Fool

This will be a purely ranting post. Thank you.

Experienced, but stubborn.

Do nothing but talk a lot.

Want respect, then go earn that respect.

Don't find flaws out of no where and make it a huge scene.

Girls are not that easy to be bullied nowadays, remember that.

I am here to learn something and to achieve something.

Not to be part of some never ending childish act.

You want to play back stab fine, let's see what happens when the lies break apart.

I hardworking or not, busy or not is none of your concern.

I do what I need to do and the only person who needs to know that, is my manager.

Never want to know more, because I don't give a damn.

Your life is in your own hands to paint it black or with colors.

As for mine, I know what I want and I will do anything to achieve my goals.

This, will not stop me no matter how hard it is.

Ignorance is a bliss, and I shall put on the ignorant mask if you step on my tail again.

C'est tout. End of the story.

3rd

Its Our 3rd!!

OMG..it has been almost two months and I have not been blogging about it. I must be really busy working all these while.

Three years...it has been three years already. Time has been passing by so fast that I could not even keep track of it anymore. We were pretty much hung up with moving house, getting use to our new job and voila, its our third anniversary already! Much has been said in the past, much has been expressed, but still, I would like to thank this beautiful man of mine to be by my side all this while.

As age has been catching up ( ahem, I know, I am only 23 this year ) , I might be getting a little naggy and pushy. haha. But, this man is still so patient with me, even though sometimes he might lose it a bit.haha. Pretty understandable if I am in his position honestly. But, I try to think back to myself from time to time and try not be a person that will keep him on his edge all the time. God bless me and him. =)

Fortunately enough, he has a really big and forgiving heart. Well, me too I must say! Muahaha. Just kidding. I am not as polish as him, anyhow, I am still a woman even if I don't behave like one at times. In our third year, its no longer honeymoony, sweety lovey all the time, its time to move on to the next stage. Its all about toleration, understanding, patience and lastly, love. haha. I am not quite sure what am I writing now, but I am pretty sure some of you get it. =p

Being in Singapore for almost a year now, seeing things that I have never seen before, all kinds of relationships. Lust, scandal, confusing complicated relationships, you name it. Its pretty scary really, and it makes me feel relieved to have him by my side. Him as in he who knows what he is doing, he who knows how to think for a better future, he who knows how to treat his girlfriend, he who knows how to love me.

So thank you again, for the thousand million times for choosing me, for bearing with me and for loving me.

Happy Belated Third Anniversary,

And I love you like always, and forever.

Hello..im alive!

Oh hello peeps! Long time never blog ya..well...I had been working nonstop for almost two whole week and tomorrow is finally my off day ! Hooray yay! Thank god for that...my body is really really very tired already..time to rest...and catch on with some movie and reading...:) By the way...I haven't been talking about my new room right? Well...it is great till present...at least we have a proper queen size bed and not a double bunker to squeeze...we have much more space to keep our stuffs and I can even dance around the room..it's pretty awesome..the good thing is..at least I feel like going home after work..like previously..I would have dragged till the very last before I go home..but now..I really feel like going home and rest...even though the rent is slightly higher...but what is more important than having a good rest at home right? We should not stinge on basic necessity like shelter right? I have been pretty relax around my colleagues already and they are finally seeing my true colours...not the quiet one anymore...hahaha..one thing good about living in Singapore..people are very open minded and honest about their relationships..it may be a little too complicated for myself..but really do respect them...as long as you stay true to yourself and pursue your own happiness...nothing is right and wrong...everyone has their own principles to follow and I have mine...love...well...make your own choice and stick with it...like what people always say..life is too short..live with no regrets... I am craving for a good good breakfast or brunch for two with my b..so time to wake the lazy piggy up..that's all for now...till next time... Ps: I'm writing from my iPad..somehow everything just sticks together...aishhh..

Appreciation

Everyone has one story of their own. You may see them being glamorous and gracious on the outside, but deep inside, it may not be the same. I am not a person who knows how to comfort people, nor knowing what to say when others are telling me their story. I only know how to nod my head, and listen. I may be better in writing out then saying it out. That is how I am.

I can be a good listener, but not a good adviser.

To guys out there, always appreciate the person who is standing by your side through ups and downs. There are many distractions out there, but know well who is the one who really treats you well and love you with all their heart. Because once you break their heart, it is very, very hard to mend it back again. No matter how tough is one women, it will break one day if you keep poking it whether intentionally, or not intentionally.

