Past and Future

Two months ago

I left everything at Mentari behind and went to Kuantan

I left my emo-ness

I left my tears

and I left my past

Two months later

I came back to Mentari and left everything in Kuantan with a big smile

I came back with all the memories

I came back with my smile

and I came back with a future

It was not easy picking up the things that I had once left behind

I know it will be hard for me because everything had changed

Looking at my room that I had stayed for more than one year

Looking at the memories I left behind

Looking at the words that were written after I left

Looking at the pictures

Looking at the rings

Looking at this very person who is such a stranger to me now

I cried

What have I done to him for him to change so much?

I had moved on..moved on real fast..

and I am happier than ever because I found someone who can make me smile even with a simple text

I am happy now..very happy

but I felt guilty for the damages that I had done..i really do..

Words that were written down instead of opened up were not suppose to be seen

It was suppose to be a tool to express my thoughts..to ease my pain

It was me being childish..

I should have told you in the past

What that had happened..already did..

I just pray that you will find the right one who will make you happy

I spent two hours cleaning and clearing my room quietly

Clearing away all my past and get myself ready for the future

Everything that will happen in the future remain untold

Live the best out of it with no regrets..

I am glad to have found you in the dark

For you who lead me to the light and bring back some laughters in my life

For you who mend my heart slowly and bring it to a whole

Because of you, I have found my new heart

Because of you, I found love again

I love you