Thankyou Dong

Time passed by like rocket
It has been two years since I first saw you in college..
Ever since the first time I met you, I started to live under your protection and guidance without knowing.
I still remember I asked you what should I bring to KL when I first message you..

I was all alone when I came to KL..
You are the only one that I know in this strange and cold town..
You are the one who opens up my heart in college..

Every time I see you in college, I felt the sadness and loneliness in your eyes..
So I started to approached you..
Then I found out that you went through a hard time in your previous relationship..
As for me..I was going through the same thing at that time also..

Things changed..Tables were turned..Feelings started to get stronger day by day..
I started to open my heart to you..
That is when we started..when our journey started..

I knew how much you had sacrifice for me when I was staying at Ridzuan..
I knew you have to come all the way from Kelana Jaya just to see me..
I knew the hardship you went through during your training just to make sure I will be fine..
I knew all that..

You are very mature in your thinking...
As for me..I am still very childish in a relationship..
This is my one and only serious relationship I had so far..( Please don't assume I had alot..I only have one relationship before you )
There are things that I have to learn..
There are things that I am still unsure about myself..

You taught me how a relationship should work..
You taught me how to handle my emotions..
You taught me how important is 'trust' in a relationship..

You taught me all that..
But I am too naive..and I had forgotten about it in our relationship..

And now I remember..but it was too late..

I want to thank you for guiding me all this while..without you..I might have lost myself in KL
I want to thank you for being patience with my emotional swings..
I want to thank you for being there when I am down and stress..
I want to thank you for taking care of me when I am sick..
I want to thank you for everything that you gave me throughout the whole relationship
I want to thank you for helping me all this while..

I am sorry for making you angry all the time..
I am sorry for irritating you with my stupidity..
I am sorry for not trusting you..
I am sorry for being emotional all the time..
I am sorry for hurting you all this while..
I am sorry for not able to make you happy any more..

Thank you for taking care of me all this while..
I will take care of myself from now on..
I will learn to live without your protection..

I am wishing you all the best in everything that you do..
I just hope that you will be happy all the time..
I wish that you can find that special someone that loves you with all her heart..

I will still be there if you need me..
I will always be there..
Because I still love you..
but this time..as a friend..

Good old times

The time that I miss..

The time when there are no worries..

The time when we are still innocent..

The time when you just want to have a great time in school..

I want to say something to some of my friends..haha

Eunice..I think you look sexier with long hair..

Dolores..you look better now with contacts and new specs ( i think )..

Kar Woon..you always look so girlie...ofcourse you are prettier now..

Wai Mae..I seriously think that you look so much more prettier..

Joo ee..with you new curled and coloured hair..ofcourse you look new..but you have always been pretty..

Steph..you did not change much because you are always that pretty and hot..haha

Pui Foong..you are cuter now..haha..dun be perasan though..haha..

as for me..i think i change ALOT lo..haha..tell me yourself..haha..

everyone looks oily because it is the END of our enrolment..DAMN tired..but So statisfied..haha
HoA!!!! the dance..haha...im so proud of myself..but this is the dance that makes some people thinks that im a slut..haha..
The line look so staright huh!!! Im the first from right..why the music is not starting???haha..

Cultural Day where we suppose to wear TRADITIONAL costume..I ended up wearing Kimono which makes everyone staring at me..im form japan u see..hhaha,,

tree...tree..i LOVE this picture..haaha..and i have no idea why..

haha..I dont smile like that anymore..because it makes my eyes look so damn small..

I LOVE THIS PICTURE..im in the first row though..on the right..the first one with red shirt..

GAH!!!! girls..me miss you alll so much..thanks for being there everytime i need you all..though I dont see you all all the time..but in my heart..you guys are always there..and i love you all SO MUCH...hahaha...

Innocence can be gone in a minute..

Maturity creeps in..

Is it a must to have that someone..

What is the rush my dear?

Take some time to think carefully before you get hurt again..

Anyway..I just want you to be happy..

I might be ignorant..

I might look like I give a damn..

But inside i still care..

If you ever need me..Il be there..

For now..I WANT REDANG AND MOS

and LOTSA LOTSA MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha

PINK IPOD!!!!!!!