A woman can love you so so much, always put you as their priority without thinking much for themselves. But the tables can be overturn so easily if you don't know how to appreciate that.

As for we women, we need to learn how to love ourselves more.

That is what I learnt today and nope, it is not about me. =)

A short little update

It has been 2 weeks plus since I had started work..and gosh, time really passed by in a blink of eyes. From a quiet girl at work, to a girl who can slowly play around. I found a motivation to work harder and this is something that keeps me going on and on everyday, which I find it very positive. Even though it is very tiring, I hope at the end of the day, it is worth it. Time will tell, give me one year time. =)

Other than working, I had been really upset on my accommodation. It is so depressing as I am constantly whining about it and worst of all, the lights in my room started to fuse one by one. And now, i don't even feel like going home even when I have finished my work earlier. Then when the owner decided to make another partition to rent out for more people, we have decided, this it it! We will forfeited the pety deposit and find somewhere where we can really have a good rest.

After one week of constant searching online, we manage to secure a place, which the rent is a little bit higher, but the room is definitely bigger and we can cook freely. Damn those owners who check on the fridge and being so irresponsible. Contract will be signed this Saturday and hope everything goes on well. Good luck to us! Hope the new place will be better and the people there are good. Fingers crossed.

I need to read my book now. So...that's all for now. =) Hope everyone is doing well..

Rant

This, will be my ranting post. So if you are not a fan of reading someone ranting in their blog, you can avoid this post at all cause. =)

I have been in the new restaurant for one week and damn, politics are flying everywhere. I am trying to be neutral and as humble as I can get in this new job. Partially because everyone else had worked for a longer period compared to me, even the trainee.

I start from the rock bottom, as a food runner. Means the one who serves food only. I know everything needs to follow an order so I don't mind it at all. In fact, I am pretty happy with it. But I had been studying and interning for quite some time and it is not hard for me to understand everything faster than others. But, no matter where you want to put me, I will just listen. And honestly, I don't mind.

I was intro to this company by my ex restaurant manager-aka role model - aka friend and his gf aka ex wine sommelier aka female role model. I had knew them for almost four years now? And they really sayang me to be honest. So when I just joined this new company, I totally understand that others will be curious on our relationship and some may even think that I got this job based on my relationship with them. So, I want to prove them wrong. I want them to know that I am capable person and I get this job because I deserves it.

For me, its very simple. Work is work, when I am at work, I am a serious person. I like things to be in order, I don't like to slack, I like to move when I work. Sitting down relaxing is not my thing. I know I may sound like a workaholic but this is how I work. I am here to learn something and to achieve my goal. I am not here to please everyone and I am certainly not here to entertain anyone.

When others resting during break, I read and do research. Well, even though it is only for one week. haha. But i will try and keep it that way. If you ask me why. Let me tell you why, because my senior intro me this work, the higher management's expectation towards us is higher than the rest. I don't want to let him down and I don't want others to badmouth about my relationship aka friendship with him.

And I found a motivation to work. A motivation to keep me moving forward and help me to set my goal. Thats why I am working really hard now. My manager wants me to join competition next year. Means his expectation of me is also very high. Even though I really don't know why they think so, but I am trying my best not to let anyone down. I study even harder than for University finals. Imagine that.

Just now when I was in my 'zen' mode, I was trying to convince myself to neglect how others look at me and just do what I am suppose to do. Like what my senior said, time will prove them wrong. When they know what you are capable of, they will stop talking. I need to learn how to not care about what other thinks.

So yeaps. That is about it. Finish ranting. =) So, no matter how hard it is, I will hang in there. How I wish human relationship is not this complicated.

Let's start it all over again

Today, is my first day of work at my new work place. Honestly speaking, I am pretty nervous to be in this new job. Partially because in my first work, the we are consider the senior in the restaurant and other than the Manager, we are the ones who trained the part timers and full timers. And now, I need to start fresh whereby everyone else is my senior. @@ Suck it all up, listen to everyone, ask questions, be humble, be good, and that's the way to fight it through for now.

