Better in Time

Hmm..This..is actually one of the songs that we sang in Karaoke..and i realize that the lyrics was DAMN meaningful..especially to my situation right now..so..please look through the lyrics..and tell me..that it doesn't suit me..haha

Better in Time - Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'ma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Karaoke addiction

As i said earlier..me and dolores went to Karaoke..muakaka..
we WENT..and yeah..this is the first room we went..DAMN SMALL..
we were like..ish..we want back the room 3 we went last time..very spacious lo that one..
guess what..the mic got prob in the small room..so we were transferred to a bigger room..
ROOM 3!!!! yay..its like xmas for both of us..haha..

We sang until like 6 i guess..gosh..tiring le..what the hell..
we sing until no song to sing already..
old mcdonald la..humpty dumpty..Do Re Mi..all those nursery rhyme also came out..haha

After the tiring singing marathon..we went and EAT..
Hungry...and im craving for Wendy's..so..lets go..
we end up feeling so bloated and full..until dolores can not even stand up..
THEN..we went and watch 'Money not Enough 2'
HEY..it was a great movie lo...
the story line really reflects on the reality..and i am so touched until i cried..
yea..i cried again..because of the story line..and it makes me missing my grandma..sobs..
As usual..there are tonnes of camwhoring going on..here goes nothing---------

Then.i waited for jervin to go home..and yeah..he LECTURE me about love..
haha..
He said..if you want to say you are single..you should say..' i am very single'..haha..then guys would know that this girl is single and looking around..hmm..
this is so classic of HIM..but yeah..somethings that he told me was DAMN true..
maybe i should listen to him??haha..

Pre Karaoke post

PEOPLE!!!! im going out for Karaoke AGAIN!!!!
muakaka..another 5 hours will be spend with my dearest Dolores..
Singing out of our lungs in the K-box!!!
sigh!! Eunice cant join us this time..but nvm..there is always another time..*wink*

Okay..yesterday..was being a little bit emo because i was all alone at home..
THEN..after i wrote all my posts and stuffs..
i suddenly felt like..'HEY!!! this is not too bad after all..being alone..kind of liking it..'
and i have my friends to chat with online..
THAT..is the most important thing.
i have my friends who are always there for me..
love you guys!!!!!

Anyway..talking about hungry..im hungry now..
yesterday was a disaster..sobs..
i did not take my lunch..FINE..then i was hungry but lazy at the same time..
so i have to PULL myself out of my comp and walk to the kitchen..
thinking maybe cooking some spaghetti to kill my hunger..
and then..i put the water in the cooking pot..
try and turn on the gas
and WTH!!!!
NO GAS!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^%^*@&#*($(*@

EH!!!..im hungry le..gosh..then luckily got some mi cup in the cupboard..
if not..il starve to death again..ish..
but nevermind..il catch a lunch with dolores before we kick the mic's ass..muahaha
seriously..im thinking of joining some singing competition or whatever next year..so be there to support me yea..muahahaha..*wink*

And old post

I posted this long long long time ago..and i still find it meaningful until now..
the reason..because it reflects my past two relationships..
and now..i post it again..i have no idea why..
but..just for the sake of posting it again..

Lying To Forget

This lie's become a part of me
For months, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear his name
Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For him are somehow gone
Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs
But last night when I saw him
For the first time since he left
My heart stopped for a moment...
I couldn't catch my breath
When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time...
I just can't let him go


Long Distance Relationship

A thousand kisses will never be,
Enough to satisfy my craving heart's plea,
Tommorrow will be the day I love you more,
Than today or yesterday or ever before,
Words and phrases will never do,
What my heart feels so deeply for you,
Deeper and deeper my feelings go,
My head is spinning too and fro,
I want you here, forever and more,
For our hearts to join and together explore,
Our hearts beat and beat as one,
Feel what I'm feeling, it's only begun,Y
et, slowly my desire turns to rage,
My heart feels as though it's within a cage,
You are so close yet so far,
At times like this I wish upon a star,
I wish you were here and not over there,
Yet life is hard as well as unfair,
All I can do is wish and wait,
Until we meet again as that is our fate,
I love you more than my words can say,
And forever my love will grow each passing day,
Until the day I gently hold your face,
I'll wish for that moment as I always do,And I've wished upon a star, so my wish will come true.

