Words that should be spoken..

Another week is gone and gone..keke..happy happy..5 more weeks to go and my training is over and done..Alright..I guess I need to explain myself here..whether it is for my friends or those who are concern..

Yes..I am in a new relationship now..as written in Facebook...I bet most of you will think why is it that fast?? why can i let down my past so fast?? why this and why that..I guess 'love' does not require that many explanation as it comes..it comes..when it is gone..then it is gone..

Yes..I did struggle a little in my past relationship..but I did not regret a single bit..infact..I do appreciate it as I had learned ALOT from him..I might seem very fragile at that point..but the truth is..everything that we had been through..it thought me to be more mature in thinking and stronger in heart...So..I thank you, Brendan for everything that we had been through in these two years..You might not read this as we are in a very awkward situation right now..but I still hope for the best for you..I know at some point..it is me who to be blame..it is me who hurt you with my words..but i just wish we can be friends again..take care dear..

As for Aaron..honestly..Term 4 has been a really tough term for me..mentally and physically..I have been having ALOT of problems with my eyes..and also my ankle at the end of the term...assignments are killers as I can hardly have time to breath..In another hand..I am having my own personal problems in my relationship..therefore...when everything add one together..disaster..I used to study one week before and during term 4..the night before exams...I have to burn the midnight oil until 3 4 am...eventhough we are just friends at that point..but he really did help me in my studies and helping me to learn how to stand up at the point..If it is not because of him..i just flunk my studies and fail miserablely..I know..I did not work hard enough for the exams..and it is purely my fault as I did not put my priorities in place..

Yesterday..I checked my result already..thanks to Randall who forced me into checking it..haha..and I was quite dissapointed at that point..because I know I can do better than that...maybe for others it is good enough..but for me...I aspect more...maybe my expectations are too high or maybe I am getting more competitive..but I myself know I can do better than that..So..I was a bit down at that point..though dear doesnt know what to say to console me because his average is higher..but deep down my heart..i know that he doesnt want me to be down..

Yes..I may emo for a while..but now..I found my way to climb up again...I told Aaron that I will work my ass off in Term 5...no more disstractions...no more slagging..and I know he will be there helping me...^^

Oh wait..back to the main topic..haha..I know it is a bit too fast for both of us..and I know alot of people told me to take my time to enjoy my singlehood while I can...somehow..I dont want miss this train..or bus..haha..for those who know you will know what is the meaning of that..honestly speaking now..I am very happy and content with my relationship now..I do not know how to explain this..but I feel like a newbies in love again..^^ get me???

Last Sunday is dear's off day..and he came down all the way to Kuantan to spend some time with me...haha...I know it sound pretty crazy and rushing..but I guess it is all worth it..haha..though I get unpaid leave for that..but like what dear said...it is paid with his love..haha...^^

We went to the beach for a walk during the afternoon...though Kuantan beach is not as nice as the ones in Redang...but everything is beautiful when we are together..opps..I can not believe i said that..haha..Some random pictures we took by the beach...

I took this picture...nice???hahaha...I likey this picture alot lo..

This picture is also pretty random..haha..

THIS..is freaking nice..haha..I was drawing on the sand mer...then suddenly the wave come and attack wor...so got this effect lo..haha..

us

and us

Thankyou dear for all the trouble just to come up and see me..haha...felt kinda bad because you are not yet fully recover from your flu and cough and yet you still willing to use your first off day on me...sumore have to come all the way up....but I guess we had a great time right??? haha..muakx..it is all worth the hassle..and leave that is paid with love..^^

Anyway..today is not my off..but still came all the way to McD and online before my work..have to go in in another 45 min..sad case..haha..

I guess this is a really long post..haha...got lots to write actually...but everything that should be spoken is already being said in my mail...sooo...guess I don't have to write it again..haha...anyway..will update my blog next week la..toodles....loves..

Living happily ever after

‘Living happily ever after’ is probably the common phrase that everyone listen to everyday, whether it is in fairytale storybooks or fantasy movies. Do I believe in this phrase? Yes I do. I believe that everyone deserves to live happily ever after.

But before that, we have to go through heaven and hell to achieve what we want in our life. What is heaven and what is hell? Heaven is where you are extremely happy when you are with that special one. When one simple text can make you smile broadly although people around you are wondering why you are you smiling suddenly out of nowhere. When one simple call before sleep can ease the tiredness from neither studies nor working. When one simple hug and kiss can bring two hearts closer to each other. That, is heaven.