Well, everyone seems to be pretty alienated at first, its very normal as I myself don't like to be overly friendly at  first. Don't ask me why because its just how I am. I am not very good with strangers and people do get me wrong at times. I can sense some politics flying around. Oh well, il be neutral and stay out of trouble. =)

Its good to be working in a proper and organize restaurant again. Thank god! And its good to be back in a French Dining Restaurant. Back to my roots! =) =) Its time to brush up on all my french terminology and polish up my skills. No more kucing kurap type of service, its time to get serious.

I still have a long long way to go, and I need to keep upgrading myself. Learning as I go, practice as I work. It will be pretty tiring at the end of the day, and the outcome may not be as good as other occupation, but i have chosen this path, and there is no turning back. I can only look forward and believe in what I believe at first. That one fine day, I will prove to the rest that working in this industry, is also a profession and others should respect us as a professional.

Alright, let's hope things will be better as time goes by. For now, il slowly adjust to my new working timing and hope i will have more life soon. haha. ciaos people

That guy

I believe that everyone has their own imaginary Prince/Princess, or in another words Ideal Guy/Girl. Different people seek for different qualities that attracts them to that special individual. Like wise myself, if you look into my past, none of them resembles each other, they are very different when it comes to physical and personality wise.

I am a person who very much look into 'feeling' or that very special something that attracts me and it can be anything.I cannot define to you what kind of 'feeling', because that is up to each individual I suppose. It's like some sort of chemistry that cannot be explain by words, just that special feeling.

Like b, I am first attracted to him because rather than my loud friends, he is a quiet and good looking guy sitting at a corner of the classroom. He is surrounded by that mysterious aura that attracts me to dig in further. I still remember that day when I shed tears in class and was noticed by him. That awkward moment when I just want to run away and hide myself. Then, he turns out to be a very smart guy ( One of the smartest guy that I have known in college ), and a very caring person who cares about me when the person next to me doesn't give a damn. 

We both knew we had something, well, I was being ticked off by my friend, but it is still counted nevertheless =p, and that very same day he asked me to be his girlfriend, was the most nerve wrecking and romantic moment in my life. And after three years, it is still fresh and vivid in my mind.

Every couple has their own ways of handling relationship. We don't have to fight or argue to know each other better, we don't have to be very adventurous, we don't have to be lovey dovey all the time. We see each other every day, we have our quiet moments, we have our sweet moments and we understand each other, that is all that counts. 

I don't need a relationship that is like a roller coaster ride, a relationship that makes everyone jealous. What I need, is very simple, someone who love me for who I am, and someone who is willing to hold my hands till the end. 

No matter how much we had grew and changed in this journey, I am glad that you are by my side darling. 

And for the hundred and thousand times, I love you Baby Aaron. 

It's official

Graduation..

The feeling of becoming a graduate is not as strong as before, because I had already jumped into the working life. Therefore, the excitement of leaving University, completed all exams and assignments, feeling proud because I can finally close one chapter of life is not as strong as before.Nevertheless, I am excited to see my friends again.

Those four years of meeting new friends, attending lectures, rushing assignments, sitting for exams after exams, fell in love and fallen out of love, the emotional roller coaster, becoming more tough and independent, these memories will always stay with me forever.

Life is like a puzzle. You slowly fill in the puzzle one by one. When it does not match, no matter how much you force it to, it just won't fit it. Then you will have to start looking for the right match.You may feel frustrated, angry and sometimes even disappointed, but you will slowly get the pace and it will be better as time goes by. ( I have no idea why I want to talk about puzzle here. hahaha. Out of topic. Opps )

Now, I can finally close this chapter of my life, with pictures and memories as a proof. And now, let the real journey begin. The long long journey of building career and family. =)

Million and billion thanks to these special people who had been there for me...=)

My family who had been supporting me all the way. 

B's family who had given me great advice and love. =)

My ex Roomie Mich who gave me endless support...=)

Kee Shen..the smartest and most wise guy I have ever known..

My classmates who are always smiley and fun to talk with..=)

And to this very special guy, who had walked with me for three years, and now Graduation. I am glad that we can graduate together and utterly happy that you are always by my side. Love you b..=)

Now, I need to focus in building up my career, learn as much as I can and go as far as I can. Learn how to manage my money better, and learn how to be a better girlfriend. haha. 

