叮铃！门上的铃当响了起来，一个三十多岁，穿著笔挺西服的男人，走进了这家飘散着浓浓咖啡香的小小咖啡厅。
“午安！欢迎光临！”年轻的老板娘亲切地招呼着。
男人一面客气地微微点了点头，一面走到吧台前的位子坐了下来，开口对老板娘说：
“麻烦给我一杯摩卡，谢谢。”
“好的，请稍候。”老板娘微笑着说。
接着她便开始熟练地磨碎咖啡豆，煮起咖啡来。男人一直带着笑容看着老板娘煮咖啡的动作，一副很享受的样子。
过了没多久，老板娘便将一杯香醇的咖啡端到男人的面前。“请慢用！”
“谢谢。”男人将杯子拿到嘴边，浅浅地尝了一口。
“第一次来吗？”老板娘问。
“是啊！”男人答。
“觉得我们这家店怎么样？”
“很不错！气氛很好！”
“我自己也是很喜欢，所以虽然生意不好，我和我先生却还是舍不得把它关掉。”
“嗯……”男人好像有所同感地点了点头，又喝了一口咖啡。
两人沉默了一会，一时间空荡的店里只有悠扬爵士音乐。男人忽然开口，打破了这短暂的宁静。
“呃……不好意思，可以请教你一个问题吗？”
“什么问题呢？”老板娘好奇地问。
“嗯…这…这该怎么说好呢？”男人抓着头，一副不知所措的样子。“或者你可以先听我说个故事吗？”
老板娘点了点头，示意男人继续说下去。
“我以前有个很要好的女朋友，已经到了要论及婚嫁的地步。我和她之间的感情发展得相当平凡，并不是什么经过大风大浪、轰轰烈烈般的爱情。但我想从我第一眼看到她的时候，就彷佛有一股魔力，有一个声音，在推动着我，告诉着我，就是她了！她就是我一直期待着的女孩。更令我高兴的是她也响应了我的示爱，接受了我。这一切的顺利让我整个人陶醉于幸褔的喜悦之中，只不过……”
“只不过，发生了什么事了吗？”老板娘显然给故事吸引住了，她打断了男人的话。
“嗯……”男人脸色沉了下来，略微停顿了一下，继续说下去。
“只不过我忘了幸褔的背后，往往藏匿着最可怕的恶魔。就在我们订婚前一个月的一个晚上，她……她遭到了歹徒的强暴”“啊！”老板娘惊讶地啊的一声叫了出来“都怪我！要是我那天坚持送她回去就好了！”男人用力地捶打着桌面，杯子中的咖啡因剧烈震动的关系洒了出来。
“你要问我的该不会就是这个吧！”老板娘一面擦拭着洒出来的咖啡一面说。
“不！不是的！我对她的感情不会因为这样而有所动摇，我决定仍旧如期订婚，可惜就在我们订婚的那一天，她……上吊自杀了！”男人的语调异常平缓，从他的表情上看得出，当时的他是多么的难过与震惊。
“自杀！那她有没有怎么样？”老板娘为突转而下的剧情睁大了眼睛，紧张地看着男人。
“幸运的是我们发现得早，送到医院时还有气，只是脑部因为长时间缺氧，呈现昏迷状态，当时医生说她一度有成为植物人的危险。”
老板娘松下一口气，“那她后来有醒过来吗？”
“有的，她醒了！”
“但……但当我得知她醒了的消息，高兴地要去看她时，却被她父母给拦在门外。”
“为什么？她父母为什么不让你去看她？”
“她父母跪在地上求我，原来她失去了记忆，失去了认识我以后的记忆，医生说这是选择性失忆症，当人在遭遇极大的打击时，会逃避性地藏起一些记忆。她父母求我暂时不要再出现在她面前，他们认为让她就这样忘了之前的一切对她比较好，怕我要是去见她或许会让她回想起来，到时她可能又会陷入昏迷，甚至又跑去自杀。”
“她父母这么说也是有道理，反正只是暂时嘛！等她情绪和身体都稳定了，你就又可以见她啦！”老板娘听了男人的话后这样说着。
男人勉力挤出一丝笑意，样子无限苍凉，“你知道他们的暂时指的是多久吗？是十年啊！也就是这十年里我得要忍受这样没有她的日子，就算偶尔在路上碰面，也得要装作陌生人一般地和她擦肩而过。”男人快要咆哮起来似的，“你知道这样的日子有多难熬，这样想爱却又不能爱的心情有多痛苦！”
“虽然会很痛苦，但你还是选择了这条路吧！”老板娘看着男人的眼神变得非常温柔。
老板娘的眼神让男人冷静了下来，点头说：“嗯！到今天就满十年了！”
“哦！真的吗！？那真是恭喜了，你努力撑了十年，到今天终于可以去见她了！”老板娘开心地说。
“是这样没错！但是愈到这一天，我反倒愈害怕。十年了，我的心意是没有改变，但是她呢？如果我跟她说了以前的事，她还是想不起我那怎样办？或者是她已经有男朋友，甚至于结婚了呢？”
“这才是我想请教你的问题！”男人似乎略带紧张的看着眼前年轻的女店主，静静地等待着她的答复。
“嗯……”老板娘用手托着头，脸色凝重地想着男人所提的问题。