What is hell? When two hearts are no longer on the same line. When two hearts are constantly in pain and anger because of distance, misunderstanding, cannot achieve common agreement. When there is are no longer a smile in the relationship, but tears and pains.

That is heaven and hell in a relationship.

Love can be fairly simple. When two hearts are connected to each other and believe that they can make each other happy and content. No matter what awaits for them in the future, they will hold their hands tightly and go through all the pains and hardship.

As time goes by, things changed.

What’s with all the complaints? What’s with all the argument for something that is nothing? What’s with the ignorance? What’s with the care that will not last?

Where is the trust? Where are the promises that are given? Where are the warmest and care that had you had once owned? Where are all the things that were said? The happiness when you received a simple text from your loved one? The importance and the meaning of holding hand and a simple hug?

They are not lost in the wind, they were forgotten by us, human. Every human are forgetful. Yes, indeed. We will forget the happiness that we once shared in the past and replaced it with jealousy and sadness.

We will only remember when we had lost it. We will only appreciate things when we realize that it is long gone.

Every relationship there are ups and downs, whether it is a long distance relationship or a puppy love. We will learn from our mistakes and bring the things that we had learned in our next relationship.

I still believed in living happily ever after because I trust that everyone deserves to be happy and deserve someone so special that you will want to spend the rest of your life with.

To all my friends out there, please still believe in love.

Second Offday

YAY!!! time for another update since im n kuantan..nothing much happened last week actually..except for stonning and stonning at the sea..but it is alright..one weel already gone and 6 more weeks to go..yay yay!!!!! can not wait can not wait..

Last Saturday is our Dai lou's Bday la..haha..big boy dy lo..21 years old..we did not make anything extravaganza to surprise him la..we cook home cook spagetti and bought some secret recipe cake to celebrate his big big day...AND...congrates to dai lou..hahaha..you know what im saying..

Working at the seaside restaurant during low peak is really super duper boring than you can ever imagine..every night..I am staring that the sea and the sky..thinking about alot alot of things..more than you can ever imagine..whether it is my past relationship or new relationshp..sometimes..i doubt myself..sometimes i have confident in myself..Thinking about my future..what is it going to be..where am i going to work?? will it be the same as now??

What will happen to me in ten years time?? 20 years??? haha..I really do think ALOT..that is what that will happen when u stare into the sea and moon too much..

Honestly..training in Kuantan has been pretty fun because of those 7 guys that is with me..haha..they are really crazy people..talking things that makes no sense but became with sense after they say it out..haha..teaching me things that I should not know..rampasing my bear and caressing it infront of me..haha..now i have to fight to get my bear back..but they have to bear with my screaming everytime I bath..haha..the water is still damn cold for all your information..haha

Honestly..I have been eating quite alot because of training and also when i am with them..haha.I thought il gain weight..but when i weight myself yesterday..i lost weight instead..what the..haha..guess I do not have to worry that much when it comes to meal time..YAY!!!!!!!

and I finally got my colour contacts!!!! yay...the same color that i got last time..miss it soo soo much...beware people when i get back to KL..keke..

Can not wait until this saturday night..muahahahahhahahaha....I am ultrally happy when I think about this..and this is what that keeps me going whenever I am stoning..keke..muakx..

Oh well..wanted to upload pictures..but can not due to some techinical problem..but I had uploaded in my FB..so go there and see see if you want la..till then..toodles...loves

First off day..

KUANTAN UPDATE

Alright..I finally got the chance to online at McD after like 5 days of no internet line..sad case wei..haha..anyway..i guess i HAVE to update everyone about my life over here..shall we start from this Sunday then..haha

This Sunday..at 7am..we left from Mentari and headed straight to Kuantan..7AM in the MORNING...i wonder who's idea it was..haha..damn early wei..I only had like 4 hours of sleep because was busy updating my facebook and blog..fine..I slept like a piggy troughout the whole trip so no worries..haha..

Anyhow..we went to our dear house for two months..and the condition was..a bit haunting..haha..and it was quite dirty as the rooms were left empty for a long long time..so 8 of us have to work our butt off to clean the whole house..after rounds and rounds of water splashing and sweeping away the water..we managed to clean the house before evening..god..it felt so good when the house is clean and tidy..haha..