So many things that I want to do and so many things that I should do. So now, focus, and I can do it! =)

GRADUATION? DONE-D

Selfish People

Before I blog about my Convocation, I need to release some steam first. Okay before I go into anything,I want to say that I admit that I am not be a overly friendly or helpful housemates. At home, I am a very private person. Home is a place where I rest my feet after work, not feel stress and relax. Hence, I don't like to socialize around, I just want to rest and do my own things. Especially in a foreign land where I don't even know my housemates, I do not find the obligation to be close to you. I already smiled to customers for the whole day in the restaurant, I don't have to do that at home when I don't feel like it, except to B of course. So yes, I am not a housemate friendly person here.

The thing is there are certain people who thinks they are O-Mighty, O-SO-GREAT in the house. Firstly, YOU TWO are clean freaks, we are not. So if you want to clean wherever whatever, do not aspect everyone to do so. At first, there is a mop that I can use to mop the corridor. But apparently they kept it for themselves because it is theirs and they do not want to share. Okay fine, since you don't want to share, il just get a cheap one to clean our own room. If you guys are nice enough, I will clean it from time to time. But sorry, you are not. So I don't give a damn.

Secondly, Yes I know, we are not allow to cook at home, so what? You yourself cook from time to time, just not as frequent as us. The kitchen was already in a wreck and freaking dirty before we start using, so please do not tell me to always keep things clean in the kitchen when you are not using it. You are using the dining hall to cook, so mind your own business. We already tried to clean as much as we can, and we do not have THAT much of free time to clean the entire place!

Thirdly, you want to complain about us moving your clothes from the washing machine. Go ahead. Who is the selfish one who left it in the washing machine and went out without thinking others might want to use it? And, did the same two days in a row. YOU are a clean freak, and needs to wash your clothes every single day and uses most of the space. When we take out out clothes, you will take our space and where the hell am I going to hang my clothes if we need to? So to hell, I will only remove mine when I feel like removing. What are you going to say about it? We took up all the space?  Oh sorry, who is the one who washes clothes like you have been away for months after coming back from holiday and needed to wash for at at least four five rounds after you all came back?? And even told us that you need to use the entire space? Oh please, please look at the mirror!

Fourthly, our house is already freaking small, and you two keep bringing people back. Some even stayed for days. Okay, I don't mind. But F man, people want to rest after work, you guys make a hell of a noise like at some party. Sometimes even during midnight! Even if you don't have to work, others need to. Selfish like nobody's business. I don't even complain to the owner about it! I should have!

Fifth, I know you two like to fight and argue, you want to fight, fight in somewhere with just two of you. Don't pretend like we are invisible! The walls are too thin and we can hear everything. You want to slam the door, hit the pillow, do it in discreet. You don't want to embarrassed yourself.

Sixth, You want to curse us or anything, do you have to do it all loud and make sure that we can hear? Oh my! How low you are to do so. Just because we did not do the same, or did not respond, doesn't mean we cannot hear.

Seventh, You two like to curse people, like to use rude words, well go ahead. That will only reflect on yourself. Job well done and I hope you do well in life.

It is DAMN FREAKING ANNOYING to have this kind of housemates. Maybe they find the same about us, but I don't freaking care. If it is not because of the damn deposit, we would have move out right away. I have five months to go, FIVE STRESSING MONTHS. Damn. Sorry for being whinny, but I just to find somewhere to lash out my dissatisfaction.

Next time il make sure I get a way better room and quieter place where I can really relax after work. The basic necessity, shelter. I should keep that in mind. Money, is secondary.

Yesterday was my last day at work, and it was like any other days. Finish work, go home. It wasn't like a very emotional good bye, hugging each other and stuffs. I am working in a very 'manly' working environment whereby its just a very cool, 'good bye and all the best in the future' last day. Come to think of it, in most of my training or internship, I do not have much attachment with company, except for one. Maybe it was too short for me to feel very attach to it. Nevertheless, I am over and done with it.

Walking home after finishing work was very 'light'. I felt like as though a heavy weight was lifted up my shoulders. Now, I can finally enjoy two weeks of being unemployed, literally, before opening a new chapter of my life. 

I was browsing through online to search for the best place to go for a short holiday yesterday. Everywhere from Star Cruise ( It is bloooody expensive. TT), Bintan Island, any islands around Singapore, Pular Besar, Pulau Rawa and stuffs, but none really catches my eye. Either it is really expensive, or too troublesome to get by ( Like Pulau Rawa, I need to get to Johor then find a bus which will take around 4 hours to reach Mersing Jetty then take another ferry of 40 minutes to reach the island.) It is very tiring and not what I am looking for.