L-O-V-E

...LOVE...
for me..it is like an addiction..
a never ending addiction until the day when you realize how far you had gone..
the day when you realize that he is not looking at you the way he used to..
that he is not holding your hand as tight as before
that he is not sms-ing as frequent as before
that he does not turn back and look at you anymore
that he does not like to hug you anymore
that he does not bother wishing you goodnight

the day when you realize that there is somebody else in his heart
it is the end of everything
he would not bother caring about you
he would not bother sms-ing you
he would not bother about you anymore..

Asking myself what have i done to deserve this..
Asking myself why he treats me the way he did..
Asking myself why did i let this man to change me..
The answer is..
never ask those questions

it is not worth it..
not worth my tears anymore..

Again..im alone in this empty house..
cold and cruel..
me and myself..
but this time..without tears..

for him..
i wish that he can find someone that he truly loves..
Someone that can make him happy again..
Someone that he can be honest with..

as for me..
there would be someone there for me
to love me with all his heart
to show me that love do exist..
to make me believe in love again

This is not a post to make myself miserable again..
I already said in my previous post that il stand up again..
i just need to write out my feelings..
this is me..
no one can change that

no more..

for sure..this is going to be an emo post again.sorry..but this is going to be the last one..the last one that i want to talk about this relationship...
Seriously..i do not blame anyone in this relationship..because this is who he is..and the fact is..i cant change it..and he wont change it for me..therefore..it is not his fault..and not mine also..
Being in a relationship should be happy..not sad..
When everything turns ugly..you must know how to find the solution to solve it..
not by wandering around and around..in the end..just left two misery souls trapped in the same old problem..
This is my problem..i have tried and solve the problems..but it seems to be never ending..until now..
i realize that we are not meant for each other..
it took me long enough to realize this fact..
i know that many people were there to support me..worried about me..
and i deeply sorry that this have to happen...

I always said that i needed someone to slap me and wake me up..
in the end..though nobody slap me..but i realize that it is time to wake up..FINALLY..
Honestly..i really appreciate the time when we spend together..
Even though sometimes he can be quite mean..but he can be very sweet as well..maybe to every girl..but what the hell..
my point is..do not blame him for what that happened to us..
it is nobody's fault..
we still love each other as a close friend..but not more than that..

This time..i wont sms him anymore..i will try not to think of him..i will spend more time with myself and friends..and i will appreciate myself more..maybe you have heard these for millions of times from me..but this time..il do it for real..
this time..i told him..that i cant take this anymore..
i even wish him that he will find somebody that he truly love...
yea..i told him that..and i cried when i said that..so drama queen right..
but i actually rehearse that for quite some time..yea..until i headache and could not sleep..

well..no more self torturing..no more sleepless nights..no more dreaming about we get back together..haha..no more him and him..thats it..no more..im done..

Me and me

First time reading chinese post in my blog??haha..sorry..but i did not wrote that..i got it from kar woon..which kind of fits me..totally fits me..
Anyway..i aint going to talk about what that happened anymore..
Nothing much had happened..
it is just me and myself...self conflict..
and im going to be my own healer..to free myself from everything
so IM SORRY..
for everyone who cares about me...
i know that you guys were really worried about me..
it was not my attention to let you guys worried about me..
I will be fine..and FINE this time..
no matter what decisions i made..il make sure i wont do anything stupid to hurt myself..
il make sure il be happy again..

sorry for not listening to you guys
sorry for making you all worried about me
sorry for all the emo posts..
sorry for doing stupid stuffs to make myself miserable...
sorry for everything

il stand up as YEAW ZHI LIN again..
il rise again..soon..
so behold people..haha!!!!!!

