are very fragile, like human relationships. It takes two hands to clap and two hands to make it happen. This implies in everything and I am not talking about love this time. If efforts had been made and there  

is no response, I can either wait or just leave it. For now I shall wait, because I still believe. And I actually got emo-ed over it, urgh. oh well. Just want to ramble a bit. Done rambling. Byes. =)

Raya Eve Steamboat night

It has been super long since I last had steamboat and I have not got the chance to steamboat with b until now. So since it is Raya eve and I was craving to eat a lot of vegetables, why not right?

The traffic in Federal is just awesome! So little cars and you can just cruise down without much obstructions. How I wish Federal is like that everyday. Sigh! oh well. The good thing about Raya besides bazaar, no traffic in KL. whee~~ 

Instead of the common Yuen Steamboat that I have been for don't know how many times in the past, we ought to try Tasty Pot which has 4 floors! @@ I thought no one would come out on Raya Eve since all balik kampung already, but I was wrong!

 Tasty Put BBQ Steamboat

Just look at the crowd! 

I thought it was empty! mana tau its packed with people and the crowd just keep coming. Of course, its mostly Chinese and some foreign students. See! We celebrate Raya also!! haha..but enjoying the good traffic and some steamboat. Sunway Mentari has really became a steamboat village. So many different outlets selling steamboat and all seems to have a descent amount of customers, especially Tasty Pot and Yuen. 

One thing good about Tasty Pot, you have 6 different soup choices to choose for. The normal Herbal Soup and Tom Yum, Szechuan spicy soup, porridge, and two special ones that I never had before, Soya soup and Surry Soya soup. We choose Herbal soup and Curry Soya, just to taste how the soya soup taste like. To my surprise, its fairly good! It is like a very mild curry broth with a hint of sweetness from the soya. If you are worried that it is too heavy, worry not because the soya has been mixed with some chicken broth to make it sweet and light. 

On the right you have the curry soya soup and on the left you have herbal soup. Slurppp~~

So if you are in a steamboat buffet, what will you take? For small eater like us, ball ball is a must ( sorry, but I seem to like everything that is round. haha ), some seafood ( No crab and prawns for us since B is allergic and I don't really fancy eating it. We have lots of snails, unknown snails, mussels and lala instead, vegetables is a MUST, and LOADS of mushrooms! haha. We simply just love mushrooms. :p

and oh! this is round two of mushrooms o..:p

Some grilled ikan kembung and sausages. The fish is pretty fresh really.

Arrr..the hit item of the night. Marmite chicken! 

Maybe it is a trend set by Yuen where everyone will go oh-so-crazy over the chicken wings, die die also rush and grab as many chicken wing as you can when the worker brought it out, Tasty Pot seems to follow them as well. and I must say, its is GOOD! Probaby better than Yuen's Chicken Wing. The sauce is filled with marmite goodness, thick and sweet, the chicken is crispy and well marinated. It even have some sesame seeds to give it an extra kick. Yummy yummy! 

I saw them grilling crabs as well! 

I was quite excited when I saw the worker grilling so many crabs, so even though we don't eat it, I still went and took some pictures. :p In tasty pot, there are quite a lot of food choices that you can take like lots and lots of balls, seafood like clams, mussels, fish, crab prawns, loads of vegetables, bbq items like crab, fish, mussels and even grilled lamb, and of course ice cream! haha. How can you not finish your steamboat with ice cream?? 

When i read the review for Tasty Pot, people said it is RM23.60 per person not including drink, but it seems that they had increase the price recently. It is RM26.90 per person now. =( oh well. I guess if you are a big seafood eater it is very worth it. Despite the slightly high price compare to Yuen, it is still worth a try. 

p/s We felt like a guinea pig that night because we ate lot of vegetables and mushrooms. @@ 

Of quotes

Love quotes


"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two." 
St. Augustine


A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life, to be thankful for a good one.
Marjorie Kinnan Rawlings


There is no remedy for love but to love more.
Thoreau


Love is always bestowed as a gift -- freely, willingly, and without expectation.... We don't love to be loved; we love to love
.Leo Buscaglia


Love doesn't make the world go 'round; love is what makes the ride whorthwhile.
Franklin P. Jones


Cute quotes


A kiss can be a comma, a question mark, or an exclamation point. That's a basic spelling that every woman should know.
Jeanne Bourgeois


Never underestimate the value of doing Nothing, of just going along, listening to all the things you can't hear, and not bothering.
Winnie The Pooh


Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.
Dr. Seuss


Always tell the truth. That way, you don't have to remember what you said
.Mark Twain


Funny quotes


They say men can never experience the pain of childbirth. They can...if you hit them in the goolies with a cricketbat for fourteen hours. 
Jo Brand


When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks, "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here? 
Billy Connoly


Women will never be as successful as men because they have no wives to advise them. 
Dick Van Dyke


Jim Cameron and I have just decided we're going to do another Terminator. The title will be The Sperminator: I'll Come Again. 
Arnold Schwarzenegger


Friendship quotes


Friendship is the marriage of the soul, and this marriage is liable to divorce.
 Voltaire


Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship--never. 
Charles Caleb Colton


To me, fair friend, you never can be old
For as you were when first your eye I eyed,
Such seems your beauty still. 
William Shakespeare


A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.
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