SICK!!!!

Okay..im officially SICK now..Yesterday i can hardly breathe when im working..maybe because of the smoke in the kitchen..then whatever i do also half a pace slower..Damn it..Then i got fever right when i got home..amazingly..i think Brendan is treating me way better than he was..maybe this is the way that we should take..hmm...He taught me how to breathe properly and things like that..blanket me when i was trying to sleep..i actually felt touched..and warm..because this was who he was back then..not the one who ignores me when stressed out..

But..i cant sleep a bit..my brain was still awake until the next morning..meaning i had no rest for 24 hours..god gracious..i dont know why..but i was damn emo and sad..everyhting started to hit on me at that time..i cried..and i was staring outside the window for damn long..until it was morning..

Then when he woke up..he walked with me to the nearest clinic..the doctor said im fine..but maybe a viral fever..headache because lack of sleep..hard to breathe because of the smoke in the kitchen ofcourse..SOO..i paid 35 bucks for it..got a fever, headache, vitamin C and also Sleepy pills..so i can sleep..Damn..just because im sick..and yea..he tapao something for me to eat..so i can take my medicine..See..he always treat me good when we are not a couple..damn..

But you know what..maybe this is better..better for both of us..like friends..we dont put everything in heart..we just know how to treat our friends good..and not by hurting them..so i think this is the best solution for us??

Im not moving out..the reason..why should i??yes..he is here..it might be hard for me to forget about him..but i just change my perspection and think in another way..maybe it is way easier..i dont want all the hoohaa of finding new room..getting know the new housemates, deposit..im perfectly okay with this house..so why should i move out??

So people..you dont to worry much about me..il take care of myself..this i promise you guys..okay??? MuakxXXXX