My new baby!!!!! muahahahahha..Im so happy...BUT!!! BUT!!!! I dont have that many songs..gonna go for song hunting now..

Alright...ermm..I saw Alex yesterday..yes yes..after two long years..but the problem is..ME!!!! me..I had a really bad time in French oral on that morning..I got the worst lecturer of all..OH MON DIEU!!!! sigh..I felt so insulted..I felt so scare..I felt like crying inside..URGHHH..so my mood was like DAMN freaking down after i finish my turn..SERIOUSLY..i was really down...I was stonning the whole damn day..Sad..

So when Alex and Kent came..I thought Il be like..WAH!!! damn happy...hug him and stuffs..but instead i was a little pissed because I waited them for three hours..I brought them around college..then went to Pyramid for lunch..walk around...He did not really change lo..I mean..seriouslly..He did not really change since two years before..As for me..i know I changed alot inside...I was really down the whole day because of French..I got a bad headache..im freaking tired...sighx..really a bad time..but im glad to see him after so long lo...Anyhow..he is still somebody important to me..just that..for me now..being in a relationship is no longer a great DEAL to me..the most important thing is how you enjoy your life to the fullest now..and with no regrets..be happy!!! When he left..we hugged each other ofcourse..I can feel that he doesnt really want to leave..but..what to do..I just left the KTM without looking bad...I was just too tired..seriously..and I can't feel anything at that time..

THENNNNNNNNNNNN....you know what made me happy????? my ipod..muahahahha..the whole turning point of my whole day..ahahahahha..pink one pink one...kekekekeekekek..SUPER happy!!!!!! sooo...people..the moral of this story is..stress will cause a serious emotional swing for people like me..what you need is something PINK to make you happy...and ALOT of sleep..i slept alot...call me PIG

OH MON DIEU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This whole week was crazy enough for me..yesterday i was really freaking out..I freak out like hell when I am studying french..hui and reagan should know..i feel like texxting everyone..I feel like calling everyone..i feel like sitting on the floor..I feel like hitting something..I feel like shouting..I made some funny voice..I couldnt even speak english properly...im just all over the place..even ting ting also cannot tahan me..

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY FREAKED OUT AR THIS TIME!!!!!!!!!!!! Never in my life im like that le...OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JE DETESTE LA FRANCAIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Je ne parle pas de francais...OH MON DIEU!!!!!!!

shit la..why everything have to hit on me so hard..sigh..I think too much la..really..i just want to be happy now..I dont want to talk about it anymore..so dont ask me...if u see me sad or worried..thats because of exam now..serious shit..or im not in the mood..not because of him anymore..If u want to make me cry..then you can ask me about him..

Because now..i seriously dont want to care about anything anymore..You can say im trying to avoid..you can say im just pretending..but whatever it is..Im trying to move on..Im trying to make myself not to think of anything..so dont ask me about it..I really dont feel like talking about it anymore..whatever happens will happen anyhow..lets just walk with our faith..and now im worried about my results next saturday...

Worst comes to worst..il stop studying and start to work..Thats the worst choice..

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

25 facts about me

1. I am short. 

2. I have eye bags now because did not sleep properly due to some personal problems..^^

3. I can't wait to go Redang..Anyone can sponsor me bikini??

4. I want to have lotsa loves painting on my hand..

5. Zhi Lin is a blur sotong..

6. I call myself baby princess infront of someone..perasan ke? tak la..

7. I wish my hair is longer so I can have big waves..sexy wei..

8. I don't want to have a flower horn forehead..

9. I need a new phone..

10. Can I have more publicity?

11. My bed is curved in..I need a new bed

12. I love my little bear..

13. God bless DH27 for our results on next sat..

14. Restaurant Tech is crap

15. Yesterday I dream of taking exam..singing Karaoke and got suck into Slumdog Millionaire movie set.

16. I need more clothes..

17. I LOVE pink color and LOVE shape..

18. Though i like pink..but i like to wear black..sexier..

19. I wish I am taller so i can see further..

20. I want to be smarter and more alert so I won't get hurt easily.

21. Me want to eat lotsa sushi!! I miss sushi

22. Can I celebrate my birthday in Bubba Gump too? but I dont want to shake my booty on the chair.

23. I want to watch sunset with you. Don't forget you have to dunk my head into the water..but tell me before hand so I can get ready..haha..