When he doesnt like you anymore

当他不再爱你的时候

请不要在你不开心

或者是遇到麻烦而彷徨的时候去打搅他。

他那儿绝对不是你此刻应该的去处。

也许他会在接到你电话的时候

淡淡的安慰几句，

却也仅此而已。

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当他不爱你的时候

请不要在他面前流泪，

不要在生病时告诉他，

他无法给予你照顾和关心，

顶多是同情一下。

所以请骄傲的你，

不要放弃本来属于你的骄傲。

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当他不爱你的时候

你的爱

你的人

就会显得廉价许多。

他占了上风，

这是人的本性。

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当他不爱你的时候，

请不要与他讲你的琐事，

他无暇更没有兴趣了解你，

你的生活

你的过去，

你的长处短处与他何干？

即使讲了

他也会很快忘记的，

就如他忘记你的生日，

你的地址

你的电话一样。

没有爱

于是你注定挤不进他的生命。

即使，

你要的只是一个很小很小的角落。

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当他不爱你的时候

无论过去他是爱过后来忘了，

又或者是从未爱过，

当你无法成为他心里的那个人的时候，

他的心便不会记得你。

虽然他知道你深爱他，

但他宁可选择装作不知道。

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当他不爱你的时候，你的爱便是他的负担。

请不要计算自己的付出，

不要希望有什么回报。

爱着不爱自己的人，

本身便是没有回报的。

要记住，

你与他之间的爱，

是单方面的，

你用心

他无心。

所以

不要计较对错，

这样会快乐些。

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当他不爱你的时候

也一定要祝福他。

有了爱，

便不该有恨。

爱是美好的，

恨却丑陋。

何必让生命中美好的东西化作丑恶呢？

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当他不爱你的时候

请你深深呼吸，

一生的路上，

总有那么一朵花属于你，

不是安慰你。

而是

这是生生世世早已经注定的。

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给所有得到过所爱却又失去所爱的人

给从未得到所爱的

给因为仍旧爱着

于是选择自欺欺人的人

这是一面镜子

勇敢面对，勇敢放弃，勇敢重新开始......

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想念不会想念自己的人，太笨了。。。

眷恋不再喜欢自己的人，太傻了。。。

提醒自己：

"我只是失去一个不爱我的笨蛋。。。

他却失去深爱他的傻瓜。。。

损失的是笨蛋。。

为什么要由我来伤心？？"

taken from...
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/evil921

MAD

okay..sorry..this is not meant to hurt anyone..but i really hate BITCHES..GOD..fakers..idiots..screwded them..urghhh...guys are blind..yes..they are blind..sometimes..look beyond the face infront of you..it is not as simple as you see it..yes..you can think that that person is true and sincere to you..but who knows better than us..the girls itself...but when we tell you that..you dont listen..trust those damn bitches but not us..than we..the innocent one will be the BITCH because you claim that we bitch about them..you claim you KNOW them..but infact you know NUTS..NUTS!!!! if someone is can not click the whole damn bunch of girls..there is definitely something wrong..not that we cant understand them..but..god..just THINK yourself la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im pissed off because im framed for something that i never did...people who know me through and through knows that..i am not that kind of person who will turn people against someone..YES..il bitch about them if im mad..but il never ask anyone to hate them...its me who is the victim or whatever it is..not you guys...so..you dont have to hate them...BAH..I JUST HATE BEING FRAMED..what the hell...

i wish that GUYS..especially..LOOK CAREFULLY...dont just be blind by her innocence or beauty...whatever..you will never know what a girl can do..i never said that im super duper good..you can see from my blog..either you hate me or love me..thats all..URGHHHH...just becareful alright..and yea..girls also becareful...ISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bless the world..bless the innocence souls..and screwd those fakers..BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my heart aches

just read kar woon's blog..and i have the sudden urge to cry even though i know it is not worth crying..shit..here i go again..emo-ing..now my mind is like..screwded up..i dont know why..my head is heavy..my heart is aching..my whole body is like not mine anymore..nobody can help me through..i know..but you guys dont know what i went through..what kind of pain i went through...i cant say through here..because the whole world would have known..this..i want to avoid..

as i said..im just being stupid again..feeling neglected..who would be there to heal me???to heal my wound when i need one...not only from the surface..i can joke around..i can smile and laugh..but that doesnt mean that im healed..yes..i have to be my own healer..heal my own wound..and safe myself from all the problems..but i can say that until this moment..i did not do it well..in fact..pretty bad..im killing myself inside..

why im feeling like crying when i read her blog..because i can feel her happiness from her pictures..i can feel the love..that is something that im missing in my life now..that feeling..the feeling of being in love..not being push away..scolded..neglected..etc...this is just so wrong..

why did i let this feeling to overcome me???why??? i know..im only used..im just a somebody he will only find when he is lonely..stressed and sad..and the sad part is i will still be there for him no matter how hard im struggling deep inside...no matter how hard i hope that he will turn back and look at me..

i dont want to upload the pictures now..because that will just make my heart aches more..il upload it when im cool..not now..because mu heart is aching..

