something to bear on

Well..yesterday night i went to The Dark Knight with Wayne..for the midnight show..the show..not much comment la..just that that guy is called bruce wayne..which is buzzing me all the time..because WAYNE is just sitting next to me..which reminded me of him everytime the name was called in the movie..haha..the joker was just plain scary..DAMN...

thanks wayne wayne..

thanks for lending me a shoulder to lay on when i need one...

it helped alot when the freaking cinema is freaking damn COLD..

haha

Just now..i just lock myself AGAIN..i left my keys in his room...i dont know why..but i just woke up and wanted to see him real bad..i just dont know why..then when i start looking for my keys..i realize it was not there..DAMN...i did it again..i sms him..and he is not free..luckily Melvin was at home..and i had to used his keys..

Then..i cant use my comp because the online thingy is not set yet..DAMN..wtf wei..luckily Jervin allowed me to use his comp..if not..il just fall into misery..and yea..i still fell into misery..i was freaking DAMN depressed!!!

i was depressed because i realize that sometimes i just depend on him too much..too much to bear..and when i cant do that anymore..i just felt useless..and im freaking dumb and forgetful..forgetting every single thing that is important...URGHH..and the fact that my fever is on and off whenever i have a emotional swing is just plain DUMB..

i wanted to sms and tell him im depress..but i know that he cant always be there for me..be there to comfort me..so i took my hands off..

i saw the picture he took with his friends..where they went and eat..the things he will order..yea..i remember all that..i know what he will order..he got his own life to live with..and i have my own life..i have to find my own life...

i need to love myself again..

learn how to treat myself better..

learn how to be myself again..

learn how to be happy

Learn how to be Yeaw Zhi Lin again...