The the next day..we have to head over to Hyatt Regency Resort to start our training la..Not going to talk about our orientation and tour because it is so damn boring..but..Me Dai Lou and Gan were alocated at the Pool Side Bar and others at Kampung the coffee house..seriously!!!! I can not believe Kuantan can be THIS HOTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im burning when im working lo..its almost as sunny as Redang..DAMN..i bet im going to get tanned when im back in KL..haha..

Anyway..Il be at the pool side bar for three weeks..then Kampung for another 3 weeks..my life is freaking boring..im serious..im stonning at the sea most of the time..staring at bikini girls..haha..who say only guys will look at bikini girls..bluek..if not..il just stone and stone..haha..yupe..im really stoning most of the time..haha..am not joking..thats why it is kind of boring right now when I got nothing better to do..

After i finish work..either il be watching tv..and sms..or il be stoning..haha..OHHHH...there are no heaters at home..GG.COM!!!! every morning and night il be screaming for help because the water is just so cold!!!! haha..everytime either dai lou or wayne will kena la..haha..hello!!! the water is freezing cold lo..I can not tahan one le..haha..so screaming my lungs out are the only way to overcome the coldness of the water..haha

I miss KL..i miss all my friends..i miss my big bear..and i miss my dear dear..sobs..can not wait to finish up my training..so I can relax and sleep until gao gao..and SHOP..haha..

Anyway..I did not take out my cam until this morning..and I look terribly tired and ugly..haha..hope you guys wont mind..sobs..I did not know I look so ugly already..sad case..

My lunch...Mc chicken..damn fattening right???

Wayne main main di tepi..haha..I look so tired..

me gui gui and dai lou..keke

wayne ar wayne..i really dont know why you open your mouth until that big..haha

tehee...haha...gui gui saying hi to everyone o..

THIS..is hyatt staff entrance..haha,,everyday have to go through here to punch our card..the left pondok is the guard house where I was sitting yesterday while waiting for wayne..

This is the beach..though it is not as nice as Redang beach..but it is way better than pd beach..haha..

there is nothing wrong with this picture..excpet his shoes..haha..we trainees are not entitled to any locker..therefore we have to wear our working to shoes to work instead of slippers..and this is how weird it looks.haha

Anyway...my time is almost up in McD..haha..just nice for me to update my facebook and blog..there are so many things that i wanted to say..but three hours is just not enough for me..

I had hurt someone badly..I know..and I am terribly sorry..but I dont want to hurt you more..I hope you can understand this..because this time I really made up my mind..I am so so sorry..thats what I can say..

I miss you I miss you...waiting for my blankie..haha..

Anyway..its time to go soon..better wrap up my blog now..haha..toodles loves...muakx..love you guys and missing everyone in KL and Seremban..and ofcz US..

Update

Alright..sorry for the late update..I knew I had been lost for quite some time..but I have been pretty busy lately..busy traveling back and fourth from Seremban..Seriously..I am super exhausted..

It is kind of late right now..not going to say much..but let the pictures speaks...haha

Well..I had organized a story based photoshooting with my besties in KL..Joyce being sooo generous agreed on this shooting..the pictures are not ready yet..sooo..these are the ones taken from my cam..haha..

This is the one that is done..i look so tired here..very tired..

i LOVE this picture..hahha..looks like a scene in movie..haha.thanks dear...muakx

joyce..the guy that brought everything together..a great photographer..

me and mich mich..aka roomie..love ya lots...

thanks to these four gorgeous ladies to make this shooting a success..thanks ALOT.

All of us...camwhoring while waiting for joyce

us again..waiting at mcdonald..

I had lotsa fun during the shooting..though i was freaking tired..want to thank everyone who went there for this shooting..love you guys..and thanks to aaron..for temaning us all these while..haha..thank you..and love ALL of u...

Melaka trip

gui gui say hi!!!!

Alright..I know that my update is like no update..BUT..im seriuosly exhausted at this time..have to wake up early to go kuantan now..sad case..anyway..will update as soon as i can online in kuantan..cross my fingers...will miss my baby..big bear..everyone...love u guys..toodles..