Im a Drama Queen

sorry for the sudden quietness in my blog..my internet was down in Mentari...so therefore..i did not update my blog...actually i got tonnes of picture to update..but it will take some time since my internet is down

OKAY..not going to talk about what i did..im not working in ELLE anymore..dont ask me why...dont even bother to ask why...but...dont care..so people..dont have to go there and find me..i wont be there anymore...okay..dont want to remember about those bad times...

seriously..i dont really know what the hell am i doing right now..serious..im stupid..im dumb and yea..im crazy...i like to create my own drama to make myself miserable...i like to do things to hurt myself..i dont listen to what people say...though they had been telling me like billions and millions of times...okay...until this stage of my life..i can write a skript of my personal life already..and i can guarantee you...it is full with dramas and dramas...

im crazy...im a pyscho..im loud..im stupid..im dumb..and i think that is why people will think that im some stupid LC 'hiao po'..sorry for my dressing..i dont really give a damn shit...just that whatever that im wearing now..it is getting looser ans looser..i have no idea why..and that day when i tried on a dress..i realize that im crazily thin until damn ugly..okay..not trying to be overly boastful about myself..but my rib bones should not be seen so easly..its not right..i guess i really need to eat alot and alot to make myself fat again..and i SWEAR that im stuffing myself with chocolate now..I SWEAR...

my mind now..is like a whirl pool..always stuffing with some crazy thinking..i swear to god if i dont go back to college and fill myself with books or friends..im going to be crazy soon...atleast i got better and useful things to think on..not some weird and unhelping thoughts...thoughts that will kill myself..

PEOPLE...help me to stop the dramas in my life...im going to be dead soon..brain freeze..emotion freeze or whatever you call it..i know..this kind of thing..i need to think for myself..i need to be smarted..but can trouble just stay out of my way...seriously..i need to get myself out of trouble..HELP ME...

Thin good..thin not good

yay!!! im blogging again..what the hell..second post of the day!!! incredible..
okay..i want to talk about weight issues..
hmm..not to say that im having one..BUT..i did loose some weight..
due to the training in my last restaurant..thanks to them..i lost like 2 kg..
drop back to 41kg..
ohyeah..how i know that..hmm..let me tell the story again..haha
well..i TRIED to donate blood when i was in NS camp you see..
FAILED in every single category..
underweight..not enough hemoglobin..and low blood pressure..
SOO..that day..me pandai pandai la..haha..went and try my luck again..
once i step on the weight scaling machine...that uncle said..
'kamu boleh baliklah..'
haha...sorry la...i did not know that i lost weight..

then this morning..i check my waist line..ofcourse it is way thinner than usual because i have not eaten anything yet..
and guess what..im back to 22.5 inch..
haha..STUPID!!!!
it was suppose to be 23 people!!!!!!!

okay..let me tell you why it is not so good to be thin..
1. You can hardly find any body hugging clothes
2. You can hardly wear any nice bangles..because your hand is just so thin..
3. i can hardly find some nice clothes..because..my waist line is very small..BUT..i have a huge ass..
4. Alot of people will start forcing you to eat..haha..thats a good thing actually..
5. Eating buffet is such a waste of money..because i dont have a huge stomach..
6. Low bloood pressure..

okay..not enough reasons??? well..i mean thin is okay..BUT..not too thin..
and it is way better if i got a bigger boobies...haha...

gastric day

okay..my FIRST day working in a retail shop---ELLE ( Sunway Pyramid )
well..kinda boring actually..nothing much to do..
you just have to fold clothes and fold clothes..
then stand there..
look at people passing by..
stunned...
then stand there again...
then fold clothes..
oh well..if compare to working in a restaurant..it is WAY easier..SERIOUSLY..
and i get paid..what the hell
and i can wear JEANS..ngek ngek..thats the most important part..

not everything was sunny and dainty though
well..before i went work..and went for breakfast in college with sui ren..
and i order my usual egg ham toast tambah sayur..
and yea..i can barely finish it..no appetite..haiy...
THEN during my lunch break..
i have to bank in money in maybank..and guess what..20 numbers to go and i have only 45 minutes left...and i havent taken my lunch..
oh great..no lunch for me..
and yea..i was STARVING the whole damn day..once i finish my work...
GASTRIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gosh..i can barely walk home yesterday because i was SOOOOOo hungry..
my legs are shaking..yeah..im not joking...haha

when i finally reach home..jervin is not home yet..
HEY!!! im hungry..i NEED FOOD..
when he came home and saw me in a desperate-for-food-look..
he was like..'lin...im so so so sorry..lets go now..'
haha..and yeah..once i get something to eat..im happier..and less moodier..

so the moral of this story is---------
do not skip any meal!!!
and good luck to those puasa-ing people..
i really salute you guys..

