A message to him

For Brendan::

i know that you wont read my blog..and i wont even know whether you did or not..i really dont know..but if you see this post of mine..yes..it is dedicated to you..

i know that it is not anyone's fault..but what i really want from you..is just a simple simple thing..for you to treat me like how you treated your friend..but why you have to treat me like your enemy??Maybe worst than your enemies...

i know that im hard to tolerate with..yes..i know that..but you knew me for so long..i thought you would have understand me..maybe im the one who really still cant catch you until this very moment..

what i want from you..is just simple..i dont want it to end it in this way for both of us..hating each other..this is the worst that i could aspect..

until this moment..i feel like im really pathetic..because i still love you..which makes me triple pathetic.after what you said to me..after what you did to me..i still do..

but...

congratulations..you manage to get myself over you..and move on with my life..

il let you out of my heart now...

il let you go now...

but i dont want to hate you..

Because i know i cant hate you

i hope that one day..we can still sit down and talk..

one day..

definitely not now..

im sorry...

From zhi lin

Well..if anyone saw this post..please tell him that i wrote this for him..

People..please dont leave a bad impression about him..he is a great friend..a great guy..but just not the right one for me...

This is not some acting or whatever..

this is from deep down of my heart..