Two Bday bashes

Sorry for the late update..was kind of busy these few days when so many things came up..anyway...lets talk about Dai Lou's 21th Birthday Bash first..

well..Dai Lou is ofcourse dai lou la..almost half of the taylorians were here celebrating his birthday..eventhough everyone is tired..they will give face and come one..His family is awesome la..his mum is such a great cook..everything homecook..even the decoration also crave herself..his dad..bought two boxes of wines..and some durians..but i heard the durians were all opened..so can not eat..sobs..All right...let the pictures speak shall we??

trying to pose with numbers...KY so cute!!!!

All of us who went..all the taylorians!!!!!!! taylors rocks...no...haha

OHH...DH27 rocks..haha

Dai Lou and his family...so sweet..all so tall some more..haha

Three of us as usuall...

Dai Lou...happy birthday happy birthday..though it is not his actual birthday..but we shall celebrate in Kuantan again!!!

the same height people..hahaha..all of us are almost the same height..

Okay..we shall now proceed to what that happened on Friday..haha..this is a picture of the three kelian fellows who were thrown into the pool..haha..the moral of the story is..when its your birthday in college..get ready extra clothes to change..AND..eventhough it is not your birthday..haha..be ready to get wet..

Three kelian ngaps who went swimming in the pool..haha

Alright..then it is Eugene's Birthday..happy birthday dear eugene!!!! haha..we went to his house for a homecook BBQ party..we have homecook pasta...mashed potatoes..and also ice kacang...don't forget BBQ wings and sausages...it took us AGES to lit up the fire lo..haha..but it was damn fun la..haha..i guess it was a really good gathering for all of us to have a little chit chat and update each other..

see the mysterious ball at the top left corner of the picture???it is not a moon my dear friends..it is a ball!!! they were kicking the ball and somehow..it fell into the lake..and all of them were waiting patiently for the ball to float to the shore..hahahaha

Last but not least..I am SOO SOOO SOO glad that the three little chipmunks are back together..gaga..I AM SUPER GLAD!!!!! yay!!! so glad that we can talk back like last time..miss u both dearly..

Oh well..thats the end of term four for us..had lotsa fun in both of the parties..sobs..people..good luck in your training..will miss ALL of you dearly...

Holiday holiday..this is probably the most productive holiday ever..haha..so busy traveling until can barely have a good old sleep..but it is worth every moment of it la..So people..make good use of your holidays o..especially when you can see somebody for two whole months..sobs sobs..will miss you..

Will update about my melaka trip when i get back..and PEOPLE..go watch transformers..cant wait lo..megan fox is a real hottie wei..haha..toddles..love ya

Thoughts

Term 4 has finally came to an end..

On exams..

These few days..i slept VERY VERY late because of exams..last minute burning midnight..Seriously this is my very first time I am so last minute..I practically did not touch that subject at all until that night before..DAMN..I admit that this semester I am pretty messed up and all over the place...and I pretty much came out early every paper..could not bear sitting there and checking the answer againa and again anymore..^^..anyway..i want thank the person that teman me study at the very last minute these few days...haha..thank you very muchie!! ^^

On Assignments..

what I can say is..' WALIAO!!!!!!!' there are SO SO SO many assignments until I can hardly breath..or should I say..ALL of us feel like killing ourself with all the workload..Every subject has their own respective assignments..then best of all..some have two assignments..crap lo..what I had learnt from this semester is..choose your group mates wisely..really W-I-S-E-L-Y..if not you can hang yourself and jump down from 13th floor..

On Classmates aka NGAPSss

Well..I should say..you guys are the most ngapian NGAPS I had ever seen in my life...haha..you guys brought laughter in the MOST boring class...though at first hearing 'ngap' everyday seems to be quite iritating..but at the end of the term...it just sounds perfectly normal and decent..haha..Il miss those that im not going to see for two months during training...sobs..will miss you guys...

stonning NGAPS

All the Ngaps!!!!!