“我想既然你这么爱那个女孩，她记不记得你其实并不重要，最多是重新开始而已，再重新追求她一次，再重新谈一次恋爱，其实也很不错吧！！而且就算有男朋友了也没关系啊！把她从他手中抢过来不就行了！”老板娘笑着说。
“但是！”她忽然将表情严肃了起来，“但是如果她已经结婚了的话，那你就放弃吧！我们结了婚的人啊！是最痛恨有人破坏人家家庭的了！”
“是吗？”男人低着头冷寞地说。
“没错！所以你可千万别做个破坏别人家庭的人哦！”
叮铃！挂在门上铃铛又响了起来，走进来几个刚下课的大学生，老板娘走出吧台，忙着招呼这几位新来的客人。
“对了！”老板娘好象忽然想到了什么，转过头来看着男人。
“你为什么会想问我这些啊！我和你不过是第一次见面而已啊！”她好奇地问。
“嗯……为什么呢……大概是因为那个女孩曾说过，结婚以后要和我一起开一家像这样的咖啡厅吧！”
“哦！原来是这样子啊！”老板娘说。
“嗯！只是这样而已！只是这样而已！只是这样而已！只是……”男人不停地重复着同样一句话，好像借此告诉自己什么似的。
爵士乐停了下来，整个屋子里只听得大学生清脆的谈笑声。男人低着头偷偷地瞄着老板娘手上的结婚戒指，一滴温暖的眼泪，悄悄地滑进了那杯早已冷却的咖啡里。
Ding Dong! When the door bell rang, A main wearing a suit in his 30's walked into this little coffee lounge which has a wonderful coffee fragrant.
"Good afternoon! Welcome!" The young proprietress greeted warmly.
He nodded his head politely, went to the bar and sat down, said to the lady
"Can I have a cup of mocha, thanks."
"Yes, please wait." she said, smiling.
Then she began to brew the coffee like how she used to. He looked at her gestures and smiled
Not long after, she brought the freshly brewed coffee to him . "Enjoy your coffee"
"Thank you." He then bring the cup towards his mouth, lightly sipped the coffee.
"Is it your first time here?" The owner asked.
"Yes!" Answered the man.
"What do you think about our shop? "
"Very good! Atmosphere is excellent!"
"I am also very fond of it, so even though our business was not that good, my husband and I are still reluctant to close it down."
"Ah ... ..." He seems to understood what she said, and took another sip of the coffee.
Both of them kept quiet for a moment and there is only a relaxing jazz music playing at the background. He suddenly broke the silent and asked her
"Well ... uh ... sorry, can ask you a question?"
"What question? "The owner asked curiously.
"Ah ... this ... how should I put it into words? " He scratches his head, with a confused look. "Or you can listen to my story?"
She nodded, indicating him to go on.