24. Wayne!!! stop bullying me.

25. I confessed in a video..thanks to Wayne and his BRILLIANT phone..ish..please refer to my facebook to see the video..haha

Camwhoring while too bored..

Trying to study at home..but ended up camwhoring because Im too emo

I am really tired..

This is how big my eyes can be..no contact lenses..

My specs..

Camwhoring in the bus while going back to Seremban..

Looking at the crowd outside..felt terribly lonely..

In the beef noodle shop..I must take a picture..

The broth with beef balls and other things..

The Beef Noodle..im hungry now..

The shop..

Sick of me?? I am too..sobs..

Tiring weeked

Actually I got tonnes to share about this week...and tonnes of pictures..i was too bored you see..but I shall upload the pictures soon..because all the pictures also got story to tell..

Well..a little update during the weekend..okay..BM oral was quite intimidating..seriously..Once i reached college, everyone was like so tensed up..busy getting make up..and practicing..i was like..hey..I just woke up..apa hal?? haha..I heard that Mr Adrian screwd everyone before this and everyone was so scare..okay..luckily I did not get him..haha..my oral was ok ok..forgotten many many words..but..still manage to speak in BM..haha

Then I went back to Seremban..alone..YES..alone..then at that time..I felt so miserable..why am I alone..FINE..I am going to treat myself with some nice food..then I went to the famous beef noodle Near Pasar Seni..and I ate alone..it did not help though..because I am still alone..ISH..but the food was nice..then I took the bus..once again i must emphasize..ALONE..ish ish..felt so horrible..nevermind..

Saturday morning I have to wake up damn early to go and clean my grandparents graves..i was like dreaming when I went into the car..haha..the only thing that I want to do is sleep..ishish..Afer breakfast..I straight went and sleep..

Sunday morning..i have to wake up DAMN early again to go and clean my mother's side grandmother's graves..GOSH..i really feel like killing myself because I was soooo freaking tired..like really really tired..

and now..I felt like sleeping while typing this..because I am really really exhausted..ish..Il update really really soon..with all the stupid pictures i took..haha..ciao

Immortal by Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here 
Suppressed by all my childish fears 
And if you have to leave 
I wish that you would just leave 
'Cause your presence still lingers here 
And it won't leave me alone 

These wounds won't seem to heal 
This pain is just too real 
There's just too much that time cannot erase 

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears 
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears 
And I held your hand through all of these years 
But you still have 
All of me 

You used to captivate me 
By your resonating life 
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind 
Your face it haunts 
My once pleasant dreams 
Your voice it chased away 
All the sanity in me 

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone 
But though you're still with me 
I've been alone all along 

Saw this song lyrics's in Chia Chi's blog..and it totally fits my situation right now..guess we are the same kind of people yea girl..Be strong..we can do it!!!

Web Cammie Session

Found something fun to play with..I din't realize that my webcam is that canggih..I din't know can take video and take pictures..maybe I am noob with my laptop thats why i didn't know..haha..So now bear with my non profesional photo taking skills which requires me to click on my mouse only.haha...'ENJOY'

Lame??? Maybe I am..I am too hungry to do anything so taking picture is something that im craving on..haha..I should be studying..but here I am..blogging..A few posts everyday..haha..IM GOOD!!!!!

Teardrops on my guitar

Teardrops On My Guitar lyrics

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

The Old Personality Test

Actually I did this long long time ago..but since someone asked me to do...mai as well just do..so guys..tell me whether it is true ornt???haha

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Sucky start

Yesterday night..I barely slept and I still can watch Hell's Kitchen despite today is my trials..HoA!! How smart right..Barely slept because of no reason..Nevermind..I nearly overslept though..because of the alarm..I am so not use to nokia la!!!! If I have my w660i..It will snooze until I wake up lo..but Nokia don't have that..If I off and slept back then I really GG lo..right??