On relationship

Probably the hardest thing to say and the easiest thing to say..what I know is...two years are not a long period nor a short period..So many ups and downs throughout this relationship...So many dramas and yet...so much of great memories..This Sunday..suppose to be our two years anniversary..but..oh well..things happen right??? Anyhow..I wont be seeing you for the next two months because of my training in Kuantan..Despite we are not couples anymore...I know I will miss you dearly..This will be the longest period I can not see you after I met you...You will still be someone more than a friend for me..That day..when i cried and said that il miss you..its real..I know I may look and sound like a small kid crying for mummy at that time..but I know deep down inside..il really miss you..So dear..I really hope that you can take care of yourself whenever I am not around..and hope that you can find someone that can truly understands and trust you..you know what I mean..I will always be there for you if you ever need me..loves...

On myself

Well..I had done something that I have never done before in my life..see my previous post..got myself my FIRST sprained ankle which I would never run to the lift ever again..got myself a bad eye until now..got panda eyes due to lack of sleep..push myself to the limit at the very last minute..learned how to make myself happy again.. Life is short ( as always said Brendan )..so enjoy yourself to the fullest..I totally agree with that..

Lastly

I need more rest..haha..I am soooooo tired after this semester and I guess my training will be my holiday..haha..anyway..will update with more pictures from Eugene Bday Party soon..so as for now..ciaos..

The Stop

The Stop..

One day after the Stop..only i started to feel the pain..the heaviness of my heart...everything..

Until this very moment..only I started to feel it..one hour before exam..

The thing that i fear the most came back..insomnia..

I can not sleep once again..

Trying to stop my brains from thinking..but it can't..

It rained really heavily yesterday night..very heavy..

Maybe your pictures reminded me..

Maybe your past reminded me..

The more i know..the uglier that truth is..

Heartpain...really heart pain..

I feel like..im going back to my past which I do not want..

Why????

Pain.......really pain....

No more diamonds

Nothing can beat the pain of the heart..even a sprained ankle..

I dont want anymore diamonds...I hate diamonds..All i want..is a heart of a whole..

I saw Doc

Today..I went and see doctor concerning my leg because my dad asked me to..Finally he started to concern about me..

The doctor said..I have to cold conpress for one day..and hot compress for one day..then come on the third day and let her check..at the mean time..I was given the cream to apply on my leg and got my leg bandaged..Never knew sprained ankle could be that troublesome..hmm..

Someone said this..'you told me you won't leave me and you love me..and yet..you are holding another's hand and telling her you love her..' hmm..hmm..

Oh yes..I got MC from commis tomorrow because of my leg..sorry guys..I do not have to go to college..haha..HEY!!! I am almost jumping at home alright...

Just hope that my leg will be alright by Wednesday...I need some fresh air soon...toodles...

Management notes are making me sleepier and sleepier..DAMN..it is better than sleeping pills..haha

Aching

So yes..it is official that I have a sprained ankle for the very first time in my life..Never sprained my ankle before..probably because i do not play sports..^^..alright..it is not funny..because it do hurts...

After i fell..i manage to like stand up and climb into the lift..

This picture was taken in the afternoon right after i sprained my ankle..

and this at night..the blue u curve below my sowllen leg is indeed a blue black....i did not realize it until i saw it just now..DAMN..its freaking pain lo..

Can hardly walk and sometimes it even aches when i am not moving at all..worst of all..I had a BAD headache..sigh...

Double trouble..

I slept ALOT..and yet..i still fell tired..whats wrong with me???sigh

I sprained my ankle

I can not believe my own dad do not even care when i told him i sprained my ankle...

My bro told me he like dont even care...oh great...

Know why i dont like to go home now????

because home is not like a home..

The Climb

These few days im certainly tired until I am still darn tired at this very moment though i slept for almost four hours i assumed..haha..Anyway..I just finished my English and French paper today..what a day..we were so worried about our French paper because 80 percent of us failed in our midterm paper..but thank god it is over now..just pray hard that we will pass that paper..

Anyway..wanted to blog about Hannah Montana the Movie but was too busy with exams..and finally now I have the time to do so..It is pretty much a simple and romantic movie..I have to say..I am pretty statisfied with the simplicity and the meaning behind the story..I am not a follower of this series but I do watch it sometimes to past my time..Sometimes..the most simple thing will touch your heart at most...correct??

Personally..what i learn from this movie is that you can achieve what you want if you put your heart in it..Sometimes there are sacrificies that must be made..but before you make the decision..think carefully..When you are on the top of the world..do not forget where your roots are..because without them..you would not be who you are now..

AND!!!!! i LOVE the simple love story..haha..how hard i wish it could be that simple and sweet..