I need a place, where I can relax, get away from the city life, and of course, with good food. Well, I am not going to starve myself during holiday don't I? Then I am like wth, let's see what tiger airway offers. And surprisingly, ticket to Phuket is only around 100+ for one person even though I am planning to fly next week. Okay, fine book! The only problem is when I was booking my hotel, I mistakenly thought that the price listed was 100 dollar for three nights and believe that the 'NO CANCELLATION FEES' was real. But, it was too good to be true. At the end of the day, that 100 dollars was the price for one night. @@ 

After self comforting myself, why not right? Since the hotel looks very nice and the reviews on tripadvisor is good, why not. I already made a last minute decision to go on a holiday, and we can still afford it, just go for it. Tell myself, don't be too stingy. After all, we have been working nonstop without any holiday for six months ( except for CNY). It is time to relaxxxxxx~ =)

So I am going back to Malaysia tomorrow. Saturday Girlfriend session, then Sunday Convocation plus family dinner. YEAHU! Can't wait. And, Thursday we are flying off to PHUKETTTT! How awesome is my holiday! Alright. I know I am mumbling too much now. Time to go out! Ciaos people

A change is good, its always good no?
People come and go, Opportunities come and go
When it comes knocking on your door,
Grab it before it is gone

I believe that in life, everything happen for a reason
Good choice or not, you will still learn something from it
So let's see what is in house for me.

My health has been a little mind blobbing recently
Running fourth between flu, cough and headache
Is it the weather? Or it's a sign that I should take care of my body more
*sigh*

Asia Laksa, Nasi Lemak, Banana Leaf, BKT, Roti
Hello everyone, I will be coming to you in two weeks time
Please wait for me. ^^

Convocation in two weeks time
Dress bought, Hair dyed
Now left contact lenses, and heels
Its a once in a life time thing, it should be perfect
It must be...

My head is killing me now
Time to lie down and let it cool down
Let's hope it will be better tomorrow.

New Motivation

I am always a person who plan ahead of time, thinking what to do next, what to eat etc etc. But in career wise, everything was put on hold once I came to Singapore. Previously, what I want was to start off my career in Singapore and I had achieved that. So what is next? I am always thinking what is next, but honestly speaking, I have no idea. 

I know I am always complaining about work, because it is indeed frustrating. My initial plan was to stay within the company for one year, and move on to my next stop. Till then, I will suck it in, and stay at where I am now.

If you have read my blog since long long time ago, you would have notice I had mentioned about this senior that I worked with last time, actually not only one, but one couple. When I was young and naive, they sort of bash me up in a good way of course, and ever since then, I always put them as my role model. I even went back for part time a few times, not because I love that company particularly, its because I enjoy working with them. 

Somehow, all of us ended up in Singapore now. Having lunch with them makes me realize that hey, that is what I am suppose to do, not serving breakfast with endless complains and not able to do what I want to do! I should be doing something with better career advancement, I should be uplift myself, I should work hard to be somebody, not just a small peanut in a company! I can do better than this! I should!

I always have this plan in my head, but I don't have the guts to pursue it because I need to start from scratch. Others had taken the cert years ago, but here I am, fresh with faded knowledge since three years ago. Before, I don't have the money to do so. Now, I have, but the question is, should I do it or not?

WHY NOT! There is no harm is learning something new, no harm is trying something new. It is not like buying clothes or accessories, knowledge and skills will stay with you for a long long time if you use it wisely. So what am I waiting for! 

There you go, first, resume send. Secondly, I need to swallow a 900 pages worth of wine bible. Yeap indeed, wine bible. Then I need to take my cert, and pray hard that I will be hired. No more fooling around, and working without a goal. The goal is set, and I need to set off right away! Work hard, study hard and pray that everything will fall into place. I can do it!!!!

Dark Brown

I am a very kiamsiap person, like very very kiamsiap. That is why whenever I used my money on something, my heart will pain like hell and I will whine about it for a long long time. Out of no where ( Well, I did thought about it for a long long time, but have not really made up my mind before this ), we went to the hair salon and I came out with my hair dyed. And it is not cheap. TT

I don't know any good neighborhood salon, hence I settled for a well known one instead. Gosh, my forehead is so obvious in this picture. Goldfish forehead.