Fine..Went to College..Ready for exam..i mean not really ready for exam..but ready to go in..and guess what!!!! The lecturer said that my attire is unappropriate..It is true that my black pants is jean material..but HEY..no one ever said that it is not formal wor..because it is BLACK!!! fine fine..I was forced to go to the exam center and proudly announce that I am not properly attired..@#&*(*

I ran la..I am late for the exam for godness sake..and the stupid lift have to stop me..the door just won't close and do down..i damn fruss you know..I have to press another level only that fella go down..NEVERMIND..it stop in every single floor though no one press the lift...#$(*)(*)#(% I really cursed in the lift because I am LATE!!!!! ish ish...

Fine..They will issue a warning letter for me because of my pants..BABI BETUL!!!! Whatever la..Tomorrow il be super formal happy???

Management Paper sucks..I can't balance the P&L because it was negative..I doubt myself la..actually it is correct i think..damn dumb..nevermind..haha..

Sighx..I am so sleepy right now..I think i need to go and sleep already..good night people though it is 3pm..haha

Phone gone

I LOST MY PHONE!!!!!!

@(#&(*#$&#()*$()#$

Yes..I dropped my phone in the cab while going home..and I didn't realize it until I reach home..and finds that why my pants are so light..haha..

I still can laugh right..why ar...actually I don't feel the pain until I need to save all my numbers again..@*#&@)#(*@($*#_#(..

Do you know..I really don't know how to use a Nokia phone..I wanedt to save someone's number..in the end..I ended up deleting that number..@#(*)(#@*@*#

And my god..I am SOOO sleepy..I did not sleep well for so many days already due to alot of problems..barely studied because I am too sleepy to..but in the end i did not sleep also because i CANT!!!! mother father...haha..

Oh well..I manage to get back my number without paying anything..which is a good sign i think..am I am using Michelle's spare phone until I get my new one..i want an IPHONE!!!!! save money save money..haha

Oh..this morning's weather is SOOOO good..It was raining..and I slept for SOOOO long..thankgod I get my sleep back before tomorrow

s trials..talking about TRIALS!!! OMG..I AM SO SCARE..I better get back to my studies now..ciao people..

Double Bday

What I did on Saturday Night

Happy Birthday dear Joo Ee and Wendy..

love you both..muakxx...and EUNICE...thanks for opening facebook..haha..all of us really do missed you..and we talked about you in the gathering..wish you were here..sobs..anyway..love you still..

Releasing stress process

As i said before..I need to destress and I want to getaway and have my own fun after tonnes of things happened to me in these few days..So..in the process of destressing and releasing myself from all those unwanted sadness..Me decided to go sing K after the 9-12 upselling class..

The class was..ermm..what I can say is Ms Jasmine is not happy..but anyway..I saw him sitting outside lemongrass today alone..and he looks really tired and pale..at that moment..my heart really aches..because I don't want to see him this way..I want him to be happy..After the class, I text him..I ask him to not be so stressed and be more happy..What actually happen was he din't eat the night we broke up..So he almost fainted in practical class because of low blood pressure..He went and see doctor and went back straight to Seremban..

Well..we did manage to talk nicely in sms..which is weird..because why things can be normal after the break up..but anyhow..I still cares for him and I won't just let him drown into his stress misery...In my side..I already made up my mind..this will be the last time..no more turning back..guess friends are better for both of us..

Back to the happy side..haha..YES..me pergi sing K with Hui, Dai Lou, Sunny, Ryan,Wayne and Ivan..muahaha..its nice la..but not enough!!!!! NOT ENOUGH..when you go for karaoke session right..you HAVE to sing until you lost your voice..then only shiok la..haha..After that..all of us don't feel like going home..I mean..what to do at home..il be alone..then MOST probably il get emo and stuffs..then suddenly Dai Lou say wanna go to Genting..im like...'OKAY!!!!' haha.. After a round of LONG LONG LONG discussiong in pyramid outside Adidas Originals..we finally decided to go home and see how it goes..haha

Me went to Jason's house to get my dresses from Dolores..and I met Eva and Izzy..OMG!!! they are so cute!!! Forgotten to take pictures!! SOBS..but they are just so CUTE!!!!! haha

AND..our genting plan is finally ON after Hui confirming that she is going..haha..Guess what time we left to Genting?? 10PM!!!! yes..at night...HOA!!!! I never did that before..Before I continue..I must say..