I have to say..I am pretty out at times..I had heard about Susan Boyle for quite some time and did not bother to watch it in youtube or read about her..but I do know that she took part in British Got Talent and looks pretty much disturbed I should say..haha..sorry..that is my interpretation of my first impression towards her when i saw picture..not trying to insult..but i do LOVE her after i listen to her voice..

Yes..we humans are very scpetical towards people who are old..not pretty..not handsome..poor..Admit that people..because we are like that..we love to judge people by its cover without looking into the content..and when people like Susan Boyle stands on the stage..we tend to think..

'oh..thats another joker trying to gain short term fame..'

but when she started to sing..everyone quiet down..and some even teared..some said touched..some said she got an amazing voice..but personally..i think we are pretty much ashame of ourselves because we look down upon her in the first place..Don't you think Susan Boyle deserve a respect from ALL of us..

As for myself..I respect her because she still dares to persue her dreams and dare to stand on the stage eventhough she is not young and pretty anymore...but she still believes that she has the power to touch everyone with her amazing voice..I salute you Susan Boyle..because I myself..do not dare to persue a dream that i long wanted to..

The song from Hannah Montana the Movie which I am addicted to right now..Listen to the lyrics carefully..You will find the beauty behind it..keke

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

An interesting way to end my post...another GUY version of Susan Boyle..our own Mr Kenny Sia..and I still salute this Susan Boyle because he DARES to wear like that in the Nuffnang Standout Event..Way to go man!!!

Relevant?

人與人相處 感情有時淡有時濃

只要 不要忘記最初的相識情境

感情才能長久

戀人、朋友皆是

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If you love something very very much....

Let it go free!!!...

If it doesnt come back...

It means it does not belong to you...

If it does, Please love him forever!....

如果你很愛很愛某樣東西 就讓他自由吧!

如果他不回來, 那表示他並不屬於你...

如果他回來了, 要永遠愛他...

Quoted from an email..^^

Please do not simply comment in my blog as I will not publish something that is not appropriate....thanks..no offence..but the comment is just.........not relevant..

Morning

Finally am able to connect to 'write new post'...Currently..my heart is very heavy..I have no idea why..heavy meaning I really feel that it is heavier..not heart pain..but heavy..

Heavy

Pain

Sad

Emo

Insecure

All the negative-ness..is not good for health..I want this..

Happy

Smile

Laugh

Cheerful

Playful

Cute

Aaron said..if I learned how to stand up for myself in every aspect...I will loose my lin-ness..

Freedome is it that hard to give? Is it that hard to not think about anything?

Finally able to sleep until late..but i kept waking up every hour to check the time..damn..

And I have a feeling that my eyes are having some problems now..i have no idea why..its like when it is night time..my vision will blur off..even though I am wearing my specs..maybe my power went up..but when i wear my contacts in the morning..it is perfectly clear..but it will blur off after some time..then I have to use my eye drops..every morning..my eyes will have tonnes of 'eye shit'..every morning..it is not healthy though..really..someone tell me..whats wrong..should I go and see the eye specialist??

Picture that says it all

Today..I had a fairly simple and yet quick photoshooting with Joyce..It is a really natural shot as no make up nor fancy dressing is required..and what I learn from this shooting is that you can be just yourself and can produce something that is really natural and yet with emotions..

I love this picture ALOT ALOT..somehow.when i look into this picture..I look happy but with a pinch of sadness in it..

This is a very relaxing and calming picture..

I asked him before..Why do you like B&W pictures??

He said..because after you remove all the colors..then only you can see the emotions behind it...

He told me after he processed my picture..he said..pretty models have 5-6 angles..average people have 3-4 angles and I only have 1-2..

I asked him why?? Meaning I am ugly??

He said..People tend to not see your beauty from outside..Maybe for the first time, they will ignore you..but once they know you more they will realize your inner beauty..Only having one to two angle doesnt mean that you are ugly..meaning you are interesting and not boring..

and he told me a dark coffee without sugar theory...

A small kid always drink plain water for his breakfast while his mom drinks darkc offee without sugar everyday. He asked his mom whether he can try his mom's coffee, but his mom doesn't allow him to do so. So one fine day, he decided to make his own dark coffee without sugar and see how does it taste..Once he taste it..he spitted it out and quickly went and drink plain water..then only he realize that the water is sweet with a hint of mint.