Random post

okay..i know..4 posts in a day sounded crazy right?? but i got tonnes to say..so just let me be..let me be...
im in a dilemma..i dont want to repeat the same thing all over again..
i just want to be happy
to feel the warm of love again
i just want the most simple thing in this world..
for people to treat you the way they should..
i dont blame you for being that way
i dont hate you
i dont dislike you
It is just hard for me to adjust myself again
i need time..
i need time to adjust myself..

BBQ Plaza

OKAY...i know i look so 'hiao' here..haha..but it wasnt suppose to appear at the top of my post..but nevermind.
ANYWAY...today...finally our whole apartment people went for a dinner together..HOORAY!!!..we went to BBQ Plaza..and yea...we were having something like a Reunion dinner...After dinner..me and Michelle went for some shopping trip..Jervin and Melvin went to Arcade..Brendan and Boon Keat went back home..sobs..
Anyway..we took quite some pictures..and here are some to share with you guys...

ME..tadaa!!! with my new pair of earrings.im so proud of them..

Me again!!! tadaa...im kissing the lagoon blue duck..looks a bit wrong though..

okies..these are my housemates..Michelle, Jervin and Melvin..they are GREAT..im telling you..just funny and great people to hang out with..love u guys

okay..this is Brendan, me and Boon Ken..Finally see him in my blog right???haha..

Me with three of them..yay!!!

Me and Michele showing off the necklace..it is quite nice though..pricey pricey..i dont have to heart to buy it..sobs...

emoish post again

THIS..is going to be a super duper EMO-ish post..im sorry..but how long since im emo..
Actually the reason why i did not update is also because im TOO emo to post..
im too tired to write..and i really dont know what to write..
OKAY..seriously..here i go

you guys might say that im stupid because im like that..this and that..blah blah blah..but i seriously dont know what the hell is wrong with my brain now..it is not functioning the way it should function..and im hating it for being that way...

IM FREAKING SICK OF LOVE..ME FREAKING HATE LOVE..
IM DONE WITH LOVE...seriously..
its like..im really tired already...
i hate love because it makes me staying awake at night for NOTHING..
making me look like a ghost due to lack of sleep
making my eye bag growing bigger and bigger...
and im freaking pale because of that..
and i lost my appetite...what the hell!!!!!
PLS..im freaking think already..and im not going to loose anymore weight..(erm..sorry la it im a bit too perasan)

okay...I wish i could like stop my mind form thinking about all these shits..
YES..throw away my phone
STOP MY HANDS from touching it
STOP BEING SOFT HEARTED...
STOP THINKING ABOUT UNNESSASRY things...
and YES..let myself be FREED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOD..i need a healer..
NO!!!! i need FREEDOME..
I NEED TO BE FREED FROM LOVE!!!!!
HELP me..save me..cure me

MOVIE day

Sorry for the late update yea people..kind of busy and no mood to blog recently..anyway..as you can see from this picture..THESE are my housemates..from the right top..that me..keke...Melvin..going down...there's Michelle and Jervin..Only four of us went to Yuen steamboat....two more fellows did not follow us..soo..most probably you guys know who..so lazy to mention it here ar..haha...

ITS WEDNESDAY..yea..kinda late to post about that..but anyway..late update..
so its MOVIE DAY..haha..
We went to Yuen from steamboat for our dinner..gosh..i miss that place..
i just miss people rushing for that bbq chicken wings..its like a chicken wing war..
Everyone is like some hungry wolf hunger for wings..
After filling out stomach with damn a lot of food..we went for movie
PENELOPE...
well..its ok ok..nice and romantic..haha..perfect for people like me..
but i had a great camwhoring session with Michelle though..haha..
Here comes nothing...

well...we look soaked wet right???we walk in the rain when we came home..and yeah..there are two topless guys at the back there...

Apologize

okay..im officially not going to bangkok now..

shocker decision..but yeah..it has to be done..cruely..

as you people my know..thailand is having a serious political conflicts and things..

Since last week..three airports were forced to close down..tourist were unable to leave the country..demonstration here and there..and NOW..today!!!!!!!!!! there is a bomb threat...

oh great..just what i need...

my parents were bugging me nonstop..saying that

bangkok this..bangkok that..

told you not safe...dont go..now got bomb..later you kena capture then ul know..

SEE..they are catching chinese people..still want to go..

