Sorry people for not updating for quite some time. I got lots and lots to write about but i just could not find a better time to go all the way to CC and online..but here i am..sitting alone in CC at 12.30 AM..sounds pathetic..but im fine..though i CRIED again..mind that..
The reason why i cried is because i was chatting with Jason Tan..yes..Jason Tan..haha..not really close but we just talk..and he told me that he had talked to Brendan once..i knew i was going to cry at that point..nothing to be shame of..because im used to crying because of him already..YEA..why i cried..i wont say it here..anyway..this is what Brendan is..soooo...screwd it..
The reason why im holding on SOOOO hard and not lettting myself really getting over it is because in my heart..i still believe what he said..that im not some nobody..but a special special friend to him..and he will still care for me..heh..i guess he told every single girl he met the same thing..whatever..i still believe in that..but how he is treating me now is really over the board..i am NOT a sandbag..a person that you can just ditch whenever you want..can scold whenever you like..who am i to you to deserve all these??? you are just not treating me the right WAY!!!!!!!! All those things that you had told me before..are like lies to me now..the trust of me to you..is just fading away...why am i still mourning for you?? why am i still letting myself being affect by you..screwd it.just screwd it..and i wnt care about you anymore...
GOSH..i really should let myself over these shits now..DAMN..anyway..screwd it..
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