So did you get the moral value behind this story??? Think Think and tell me once you get it..haha

Anyway..Joyce is an awesome photog and he has a really deep passion in photography...check out his blog if you want to know more about him...http://joyce-tedoen.com/..until then..au revoir!!

Today

Saw Miss Jasmine in the restaurant today while busy taking down the things to the mock up restaurant.. She said I look extremely tired...Extremely tired..

Tasha said I look very pale today..especially today..

and Wai Keng told me..There is a miracle call make up...i am too lazy to..sigh

OH shoots..recently I keep recieving this kind of feedback from lecturers and my classmates...what is wrong with me??? I am pretty tired I admit that..but dont I look pale ALL the time??? sobs..

Things happen for a reason..Whether you want to accept it or not..it is totally up to you..the person who is making the decision..I agree with what you said..Life is short and we are still young..We should enjoy while we can..I would not be that stubborn anymore..and this time..I really hope that I can do this..I really do..

My theory..

What happened in the club..stays in the club

Jason's Grass Theory..

Once you grow a patch of grass..It will grow into a tree or ALOT of grasses when you come back

Jason's Pyramid Theory

You are the head of the pyramid..You tell two of your best friend.Your two best friend will tell two of their own best friend..voila!! that is your pyramid..

Stressed!!!!! So many things to do..so little time..Entre..Exams..Classes..Crap..just plain crap..can i take it easy like how you guys did???? I hope i can..

I dont want to be a bitch..but sometimes..being a bitch is a must..I can not help it..especially when the time is so little and there are so many things that should be done..if it is like that, then bitch it is..

Glenmarie Photoshooting

As i said before..maybe most of you dont know about it..but I went for a photoshooting..kekekeke..Well..I want to apply for this TVC job online ( but not available anymore..sobs ) and they said I do not have a proper photoshooting..so they gave me this photographer name--- Patrick Foong and ask me to ask him to take picture for me..and so..I did..

It was my really first time having a photoshoot..I was like..shit shit..what should I do what should I do!!! haha...He guided me through the first few shots..ask me to stand here and stand there..then I started thinking..You want smile, emo or fierce??? haha..I kep asking that question throughout the whole shooting..but it was pretty fun..

As I am a HUGE fan of America Next Top Model..I got a few tips from that show..haha..Remember Tyra saying..its all about the eyes...fierce!!! I kept telling myself..eyes eyes eyes and fierce!!!! and it worked!!!! haha..thanks Tyra...

The shot was done at an abandone building at Glenmarie..the building was basically FULL of cracked windows and those unwanted things..haha..luckily I did not fall down or anything..if not it would have destroy my whole shot..haha

Anyway..I could not upload the pictures to my blog..So just go to my facebook and see those pictures if you want to k??I had recieved some pretty positive comments from my friends..thanks EUNICE!!! love ya so so muchie!!! haha..here's the link

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=77920&id=603166663&ref=mf

Heart broken..broken into pieces..because you were not that to share..and just left me into despair..Saw your blog and comments..it hurts..Eventhough I told myself to not care..there are tonnes of lovely girls out there I know..but infront of me??? isnt it too much..I did not say it out or showed it yesterday..but doesnt mean I do not mind..it sucks because I know that I will not hear from you after you left without saying anything..you left..

Dutch and Dutches Fashion Show and Nuffnanf Standout Party

DENG DENG DENG!!!!!! I had a gorgeous day out today..or should I say yesterday because it is almost 3am now!!!! haha...First of all..me Bren and Mich went for this Dutch and Dutches fashion show in the afternoon..

The show was GREAT..and we met some interesting people at the show..and hot models...woohooooo..haha...the pictures are not out yet..will post up soon once i got it..keke..and the fashion show was awesome as the models are ALL hot hot hot and the clothes are really nice..me and Mich was like chattering all the way..saying this model is hot..long hot legs..this top is AWESOME...haha..everything was really great..the drinks were great too..we had free flow of vodka with tonic, vodka with cranberry juice and prosecco..GREAT..but I did not drink much because I dont want to be a cherry tomato in instance..haha..

and then..we head of Nuffnang Standout Party!!!!! HOAAAA!!!! once we reach there..we can see lots of people dressing up for this event..a guy who called Bernard who dress up as a cow..and some guy who dress up like a terrorist..cleopatra..SWAT..SPARTANS!!!!..nurses..name it..haha..too bad we did not dress up..if not it would be sooooo cool..haha

anyway..we managed to see some famous bloggers like Kenny Sia, Pink Pau, KYspeaks, Mel etc..and we manage to take come photos with them...keke..so happy!!!!!! anyway..i have not got hold of the pictures from everyone..sooo..once i got it..will post it up..So lets see some that I grab from Brendan ------

SEE!!! everyone dressed up..