I choose dark brown as it is not too obvious and my mum won't get a heart attack when she sees me.The color looks more obvious now after one week, so let's see how long it will last. =) Even though I burnt a hole in my pocket, at least I finally done something that I always wanted to do.

B also had a hair cut and I thought he looked super handsome in this picture.hahahaha. =p

Sometimes, you need to break your normal routine in order to feel like you are still alive and kicking, even though it is not cheap.

Anyone going for Russells Petter show in Singapore? Can't wait. I am sure it would be a great night! 

Sometimes, I am very jealous with people who had set a clear mind set of what they want to be and what they want to achieve. It is not that I don't have one, just that I still have a choice. While clearing my mind and setting my goal, I need to gain as much experience and earn as much money as I can. Nothing in this world is possible without money. Well, some may disagree, but, its a cold hard fact.

You need money to get married, you need money to buy house, you need money to start your own business. Everything needs money. Yes, money may not buy you happiness, but money may lead you to happiness. Oh well, off I go to work now. 

p/s I had a good good rest for the past few days because I slept quite early. Thumbs up and keep it up! =)

Just me..

I..am not a funny person
I..am not a cute girl either
I..have mood swings
I..dislike people who interfere with what I am doing
I..dislike having not enough sleep, hence, emo
I..don't like changes

I..am very serious when it comes to work
I..like to do things in order
I..like to plan ahead of time
I..will panic if everything does not go fall in place
I..am very kiamsiap
I..always, never fail to cry whenever I watch anything to do with dog misfortune
I..take things personally

All in all, I am an insecure person, not funny, boring and like to sleep.

I know, I know everything about myself. Maybe not ALL, but most of it. I know that I am not perfect, flaws is what made me who I am today. Maybe to some people, I am too uptight, well, I am very uptight towards myself anyways. I took three months to finally decided to walk away with new lingerie because I cannot make up my mind. More like I hate to see my money flowing out like that. *Le sigh* Why am I like that?

If only I am a little bit more funny with more charisma
If only I don't plan so many things ahead of time
If only I don't be so kiamsiap
If only I don't take things too personally
If only I am perfectly secure

If, that is if. But, everything that you have or had, makes you who you are today. If I don't have all those in me, maybe I am not Zhi Lin anymore. I am just someone, who wants to be someone else.

The past tense, the present tense, and the future tense. I paint my own life, and is it colorful enough? I wanted to do so many things in life, but always being too scaredy cat to jump out of my comfy zone.I really salute people who can put down all the responsibilities, pack their stuffs and going out to explore the bigger world, to experience what life is really about.

One customers said, ' Life is too short to not enjoy it now.'

Agree much, agree. I need more courage, I need more life. I need to jump out of my comfy zone!

The ugly fact about life is, everything needs money. And you gotta work your butt off to earn money. But while you are earning money, the clock is also ticking away.How I wish I was born with silver spoon.

There is this high school couple who always shouting crying and fighting near my apartment. Her cry is so loud that I can even hear it on 18th floor.

Well, I was once like that ( Maybe not to that extend ). Being clingy, crying baby, superbly insecure, insanely sensitive etc etc. Now when I think back, am I acting my own soap drama at that time? Because you will never realize how silly you were until when you walked out of the shadow, and analyze it rationally. But that is life isn't it? You walk through all those phases to learn what is pain, what is falling in love, what is moving on, what is life. You may make silly mistakes, you may lose a few friends, you may never talk to that person anymore, but, there are billions of people on this earth, you ought to meet some and lose some.

So, let's laugh out loud, cry out loud and play hard in life. Life, doesn't have to be perfect. All those imperfections, flaws, scars, is what makes life so interesting.

I guess I am at the stage where I like to talk like a philosopher. haha. Ah well, I am still young. I am only in my early 20's. hahaha.

Oh by the way, I still like camwhoring though. So, let's end my post with a happy note ya. =p

A great week ahead people! 

p/s I can't can't wait to end my breakfast shift for the week. Damn.

Ola~

Ola! Hello blog, I am back after some time. Well, I am trying to learn how to braid my hair now because I am quite bored with pony tail hair every day. Damn, girls normally are good in it even when they are at a very young age, braiding each other's hair and such. But, thanks to my mum who loves to chop my hair, I was in short hair most of the time when I was young. Is it not too late to start learning now? First mission, achieve French Braiding. Or maybe I should grow my hair longer first? Hmmm. Will see.