Every single one in the familly told me not to..my aunt..and my another aunt..my granfather..ish........due to that..i have decided to not go..sobs....sobs....

sad..but..better be safe than ever..

IM SOOOOO SORRY because i cant make it..i really am..but..i really have no choice..i guess my dad would be like grounded me at home..

IM SO SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Little bit of surprise

Well yeah..something weird happened when i was eating my Jap Buffet today..somebody unexpected sms me..i was like 'stunned' for a few seconds..and it actually stop me from eating..it killed my appetite in one way..but im actually happy that he sms me..i dont know why..but i am..yes i know..i need to move on..blah blah blah..BUT STOP there..let me say something first..im glad that he still treats me as his friend..atleast it is better than treating me like shit right??? Well..i must say that..

I did not sms him first...

I did not try and avoid him online anymore..

I try not to think of him anymore..

and yea..im moving on..i think..im not really sure actually..who will know that you can actually move on already??tell me..tell me..

then..when i was walking in Gardens..i recalled quite some memories of us there..well..we went there together after it was opened..it was a first timer for both of us..and yea..alot of things..STOP..i shouldnt be thinking about it right??so STOP...

and then here comes Gen..the Jap Buffet..yeah..we went there also..Damn it..haha..it was our dont know which month's anniversarry..hmm..STOP..no more thinking about that..haha

yea..thats why it killed my appetite to eat when i recieve his sms..but hey..i have to say that my mood was kind of down the whole day..feeling sleepish all the time..after that..i was a little bit cheered up..haha..and a bit more hyper to take pictures..i dont know what to say..but yes..it is weird..

Well..not that im not trying to move on..i AM people..but it is weird that i dont have that 'trill' when i sms with other people..the 'trill'..you will feel excited waiting for his sms..checking the sent box and see when you replied him..ul reply him straight away after you recieved his sms..yea..thats the 'trill'..i dont feel it..

maybe im not ready for another relationship yet..

or maybe i still have not fully move on..

i wonder why...

Time will tell me why..i hope

and honestly..i dont want to hurt anyone..

National Day 2008

National Day 2008

Nothing special..booooring..well...i woke up like 10.30am..so my mum was scolding me for waking up late..nag nag nag and nag..nag until i got no mood to finish my tosai already..blah..my mood was damn bad already..shit..then i got nothing better to do..read newspaper..walk here and walk there..then here goes my mum AGAIN..

'wah..she is like a boss at home..no need to do anything..wake up late..eat also late..'

hey..its not like i got anything to do..i dont like to work outdoor..its HOT..haha..sorry for being a puteri lilin..but i already have three brothers out there..what should i do then..then my mum..arranging something..it is not like it needed two person to do so..haiz..BORED!!!so i just walk around..wandering around until lunch..im still full..so im not feeling like eating..and here goes my MUM AGAIN!!!!

'dont want to eat la now..later dont buy anything to eat in KL ar..'

haiz..stop nagging me an or not..then my aunt called and said that they are coming now..i did not know anything..so..i rush to the toilet and took my bath ..we are going for Japanese Buffet at Legend Hotel for our dinner..yeah!!!! BUFFET..that is what i need!!!

so here we go..we went to midvalley first..my mum wanna buy some spice or something from coldstorage..WAH!!!!! DAMN ALOT OF PEOPLE!!!! its like crazy wei..thats why i dont like public holidays..the mall would be like flooded with people everywhere..then il be dizzy because there are just too many people..luckily the Gardens was not that crowded..thankgod..peace at last..

hey..the highlight was not Gardens actually..it was our buffet dinner..haha..i cnt upload the pictures yet..but soon..anyway..we were given a private room because of the big crowd!!! hey!! we got a tatami seat..muakaka..with a balcony..haha..it was just so cool..and then..the buffet was great as usual..i manage to eat some snail sashimi this time..it was DELICIOUS..haha..they have these fresh oysters, crab, prawns, squib..sashimi-s ( very fresh..especially the salmon)...sushi-s..tempura counter, tepanyaki counter, soba counter, sukiyaki counter..and alot of those cooked jap food..

IT WAS GREAT!!! nyum nyum..

BUT!!! they dont have green tea ice cream today..that was a great dissapointement..

I WANT GREEN TEA ICE CREAM!!!!

it killed my mood for any other desserts..but it was alright..im full already..

anyway..il upload the pictures another day..and yea..that's my Merdeka celebration..

JAPANESE buffet..