HAHA...thats Kenny Sia and Pink Pau!!!!!!

Anyway..the event was AWESOME...bloggers are really crazy sometimes..and super friendly..met a few people who are really interesting..keke..keep it up nuffnang!!!!!!! will attend more events in the future..haha

Anyway..im really waiting for tomorrow...keke..will update bout it real soon..ciao people..

Road trip to Melaka

Today..being the usual blur me..I thought the class was at 8.30am..So i woke up early and thought I was late for class..mana tau..9.00am class war..maybe for you guys it is just a 30 min diff but HEY!!! for me its like damn long lo..ish..

Went to Melaka with a whole bunch of crazy people..ten of us in total..WHY??because we have a 5 hours break..and we crazy people decided to go for a road trip to Melaka for chicken ball rice and Durian Cendol..haha..So two cars went with Randall and Wayne being the Ah Tau ..haha..one thing interesting is Randall actually brought four walkie talkie along..and HELL man..it is a whole lot of fun as we start talking crap in the walkie talkie..haha..all those ngap ngap ngap language all came out la..talking about this car..this bike..what washing car for RM2 bucks..

They took like one hour + to reach Melaka as we were rushing..Me MNT( Mou ngan tai) lo..haha..I just went and sleep happily hugging my pillow..haha..you guys drive how fast also I tak tau la..the most important thing is safe then can already..^^..When we reach Melaka..first stop ------ chicken ball rice!!!! haha..It was not as nice as i thought it was..but the line was quite long..hmm...one thing I am so curious about..they only gave 5 small rice balls..size like a fish ball..mana cukup for guys la..and additional balls will cost you 50cent each..WTH!!!! Luckily being a small eater..it is fairly enough for me..haha..nothing so special about chicken balls lo..really!!!

Then..after finger food as claimed by Seen Cheow because he was still pretty hungry..we went for Durian Cendol!!!!!! haha...RM5.80..hmmm..I guess it is alright for a KL price..but Melaka..but once you put the cendol in your mouth..WAH!!!! you smell durian wei!!! the smell was damn strong..haha..I can not finish it actually because it is kinda ZAI for me..but Seen Cheow this fella ar..he tapau another one and ate it in the car..haha..crazy durian fan...As claimed by someone in Wayne's car..someone actually farted in the car and smell of durian..hahah...

Then when we are coming back from Melaka..because it was pretty late and stuffs...Walkie Talkie came in la..haha..but seriously..we did met an accident on out way back and the road was quite jam due to Agong's Birthday tomorrow..So it is not an excuse people...haha

KAJANG!!! when we saw the signboard kajang..DAH LA..haha..start la asking whether want to go and eat Kajang Satay or not..haha..after a round of discussion in the walkie talkie..we decided to go and eat satay in Kajang..since lou ye is the only one staying there..ofcourse we will go and kacau him..haha..ordered 80 chicken satay and 40 beef satay..crazily ALOT lo..ish..but they were damn hungry because they did not eat much in Melaka..GUYS mar..people like me???how can..feelling DAMN bloated already..haha..

Being the usual piggy me..I LOVE to sleep in car..seriously..especially after eating..the i heard ah foo said..lin ar..damn easy to feed one..you just need to buy her a bed...after she wake up..feed her keropok..then she will sleep again..then after that feed her milk..then she will sleep again..haha..and thanks to Randall who KEEPS disturbing me while sleeping..DAMN..haha..dah la know i like to sleep..still wanna kacau..haha

Anyway..the whole trip was fun and interesting! but kinda tired though..haha..nevermind...atleast I was happy and had fun..life is short..enjoy it while you can right???Yes..I am blur and slow at most of the time..but hey..thats me..I can hardly change that..Remember that..