NEVER EVER DRINK YAKULT WHEN YOU ARE HUNGRY!!! IT WILL MAKE YOUR STOMACH PAIN LIKE HELL!!!!

Some little life experience that I want to share with you guys..haha..YES.. we took off to genting around 10 and reached there around 11PM..OMG!!! I felt like puking because of Dai Lou's driving..haha..sorry..but I really felt damn dizzy...

We suppose to study there..but we ended wandering around camwhoring the whole night..I was too dizzy to study anyway..haha..

Seriously..I had so much of fun at Genting despite the fact that I had so much of memories with him there..but whatever..atleast I had a little getaway yesterday night..I reached home around 4am though..haha..can't really sleep..but manage to wake up at 10.30am and start uploading the pictures and blog..anyway..I got to rush back to Seremban in a moment..so let's wrap up this post with some lovely pictures..muahaha..

Posing at starbucks

aww..the wind makes us pose like supermodels..haha

we couldn't resist posing with the BERHENTI sign..

me neither..

We are posers..

and this is a fairly normal picture of us..

Hui with Dai Lou

Sunny who is wearing the same colour shirt as the pillar..

Me and Hui in Red Box

Me and the guys

OKIES!!! im off to pack my stuffs and heading back to Seremban..love you guys..

Happy

Today moi very happy..happy happy..haha..HAPPY!!!!!!

First of all..I said yesterday that someone is coming to our college right??haha..Then fine..I wasn't planning to go for the 9am class since i slept quite late last night..Then Michelle sms me around 9.48am..

'I just saw Max in college dear and he is just sitting infront of me.'

'Where is he?'

'Mamak dear ^^'

'OH!!! I am going to wake up and get ready now!!! ^^'

Yes..I rush to the toilet and get myself freshen up and ran to college..

I told him..stay put there..don't go anyway..haha..and moi saw him at mamak..happy happy happy..haha..still the old max..nothing different..and he welcomes me back to elcerdo to do spring cleaning..what??? haha..ofcourse he is just joking..

The talk was kind of boring..but I still feel happy because I saw him..nanananananana..haha..im so happy..you can see my face brighten up the whole day..Everyone ask me not to be so hao..who cares..i like to see him ar..can not ar??haha

After that..i went for badminton with the guys le..what the hell..me..yeaw zhi lin..sudah lama tak bersenam pergi main badminton??? hahaha..well..watermelon told me..

'Just imagine you are hitting your enemy..hit as hard as you can..there is no friends in the court..'

Hoa..my spirit straight went up because i thought of someone and got really mad..but anyway..my muscles are cramming now..pain pain..and im going out to pasar malam later because watermelon on going..then we will study..i hope that we really can study..if not..I won't go out at night anymore lo..ahaha..

You still treat me like shit..but me being the soft hearted one still cares for you..but this time..i will have my own fun..and I will make myself happy..I am no longer the one who will depend on you to make myself happy..Your cold eyes made me this way..so don't blame me for not being there..

Oh oh..I am still happy though..really happy..tonight i can really sleep like a baby..muahahaha..

One bad two good

Despite the little unhappiness today...there are two things that lighten up my day..ahaha..Tomorrow will be a happy day..WHY??? Because someone is coming!!!! muahaha..

Today in Mr Alex class, DH 29 come in and promote their exhibition and talk..I was really not interested with it..because it will be some boring talk again..then the guy said..

'and Max, an ex taylorian students will be coming to give the talk.'

My day lighten up by instant!!! haha..im freaking happy alright..and my classmates certainly knows why..haha..they keep saying Ah Lin's bf coming la..me sure go..HEY!!!! YES..i admit that i do have a serious crush on him..but not that kind of crush alright..^^.He is like a role model to me..a motivator..haha..ofcourse I am happy to see him..

and HERE!!!! this is his GF alright..haha..the wine sommelier..

I forced them to take picture with me though..ahahha..that was during my training..which was long long time ago..keke..so please don't misunderstand me alright..haha

Another great news..haha..Someone is finally coming over to KL and study..and I am seriously excited!!!!! i really do hope that he will come to Taylors and study though..haha..It has been two years since i saw him..bloody long wei..miss him..sobs..haha..just pray that his parents will allow him to come over to taylors and study..Come Come!!!! hehe..If everything goes well..He will coming in a month time!!! ONE MONTH!!!! OMG!!! I can't wait..GOD...please let him come over to KL..haha..