Anyways, nothing much is going on right now. Trying to think what I should do when I am back in Malaysia end of May for my Convocation. Only three days to spare hence I need to plan really properly so no time will be wasted. I want to eat SOOOO many things back home! Like Banana Rice, Roti, proper mamak nasi lemak, laksa, yong tau foo, bak kut teh, wan tan mee etc etc. Grrrrr! It is just not the same here as we can get back at home.

Sometimes life can be such a joke you see. When you are not into that some thing, you can see it everywhere. But when you need it, then it is no where to be found. For example, everyday I see my nail clipper hanging around in the room. But when I really need it urgently, it is no where to be found. Or, everytime when I go to shopping mall, I see pretty formal clothes that I adore, but I don't need it at that time because i am not going to wear it. When I determined to get one for Convocation, I could not find any that suits me. Maybe it is hinting me to get whatever that grabs my eye and fits me where ever i go..haha. Nah, kidding. I am too kiamsiap to do so. Desperately trying to save more money now since I am going back soon.

Another thing before I sign off, one must know their own limitations and not to be too greedy. So what if you have SO many things in hand but not one is doing well? In the end, who will have the bear the consequences?

That's all for now, I need to go to work now. Ciaossss~

Food Glorious food

Since young, I am truly blessed with skinny genes in my family, and high metabolism rate. Hence, I am never overweight, or people always said I am thin. But just like anyone else, I believe that my high metabolism rate will bid me good bye anytime soon as I am growing older. And so, I always watch out for what I eat, and how I eat, call me a healthy freak. haha.

In my younger days, my mum will feed me and my brothers with vegetables, oats ( which I deteste and now my new love ), celery ( which me and my brothers hate the most last time and was converted into a celery lover ever since I stayed with B's family ), cooking with less oil etc etc. Because of that, I had been trained, to eat more vegetables because my mum said it is good for our body.

 

Then comes college whereby I learn more about food, and that comes my fascination towards cooking. I am exposed to different type of cuisines and learning more about their culture, how it was prepared and how it has changed. So instead of spending money on clothes and jewelries, I would rather spend it on food. I am not stingy when it comes to food, but as for other things, I am the total opposite.

 

Because of all these random factors, it has formed my eating habit now. For me, breakfast is the most important meal of the day. First thing in the morning after I wake up, I will drink some water. Then, I will have my breakfast, mostly multigrain food whenever I can , like wholemeal bread, or milo with oats, cereals etc. Eating breakfast is like starting your car's engine in the morning, it needs time to fuel up your body. It is also when your body can absorbs the most nutrition out of the food you consume. Because of that, I must have breakfast whenever I can, not nasi lemak or char kuey teow please. XD Healthy breakfast.

 

I rarely eat out, except when it is on our off day because we wanted to take a break from cooking.At normal days, we always take turns to cook at home. From normal rice, to brown rice, now we had upgraded to red rice. Even though red rice cost a bit more, but it is all worth it because it is good for our body.I used to have this misconception that rice will make me fat. It is not rice that makes you fat, it is how much of rice you consume that makes you fat.

 

Then, eat more vegetables. MORE! Seriously, I cannot live without vegetables. That is how crazy I am. When we were in France, it was winter and most of the restaurants do not serve vegetables on the side, simply because it is not easily available or expensive. My body went bizarre and I keep hunting for multigrains food or yogurt drink.

Don't starve yourself. I do not have gastric, but I never will want myself to get gastric anytime in the future. Therefore, I eat accordingly and do not diet. No people! I don't starve myself and diet all the time!! I actually eat more than you think I do. =)

I do eat ice creams and dessert. Frankly speaking, I love eating them. But do know your limits, and don't over do it. It is not okay to eat one whole pint of ice cream while watching tv, gorging down one whole cake or even finishing one whole chocolate bar on your own. Eat in moderation, that is the key.

 

Last but not least, learn how to cook. Because by cooking your own food, you will learn how to appreciate food more.By cooking, you will put more efforts into it and you will understand, that food don't come easily. You can also control what your body consume, whether it is the amount of salt or oil you put and you know, that there are no funny things inside like MSG or food coloring.