"I used to have a very good girlfriend, we even reach to the point where we are talking about marriage. Our relationship is very simple, no dramas nor dynamic type of love. But I think from the very first time I saw her, as if it was magic and, a voice inside me keep telling me that its her! She is the girl I have been looking for. I am even more pleased that she responded to my love, accepted me.But ... ... "
"But?? What happened?" She is clearly attracted to the story, and she interrupted the man's words.
"Ah ... ..." His face sunk down a little, and continued his story.
"But I had forgotten that behind each happiness, it carries the scariest demon of all.Just a month before our engagement night, she ... ... she had been raped "
"Ah!" The owner was surprised
"It is all my fault! if I insist that I want to sent her home, this will not happen!" He slammed the table, and the coffee spilled from the cup.
"Is this the question that you wanted to ask me?" She clean the spilled coffee and asked
"No! No! My feelings for her will not change because of this,I have decided to continue with our engagement but unfortunately on the day of our engagement, she ... ... hanged himself!" From the look from his face, she can imagine how sorrowful and shocked he was at that time.
"Suicide! Then what happen to her? "She curiously asked that guy and wanted to know the story.
"Fortunately we found her earlier, she was still breathing when we sent her to the hospital. But because of lack of oxygen in her brains, she was in a coma state and the doctor said she might be like this forever."
She was relieved when she heard that " Then did she wake up after that? "
"Yes, she woke up!"
"But ... ... but when I heard the news and was happily going to see her, her parents did not allowed me from doing that. "
"Why? Why they don't let you see her?"
"Her parents knelt down and begged me, saying that she had lost the memory from the day she knew me and this is called selective amnesia, when a person suffered from a horrible incident. she will choose to hide some part of her memories deep down inside. Her parents begged me to not appear in front of her temporary because they think that if she can forget about her past, it would be better for her. They are afraid if I see her now, she might remember about that horrible incident and may fall back into coma, or worst, suicide again. "
" Well, what they said was quite reasonable, it is just temporary right? You just have to wait for her emotions and conditions to be stablize first, then you can go and see her. " she said.
He smiled bitterly , "You know what they meant by temporary? Yes a decade !It Is ten years.I have to endure ten years of life without her, even if I occasionally meet her on the streets ,I have to pretend like we are strangers and let her walk away. Do you know how hard it is to live through each day like this, It is like you want to love her but you can't. It is damn painful. '
"Although it will be painful, but you still choose this path isn't it? " She looked into his eye gently and said.
He then said, " umm..it is ten years today!! "
"Oh! Really!? It Congratulations, your efforts of waiting for a decade had finally paid off, you can finally see her today!" The owner said joyfully.
" Yes it is like that. But the nearer this day comes, the more afraid I am. It had been ten years, and yet my heart is still the same. but what about her?What If I tell her about the past and she still don't remember me? Or she already had a boyfriend or even married? "
"This is what I wanted to ask you!" He looked at her nervously and, quietly waiting for her reply.
"Ah ... ..." She think deeply about what he said.
"I think since you love this girl so much, it doesn't matter if she doesn't remember you, the most important thing is start from the bottom again. Actually it is not too bad to go after her and date her again. Even if she has a boyfriend already, it is still alright. You can steal her from his hands right? " She answered his question while smiling.
"But!" She appeared to be serious in a sudden "but if she was married, then I think you should just give up! We married people, hate people who ruin other's marriage! "
"Really?" He shod his head and said coldly.
"Yes! You should not ruin other people's family"
Ding Dong. The bell rang again, and here comes a few university students who just came in. She walked out of the bar and greeted them.
"Oh Yes!" She seem to remembered something, turn around and look at the guy.
"Why do you ask me these kind of question? This is the first time I met you!" She asked curiously.
"Ah ... ... Why ... ... probably because she said before, after the wedding, she wants to open a coffee lounge like this with me. "
"Oh! No wonder!" She said.
"Ah! Just like that! Just like that! Just like that. Just ... ..." the man repeated the same word, as if he is telling himself something
The music stopped, all you can hear is the laughter of the students. He looked at her wedding ring silently, silently his tears fell into his cup of cold coffee.
1 comment:
owh...so sad:(
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