Tuesday

Please bear with my my dear friends and readers if there is any, I don't know where to express my feelings but here..

You want to know what is pain?

Ask me, because I am the expert in taking the pain.

You want to know what is the pain of ignorance?

You want to know what is the pain of stupidity?

You want to know what is the pain of being too soft hearted?

You want to know what is the pain of being too good?

Ask me, because I am the expert.

I know that I can't be sad all the time..

Therefore, I close myself in my room and listen to music..

Find a few friends to chat with and cheer myself up..

I am sad today, but I acted like im super happy..

I am not acting..but I am really happy in college..

I dance..I sing..I bugged wayne with my childish little songs, molested him (^^)

and I talk alot..

That is when I totally never thought of him..and for once..really happy..

Want to know what is heart broke?

Look into my heart and you will see why..

I am stress..like super stress

My expectations are sky high..

But my performance are not up to the bar..

I am scare..really scare..

Who will understand how I felt?

Who will?

Despite all that, I finally found my guests for my finals..

My parents are willing to take leave to come for my service..

My dad said..for my sake and moral support..

GOD..I never sms my dad before this..until today..

How sweet...

Atleast I don't have to worry about no guest on that day..

And I finally made a decision to go to Redang...

I cant wait to sit by the beach and feel the sea breeze..

I want to see sun set and sun rise..

I want a shoulder to lean on ( you know who you are..muahaha..die la you )

and I want a pillow to lie on ( haha..die again..two days only..no worries )

Hopefully I wont be like what Hui said..drink until become too emo..

Walk to the beach and jump into the sea during mudnight..haha

Redang!!! im waiting for you!!!

It should be an emo post..but what the hell..

The bee and butterfly story

Looks can be deceiving..Looks can be telling lies..
Underneath those eyeliners, foundation and mascara..
Underneath those fancy dresses..
Do you still love me for who I am?
The oh-just-so-natural me?

People are born to have a shield to protect themselves..
So we tell lies to protect ourselves..
We act to prevent ourselves from being hurt..
But when that person, who you think you can trust came by..
All those lies started fade away..
Because you started trust this person..
Because you trust that he can make you feel secure..
That he can be the one who built that protection shield for you..
And you started to open your heart for him..

At that time..
He will built a castle for you..
He will catch the stars for you..
He will ride high and low for you..
He will do anything just to win your maiden heart..

When time goes by..
Things will change..The tables are turn..
You started to give him all your heart..
Treat him with all your heart so he can feel your love..

But he no longer remember the oh-so-natural-you..
He no longer knows how to appreciate you..
He no longer knows how to take care of you..

In his eyes..the outside world are more colourful and exciting
In his eyes..other butterflies are prettier
In his eyes..you are no longer THE butterfly

But in your eyes..he is the world to you
In your eyes..other bees are just like flies
In your eyes..you just want to meet his eyes

When feelings started to fade away
When the sky is no longer sunny but cloudy
When the smile in your face is no longer there
What should this girl do?

Set him free because he is happier outside?
Or set herself free because she deserves a better bee?

Will he ever turn back and look at his little butterfly?
Will he ever realize that this little butterfly had went through so many flowers to catch his heart?
Will he ever realize that his little butterfly might fly away?
Will he ever realize that his little butterfly might be tired?

Looks can be deceiving..
Other butterflies might look pretty and flies gracefully..
But the oh-so-natural-butterfly is the one that went through high and low with you..
She is the one that truly loves you with all her heart..

Remember that my little bee..
Remember that before your little butterfly flies away..

To Marley

Today..I cried..yes..I cried two times..

Because of Marley..DAMN..he is just so cute..

Even wonder why such a simple and straightforward movie will make me teared so many times in the cinema??

It is just a simple story of a couple building up a family and how a dog affects their life...

I don't really know how to explain this..and I don't really why i cried..just watch the movie and you will feel magic..

For Marley..my tears are not wasted..

I need some space now..I need some time..and I need some love..