Staying thin, doesn't mean you have to starve yourself. Eat the right thing and eat the right amount. Of course, better still if you can exercise regularly.=)

Anyways, just a random topic that I feel like writing after posting up my food pictures. haha. Hope you find it interesting. XD

 

It's Monday

Oppsss..I think I should update something a little tad happier than the one which I complain and whine..XD Sorry about that people..Work work work, sometimes it really does get a bit frustrating..

What I need to learn, is that I should have some dignity to myself and learn how to protect myself more. Which is not let other's comment rock my emotions and confident. As long as I know what I am doing, as long as I know what is right, whatever that 'that person' says, I will just do it and that's it. Full stop. Control my frustrations, control my emotions, and just smileeeee~

But at the same time, time to hunt for a better future and improve myself. I need to get my study mode back. XD

That's all about work. Talking about cooking, recently I have much fun in cooking at home. haha. Instead of having a proper menu planning in my mind, I just grab whatever vegetables and meat that I feel like grabbing and decide on that day itself what I should cook. First day I made Stir Fried Beef with Spring Onion, then comes improvised Sushi roll with bread instead of sushi rice plus Pasar Malam style of spring roll and stir fried ramyeon with tobokki, and tonight, its Linlin version of fried rice..Why so?Because my pan is too small and I have to cook my ingredients separately. Nevertheless, I think it taste awesome. XD Gah..I wish i have an oven, full set of pastry ingredients..Then fuh, can make anything already..haha.

One morning while going to the restaurant, I greeted our regular customers with a big smile on my face. And then they asked, 'Why are you so happy this early in the morning?'

I said, ' I have to be happy isn't it? '

The moral of the story is, no matter what happen at work, when you face your customers, you will still need to smile, and be happy. Actors and actresses you may say, but, thats our job.

怨

有的时侯，真的做工做得好生气。尤其是今天。所谓的 ‘好心被雷劈’， 我今天真的体会到了。明明他人有错，我看见了就好心地帮一下，指点一下。结果，就被训了一下。对！我是自作聪明，明明不关我事我还多管闲事。

做个上司， 就有责任要管好自己的店。而不是三不两下就把一切丢给经验不足的工读生。成天出去抽烟，要么就叫别人来帮忙。难道我们有那么的空闲吗？帮你一次或两次不代表我们要每次都帮你。尽然顺手就把责任推给我们！

我做什么，都有我自己的理由。如果每一次，我都要帮你收拾烂摊，而且还要被责怪的话，这口气，我可吞不下。我现在是忍气吞声，不代表我以后也会那样。

真的很不公平！为什么别人错得更离谱，却安然无恙？ 我们却为了一丁点的错误，被说得狗血淋头。为了公司，跑上跑下。担心这个，担心那个。为了他人的错，而被客户埋怨。而其它的人，却高枕无忧的在办公室里办事。面对客户的是我们，被骂的也是我们。一有什么问题，承担的也是我们。咳。。

满肚的怨气，我承受的了多少？我想，把我自己的本分做好就好了。其他的，就让他自甘堕落吧。心灰了。。那把奋斗的精神，向前冲的毅力，也没了。就忍个七个月吧！ 到时候，就重新在别的公司找回我心中的那把火。

Let's see...

An opportunity or a self-digging-grave?

I wonder...I wonder...

Let's play along and see where it will lead me to...I suppose..haha

A mouse looking alike picture of myself..

This is how I look after my hair cut the last time I went back to Malaysia..Damn..How I miss my hair at this state..

And now, its growing like a wild grass..TT 

( But in this picture also I already comb my hair nicely..Imagine without..@@)

The purpose of this post, is none..haha..I just saw the mouse looking picture of mine and I just feel like posting it..But I really do miss my hair in that picture..Of course, it is almost impossible to maintain it like that at all time.Partially because I am too lazy to blow it dry every single time..Blame my laziness..I want to straighten and color my hair once it is long enough..I have never dyed my hair ever in my life and I am thinking I must at least try once in my life. Right? If my mum ever complain then I'll just say I stood under the sun too long and my hair turned brown. ^^

I wore a 5 inch heels that day and damn, its killing my feet. I had blisters everywhere and I have to suffer every single time my feet touched the water..Oh well, at least that day I thought I look good. haha. I only have one day in a week to dress up nicely and if it means that I will get blisters on my feet, be it!!! 

Anyways, enough of slacking and time to hit the bed. Need some good old rest before work tomorrow. Ciaos people! XD